Planned Love

Subconsciously, I also know that Zai Zai is in my arms. I try my best to keep myself in balance. However, my body has been overdrawn due to high-intensity work for a period of time. I can't help but fall down. I feel that someone has carried him from my arms, and then I fell heavily on the ground

When I woke up again, it was already dark. I was lying in my room, the curtain had not been closed, the white curtain fluttered gently with the wind, the dim yellow bedside lamp in the room scattered a faint halo, my head was still dull pain, and my mouth was slightly bitter.

I was so thirsty that I tried to call "Aunt Liu", but no one answered me. So I got out of bed and went to the living room.

There was a strong smell of soup in the living room. With the lamp on in the kitchen, I dragged my slippers to the door of the kitchen, pushed the door open and called out, "Aunt Liu."

Unexpectedly, the person standing in the kitchen is not Aunt Liu, but Sheng Yun.

He was wearing my apron, standing in the kitchen with a pot of soup, I called, he turned his head and looked at me, immediately came over, helped me and said: "how did you get up? Are you feeling better? "

"Where are Aunt Liu and Zai Zai Zai?" I couldn't help asking.

"When Zai Zai sleeps, Aunt Liu is not feeling well. I told her to have a rest earlier. I'm cooking medicine for you He sat on the sofa and asked me to sit quietly on the sofa.

When he wanted to squat down to take off my shoes for me, I quickly stopped him: "no, I'll do it myself."

I quickly put off my slippers, lying on the sofa, said to him faintly: "would you please pour me a glass of water? It's like a fire in my throat. It's very dry

"Good." He quickly poured me a cup of warm water, and then handed it to my mouth. He wanted to feed me, but I insisted on taking the cup and drinking it myself.

Feeling the indifference of my behavior, he sat back on the other side and asked me, "what are you doing recently? According to Aunt Liu, you've been working overtime for a long time. You've overdrawn. You had a low fever just now. I gave you medicine. Are you feeling better now? "

"My head is still a little dizzy, my mouth is bitter and I feel like vomiting." I'll tell you the truth.

Hearing this, he came over nervously, put his hand to my head and said, "it's not hot, or take your temperature again? You fainted just now, which scared Aunt Liu and me

"Is Zai Zai OK? I remember holding him in my hand when I fainted When I heard him say this, I couldn't help but think of the situation before I fainted, so I asked in a hurry.

"It's OK. I've got him. Because I caught you, I didn't hold you. Did you fall on the ground and your hands hurt? " With that, he took my arm and pinched it.

When he looked down, I saw the dark circles around his eyes. The tiredness on his face made me feel unbearable. But I pushed his hand away.

I said faintly, "I'm ok. It's so late at night, you can sleep in the guest room. I still have some pain in my head. I'll go back to my room and go to bed first

"Go ahead and I'll help you cook the medicine. The doctor said that this medicine is precious, and it will take a long time to cook the medicine. Maybe it will be tomorrow morning. You go to bed first. When the medicine is ready, I'll bring it up for you Sheng Yun said to me.

"No, I'll have a sleep and I'll be fine tomorrow. You should rest early. " I heard him say that, so I said.

"Shubei, let me do more for you, will you?" He suddenly raised his head and looked at me solemnly. Maybe this lonely night finally made him have the desire to pour out. Suddenly, his words became soft, "I miss you, really want to."

I suddenly Zheng for a moment, I looked at his affectionate eyes, I was afraid to look down again, I would be deeply trapped. So I quickly moved away from my eyes and said faintly, "I know. Go to sleep. It doesn't matter if you don't take the medicine. I know my body in my mind. "

"You see, that's all?" His voice suddenly became cold. He pulled my head, forced me to look him in the eye, and asked me slowly, "Shubei, what's the matter with you now?"

"I'm tired. I'll go back to my room and have a rest." I'm afraid that if I go on like this, I'll still go back to the past. So I pushed his hand away and quickly stood up.

Xu is I one after another of indifference hurt him, he also stood up, I feel his body sent out bursts of cold.

I turned around and went to the bedroom. I heard a long sigh behind me. Then he said softly, "Xu Shubei, it seems It's me who makes love. "

I stopped, did not look back, calmly said: "for me, some of the situation, has changed."

"Xu Shubei, you can really do it, can you?" He growled behind me, his voice tangled.

"I can do it." I gently replied, my heart hurt hard.

"Good!" I heard him bite his teeth and spit out a word.

At that moment, I wanted to turn around and dive into his arms and tell him, no, I can do it.

But I have to force myself, I have to do it. I know that once my heart is soft, everything will return to the past. But I don't want to, I would rather carry a hard shell to continue to move forward, also do not want to turn into a small woman into his soft arms at such a critical time.What I need now is not to be protected, but to constantly arm myself and strengthen myself. That way, I won't give up halfway again.

If you want to succeed, you have to let go of a lot. Women are more emotional than men, so I have to force myself to be rational. Don't be dazzled by love before you take down Xu.

"Sheng Yun, I'm sorry, please give me some more time..." I said to him silently in my heart, but it was a cold and resolute back figure that remained in him.

I know he's still behind me, but I'm not going back. Because I'm afraid that once I look back, I'll break all my will in an instant. Sheng Yun, he is hidden in the soft rib of my chest. I must hide him deeply, then put on my armor and continue to fight like a man in the treacherous market.

"Xu Shubei, you can do it, so can I After a long time, he said that again.

I know, at that moment, he must have made up his mind.

"Good." I clenched my fist and shivered, but I still vomited such a word.

I seem to hear his heart break.

He broke down and hit the coffee table with a fist, which made a dull sound, which made my heart jump suddenly.

"In your heart, I'm so unimportant. You want me, you want your career, but you can leave me alone and leave me alone! Even Tai Ziqian can be by your side, but I, you have been forcing me to stay away He cried out in agony.

My heart stabbed hard again, but the stubborn heart, but more a point.

I think our love is like a fierce tug of war, at this time I have stood on another mountain, we no longer walk side by side, we can only parallel forward, and then reach out to each other, will only make each other hard.

Now, it's time to say goodbye, and even more so. I can't hesitate, I can't retreat, I can only break my strength and move on.

This love, I'm afraid, will be totally failed. It's really hard for me. But I don't want to leave a way for myself.

I used to choose to get on his boat and let him help me cross the river, but he failed me; now I have steered by myself, and I am gritting my teeth in the wind and rain. Love will not be my oars, but a net that will trap me. I must tear it apart.

The heart is really painful, but words to the mouth, it is more serious determination: "yes, because love is not a necessity, but everything else is. I gave birth to Zai Zai, and I am responsible to him; without career, I have no meaning to live; but Tai Ziqian, without him, I have no today! "

I know this sentence is very heavy. He must be very hurt. But I said it.

"You're still blaming me! You're still blaming me for not helping you bring down the Xu family, are you? " He gave a low roar, and in a very low voice he said angrily, "how do you know I'm not helping you? How do you know if I want to help you? I always don't like to say before doing, I think you understand me! I thought you would understand me! But I was wrong, I was completely wrong! Xu Shubei, now I know that I am so worthless in your eyes

I can't help but turn back, see his red eyes in the light, he subconsciously back two steps, looking at me, eyes full of strange.

"If I could go back and choose again, I would rather not meet you! Xu Shubei, I thought you were honey, but I didn't expect that you were arsenic. " The expression on his face was tangled and painful. When he said this, two lines of tears ran down his cheek.

Sheng Yun, he cried

At that moment, I was heartbroken.

I feel that all the principles I hold fast to in my heart were suddenly broken at that moment. The love thing in my heart was awakened again. The medicine pot in the kitchen was still puffing out suddenly. The strong smell of medicine floated out of the kitchen. I subconsciously wanted to step forward.

But he stepped back two steps.

"Sheng Yun, I..." I looked at him fondly, when he shed tears that moment, my eyes also moist.

He looked at me so coldly, and the tear marks on his face were still there. He did not even wipe it with his hand. He looked at me and said coldly, "Xu Shubei, I overestimated my position in your heart and underestimated your heartlessness. It turns out that I saw you right from the beginning. You ambitious woman, if you only have interests in your eyes, why do you provoke me? Why bother to make me fall in love with you

"I..." I was speechless, tears gushed out of my eyes, I wanted to explain, I wanted to say what I wanted to say. But I can't do it. I can't say a word.

Thousands of words, to the mouth only one sentence: "sorry, you read the wrong person."

I know that my last stubbornness will completely destroy his last thought of me, but I still insist on doing so.

"Xu Shubei, I hate you!" He looked me straight in the eye, burning with hate. But in those eyes with hatred, two lines of clear tears were squeezed out. The tears seemed to flow into my heart blood. I felt that my whole body could not stop cooling, and it was very cold

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