My Life As Daughter-in-law

On the lawn, a group of children are playing. They danced and laughed, carefree. Children are always happy, as if they live in heaven forever, without sorrow or sadness.

The sky is bright, even the grass is green and vivid. The flowers in the garden are gorgeous, red, yellow, purple and thick, as if they are going to drip water, which makes people itch.

Both adults and children will feel very happy to see such a beautiful scenery, because it is the color of life and the symbol of fresh life.

The children chased each other, and the adults smiled and watched. Everything was so beautiful and harmonious.

"What a fine day! What a beautiful view! " Countless people sighed.

Who doesn't like it except

I stood in front of the ward window, numbly looking at all this beautiful, with no half joy in my heart.

All happiness and happiness are theirs and have nothing to do with me.

I thought I would be sad and angry, but I didn't. I just feel a blank in my mind and empty in my heart. There is no emotion or feeling.

I'm really not sad, not sad. I just couldn't eat and sleep. I just looked at everything around me with empty and dry eyes and didn't dare to close my eyes.

Because I'm waiting for someone. I'm waiting for Xiao Yao to come back. I don't believe he has left me. I always think he will come back.

I unswervingly stick to this view. Nurses, doctors, including Chen Lu, no one can persuade me.

"If month, you can't go on like this!" With red eyes, Chen Lutong looked at me anxiously and said, "you have just given birth to a child and your body is still very weak. If you always don't eat or drink, you will break down sooner or later! Even if I beg you, eat some for the sake of the children! " At last, she choked, but she still didn't dare to cry out loud.

I turned my head numbly, looked into her eyes and said, "I'll wait for Xiao Yao to come back. If you don't let me see him, I'll wait for him to see me."

Chen Lu burst into tears, hugged me and cried, "ruoyue, I beg you! Stop talking! Don't say that again! Sobbing... "

I lowered my head and asked softly, "why?" in fact, I know why.

Chen Lu still continued to cry. I was not in a hurry. I just stood quietly and let her hold me and cry.

"Because he's dead! He won't come back! " Chen Lu shouted at me as if she couldn't stand it.

I shook my head indifferently and said, "No. You're lying to me. If he really left, why don't you let me see him. You stopped me because he was still alive. He didn't go, but he was afraid to see me. By the way, yes, he just didn't dare to see me because I was angry the other day. When he thinks about it, he will come back and apologize to me, and then... Then I will say in front of him, "I forgive you."

"Stop talking!" Chen Lu stopped me and didn't want me to go on.

But it was no use. I said silly words to myself: "when he comes back, I will tell him that I am willing to marry him, be his wife and let my children call him father. Then, we can support this newborn baby together. Then the three of us are together and will never be separated. "

"Stop talking!" Chen Lu finally broke out. She shook my body and shouted hysterically, "he's dead! Xiao Yao, he's dead! Stop daydreaming! He won't come back. He'll never come back! His body has long been cold and hard. He can't speak or laugh anymore! He can't come. "

"No!" Finally, I couldn't continue pretending that nothing had happened. I grabbed Chen Lu's arm, red eyes and shouted fiercely, "no! You're bullshit! You're talking nonsense! "

Then I rushed to the door. I want to see him. No matter what he looks like, I want to see him.

Even if he is really like what Chen Lu said, his body has already become stiff and cold, I will go to see him for the last time!

As soon as she reached the door, Chen Lu hugged me behind me and didn't let me move. I pulled my hoarse voice and shouted, "let go of me! Let me go! Let me go! Ah - you let me go! "

"Nurse! doctor! Come on! " Chen Lu shouted.

Soon, the doctor came with some nurses.

I watched in despair as these hateful people surrounded me from all directions and dragged me back to the hospital bed.

I kept begging and crying, "please! I want to go out and see him last. I'll never see him again if it's late! I'll never see him again! Ah -- "

But all the struggles are useless.

I watched them sedate me, and then my eyelids became heavier and heavier. Gradually, I lost my strength and fell into a deep sleep.

I don't know how long it took. It felt like a century. I gradually woke up from my confusion.

I feel like something weighing a kilo is pressing on my eyelids, but my subconscious mind tells me to wake up no matter how difficult it is.

So I opened my eyes, a beam of light shot into my eyes, some tingling, and I immediately closed my eyes again. Try opening it again, then closing it, several times. It took me a long time to get used to the lights in the ward. Looking out of the window, I found that it was already night.

The faint moonlight lit up the sky in the window, and the cool wind sent bursts of coolness.

I feel the tender touch of the wind, as if I have returned to the arms of my long departed mother, sweet and warm.

"Ruoyue! You're awake! " Chen Lu's surprised voice came.

She walked quickly to the bedside, sat down, touched my forehead and felt my temperature: "the fever has finally subsided. You scared the hell out of me! "

She held me like a lost baby. I put my chin on her shoulder and opened my mouth to speak. Only then did I find that my voice was hoarse: "I have a fever."

"Yes!" She let go of me, scolded and looked at me painfully, "after you took a sedative that day, you started to have a fever in the evening. It burned one day and one night. Today is the second day."

"It was the next day. The next day! " I suddenly woke up and remembered Xiao Yao.

I hurriedly pushed Chen Lu away, got out of bed, put on my shoes and wanted to go out.

"Where are you going?" Chen Lu hurriedly grabbed me and asked in a hurry.

"I'm going to find Xiao Yao. I'm going to be late. Really, I'm going to be late soon. I won't say it. It's too late. I'm leaving! " I answered more anxiously than she did.

Unexpectedly, she let me go and didn't stop me like last time.

I ran to the door and found several people in police uniforms standing at the door.

When they saw me, they came towards me without surprise. I stood there foolishly, and I guessed their identity.

Suddenly, a glimmer of hope rose from the bottom of my heart. Now I need someone to support me and tell me that Xiao Yao is not dead. He is still alive in this world.

I stood there honestly to meet them, as if to meet hope and death.

With a sad expression, they came to me, and then opened their mouth to release an evil beast, waving their teeth and claws to devour me: "I'm sorry, we feel very sad about Xiao Yao's death. I hope you can save your sorrow! "

I suddenly felt that the sky had fallen, and my throat was blocked by thick sadness. I couldn't say a word.

I want to tell them, don't say it, don't say it. Unfortunately, I can only keep silent, so I pray to them in my heart.

But they still refused to let me go: "Xiao Yao, we have cremated his body. Now we'll give him back to you. "

Then they handed me a box that they didn't know what was in it, but I didn't take it.

"Chen Lu, what's this? How dark is this box? What's in it?" I looked at Chen Lu who came out and asked in confusion.

Chen Lu didn't answer. She wept, reached for it and held it tightly.

"Xiao Yao's ashes have been handed over to you, and our task has been completed." The people in front of me seemed relieved.

Then he said, "he died on duty. He is a great martyr and should be buried in the martyr cemetery. Xiao Yao is a good policeman, an outstanding student of our police academy and an example for all the students of our police academy! We are proud of him! "

I finally couldn't help crying loudly, like a homeless child. Indeed, I have been homeless. Since the disappearance of Wen Liuguang, Xiao Yao is my only relative. Now even he has gone, and my home no longer exists.

I cried and robbed Xiao Yao in Chen Lu's arms. I held him as if I were holding a lost treasure. I held him as if I were holding my own child. I hold him, as if holding my own world!

My whole world is in my arms, but I feel heartbreaking pain.

"Ah - ah -" I cried, unable to speak or call out his name. So simple two words, Xiao Yao, I can't shout out. I can only repeat this word, as if it represents all my heart.

"Don't do this, ruoyue. Sobbing... "Chen Lu was already sobbing.

I didn't know when those people left or when I came back to the room. Because I don't care at all.

Hoarse voice, I trembled in a slightly imperceptible voice and said, "Xiao Yao, you're finally back."

With trembling fingers, I stroked the complicated and ancient patterns on the box again and again, gorgeous and ghostly.

Is Xiao Yao in it? But Xiao Yao is so tall. Can this small box really hold him

He has such a sunny face, such lofty aspirations, compassion, kindness and optimism... Can these be contained in this small box

No one answered me, I can only look at it in a daze. With eyes again and again balk at it.

"Ruoyue, go to sleep. You're tired. " Chen Lu advised me.

Without looking up, I replied, "you go. I'll sleep in a minute. "

Chen Lu didn't persuade again, because she knew it was useless to persuade again.

When everyone left, I sat on the bed, holding Xiao Yao's ashes. Feeling the cold of the box, I really felt that he had left me.

Only now can I accept the cruel fact that he has left.

I pay attention to the official account number. I receive free money every day.