My alternative life

I didn't contradict her and went on, "right Maybe I think wrong, you are proud, so your psychology will not be so dark However, I can be sure that when I made the choice of taking you to the hotel for a room, your mood was completely confused! Such mentality, such environment, such dark night Plus I shouldn't have teased you out of my mouth So, you're crazy. You don't know what you want to do. Why do you say that to me? "

I pulled out my hand to wipe away the tears that had already covered her face, but at the last moment I stopped and handed her some face tissues instead.

"Wipe it..."

Twist out the cigarette end in the ashtray, and I said, "Yuming, do you know? Let me ask that you should not be the real appeal of your heart, you should not do so, so request I believe that once something happens between you and me, you will regret it later! For his own rashness, but also for your husband's words finally come true, so that you can never lift your head in front of him

She did not speak, but stubbornly held my hand in her arms again.

Perhaps, she can only let herself not so quickly deny the determination to cheat in this way.

I sighed and drew back my hand again.

"Yuming, after tonight, I may be your A very special friend, in fact, I am also very happy to help you, to help you free from the current struggle, to find their own happiness in life

I gently stroked her hair because it was easier to calm her than to make her hold my arm.

"Yuming, I don't think that only by having some super friendly behavior with you can your life be improved. If you think about it, that kind of thing is always despised by the society! Yes, I Jiangfeng is not pedantic, my life is not only a woman, and even Well, it's even chaotic. But, since I've been like this, why do I have to let you fall in with me? Is it just to satisfy some of my irresistible desires as a man? "

"Jiang Feng..." She called me, but didn't follow.

"Yuming, in fact, if that really happens between you and me, maybe the next morning, when you wake up, you will be too late to regret that you can't kill me and yourself..."

"No, I won't..."

"Listen to me first! Yuming, maybe you won't, maybe you have been very disappointed with him! But what about me? What do I think, what do I think of myself? I will feel that Jiang Feng is a villain who takes advantage of others' danger thoroughly! I took your body, but I patted my ass and left. I can't give you any promise... "

"I don't need it!"

Unexpectedly, the more I said that, the more Ma Yuming insisted on it. On the contrary, she was more determined than just now!

Even she stood up and sat down next to me, reached out and hugged my waist, "no, Jiang Feng, I don't need you to give me any commitment, you don't have to worry that I will pester you, I just want you, just today, just once..."

I was greatly surprised by her attitude.

Am I right? Is my analysis wrong from the beginning?

"Yuming, listen to me..."

It's her soft lips that greet me Yuming suddenly hugs me and turns over to the bed.

"No way!"

I pressed her arm firmly, but I felt that her body became extremely hot, like a fever.

Ma Yuming wriggled, "Jiang Feng, I know what you said is right, but I don't want to hear it. I really don't want to hear it. You want me Please

My brow frowns tightly, Ma Yuming's performance is too abnormal!

At this moment, I even thought that she was drugged, and now the drug attack makes her feeling difficult.

Urging Nei Chi, two Qi dragons rushed into her body from her wrist. My voice was very light, but very firm. "Yuming, tell me, why is this abnormal today? If you trust me, please don't hide it, will you? I don't want to be a tool for you to vent your desires. "

My words are very strange, because this way of speaking is supposed to be a woman's way of speaking to a man, but now it's good, not only completely reversed, but also I have to control each other. It seems that if I don't do this, I will be forced by a beautiful woman.

I don't know if it's my words that work, or if I input the internal breathing of the other person's body to produce the effect. After struggling for a few minutes, Ma Yuming finally stops moving, and her body is like falling apart on the bed.

She didn't respond to me, and she didn't say anything more. She just stared at the ceiling with empty eyes, with a look of despair.

I slowly released my hand and lay side by side with her, gasping for breath.

Just now the fighting time is not long, but it makes me feel very tired I didn't expect that a woman's strength could be as strong as this when she was crazy.

A small hand gently rub on my face, eyes, eyebrows, nose, lips

"Alas ~ ~"

MA Yuming finally sighed, "Jiang Feng, do you really not know why I am like this? If I tell you, I really want you, from the bottom of my heart, to be a real woman Do you understand? "This sentence, immediately solved the puzzle that troubled my heart for a long time, I understand.

Ma Yuming's attitude shows two things. First, she has already been extremely disappointed in her marriage. Maybe she has secretly made up her mind to get rid of it completely. Second, her husband said on the phone, I can't do it, so you ask a wild man to put a green hat on me It seems to be another important factor leading to her desperation.

Since she doesn't want marriage, and since she never knows what it's like to be happy, why should she keep a clean body for a man who is already extremely disgusted by herself and can humiliate her wantonly?

The mountains are heavy and the waters are full of doubts and there is no way to go. At a special moment, I appeared in front of Ma Yuming. It became a way for her to survive in her desperate situation and contributed to her determination to break through the cocoon.

However, although I understand, I still can't accept it.

The reason is very simple. I admit that Ma Yuming has incomparable attraction for any man, but I don't love her.

Love, maybe do, regardless of secular ideas and ethics.

But if I don't love her, I don't want to disobey my heart. Besides, her married status is still an insurmountable barrier for me.

It's a knot that can untie her but also tie me.

Finally, I picked up her pretty face and gently said a poem that I had tampered with in the tenderness of her backhand touching the back of my hand, "the furthest distance in the world is not life and death, but you lie beside me, but I can't tell you I love you! Yuming, when you are free, when I feel like you or even fall in love with you, I will, I will want you