The Rebirth Of A White Robe Man: I'll Follow You This Time

Soon, as Ren Yuan dashed ahead, carrying the young man in his arms has finally arrived in their residence, unfortunately, or fortunately, Xing Ning and Tian Ying were busy handling some important matter that they weren't able to see the currently vulnerable and delicate Whitey at the moment. 

And Ren Yuan prefers for them not to see the young man situation right now, somehow he dislikes at the mere thought of others seeing Whitey this way, he rather prefers to be the only person that can witness this part of the young man and no one else.

He doesn't really know and understands why he is acting like this to this young man, but for now, Ren Yuan has to take care of the currently despondent and looking ill Whitey.

And after finally arriving in his own bedroom, Ren Yuan has kick the door open since he was unable to let go of the person on his arms before walking over to his own large soft bed and placing the young man down gently.

Making sure that Whitey was cover-up by the silky and thick black blanket, while unable to stop himself from taking a soft cloth to gently wipe the sweats on the young man pale face for a few seconds before finally turning around to call a physician to check the young man health only to stop when a hand has tightly grabbed his crimson sleeves.

"... I'm fine… just need to take a rest and I'll get better soon." After all… it is his mental health that has issues rather than him being physically ill.

Ren Yuan showed a grim expression before he turned around to gazes down at the young man that has his face slightly turned away, but stubbornly insisting in grabbing his crimson long sleeves.

"Don't be stubborn this time Whitey. Stay here and I'll call someone to look after you!"

Shao Cheng's head continues to throb, not only was the memories of the previous life continue to flash on his mind and much to his utter dismay, even the first life and this new one has started to mix chaotically along with it.

Why do the people in the story make it so easy having memories of their previous life and the new one after transmigrating into a new world after dying or accidentally traveling?

But here he was, Shao Cheng, trying to stop himself from going crazy because of those memories of living his lives, sometimes, on his deepest darkest moment that he just wished that he can just simply forget it all.

However, this is also a fitting punishment for what he has done right?

Besides, all Shao Cheng wanted to do at this moment is to groan from the pain along with dealing his obviously mental problem that was probably been broken long before he even died in the previous life, seriously, all he wants right now is to be left alone so that he can try fixing his mental health, at least trying to restrain it from going out of control.

It's not good to have a man with a broken mind with future pieces of knowledge running around in the world, right? Yeah, it is definitely not a good idea.

"I'm fine…" Just… need to give me a few minutes and I'll be back to normal.

"You don't look fine to me!"

Hearing the stubbornness and insistence of the obviously ill or sick Whitey, Ren Yuan couldn't help but growl in irritation.

"... Remember? I comprehend medical knowledge… I just need to sleep… and soon I'll be alright."

So hurry up and leave… Shao Cheng's vision couldn't help but haze and blurred from the insanity of his memories that keep flashing by, really when will Ren Yuan leave him all alone? It's a bit hard focusing right now and his headache doesn't help him one bit.

"Like I'll believe that! Come on, Whitey, Let me-!" 

"Just leave me alone!"

A tense stillness suddenly happened between them, while Shao Cheng inwardly winces at how cold, cruel and ruthless he sounds after speaking those words out, causing him to wake up a bit from his drowning memories and negative emotions, while the grip that has tightly grasped the man sleeves couldn't help but unconsciously let go.

Shao Cheng absolutely feeling mortified of how he treated the man just now, Ren Yuan is just being worried and concern about his health, but here he was being a jerk, rude and just downright nasty.

He didn't mean that… well yes, but, he just wants to be left alone and Shao Cheng didn't want to make it sound like that, so completely cold, indifferent and distant that there was suddenly a thick wall blocking between the two of them from just how he just practically shouted to the man that he isn't a significant and relevant person to him.

But in the end, Shao Cheng was unable to trust the man with his problem… and here he was trying to ask and get the older man to trust, belief, and loyalty, when Shao Cheng couldn't even give it to him, isn't he just showing about how of a hypocritical person he is right now?

"...Ok."

Closing his mouth tightly, Ren Yuan shoulder tense up, peach blossom grey eyes unreadable as he has swiftly turned around and walked away, giving the young man his much needed alone time, however, his footstep stilled when he heard the downhearted and remorseful voice of Whitey reaching his ears.

Ren Yuan felt a bit hurt just now, but in the end, the few days that they have known each other isn't enough time for them to truly trust each other so deeply right?

Everyone have their own darkest secret, a past that one couldn't easily speak to others, preferring to bottle it up and forever burying it deep inside, heck, even Ren Yuan has his own, so how could he ask the young man to suddenly express and vocalize all about it so easily toward him?

It should be understandable… but it makes Ren Yuan feel utterly uncomfortable to be not deeply trusted by the young man...of course, he knew that the young man trust him in some way, hell, Whitey practically almost sacrifice his life just to save him.

He has suffered and worked hard to keep him safe and sound, so there is no doubting that fact.

However, Ren Yuan seemed to have become far greedy and selfish that he has unconsciously begun to want more, and for what, Ren Yuan couldn't pinpoint it for the life of him, on about what or why is that so… he is entirely clueless which makes it so frustrating.

"I'm sorry…"

And hearing Whitey apologizing, that proud, stubborn and downright prideful young man, well, he wouldn't deny that simple sentence has caused the uncomfortable feeling to at least lessen considerably.

However, when Ren Yuan wanted to open his mouth to answer back, nonetheless, his throat seemed to dry to even speak a word out, especially when he doesn't even know how to answer back before finally taking a deep breath and has left without turning around back, his back straight while disappearing, not before finally giving a gently worried voice after he left the young man.

"... Just… at least, take a rest alright?"

"..."

Shao Cheng that heard the older man left, pulled the blanket to cover himself entirely while curling his body up while his hands were gripping tightly at his head that continues to throb in torturous pain that makes Shao Cheng felt like descending to madness would simply make everything easy.

However, the throbbing twist of remorse, guilt, and shame oppressively remain of lashing out to Ren Yuan of all people, knowing fully well that the man doesn't deserve it.

Ah… He can't just do anything right...