My alternative life

With these words, without waiting for me to make any feeble explanation, Hong Lei suddenly sat on my leg, held my head, and printed her flaming red lips on my cheek, forehead, ears, and finally on my mouth.

Hong Lei's action is very astringent, but extremely determined and fearless.

She hugged me and tried her best to kiss me, as if this kiss would be the last parting ceremony between us.

And she and I, will turn this page from now on, no longer have any emotional entanglement

I'm numb, I don't know if I'm catering to her. I'm just in a sad mood.

For a long time, the lips are separated.

Hong Lei is panting and weeping. She is laughing.

"Jiang Feng, I'll go first. Take this paper bag and study Xiang Ming's case when you have time I won't go abroad for the time being. At least I won't leave you when your brother-in-law's business is not settled! "

Seeing that I wanted to speak, Hong Lei put her slender jade finger on my lips and said, "brother, you are older than me for a few days. I'll call you brother later. You Don't say anything. I deserve what I've done. Hong Lei is willing to do it

My consciousness, my ruthlessness, all my depressed grievances, finally with her words can no longer stick.

Suddenly, I hold Hong Lei in my arms.

She tugged at her dress and murmured, "do you want me? You want to establish that relationship with me, right? OK, I will. I'll... "

She struggled, struggling to wriggle.

But some part of me wakes up with Hong Lei's action and her plumpness rubbing on my leg.

My hand is about to enter Hong Lei's pride. She suddenly stops and doesn't move any more.

"It's up to you If you want me, I I'll give it to you. I'd like to... "

Her voice has no warmth and joy, only brings out bleak and desolate.

I stopped and finally burst into tears.

I'm so special. I'm not human!

What is this? Is it to compensate her, or is it because of men's shameful possessiveness?

I don't know. Maybe I'm a lecher in my heart.

However, I know very well that if I want Hong Lei, we will never have the kind of true love for each other.

Mixed into the feelings of men and women, will never be pure, simple.

It may be more tender, more intense or more unforgettable, but at the same time, it is easier to hurt each other.

I picked her up, helped her put her clothes in order, and finally said, "Hong Lei, it's my Jiang Feng who is not good, I I'm sorry

"Brother, you said that again. Oh, you are such a fool. I I'd rather you wanted me now! "

Hong Lei gently stroked my cheek. "You know, a woman's body is always for a man. Why can't I give it to my favorite and most beloved? You What a fool

"Yes, I'm stupid No, I'm not... "

I was incoherent and didn't know what I was talking about.

Consciousness, then solidified in the air, seems to lose the function of flowing in the mind.

When the door closed, I shivered and understood that Hong Lei had gone.

Yes, she left, just left the hotel, but did not let go of my brother-in-law's business.

What I don't understand is that this time, after she expressed her deepest thoughts, did Hong Lei and I reach an agreement and accept some results?

I don't think it's that simple.

Some hate themselves, why don't you die and leave a gap for yourself?

Am I still looking forward to something? For example, looking forward to one day Hong Lei and I will really be together?

But

My mind is in a mess. I don't know what I am in this state or mood for!

How can I be like this?

How can I become such a person, Jiang Feng? A scum playing with women's emotions?

I don't know, I don't know what I am. Maybe I have to give an explanation. That is, if I'm not the restless master in my heart, I'm hurt too much by Lin Fen and LAN LAN, so that my mentality is distorted

Lighting a cigarette, I silently recall Hong Lei's words.

I always feel that her definition of me is not completely right, but I can't find out what she said wrong.

Indeed, for Hao Ru and xiao'e's sister-in-law, the responsibility I want to bear seems to be only the help in reality, while for Mo Zhiwu, LAN LAN, Hong Lei and Chen Qian, I can't help them too much in reality, but emotionally, I'm avoiding and don't want to take those so-called responsibilities!

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I'm not in the mood to read the files that Hong Lei brought me about my brother-in-law's case. I'm sitting at the head of the bed, thinking nothing, and I'm in a state of apathy and bleakness.In the end, I was summoned back to reality by a harsh ring of my mobile phone. I picked it up and found that it was a call that I didn't expect.

Han Yang, the guy who has been chasing Lan Lan, but she has to help me.

I answer, voice politeness and points, "Han Yang big brother, hello."

"Jiang Feng, what do you mean by stepping on a horse? What did you do to Xiaolan? Why does she have that attitude towards me? Why is she in such a bad state? "

I guess Han Yang must be looking for me because of LAN LAN, but unexpectedly, his tone is so fierce, it seems that if I stand in front of him now, Ya will eat me alive!

Because of Hong Lei, I was in a bad mood. Han Yang's censure directly hit the muzzle of the gun.

I'm like an angry African lion, yelling at the location of the phone's microphone.

"Han Yang, you're very broad-minded. When is it your turn to tell me about Jiang Feng? Also, you ask me what happened to LAN LAN, please, you'd better ask her, ask her what she did to me! Finally, I would like to advise you, who do you think you are? Savior or Jesus Christ? Tell you, I Jiang Feng paralyzed do not pee you ya

With that, I threw my cell phone on the carpet of the hotel room, put on a piece of clothes, and strode out of the door. The quality of my cell phone was so good that it was unbelievable. Han Yang's hysterical voice was constantly denounced

Outside, it's another sunny day.

But my mood is freezing!

Alone in the streets of Xijing, I walk aimlessly in this world, I don't know where is my way back.

I really want to go back to the small county where I was born and raised. I want to fall asleep in the warm arms of my parents. I want to be able to smile and sleep every night I dream

But I can't, I can't face the worried faces of my parents, sister and little nephew.

The world is so big, I want to see

Because, where I am, there is no hiding.