The Revenge Turned To Love

Mishi changed her clothes and thanked Li Ning to help her. Xian came inside the room with a soup bowl in a tray. "Xian, I'm going now. Take care of your wife," said Li Ning. Xian thanked her. She smiled and patted at his arm and walked out from there. Xian put the tray on the table beside the bed and increased the temperature of the heater.

He sat beside her on the bed, holding the soup tray in his hand. "Drink this. You will feel better," said Xian.

"I told you that I want to go home. Why didn't you take me home?," asked Mishi angrily.

"Mishi I'm sorry," said Xian.

"Why did you do that? Xian the love between us failed even before starting. Indeed we've given the second chance but I don't feel like it will make me fall for you," said Mishi and then turned her face away.

"Mishi I'm sorry. I won't ever do this again. I'll keep myself in my limits. Just drink this soup. It will keep you warm," said Xian and carried the bowl in his hands. He forwarded the bowl towards her when Mishi jerked his hand away and the hot soup fell on Xian's hands.

"Ahhh," Xian screamed in a low voice. Mishi looked at him and touched his hand, "I'm sorry...I don't want to…"

Xian cut her words and asked, "Mishi, isn't it your love for me?"

Mishi released his hand and said, "it's not. If there would be someone else I would've done the same."

Xian got up from the bed and said, "Drink this soup. I'm calling Yuwan." Saying this walked towards the balcony. Mishi drank the soup when Xian came inside and said that they will leave in a while.

He walked towards the dresser and took out the hair dryer. He went near her bed and plugged it in. "Let me dry your hair," said Xian.

"It's fine," said Mishi. Xian didn't listen to her and held her shoulder gently and then sat behind her. She turned to him and said, "I'll do it myself." Xian grabbed her head gently and made it turn to the front. "It's fine. I'll do it. Give me the bowl," said Xian. Mishi handed him the soup bowl and put it on the table. He switched on the dryer and then started drying her hair. Her hair was flown here and there because of the air blown from the dryer. Xian gently tucked those hair behind her ears. After 10 minutes he was done drying her hair. He combed her hair with his hand gently and then said, "it's done."

Mishi thanked him when Xian hugged her from the back."Let's be like this for a few minutes. It's soothing," said Xian. Mishi didn't say anything this time because in a small part of her heart she wants his warmth too but is afraid to do so because of her past experiences with him.

"Xian," mumbled Mishi, touching his hands.

"Hmm," mumbled Xian.

"Xian, what if after two months the answer will be the same as it is now?," asked Mishi.

"Then I won't bother you. I will understand then that I'm not the guy for you. We ain't meant for each other," said Xian and rested his back on the pillows behind him. Mishi rested her back on Xian's firm chest. Xian was moved by her gesture.

" Let's get honest with each other," said Mishi and slightly turned to look at him. Xian nodded. His legs were outside the blanket on the floor so he asked Mishi if he could comfortably sit. Mishi nodded. Xian put off his slippers and sat comfortably on the bed still holding Mishi in his firm arms.

"What do you want to talk about?," asked Xian.

"Xian, I really wanted to be with you and wanted to be by your side. I confessed my feelings to you too but then you suspected me so easily. That's the reason I don't want to give a second chance to this relationship. I was a naive girl two years ago because nobody looked at me, my best friend betrayed me and I've come into this marriage."

"Mishi, I regretted those things. The day you made me sign those papers by lying I was going to confess my feelings to you. I have fallen in love with you already," said Xian.

"Xian that love has no meaning the moment you signed the papers," said Mishi. She released his grip from her and turned to him to look at him.

"Mishi don't say this. I know I'm at fault but…"

Mishi cut Xian's words and said, "Xian let me tell you the things why we both can't be in love. Just listen to me. Our relationship started with hatred for each other. You always wanted revenge from me because I was the reason Bai left you. After the truth was exposed you started showing care for me but what's the meaning of that care when you always doubted my purity. You got suspicious of me just because Zhao loves me. Indeed I had feelings for him but that was before I didn't even meet you. Those photos in which I was never with Zhao made you misunderstand my purity and loyalty towards you.

I loved you Xian whole heartedly. I wanted to love you but that day you made fun of those feelings. Indeed I was low at confidence that time, I never once believed myself that's why I treated myself as the culprit. So the second reason we can't be in love because there's no trust between us.

Third reason for our failed relationship is the day when you separated my siblings from me. Xian even if you beg me like lakhs of times I won't love you back as I used to in the past." Tears were in Mishi's eyes but she controlled those tears from falling.

"You want me to go away from your life?," asked Xian, looking into her eyes. Mishi nodded. Xian grabbed her face gently with his one hand and got close with her. Mishi looked at him and touched his hand to release his grip from her but he told her to stop. He looked at her and said, "Mishi let me confirm this." Mishi looked at him in confusion when Xian crashed his lips onto hers. He kissed at her lower lip and then started sucking them. For the short period of time Mishi almost lost her control and kissed him back but then she realized it's wrong. She pushed him back and put her palm on her lips. Xian looked at him in confusion.

"Mishi you still love me but you're refusing to accept those feelings of yours for me. Break the wall around you which you made two years ago. I will do every single thing you will tell me but don't behave like this," said Xian with teary eyes and looked at her.

"Let's divorce Xian. I really want to live my life," said Mishi and looked at Xian. Xian refused to do so.

"Xian what's the use when my answer will be the same after two months. Do you want me to cry everyday before you, beg before you to give me divorce? All my life I live for others but now I want to do something for myself," said Mishi with a firm voice.

"What about my pain?," asked Xian.

"It doesn't matter Xian. I can wish you only a good life but trust me we both can't be together. Let me go," said Mishi. Xian pulled her closer and asked, "don't you feel even a bit in this proximity?"

"No," replied Mishi. He pulled her further closer that there remained an inches distance between them. Both were looking into each other eyes studying emotions for each other. But then released Mishi and said, "you again pushed me away from you. Fine I'll divorce you tomorrow because I want you to live your life to the fullest. I won't ever show my face to you. Thanks for loving me even if it was for two months."

Mishi smiled and thanked him for understanding her. Xian got up from the bed, so is Mishi. " I'll drop you home and let's meet tomorrow in the morning in the court," said Xian. He walked out from there and Mishi followed him. They reached the home after two hours.

"Why ain't you coming inside?," asked Mishi.

"I've work in the office. See you in the court tomorrow," said Xian and drove away from there. Mishi looked at his car till it turned right and vanished from her sight. "Xian it's the best for us. Sorry to hurt you like this but I know you will find a suitable girl for yourself who will cherish you unlike me," murmured Mishi and got inside the gate. She found Yuwan was in the garden sitting on the couch looking at the sky. Mishi walked towards him and said, "I'm divorcing him tomorrow." Yuwan got shocked hearing this but because it was their mutual decision he didn't say anything.

Xian on the other hand was crying while driving. He wiped off his tears and drove to his house.