The Rebirth Of A White Robe Man: I'll Follow You This Time

Huang Ya…

With empty eyes, which is, fortunately, Ren Yuan has neglected to notice as the man was far more focuses on dealing with the maidservant that was shooting them nasty look for not helping stop the young girl fall.

Shao Cheng gaze upon the oh so young Huang Ya, his heart twisting in pain and agony because, in the end, he was unable to wholly forget everything that has happened no matter what because their betrayal will always be going to hunt him for the rest of his life.

The pain of their betrayal will never disappear so easily just like that.

Betrayed… Betrayed… How could they? Why? He has given his all, suffered for them, completely love and adored them, but why did they turn their back against him? Is he really that hard to love? Is he really that hard to trust? Don't they know about how much they meant so much to him?

Was Shao Cheng not worthy enough to be part of their life that they are able to easily throw him away?

He was… content just by staying by their side… watching over them live a happy and safe life… was that extremely selfish of him that he was not allowed to even have that piece of happiness?

Shao Cheng isn't really asking too much… just taking care of his love once is enough for him...

So Why? WHY? WHY???

Feeling the drowning dark thought that he has buried deep inside him started to finally emerge since what he has once locked and sealed away was beginning to open up after he finally faces the people that he genuinely love dearly.

Ah… the resentment, doubt, hatred, anger, and affection he has hidden deep inside him has finally surfaced when face with the wrong choice of people that he has treasured in his life, after all, Shao Cheng only learned of their death after waking up as a spirit, too late to have seen their execution.

And this time, after their betrayal, there is no stopping Shao Cheng from dealing with what happened anymore since he wasn't anxious and worried about dying anytime without dealing with what he needed to do.

No more worrying and concerning about the Empire status that he will be leaving behind for the new Emperor who will look out after the common people after he left.

Unlike in the past after becoming spirit, Shao Cheng finally enough time to consider the betrayal he has faced and isn't just following Ren Yuan and training his newly found power.

How could he open up his deepest and most darkest failures and mistakes when they are all gone anyway right? It's not like he was going to be seeing them again since they are dead, but now, here he is, a new life,  back in the past, to the start of everything and Shao Cheng needs to finally deal with them once again.

And in his drowning moment of chaotic emotions and thought, the familiar presence of the person that is able to keep him loosen, content, and comfort was what has kept him from going down the deep end at this moment on.

Shao Cheng couldn't help but learn more closer to Ren Yuan in order to bask on his presence while grabbing the crimson sleeves of the man as he turned his face away from the hurtful figure of his previous life, while unable to stop the slight shake of his hands.

He definitely knows his reactions right now are going to make the man suspicious about what is wrong but Shao Cheng has completely believed that he was ready to face them, brave and courageous enough to deal with them however it was entirely wrong all along after he stands to face the wrong choice of his previous life.

It's like a loud slap in the face, Shao Cheng is still hurting.

He still feels the raw feeling of pain and hurt at their betrayal because in the end he really has truly loved them no matter how twisted and wrong of how everything has started.

Hatred, anger, distress, sadness, pain and many more dark emotions chaotically swirl inside him that makes his chest felt so heavy that Shao Cheng is almost unable to breathe by how deeply oppressive it was.

"Big Brother Yu Yu… I don't feel good." Take me away… before he does something drastic and outright kills the person before him, because Shao Cheng couldn't do that, at least not yet when he isn't thinking straight right now.

When there are just so many questions he needed to at least get an answer from.

Especially, when Shao Cheng painfully knew that this Huang Ya isn't the Huang Ya that has betrayed him in the previous life, because if he understood that the Ren Yuan before him isn't the Ren Yuan from their previous life, then isn't it unfair to treat the person before him as the person that has planned his demise?

Or was that just his naive assumption because he was unable to truly deal with them with his own hands?

Shao Cheng really hates and resents them, but at the same time, he really loves and adored them, everything is mixing up that he couldn't think straight and isn't making sense right now.

Everything is so stuffy and heavy, that his face became eerily pale white as a sheet of paper and just one glance of Ren Yuan to the person beside him has caused his face to turn frigid and dark.

Without any question, Ren Yuan has instantly taken the pale and sweaty young man into his arms, while narrowing down his eyes dangerously at the two people before him.

Which has caused the brave but stupid maidservant to finally quiet down in fear, while the young girl that has been staring at him with wide eyes that brim with certain strange wisdom the entire time has finally started to shake in horror at the murderous intention that is probably emitting from his body.

However, Ren Yuan doesn't have the time to bother about the two-person before him as the body of the person on his arms has somehow turned cold and sweaty, while the pale face was plastered over his shoulder.

He is extremely confused about what is going on, about why did Whitey has suddenly turned extremely gloomy, dark and eerily downhearted so swiftly without even any warning, and the young man seems to have become ill too from the look of it.

It made him want to destroy those has caused Whitey to become like this, Ren Yuan dislikes it because from what he has perceived somehow those two female has cause Whitey to be reminded of something gravely that has deeply hurt him the young man in the past.

'Whitey… who are you really?' There are too many things he doesn't know about the young man that it makes Ren Yuan head throb in frustration, perhaps, its time to try asking the man who he really is.

Perhaps after knowing Whitey identity first then Ren Yuan might figure out about how to help the young man with whatever problem he has.

After all, Ren Yuan has made a vow to look after him, and as the older one between them, Ren Yuan needs to be the responsible adult.