TO THE MEAN MATE

I should have asked him about his past long ago. He suffered as much as I did. I should have been more careful with my words. I'm damn sure he won't listen to me from now on. I have to wait for the right time to apologize to him. Should I call Zander now? I need to talk to him. I didn't even in my dream thought Zander had to go through those things. Maybe I should call him tomorrow. It's already late. 

I laid on my bed while my mind keeps replaying what Alex told me. It's keep bothering me that they erased my memories so I didn't have to go through any trauma from childhood. But Zander and Alex suffered every day. The way when I panicked in front of Alex it must have triggered something. But he didn't show anything that I'm hurting him too. When did I become so selfish? I only think about my past. Even when I gave chance for Aaron to be with me, I didn't ask for Alex opinion. He's my real mate, I should have considered his feelings too. The curse ruined our relationship. I choose Aaron over him. I don't know I choose the right decision. I hope Aaron won't hurt me in future. I close my eyes to take a break from unwanted worries as sleep took over my body. 

I felt someone is caressing my hair, it must be Alex. I knew he can't be angry with me longer. I slowly opened my eyes, it wasn't someone I was expecting. 

"What are you doing here? " I asked Aaron who's lying beside me with a smirk on his face. 

"Were you expecting someone else? " I can't tell him what happened yesterday. 

"No--I meant when did you come back from patrol? "

"Just an hour ago? What happened to you? you look flushed? "

I hate it when I'm lying to him. He did too much for me. I guess I have to leave Alex part. I can't hold into him anymore. Aaron's my present and future. 

"Nothing, I just missed you" I pecked his lips as he pulled me into a passionate kiss. 

"I love you" I confessed to him. But there's a little tug in my heart like something is missing from my soul. 

'Scar you there? '

'Yeah, '

'What's happening?'

'I can't sense Alex wolf. I think our bond is breaking'

'Are you sure? '

'Yes'

'I hope we didn't make the wrong choice'

'I hope so Amy, it was me who wanted Aaron. But I feel something is still missing. '

'Everything will be alright

The scar left me hanging with confusion as Aaron pulled my cheeks to get attention. 

"What's my beautiful Scarlett saying? " He asked me while grinning like a kid who just gotta candy. Hi Scarlett. 

"Nothing just usual bickering" I dodged the topic. 

"I didn't speak to her in a long time," He said while staring at our intertwined hands. 

"She's tired and her mood swing is killing me. She will come around soon" I comforted him. 

She doesn't want to talk to both Aaron and Alex. She said she needs some to think. 

"Amy, I have a reason not to talk to them. I have to figure things out.'

I can feel there is something wrong going on with us. You talk to Zander, and ask him to come here".

"Ah, I forgot to call Zander. Ok I am calling him now".

I dialled his number after a long ringing he picked up the call.

Zander: Hey Amy, how are you doing?

Amy: I am good. I need to talk to you about something. Could you please come here?

Zander: Did something happened?

Amy: I will tell you when we meet.

Zander: Why are you talking so formally? It's awkward to hear.

Amy: Nothing jerk. I thought I could talk to my brother normally. But you jerk can't digest it.

Zander: You talking to me formally is however normal. Something is going on in your little brain. Ahm I want to tell you something.

Amy: What?

Zander: Emma is awake.

What Emma woke up and I didn't know that. I am gonna kill this jerk. I hope she is doing well.

Amy: When did she wake up? When were you going to tell me?

Zander: I thought Alex might tell you. From your reaction, he didn't right?

Amy: Alex, he knew.

Zander: Alex is the first person she asked me to see. I was going to bring her there today evening.

Amy: Did she asked about me?

Zander: Nope. Alex is the only person she wants to talk to. She didn't even talk to me.

Amy When did they become so close?

Amy: I don't know.

Zander: Well I will see you in the evening. I have some work to finish before I leave here.

Amy: Ok bye take care.

Zander: Bye.

I hang up the call. Why didn't Emma asked about me? Is she upset with me? I didn't even visit her often. What would she want to talk with Alex? Did she know about everything? When did she become so close to him? Why didn't Alex told me that Emma is awake? Maybe he got to know after everything happened yesterday??? So maybe that's why he didn't inform me as we are not on talking terms now. Is he going to give me the silent treatment? It won't work, right? He can't stay without talking to me, I am damn sure about that. Or what if he didn't talk to me. Maybe he is changed. I can't instigate him when I am already in a relationship with Aaron.Aaron? Oh my god, he was with me, I forgot about him. I checked nearby I can't see him anywhere. Where did he go? I pulled out an outfit and took a quick shower. I went downstairs there is no single clue of Alex. He might be in his office or he is avoiding me. I should prepare something special for Em She likes vanilla cake and chocolate cupcake. I have pretty much time so I carefully took out the recipe and mix the ingredients.

After a long time everything was ready I just have to write something on the cake. We didn't spend much time in a while. I miss her. I miss our time together. It was precious. She was out for a long time, so I have to fill her everything in details. She must have a hard time understanding everything that happened in the last seven months. We could have a girls night out. Most importantly I have to talk to her about Aaron and what went wrong between Alex and me and how this curse destroyed our relationship. I don't know how she is going to this news that I choose Aaron. She had a strong brotherly bond with So she most likely to be mad at me. I don't know if she already knew about this issue.

It's getting dark. Why didn't they come back? Zander had told me he was coming in the evening now his phone is switched off too. Suddenly a handblocked my sight from behind.

"Guess who?"I heard the annoying voice of my brother.

"Isn't the Jerk who told me he would come in the evening."I bite his hand and looked backwards after his whining.

" What the hell Amy" He slowly massages the area where Item

"I prepared food for you. And made her favourite desserts. And you are late without her" I glared at him. 

"She came here two hours ago? " Zander said while checking the time. 

"What I didn't see her here" I was annoyed as hell. Where fuck is she went? 

"She and Alex went out. Don't ask me where? I don't know" He explained to me. 

She was here for two hours and she didn't even think about see me. I'm just stupid to think my best friend would see me first. 

"I'm going to sleep. Good night Zander" I walked to my door and lay down. 

Few minutes went by, I couldn't sleep. My whole thoughts surrounded by why Emma didn't come to see me. And what's so important that they went without seeing me for hours. What are they hiding? 

"Baby, you still up? " Aaron came towards he's covered in dust and sweat. 

"Yeah" 

"Ok. I'll be right back" Aaron disappeared into the bathroom and I heard the water running sound. He must be already tired with his duties. I don't want to make him worry about myself too. 

He came back with just a towel hanging in his waist. It's too lower than supposed to be. 

"What are you looking at baby? " He smirked at me. 

"Ahm.Nothing I think I just saw a mosquito. " I gulped and took my phone to scroll down god knows what. 

He changed into a boxer and jumped into bed. 

"I know you want some cuddles. So tell me what happened? " Aaron spooned me from behind and played with my hair. 

"Nothing I was trying to get some sleep" I again lied to him. Well, it's partially true though. 

"Why are you trying? You always out just after lying for 5 minutes. 

" Emma is here"I whispered. 

"What? When did she wake up? I saw Zander I didn't see her. Well, where is that little devil? Tell her to come here. We can do Netflix night. "

" I meant here in this pack. Not at this house right now. " I explained him. He looks super excited. 

"Oh. we can meet her tomorrow then. Where's she at this time. Zander is downstairs though! "

He pulled me into his chest and I can sense his thought is running somewhere else. 

"I don't know. She went out with Alex that's what Zander said"

Did they got together or what? Where the hell is they at this time. My mind is getting wild. I can't sense Scarlett anywhere near. 

I looked at Aaron's face as he stopped talking. He was smirking. What the hell is going on in his mind.. Everyone is making me confused.