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"Even if you feel useless and hate yourself, being hated by the people around you feels helpless but still worry about it... I will always have expectations for you, and I will not use your weakness as a reason to hate you and abandon you .”

Laiyue Subaru understands Emilia's feelings. She wants to be denied and thinks she is worthless. Both herself and others agree with this. Subaru once had the experience of being saved by knowing that she is hopeless.

Subaru knew this mentality, but he also knew that as long as someone reached out, he could be rescued.

Just like in the past when Subaru underestimated himself, but was not given up.

"I'm obsessed with you from the bottom of my heart, everything about you shines brightly in my opinion.

Of course, there will be disadvantages, you are not an angel or a goddess, you are just an ordinary girl...

%*2{6 There will also be times when you feel sad and want to cry, and there will be times when you want to escape from annoying things. "

Still, even so.

"However, this kind of weakness, including the ugly places, I like all of them.

I like Emilia with all my heart, so... now I'm not disappointed in you either. "

"—Oh! How can you be like this! You are too, too selfish!"

Lai Yuesubaru's mouth expressed countless emotions, but Emilia stubbornly refused to listen.

Unable to control the confusion, she only wished to negate the words that Subaru spun one after another.

"It's useless to say so much, but I still like me... How can people believe this! Why can you trust me... I don't understand at all!"

"No! You made a mistake from beginning to end! It's not because of anything that I believe in you and like you.

It's not like this, I like you, that's why I can believe you, it's like this! "

"It's just liking, how can it constitute a reason to believe in people!"

"——! Since you don't believe that you can trust someone just because you like it, then it's better for someone to do it voluntarily for a troublesome woman like you, even if it hurts so much!!"

The voices became louder and louder, and each other's feelings collided with each other.

Lai Yue Subaru stood up with his hands against the wall, and Emilia also got up to compete.

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Foaming all over the mouth, fighting to the point of flushing, shouting that the other party is wrong, obviously they have never talked in a rough voice before.

"I like you! I like you so much that my head is sick, I like you so much that even if I die, I don't care! That's why I endure no matter how painful it is, and even now I want to vomit but I still stand in front of you! "

"That's right! I didn't ask you! I kept saying what I wanted to say... Subaru, you are the one who didn't consider my feelings at all!

You are like this... You become the target of public criticism because of me, and you are scarred every time... What kind of mood I am watching, you have no idea! "

"Who cares about you? I'm too lazy to think about it! All I think about is how to be handsome in front of you!

How to do what you think is the best, what to do to make you the happiest... I have worked very hard.

Anyway, you should also make a little cute expression as I thought! "

"Don't talk about people like dolls! If you want to please me... Then, why break the agreement! You just do what I asked you to do! Why didn't you do it! Actually, you hate me, don't you?" !"

"I like you!!"

"Liar—!!"

Subaru confessed his love in spite of himself, but Emilia loudly denied it.

How many detours did Subaru take to express his feelings before, and how many obstacles he had to overcome just to say the words that could express his feelings.

The confession of love is so repeated that it becomes worthless, but every word is Subaru's heartfelt words, a confession for a lifetime, and a sincere heart that penetrates into the soul and wholeheartedly.

"I didn't lie to you! I really like you! You are the one, what do you think of me! You always put your airs so high!

Do you know how my heart flutters every time you put on an attitude with your cute face that makes me feel hopeful!Are you kidding me! "

"I, I didn't play tricks on you! I just treated you normally, don't talk so strange! I'm already burnt out because of a bunch of things, and you ask me what I think of you... I haven't thought about it! Don't Say it! Don’t give me any more headaches!”

"Whose head do you think hurts more! Because of you! I hurt more!"

"It's because of you! I'm in more pain, right!?"

There was no logic to what the two said, just two tantrums arguing.

It felt like a fight was on the verge of a fight, choking each other loudly and excitedly, the grave that had long shrouded in silence was now rippling with a dispute between the two that had made no progress.

"I'm too lazy to talk to you! Subaru is a big liar! He broke the agreement and came to me with a face of indifference... You, do you think I didn't find out! I can see it all! Have you kept the agreement with me? , I see it all!"

"I didn't do it on purpose! You are a witch for doing this kind of testing!"

"I have no reason to be spoken so badly by a liar who broke the agreement!"

"My breaking the agreement and that matter are two different things!"

Lai Yue Subaru nonchalantly avoided the question, Emilia was too angry to speak, her emotions were out of the rein, and her thoughts could not be turned into voices.

Emilia could only gasp, breathe repeatedly, and ask tearfully.

"Why... why, you didn't keep the agreement...?"

"I also think it's wrong to break the contract. I really want to hold your hand and accompany you until the morning. I really think so."

"I didn't ask you this—why didn't you keep the promise."

"I can't tell."

Faced with Emilia's questioning, Subaru shook his head and gritted his teeth in pain.

Emilia covered her face with her palms sadly because she didn't answer the question after getting to this point.

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Since you said you like me...then do it!Otherwise, I can't believe you...! "

"Emelia."

"If you keep the promise and stay with me until morning! I can definitely trust you! Trust you and entrust everything to you! But, you broke the promise..."

Emilia hugged her slender shoulders tightly with a dejected face, her unfocused blue-purple eyes filled with anxiety and fear, she questioned herself, not Subaru, in disgust.

"After Parker was gone, my memory... came back bit by bit.

Scenery I hadn’t seen, conversations I couldn’t remember, began to fill my heart. "

"—"

"I should have kept it firmly in mind until now, but I have no memory of those things... How many things have I forgotten? Forgotten without authorization, pretending that they don't exist...!"

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Those pictures were obtained in exchange for the contract between Parker and Emilia. They should be the real memories that she didn't want to face before, so they were covered up.

The past that I don't want to think about, now the cover is off, and the memory is revived.

But it was accompanied by a huge fear, enough to make Emilia unable to believe her own essence.

"When I remember all the memories... What will I become? Will I still be the current me? I forgot a bunch of important things, even my mother... Am I not going to make a mistake?"

If life is a journey of repeating and accumulating memories, then memory is to make people like themselves, which is the essence of a person.

That being the case, wouldn't a life based on false memories mean everything went wrong?

If it was wrong from the beginning, then the path and places that I passed were also all wrong——

Light<text}Communication<>Communication=/}|:=⑦-5*⑥*%1~{3{[email protected]②~+[-] "The important thing is not the beginning and the way, but the end."

At this moment, a human voice suddenly sounded in Lai Yueang's head.

The familiar yet incomparably distant voice was to Subaru the voice of someone who was close to him but whom he would never see again.

At the time of parting, at the very end, a gentle gift to Subaru as homework.

—Ah, you're right, Mom.

No matter what it was at the beginning or what path it was on, until the last moment, who has the right to decide whether it is a mistake or what.

"No matter what you think about Emilia, nothing will change. I like you, and I will continue to like you."

"I can't, trust you, get Subaru to say that I like me... no, if I'm not here, let's see if you can still say that..."

"Of course, no matter how things change, you will never disappear. I like you."

"It's obviously a liar, and it's obvious that people can't trust you...and..." Emilia tried to reject Subaru with her trembling voice and eyes.

But Lai Yueang continued decisively: "No matter how useless you are, even if you have a big fight like this, I still like you.

This point will not change no matter what happens, at most it will only make me like you more.

So, I have always believed in you, if you were to ask why.

Because, like...

It's normal to feel uneasy when memories you don't remember come flooding back.

I also know that you are afraid of what will happen if you don't know yourself and run out.

However, the road you have traveled will not disappear, Emilia, you are fine. "

"Why, you can... say...?"

"Because it's not the beginning that matters, it's the end—that's what the woman I respect the most in the world says."

Ping is often the world's number one person who doesn't know what to say, but he has taught him the most important things in the world.

She didn't know the answer to the homework she gave, but he wanted to know.

Because the girl I want to know together is right in front of me.

Because I just want to show my handsome side to Emilia who is standing there in a daze.

"It's okay, Emilia, no matter what you think of, I'm your companion.

Even if you have forgotten it, just remember it. If you are still afraid, just look for it. "

"Look around... What are you looking for...?"

"Just like I can sprint with the mood of liking you, you should also find an important mood so that you can kick away all kinds of anxiety and sprint forward."