Are you really not behind the scenes?

The room was a little dark, and the light couldn't shine in from the window. The room was very quiet. Even though it was raining heavily outside, the room was frighteningly quiet.

Hikigaya has been like this for three days.

After being unable to bring the dead Komachi back, Hikigaya locked himself in the room.

No one can get in... Although Yukinoshita and Yuigahama both wanted to come and see Hikigaya, they were both forced back by Hikigaya's silence.

That day, after Hikigaya discovered that he had killed his sister with his own hands, he knelt on the ground helplessly. He could not continue to maintain the Meta Domain due to lack of energy. If he continued to stay there, he would inevitably be discovered. Therefore, the White Screen appeared again. Take him home.

Looking at the lost Hikigaya, Shiromu wanted to comfort him and say something.But no matter what he said, Hikigaya didn't respond. He sat on the bed in a daze, his eyes covered with despair lost their luster, and he looked like a zombie.

Bai Mu talked for a long time but saw no response from Hikigaya, and felt a little helpless in his heart.

After staying for a while, he felt that Hikigaya still had to be alone at this time, so he did not stay here anymore, but left directly.

He thought that with Hikigaya's tenacity and persistence, he would be able to come out on his own, but he didn't expect that Hikigaya would still look like this after three days in a row.

That guy who is called a rational monster, this time, it seems... he really can't stand up...

To be honest, Bai Mu did not expect such a situation.

He didn't expect that Northfield would actually use the same tactics he had used in the past.

It had used this skill to make Gumen resist fighting for a time, but now it used this skill to make Hikigaya lose his fighting spirit... Sure enough, no matter whether the strategy has been used before, as long as it works, it is a good strategy.

As expected of a mouse, he is cunning...

And this strategy is particularly useful for a boy like Biqigu who is in the second grade of middle school.

As Ultraman, not only failed to protect everything he wanted to protect, but he also killed his sister with his own hands...

Such a blow is absolutely unbearable for Hikigaya.

That it would turn out like this... is somewhat reasonable.

In fact, for Ultraman, just looking at the data is pretty much the same. Although there are indeed some gaps in normal situations, for example, Showa Ultra has a lot more combat experience than New Generation Ultra, but New Generation Ultra has more combat experience. Compared with Showa O, there are many more changes and methods. If the so-called combat power is really used to compare the strength of Ultraman, then Bai Mu feels that it is meaningless.

Ultraman is an idealistic family. What supports them in fighting is the heart that wants to protect everything. As long as this heart does not fall silent, as long as this heart still exists, they can face all difficulties.

And when the power of the heart explodes, no matter how great the difficulty is, Ultraman will overcome it.

Therefore, Ultraman's power is the power of the heart.

Although Northfield does not understand these so-called hearts, and even scorns these lights and justice, as an alien beast and a highly intelligent being that devours darkness and despair, this does not prevent it from understanding one thing.

The weakness of the idealistic clan is their hearts.

As long as Ultraman's heart is destroyed, Ultraman... will be vulnerable.

——To kill someone, you have to kill your heart.

And Komachi is Hikigaya's heart...

Chapter 60 System, you don’t understand people’s hearts

When Northfield used small means to involve Komachi, and when Hikigaya recognized that the person he had affected was his sister... When his biological sister fell into her arms, Hikigaya's heart completely died. .

As long as this fact does not change, as long as this fact still exists, then Hikigaya will most likely not be able to get out of this haze for the rest of his life.

——'The executioner who killed his sister with his own hands' This nightmare will haunt him for the rest of his life.

Shiromu has been worrying about how he should persuade Hikigaya in the past few days.

Just never had a clue.

Because Hikigaya hasn't gone out in the past three days, his parents have rushed back and are working hard to save Komachi in the hospital...Although Shiromu has tried before, it still failed...

But that's not the point. Even when Hikigaya's parents came back at night, they completely ignored their son and didn't say a word at all.

So there is no water in Biki Valley these days.

Although Shiromu would bring food every day, Hikigaya remained motionless, and in the end Shiromu helped him eliminate him.

Well, no matter what state Hikigaya is in at the moment, wasting food is wrong, and Shiromu resolutely resists such behavior.

As for the reason why Hikigaya was able to survive without sleeping for three days without eating or drinking, it was because the power of light... the light protected Hikigaya.

Without the light of Nexus, Hikigaya would not be able to survive in this state... Perhaps it should be said that without the light of Nexus, Hikigaya would have died due to the deterioration of his injuries that day. .

But even with the power of light, continuing like this is not an option.

If this continues, Hikigaya will be useless for the rest of his life...and his future will be completely ruined.

Is there no way to cheer up Hikigaya?

Sighing in distress, Bai Mu scratched his head.

At this time, we can only say that thanks to Hikigaya's smashing of Nosfell that day, it took some time for Nossfel to be resurrected, otherwise Nossfel would have caused havoc all over Japan by now.

However, compared to Bai Mu's distress, the system was even more puzzled by Qi Gu's despair.

He doesn't care about Hikigaya torturing himself like this, nor does he care about Hikigaya's despair in his heart. He just cares about why Hikigaya is so lost... and loses the courage and ideas to continue fighting.

[If we talk about dead people, Livelia killed a lot of people in Sapporo City...Although Hikigaya was a little confused at that time, he could still continue to fight, but why, after this time, Hikigaya would be like this? driven to distraction? 】

[I have to say that even if his sister really died, his sister's death was not his fault and he didn't know it beforehand. And since it's already like this, doesn't he want to avenge his sister? 】

[Host, the system doesn’t understand. 】

The system asked Shiromu directly in his mind, and when he looked at Hikigaya, who was in a state of confusion and couldn't notice anything, as if he was dead, Shiromu sighed slightly.

"Because the meaning is different... Lavlia's time is different from this time..."

Hikigaya Hachiman is a sensible man.

Although he occasionally seems to be very average in things, in the final analysis, he is an overly mature person who can endure being alone and chooses to move forward alone after seeing through the world.

Such a person is very open-minded about many things and can suppress his emotions most of the time and do what he thinks is right.

Take the Sapporo incident for example.

A lot of Sapporo city was destroyed by Livelia, and some of them were caught in the explosion and died.

Hikigaya was saddened by the deaths of those who were involved, but even considered using Nexus' power to resurrect them.

However, this does not mean that Hikigaya really indulges in the sorrow of sacrifice.

Hikigaya knows better than anyone else that with the emergence of alien beasts and Pokémon... the world is no longer as peaceful as before.

In fact, even without the emergence of tokusatsu anime creatures such as alien beasts and Pokémon, the world before was not peaceful.

There will be robberies and murders everywhere.

Anytime, anywhere, every moment, for example right now, life is passing away somewhere in the world.

So, there will definitely be death.

There are bound to be people who die because of these strange creatures.

A rational monster would never lose its sense of fighting because of such a death.

As long as Nexus' light is still with him, as long as Nexus has not given up on him, he will always be able to fight.

What Hikigaya is confused about is that he can really use this power well and protect others to the best of his ability.

As a man who sees things clearly, Hikigaya understands his own ordinaryness better than anyone else.

He is just an ordinary person, just a high school student in high school.

His mind is not as smart as others, his physical strength is not as strong as others, and he may even be unable to defeat Yukinoshita Yukino in a fight.

What could such an extremely ordinary person do if he suddenly received the light of Nexus?

Hikigaya has been searching for answers ever since he received the light from Nexus.

Why me, why did you choose me, am I really capable of doing all this?

There were many doubts and puzzles in his heart, as well as many uneasiness and worries.

But even so, Hikigaya was still fighting hard.Fighting like hell to live up to the expectations of others.

Sometimes, because you are in the fog, you can't see the answers that are right at your fingertips.

When Hikigaya fought for others, he was already qualified, but his preconceptions about himself kept him from getting the answer.

It doesn't matter even if this is the case... No matter how confused Hikigaya is, Hikigaya will never give up fighting. He will carry out his beliefs to the end and fight for others.

but......

This balance was broken after Hikigaya killed Komachi with his own hands.

He wants to protect others more than anyone else, and can endure pain more than anyone else... The fact that such a person personally kills the person he wants to protect will completely crush Hikigaya.

He was supposed to be the protector, but he killed the one he was protecting with his own hands.

What an ironic joke this is?

When the sister's body slowly loses its life in front of Hikigaya... When the sister's life withers in Hikigaya's hands... the guardian becomes the executioner, that scene will be engraved in Hikigaya's heart forever.

[But the host, isn’t Hikigaya Komachi not dead? 】

Chapter 61 Sorry system, I admit that I just spoke a little too loudly

Bai Mu said a lot to the system, and what he said was very simple.

But he didn't think the system could understand it.

Although he hasn't spent enough time in contact with the system, Bai Mu also has a certain understanding of the system.

From the system's perspective, this incident in Hikigaya probably looks like this.

'Since you can tolerate being unable to protect others due to your own mistakes, why can't you tolerate killing someone by mistake. '

'After all, life is passing away, so what's the point of caring about it like this? '

But Bai Mu didn't really want the system to understand these feelings.

Because that's what humans are.

Other species, other creatures, no matter how powerful or terrifying they are, have almost the same appearance as humans. They...or they, are not real humans.

Even if one can understand the distortions and contradictions of human beings, one cannot truly understand human beings.

After all...only humans understand humans.