What to Do if You Look Too Fierce

These entanglements and pains completely burst out at the moment when Aoki Si and her drew a clear line.

She couldn't help but picked up the wooden knife and wandered in the dark alley at night again.

She successfully used her seemingly weak figure to attract the attention of the so-called "sex monster" at night, just like she did in junior high school.

When those well-dressed men stared at him with eyes full of ugly desires, and followed him to a remote alley, Saeko Busujima raised the wooden knife again.

This time, she was more skilled than when she was in junior high school.

Cut, but not maim.

Painful, but not fatal.

Once, twice, three times.

Saeko Busujima couldn't even remember exactly how many people she made lay in the alley and wailed in pain on her craziest day a few days ago.

It was because of some ugly and despicable reasons that those people followed behind and intended to commit violence, so after being maimed by her, they didn't have any trouble to come to their door.

Of course, this also has something to do with her paying attention to hiding herself.

During those nights, Saeko Busujima felt an unparalleled sense of satisfaction and exhilaration.

Every time she saw those men lying on the ground begging for mercy, with blood spilled all over the ground, she felt that her past sadness and grief had disappeared.

however……

When one night passed and she came home and woke up, Saeko Busujima finally realized what she had done.

She raised the wooden knife in despair, trying to abolish her sword-holding hand with her own hands.

She thought that doing so would make her stop.When I lose the ability to be violent, maybe I won't have such an uncontrollable violent impulse anymore.

And if there is no such impulse, even if you can no longer wield a sword, at least you can let yourself be like an ordinary girl, pursuing the happiness that can be pursued—for example, Aoki Tsukasa.

However, the moment she raised the knife and swung it towards the joint, she regretted it.

The wooden knife was off by one point.

This point caused her hand, which was destined to never be able to hold the handle of the knife, to be seriously injured.

She didn't want to go to a tomorrow without kendo.

It was only at that moment that Saeko Busushima realized how important the way of the sword that she was numbly insisting on was to herself.

Saeko Busujima, who asked for leave from school and was entangled at home, felt the warmth from Aoki Tsukasa again—he actually ran to his own home, took good care of himself like a warm sun, and, clearly Expressed his love for himself.

Then, she cheered up again, began to suppress her bloodthirsty impulse, treated everything as a nightmare, and tried to accept Aokiji's favor firmly, similarly, she tried her best to express her liking for Aokiji.

However, whenever she couldn't help expressing clearly that she wanted to become a couple with Aoki Si, she instinctively controlled all these impulses.

She couldn't imagine that if she accepted Aokiji and lived happily with Aokisi, after having innumerable happy memories, Aokisi knew her experience and the terrifying beast hidden in her heart, and chose to leave... …

She might actually turn into a monster.

Saeko Busujima felt that Aoki Division was like a swamp.

Every time she tried to break free, she would sink deeper.

She tried to maintain the distance between the two at such a stage, like each other, but not too deep - not because she didn't want to go further and get more happiness, but she was afraid that if she went further, she would not be able to bear it Confess everything.

Aokiji's words are really evil, making her always open her heart unconsciously.

It would be good if he could accept such a self, but Busujima Saeko always thought that such a self was not worthy of Aoki Tsukasa.He is so likable, so good, so gentle, and there is a devil in his heart, even though he looks perfect, how can he get real happiness?

Perhaps, it will become his new burden.

If he can't accept it, it will be even worse.

Every time Saeko Busujima thought of the scene where Tsukasa Aoki left with disbelief, despair and disgust, she would be startled into a cold sweat and her mind would be dark.

But, things...why did it come to this point again?

With the arrival of Toshio Busujima, Saeko Busujima's jealousy towards him, her disgust towards her father, and her dislike towards herself boiled up again.

Whenever Saeko Busujima thought about what she did when facing Toshio Busujima, and thought about what Aoki Si might have noticed, she felt extremely uneasy.

When Toshio Busujima knocked the wooden knife away, all his efforts were blown away like bubbles, and the indescribable emptiness and despair came back again.

Saeko Busujima could sense that the bloodthirsty and violent impulse in her heart, just like when she almost turned into a passerby with Aoki Tsukasa, rose again uncontrollably.

But this time, when this violent impulse came, she tried to keep Aoki Si away from her again.

She thought that she could adjust everything, no matter what method she used, she would be able to disguise herself again, and then enjoy the happiness that could disappear at any time with Aoki Division again...

"What the hell are you thinking!"

This familiar yet unfamiliar voice, like a thunderbolt, woke her up from her own world.

For the first time, Aoki Division got angry with her.

Saeko Busujima raised her head in a daze, Aoki Tsukasa's face was full of pain, pity, and puzzlement, and although his eyes were a little angry, they were more concerned.

"Saeko, what are you thinking?" Aoki Division repeated, but there was much less anger in the words, and more sadness.

Saeko Busushima just stared at him blankly, her eyes glazed over.

Aoki stretched out his hand and held her face, his tone was puzzled and sad: "Why, Saeko wants to drive me away?"