The Stars In Your Eyes

Bai Yutang's bewildered, his eyes showed disbelief, and his face turned red. Really really red. And.. His little brother also gave a reaction down there.

'What the fuck, why girls like to read these things???'

Bai Yutang could understand that the story was really good, well written with a great plot. The novel he read right now is about a demonic cultivator reborn into a gay man body. Not really reborn, possessed maybe? Anyway, the novel tells the flashback story too, how this good man turned into a demonic cultivator.

The romance between two men here is very subtle. The novel emphasises on the adventure of this cultivator and his lover unravel the past and welcome their future.

How Bai Yutang could read a yaoi1 novel? Of course this novel recommended by Mu Xiaoya, said that this novel is the hit novel and Bai Yutang will like it..

At first he really enjoyed it, and understood why those girls like this kind of story. This is one kind of universal story that every gender will like, except maybe that subtle romance part between two guys.

But, in the end of the novel, the writer wrote about the "bedtime" story too. And Bai Yutang's world expanded once more. That vivid description of two men making love is.. Really vivid. Bai Yutang could understand if he aroused reading this scene, because he knew how it felt.

At least, some parts.. Because, for the other part, he doesn't even have any imagination about how two man really having sex neither Jian Kang Lu ever do that kind of things to him. This book really gives him some insight.

What he doesn't understand, why girls like to read about something that they will never experience? They don't have that part!!!

Mu Xiaoya insist that he have to read this novel. Actually Mu Xiaoya gave so many suggestions when she heard that Bai Yutang finally got together with Jian Kang Lu. But in the end she said that Bai Yutang needs to learn more, and emphasise on the word learn.

So she suggested he read the novel about man and man relationship as a part of his learning. Among all the novels she suggests, she praises this one so much. And the theme is also what Bai Yutang likes to read. Heroes and cultivation world.

When finally Bai Yutang decides to read this one, it's because he doesn't have anything to do. He doesn't have any job to do at this moment, and the house chores task is divided between him and his sister.

Bai Yutang stares at his tablet's screen. Now he is curious about this other part written in this novel. Gong? Shou? He searched the internet. It seems that this gay world divided into two world. The man that took a role as top, and the partner will be the bottom.

But from the internet, he found that actually there are also the third category. Versatile. It means that man could be the top, and enjoy being a bottom too.

Bai Yutang wondering, which one Jian Kang Lu's role? If Jian Kang Lu is the top, then he will be..

Bai Yutang wants to scream. He can't imagine that he could take the role as bottom, he's a man! But, to imagine he become the top and fuck Jian Kang Lu.. It seems impossible for him. Even just wanting to try lick his lover's private part back always failed because he was dazed and drowned in pleasure given by his lover.

Bai Yutang is also wondering, why the hell these rotten girls already brand him as the bottom??? Bai Yutang sits in his bed, stands up and looks at himself in the mirror. Which part of him makes him look like a woman!?!?

But in the novel he just finished, it seems those bottoms didn't look feminine. He was a powerful and very strong man. So how do you differentiate your role as a top or a bottom? 

Bai Yutang sighed. He doesn't know whether he has to thank Mu Xiaoya or curse her. Because right now his mind filled with that lewd imagination, and confused about the next step of having sex with his lover.

He thought he already knew all about it. They do it in so many positions and variations, but never further. Bai Yutang, this pure virgin, thought it was already the limit of having sex between two man. And he really could not accept if that private part of him had to be intruded by a foreign object as part of the making love process.

That part is… Dirty.

And, won't it hurt? Bai Yutang shuddered, and the lust he felt before subside. Bai Yutang sure must be hurt. But if it hurts, why do so many men like to be a bottom? Deep inside, Bai Yutang knows the answer.

Because they love their partner.

And Bai Yutang also wants Jian Kang Lu to feel good. As good as Jian Kang Lu makes him. To see the face of someone he loved lost in ecstasy because of him, make Bai Yutang feel that he truly loved. Embraced. Accepted.

Bai Yutang missed Jian Kang Lu so much. And he knows that his lover misses him too. Jian Kang Lu sent him messages from the time he opened his eyes. And Bai Yutang does the same.

The message is always the same.

[Good morning TangTang my love. I just woke up. How's your sleep?]

Then always followed by the same words.

[I miss you so much, can't sleep well without you. Wish you're here in my arms, be the first things i saw when i wake up.]

Jian Kang Lu always texts him and calls him whenever he has free time. As a student on his holiday, Bai Yutang has nothing to do, while Jian Kang Lu is still busy. So Bai Yutang never calls him, only texts him. He answered his lover's call at the speed of light. Because the phone is always in Bai Yutang's hand.

At night, Jian Kang Lu will call him for hours. When Jian Kang Lu finishes his work, he will call Bai Yutang immediately. The call will stay online all the time. Bai Yutang accompanies this man walking to the car, driving home, having his dinner, even sometimes the call is still on speaker mode when his lover takes a bath.

Then they sleep together, with the phone still on line. Until one of them hearing the sound of their lover fell asleep, and just ended because the phone ran out of battery. Sometimes still connected until morning came.

It was very calming to hear that soft breath. Try to imagine their lover sleeping in their arms, like they used to. Feels like it shortens the distance between them. They often do video calls too. Saw your beloved faces on that small screen, appeasing their mind and their heart.

Speaking about that phone call while bathing, sometimes Jian Kang Lu suddenly talks to him with a deep hoarse voice. Even though they're separated hundreds miles away, it didn't ease the burning passion between them. As if their heart and their mind never parted.

That's when Bai Yutang learn there's something that called phone sex. Because of that, now he won't underestimate the power of human imagination. Hearing his lover's sexy and deep voice, with those lewd words.. Makes him feel like they're doing it for real.

"Kiss me baby.. Mm.. I really like your lips, it's so soft."

"I want to bite your neck.. I need to mark you again. It must be faded now."

"I want to mark you, baby.. You're mine.."

"I'm so hard, TangTang.. You make me hard.. Did you feel it too?"

"Say that you're hard because of me."

"TangTang, i want you.. Can you imagine i lick you now?"

"I lick you from your tip, down to your shaft.. I really like your dick. It's so sexy.."

"You're so sexy baby.. So hot.. Ugh.."

"Baby, help me.. I want you… Give me your legs.."

"Can you feel it, baby? You're so tight."

"TangTang, i really want you."

"TangTang.. Baby.."

Even far away, they still do it every two or three day. Bai Yutang can even read the pattern now. Monday is a busy day for Jian Kang Lu, so when he comes home he will be too tired. But Wednesday, Saturday, and Sunday, is definitely the day that they will do it.

And that's how Bai Yutang spent his holiday. Read the education novel from Mu Xiaoya, studying his friend's notes for his upcoming term, spend his time with his mother and sister, and talk to Jian Kang Lu by phone from the time he opened his eyes until the time he fell asleep.

———

Jian Kang Lu told Bai Yutang that he wanted to visit him this weekend. The first week in February. He'll take an afternoon flight on Saturday and go back to B city on Sunday night. Even though it was less than 24 hour, he didn't care. He really missed his kitten.

He missed his kitten to the point he thinks that he's going crazy. Afraid that the whole time they spend together is only a dream. He needed to meet his kitten, see him, touch him, to assure himself that he was not dreaming.

Jian Kang Lu booked a hotel near Bai Yutang's house. Since there are no 5 star hotels around, Jian Kang Lu had to book a 4 star hotel. But it doesn't matter.

He just wants to be as close as he can with his kitten.

Last weekend he could not visit his kitten, because his kitten said he wanted to talk with his sister. So he could only visit now, and next week. After that he could not visit again, because it will be Chinese New Year. It's family time.

Luckily his kitten said that he will take the flight back to B city on February 20th. Two days before his classes begin. And his kitten already assured him that he will stay in the apartment instead of the dorm.

Jian Kang Lu knew it was not fair for his kitten. His kitten will be tired spending extra effort and time going back and forth to his campus. Jian Kang Lu knew he was being selfish, but he really can't handle this lonely bed. A cold bed without his kitten to warm him all night.

He can't wait for Saturday to come. Count the day until he meets his beloved one, and holds him in his arms once again.