The Stars In Your Eyes

Jian Kang Lu still can't believe what just happened. He holds Bai Yutang tight, and repeats the same words over and over. As if afraid this was only a dream, only an illusion.

"TangTang.. I love you.. TangTang.."

And the thing he feared the most was, how if in reality his kitten maybe tried to run away but he forced his kitten to release his own animal instinct.

So he tried to make Bai Yutang believe that he did all these impure things because he loves him, and maybe his kitten will forgive him. Jian Kang Lu says the things he hides for so long, pouring all the words he always wants to say, and holding his kitten tight.. Caress his hair, his neck, his back. Over and over again.

"TangTang.. I love you.. I love you so much.. TangTang.."

Bai Yutang still can't believe what just happened. Is this just one of the spring dreams? But he never had a spring dream this real. So vivid. So intense.

Now Bai Yutang knows, he really likes Jian Kang Lu as in romantic feelings, not just admiration. Because he doesn't mind being kissed, he doesn't mind being touched. He even welcomes it, and wants to give his own body. All of him.

He could hear the man he loved saying the same words, caress him, over and over again.

'Is this real? Did Jian Ge really say that he loved him so much?'

Bai Yutang raises his trembling hands. If this was a dream, then he'll just want to get along with it. He also wanted to say all the things that had been buried inside his heart. The things he locked inside, the things that he thought were disgusting.

"Jian Ge.. Gege.. I love you too.. Gege.."

Bai Yutang could feel that the hands that caressed him stopped, and suddenly a pair of strong arms held him tighter, making him can't breath. Bai Yutang could feel soft lips touch his forehead, and his top of head. Kiss it, gently.

"TangTang.."

Jian Kang Lu really doesn't want to get up from this dream. A dream when his kitten said that he loves him back. He kissed his kitten again, and again.

His smooth forehead, his beautiful curved eyebrow, his temples, his corner of the eye. Jian Kang Lu could feel those eyes slightly damped. He didn't know whether it was coming from his kitten's sweat on his temples, or his tears.

"Is this real? Really? TangTang, do you really say that you love me too? Am i not dreaming?"

Jian Kang Lu mumbling these words while kissing his kitten's nose, and his beautiful lips. Those lips are swollen now, getting too many kisses and sucked. Make it look more seductive.

Bai Yutang could not answer that, because his head muddled again from those kisses. So he just answers Jian Kang Lu by hugging him tight, and returns the kiss back.

Jian Kang Lu stared at his kitten, with that seductive lips still slightly opened from his own invasion. Then his kitten moved, placing his own head into Jian Kang Lu's collarbone. The soft arms that circled his waist grip tighter.

"Gege.."

Jian Kang Lu knows that he needs to wipe that wet liquid that turns sticky in their body. But he doesn't want to let go of this body he holds tight. He is really afraid that if he lets this man go, all of this will disappear. Gone.

Both of them were just laying there in the bed for the whole morning. Hug each other, kiss each other. It was not until Jian Kang Lu realised the sun already shined so bright outside. The snow has stopped falling, half a day has passed. His kitten must be hungry.

"Baby, let's take a bath."

Jian Kang Lu stood up, looking for some tissues. Even though the sticky liquid in his kitten body almost dried, it was still sticky due to their own sweat and body heat. Jian Kang Lu wiped his kitten's body.

"Can we take a bath together?"

Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten nod with a blushing face. Jian Kang Lu kissed his forehead, then walked to the bathroom, preparing the hot water in the bathtub. He also wiped his own body with tissues.

When Jian Kang Lu walking out from the bathroom wanted to call for his kitten, he saw his kitten clumsily try to collect all the clothes Jian Kang Lu throw away during their intimate act.

Bai Yutang already wore his pants back, while Jian Kang Lu wrapped himself in a bathrobe. Jian Kang Lu cursed himself, why he didn't take care of all of it and let his kitten do these things instead.

Jian Kang Lu could see Bai Yutang's face still red all the time. And his kitten doesn't want to look at him. So Jian Kang Lu went back to the bathroom to take a bathrobe, then put it on his kitten's shoulder. He also took the clothes that clutched on Bai Yutang's hand.

"Don't do this, let me take care of these clothes. Wear this, it must be cold." Jian Kang Lu wrapped his kitten tight.

Bai Yutang just nodded, he really didn't know what to say or what to do. This is the first time for him.

The first time someone hugged him.

The first time someone kissed him.

The first time someone touched him.

The first time someone says "i love you" to him.

The first time.. Having sex? It was count as having sex, right?

Doing so much for the first time in one single moment, enough to snap Bai Yutang's brain. This also the first time for him to be in a relationship.

'Well, Jian Ge says that he loves me too, so it means that i have a lover now? A boyfriend?'

Bai Yutang just silently let Jian Kang Lu hold his hand, told him to sit on the sofa while Jian Kang Lu put their clothes into the laundry bag. Then Jian Kang Lu made him some hot tea while waiting for the water to fill the bathtub.

"TangTang, drink this first."

Bai Yutang took that cup, and sipped the hot tea. It is really refreshing. To be honest, his throat dried from all those kisses and moaning. Now he remembers again what they just did. Bai Yutang is really embarrassed, why is he moaning like that? He's a man!!!

But.. It felt so good..

After sipping half of his hot tea, Jian Kang Lu took his hand and led him into the bathroom. He took off Bai Yutang's robe, then slid the pants down.

Bai Yutang just lowered his head down the whole time. He was really really really embarrassed with his own body. Ah, this is also the first time someone saw him naked except his mother and his father. Even the last time they saw him naked maybe more than 13 years ago.

Jian Kang Lu led him to get inside the bathtub. Bai Yutang was surprised to see Jian Kang Lu take off his own bathrobe, but go to the shower instead of the bathtub with him. Bai Yutang said nothing, and washed his own body with the bath foam poured by Jian Kang Lu earlier.

Jian Kang Lu showered really fast. Then he dried himself. Bai Yutang peek at that naked body. Even though Jian Kang Lu's body is not a big muscular man, nor have a 8 packs abdominal muscle, his body still maintained well from that exercise.

Bai Yutang knew Jian Kang Lu exercised 3 - 4 times a week. Sometimes in the morning, sometimes in the afternoon. He likes to jog in the apartment's park. Sometimes Bai Yutang also runs together with him in the afternoon. But why does Jian Kang Lu's body look better than his?

And looking at those strong arms, and round butt, Bai Yutang could not believe he felt something surge into his lower abdomen, and realise he was.. Aroused?!? His little brother is not so little anymore.

Jian Kang Lu asked him, "Is the water too hot?"

Bai Yutang shook his head. And frantically refused and shook even wildly when Jian Kang Lu offered to massage him. He definitely won't let Jian Kang Lu think that he was a horny dog that will stand up again this soon.

"I-I'm fine! I'm fine, Jian Ge.. I can do this myself."

Jian Kang Lu looked at his kitten's face now as red as a ripped tomato. That's why he thought that the water is too hot. Then it came to his mind that maybe his kitten was embarrassed. After all, this is the first time for his kitten.

It's good if his kitten is just embarrassed. But how if his kitten regrets all of this, and is afraid of him?

So he just patted his kitten's head, brushed his teeth, and shaved as fast as he could. Then he said, "I'll wait for you outside, TangTang."

Bai Yutang nodded, he could not look at this man. Or else he doesn't know what to do. When Jian Kang Lu went, Bai Yutang hurriedly showered himself with cold water and tried to get rid of his own desire.

After he finished bathing, he ran into the closet and put on his own clothes. No matter how embarrassed he feels right now, he still needs to face Jian Kang Lu.

"Are you done, TangTang? Where do you want to eat?"

Bai Yutang walking and sitting on the sofa, one meter away from Jian Kang Lu. "Anywhere is fine, Jian Ge."

Jian Kang Lu knows his kitten only eats at the cafe in the connecting bridge. Because even though he urges his kitten to eat anywhere he wants during lunch time, his kitten said he doesn't know where to eat.

"How about the Italian restaurant in the shopping mall not so far from here? Above that Italian grocery store? The place is really good at lunch time. You'll like the ambience."

Seeing his kitten sit so far from him, Jian Kang Lu can't help to move himself. Now that he knows that his kitten won't run away from him, he just wants to be close with his kitten all the time.

His kitten nodded. Jian Kang Lu can't help to feel his heart is so full right now. Seeing that face he yearned every second didn't reject him at all. He can't help to move closer, and plant a kiss in that smooth forehead.

"I love you, TangTang.." 

Then he looked at his kitten's eyes, sparkled with million little stars. Floating around, shining bright.

I love you, and I am grateful for you accepting my love.