My beautiful boss and I

"What are you doing?" She looked at me.

I didn't speak. I opened the bag. There were five small bags of methamphetamine in the bag. It seems that she has a lot of private goods.

I directly took out five bags of methamphetamine and looked at her: "you are so poor, where do you get these things?"

"I bought a lot of them before, but the rest There are only a few bags left. They are all gone. " She said.

I wasn't talking. I went straight into the bathroom.

"Ah - what are you doing..." She got up and followed me closely.

I blocked her with my body, tore open the small bag, poured the methamphetamine directly into the toilet, then pressed the water switch, and the water washed away the methamphetamine.

"You are crazy It's more precious than gold, you're crazy -- "she cried, hitting me hard on the back.

I quickly turned around, and then out of the bathroom, sitting on the sofa.

She followed and continued to yell at me, as if I had taken her life.

"Shut up --" I yelled.

She seemed to be frightened by me, stopped and looked at me.

"It's good for you to take drugs all day and make yourself different, isn't it?" I said.

"I have nothing now, I rely on this thing to support, without this, my whole person will collapse, this is my life support, do you know?" She argued.

"Support? Are you going to rely on this for your life? You don't want to be a ghost for the rest of your life? Taking drugs all day, do you know that your life will soon end? " I said.

"I know So what? Anyway, I can't do without this Without it, I can't live a day. With it, I can at least continue my life Since I lost Li Shun and my children, I've been a ghost for a long time Her voice was sad and sad.

I was stunned and looked at her.

"It's good. If I slip on it, I can forget all the troubles in the world and enter the paradise without sorrow and pain, but I can pass the hard time in numbness and intoxication." She murmured again.

"But when you come to Xinghai, don't you want to find him? Since you want to find him, it means that you have not completely extinguished your thoughts in your heart, your life fire has not been completely extinguished, your heart still has hope and expectation, and you still have the desire for light in the dark. "

I said:" think about it for yourself, if you really want to yearn for light, hope to live in the sun, and recover your body and soul Sue, then, can you keep on taking methamphetamine? Also, if you want to see him, if one day you see him, he sees that you have become a drug addict, will he still like you? Will I accept you?

"And if If the child who was abandoned one day sees you and his mother, and knows that his mother is like this, and even takes drugs and skates all day, how much harm will the child suffer? Do you have the face to face your child? "

"Child? My child? " Her body suddenly trembled and cried out, then shed tears, choked and said: "yes, what you said is right, what you said is reasonable, but I know my child is no longer in this world, she was thrown into the dustbin on that snowy night, she has no chance of survival

"Although you are hypothetical, I still feel a great shock in my heart. Yes, if my child still lives in this world, how nice I will do anything for my child. I will use my life to make up for what I owe her. However, all this is if the past will never come back and the lost life will never reappear. "

I clenched my lips tightly. I knew I couldn't tell her about Xiaoxue at this time. Absolutely not.

She continued: "yes, yes, if he saw me and knew I was taking drugs, he would not accept that I like me He will hate me for taking drugs Although he likes to play, but he is to put an end to drug abuse, he is abhorrent of drug users

Zhang Mei is obviously talking about the former Li Shun. She will not know that Li Shun has degenerated into a drug addict like her.

"I know he will hate me taking drugs, but I I can't get rid of drugs now. My bones and blood have been soaked with drugs. I can't get rid of the dependence on drugs from the spirit to the body. Without drugs, I can't live a day. I will go crazy. " She said.

"As long as you still have expectations for your future, as long as your desire for life still exists, as long as you want to see the sunshine in your life, as long as you want to live in the sunshine, as long as you are not willing to give up the only missing in your life, then you can have a chance to live again, have a healthy body and spirit again, and get rid of drugs." I said.

She wry smile: "this is obviously impossible, I have been unable to extricate myself for a long time, I have thought many times not to go skating, but every time I can't beat myself There is a devil in my mind, a devil created by drugs. This is my heart devil. It has been lurking in my body. I can't eliminate it, I can't control it, and I can't control myself"In fact, I know that if I can really see him, he will hate me. But I don't regret it. As long as I can see him, even if I die right away, it's worth it If a person like me dies, he will go to hell. My child is in heaven. I have no face to see her in heaven. "

I thought about it and said, "there are many ifs in life. Some IFS will not be realized, but some IFS can be realized."

She said, "I know I know that if there is only if, I will never see And some if, perhaps I will see, but see the moment, perhaps is the end of my life But even at the end of my life, I'm willing to work hard for that moment. "

I know what she's referring to, just her children and Li Shun.

After a moment's silence, she lit a cigarette, sat on the sofa and looked at me. She calmed down a little: "it seems that you are really a good person However, do you know that if you throw away my last ice, you will kill my life. Without this, my life will soon end. Maybe, I can't wait to see him. "

I said, "without drugs, you will live the same, and you will live better."

"You..." She looked at me.

"If you want to see him, if I know his whereabouts, if he can see you, if you want to see him like a normal person, if you want to live with dignity in the future, then you must give up drugs and get rid of drug dependence." I said.

"But I... " She was languishing for words.

"If you listen to my arrangement, I will try my best to help you find out his whereabouts. If you insist on taking drugs, then you will never see him..." I said decisively.

"What are you going to do with me?" She looked up at me.

"Take a bath and have a good sleep tonight Tomorrow, I will come to see you... " I said, "then, I'll arrange your next step."

"But I'm not sleepy at all. I can't get myself to sleep." She said.

"If you're not sleepy, just sit here and watch TV, but you can't walk out of this hotel." I said.

"How do you plan my next step?" She said.

"You'll know then." I said.

"You Is it really for my good? " She said.

"I didn't hurt you anyway!" I said.

"You Why are you so nice to me? Do you just think you're his friend? " She said.

"Did I say it was his friend?" I said.

"But you didn't say it was his enemy. The people he was dealing with were either friends or enemies. I understand that." He murmured.

"Whatever you think, but you have to believe that I won't hurt you. Everything I do is for you." I said.

"Well, it seems that I still have to believe you. It seems that I really have no other choice I can see that you are a gentleman. Although I know you are a Taoist, there are also many righteous gentlemen in the Taoist. " She said.

I took a wad of money from my wallet and put it on the coffee table: "I suggest you take a sauna in the bath center of the hotel."

I know that sweating after skating is a good way to detoxify. Sauna can sweat a lot.

She seemed to understand me and nodded: "OK, then I'll go to the sauna for detoxification I took the money, but I haven't returned it to you at present, including the money for your hotel. "

I looked at her and said slowly, "remember, don't mention money in front of me Whatever I do for you, no matter how much money I spend, don't depend on me. You don't need to pay back the money Do you understand? "

She looked at me vaguely: "are you living Lei Feng?"

I said, "no!"

"Are you going to let him pay back the money in the future?" She added.

"You don't have to worry about that." I said.

She took a puff of her cigarette and laughed: "well, since you say so, I don't care whether it's Lei Feng or not, whether it's asking him to pay back the money, I'll accept your kindness with peace of mind If you want to be Lei Feng, I'll help you. If you want him to pay back the money in the future, I'll owe you first. "

"You can think that way." I said.

"In fact, I still can't understand why you should treat me so well." She said.

I didn't speak. I stood up.

"Besides, I can't understand why I trust you so easily!" She said, and stood up.

I look at her deeply, at the woman who once made Li Shun change his fate, and at Xiaoxue's mother. I feel very sad, even a little melancholy

There is a saying in my mind: ask what is love in the world, and let people live and die together

She was a little disturbed by my eyesWith a deep sigh in my heart, I said to her, "I'll go first."

"Can I have your phone number?" She said one.

I look back at her.