A Million Survival Laws of the Savior

But she couldn't hear it, she still turned her head and looked at the boy passing by the vehicle, her body moved faster than her consciousness, and she rushed up.

Amidst the piercing sound of horns and brakes, a figure flew out.

Bloody flowers bloom.

The noise that should have been extremely loud was no longer heard, and the whole city fell into silence.

Only red lights and red pools of blood.

Bai Jue didn't struggle anymore, the power that restrained him completely disappeared at that moment.

He walked towards the pool of blood step by step, and every time he took a step, he felt extremely weak. He stared at the girl lying in the pool of blood, then slowly knelt down on the ground, looking at the girl who was a few steps away.

Bai Jue could see Sister Han, but Sister Han couldn't see him.

What she saw was that dull boy, the snow-silver long hair was stained red with blood, her gradually dilated pupils barely fixed on the young face, and there was nostalgia and longing for life in the eyes...

She raised her hand, the blood-stained palm, caressing Bai Jue's cheek, and then...

Those red hands inadvertently grabbed his throat.

The increasingly weak hand left a bright red mark.

Her last words were so damning and stinging.

Sister Han fell into the pitch-black world, blood oozing from her pure white pupils, all the gentleness disappeared in an instant, leaving only a questioning voice that pointed to the soul.

"—why not you?"

Why didn't you die...

The sentence that was frozen together with the scene was like a heavy hammer, which fell heavily on Bai Jue's head, making all his dusty memories extremely clear, and also made the part of him that he could never recall Memory is completed.

"That's right...that's how it is." Bai Jue let out a hoarse laugh: "I actually forgot... I actually forgot..."

He recalled it all, remembered it all.

Where did the sense of disobedience come from, where did the sense of lack come from, why the uncle took care of me so much, why my memory of school was so vague, in fact...these are all fictions.

After hearing her curse-like words, my young self could not bear the heavy guilt at all. After several years of mental treatment, it finally returned to normal, and it was like self-protection. The memory of his identity was sealed in the deepest part of his memory... He couldn't even remember that there was a person like her appearing in his life, and she died to save him, and left him a nightmare sentence.

Freezing the edge of the scene, the clerk approached silently, he paused: "I have no intention of prying into your past, sorry..."

"It's okay." Bai Jue said, "You can watch it if you want...This is actually not a special past, not at all special...Traffic accidents or something, it's actually a Korean drama, isn't it?"

"The special thing is not the traffic accident, but your own heart."

It is a huge torture for such a close relative to die in front of your eyes because of your fault, not to mention... before she passed away, she left such a cruel last word.

"It's...a curse." Bai Di whispered, "A curse engraved in the deepest part of my soul."

"But Sister Han did nothing wrong... She took good care of me since she was a child, and she also saved me in a traffic accident. The last sentence... anyone would think so."

Bai Jue met her bloody eyes of hatred in the scene, and said: "At that time, I took care of her from time to time because she was worried about being dull... Her adoptive parents treated her very well, and she also had a talent for playing the violin , her brand new life has just turned a new page, but because of me, her life is over... Of course she will be unwilling, of course she will hate... This hatred is the cross I should bear."

Bai Jue said bitterly: "That's why... I want to make amends."

"Atonement?" Bai Di was startled suddenly.

"Yeah, isn't saving the world the best way to atone for sin? If I can save billions of people, maybe I can escape from this guilt." He raised his head and closed his eyes: "Even if I I don’t even remember… I always have that inexplicable sense of responsibility, I don’t even know where this sense of responsibility comes from, and now I finally understand.”

Bai Jue turned sideways slowly, with a calm expression, not hysterical, nor sad or mournful.

At this moment, he gave Bai Di a strong sense of strangeness.

"Someone has said that I am a nice person, and occasionally I feel that I have obsessive-compulsive disorder. I must do things perfectly. I don't like to do multiple-choice questions to save one and give up one. That actually represents my inner self. Regret and guilt."

"I said that I don't like to take responsibility, so I always wear a mask, and I don't need fame, wealth and power, because I don't need it. This is the truth, but in fact, the deeper reason is because I just simply need this kind of responsibility. I feel that if I save someone... my heart will become very comfortable, as if I have escaped from some heavy pressure."

"Actually, I'm really lazy. I stay in the coffee shop with nothing to do. I rarely take the initiative to do anything. But when something happens, I'm the first to stand up. It's called a sense of responsibility. It's not a sense of responsibility, but a sense of responsibility. Force myself to take on something... Think about it carefully, I have no other purpose from the beginning, just assumed the work and duties of the savior, what else do I have left? No goals, no dreams, no life Value, without looking into the future, I actually have nothing... like an empty shell."

Bai Jue's voice gradually became hoarse, and his words were like a knife cutting open his heart, revealing his bloody self.

Every sentence here is his true heart, his hidden self. With the recovery of memory, he recovers with guilt and guilt... This makes him understand that he has been from the very beginning. is nothing.

"The snake said that I have a tendency to self-destruct. For the salvation of my own will, I am willing to give up my self first and make sacrifices in the ideal sense... What he said is right, because in my own eyes, my life has never appeared. So important... Deep down, I despise myself."

Bai Jue pointed to his heart: "Even if I don't remember all this in the past... there is a self in my soul who hates and despises myself, questioning why I am still alive... In order to find a reason for myself to live, I You have to do something meaningful to make yourself worth a little bit of existence... But this is not living at all, it is just lingering."

"Absolutely not." Bai Di denied decisively: "I used to be addicted to saving others, and boasted of this matter as a meritorious service. Although it is stupid, it is definitely not a mistake! Your purpose is not important, but your You have indeed saved many people, this is absolutely not false! You are not worthless, at least...you are my friend! You are my important junior! Bai Jue...don't go to extremes."

Bai Jue smiled, and smiled wryly: "...Bai Di, you are really a good person... You don't look down on others, no matter how scumbag they are, this quality is too precious, so I really envy you, I also look forward to you, and want to be someone like you... But we are different after all, your kindness to others is pure and sincere, and my kindness to others is because I feel guilty."

"I am persistent because of guilt."

"Seeking perfection is because of incompleteness."

"After all, I'm just a despicable person. Even if I pretend to be a good person, I can't change my nature. This blood has soaked into my soul and can't be washed away."

Bai Jue touched his throat, as if there was still blood left on it.

"So... what do you want to do?" Bai Di warned: "This is the other side of cause and effect. You should remember my warning before. There are certain bottom lines that cannot be crossed. Once crossing that line, the consequences will be disastrous."

"I know." Bai Jue nodded.

"In that case..."

"But I can't refuse this opportunity." Bai Jue stared at Bai Di, he said: "Bai Di, you must not understand, in the past life, you have made countless choices, but no matter which time you choose I have no regrets, but I... I am different from you, because at that time I didn't have the right to choose who lives and who dies, but now that I have this right, I... can't let it go!"