Trapped In Hisstory

All of my tears seemed to have been drained out of my eyes. I fought everyone who tried to come near me and Aloy. I will never let them touch Aloy even once, not after what they have done.

What was the point of me trying to get stronger before if I was not even able to protect any of them? All of them died, not one of them remained. Father, mother, grandpa, my whole family, Lyncas Clan…

...and Aloy.

"You are doing so well, you are already great, son."

I know that no matter what I did all of you would still say that I am great. But Father...I am not great. I let everyone...all of you die. The only friend I have is gone as well.

I gritted my teeth and carried Aloy, running to the nearest hiding spot that I could find. After sitting down, I turned to look at Aloy who was now lifeless.

I told you to stay by my side.

You are by my side right now, but you are not alive.

I have never felt such emotions before but all my feelings were mixed into chaos as I do not know what to do. I felt as if my surroundings turned dark, I felt extreme sorrow but at the same time I felt anger seeping through me.

I put both of my hands on my head, it hurts, to the point where I feel like it was going to explode. But the pain cannot be compared to what my heart felt when I saw Aloy die after hearing his last words. "Y-you cannot do this to me, Aloy." I whispered as I lowered my gaze to his corpse. "You cannot leave me."

My surroundings turned black and I was slowly being swallowed by the darkness. Just when the shadows were painting my whole body black, it all vanished when a light appeared in front of me. Aloy was right in front of me, smiling but not saying a word. He just stayed there and looked at me while giving light while I was surrounded by darkness.

I thought there would be no more tears to cry but the tears began to run down my face once again, "You said you want to lessen the loneliness I feel, how could you leave me like this?"

I held both of his hands as Aloy stayed still, "You promised me Aloy! You promise you will never leave me!" 

I squeezed his hand as tight as I could so he would not disappear again, "Don't go…" I cried.

My hands slid and fell down to the ground, with no more Aloy in front of me. I hugged my knees and buried my face full of tears in it as I sobbed.

Goddess Asteria…I never once tried to wish for anything except for this day. If you want me to beg, I am now down to my knees, begging for your kindness...for a miracle.

Please, not Aloy. Please.

"I will give you my life, take me instead! Take my life! I will do anything!" I screamed, hoping that the Goddess watching over us would somehow hear me and grant my wish.

"I will give myself to you, take my life! Just...."

"Just give my best friend back...give Aloy back! Please!"

I felt desperate but my yells could not be heard and was overpowered by the sounds of the people screaming as they fought each other to death.

At that moment, my eyes stared at the sword on the ground. I wanted to kill them all so they could all shut up. The Goddess cannot hear my voice because of their loud screams.

I was about to reach for the sword but I stopped, and laughed as I covered my face with my hands. It is not because of their yells that I can't be heard…

But because the Goddess is not listening at all.

"Say, there is someone I want to befriend."

I removed my hands on my face and my eyes slightly widened. That little spider… 

I looked at Aloy, "I will be back, I need to get Fera. It is safe here."

I ran towards the battlefield and brought my sword in case someone attacks me. When I got there, almost every people of Animalia were dead. The royal armies wiped all the clans.

My eyes wandered around the dead bodies, hoping that Fera was not dead but she was not there among the corpses which relieved me. That means she was still alive.

I continued to look but quickly hid when I saw sight of the Kings riding their horses. I looked at them in secret and saw a lot of people in front of them, but I was sure they were not part of the armies.

Wait. That is…

I dropped the sword I was holding when I saw Phoneutria Fera. She was alive...but she was together with the Summa Octo and their Aranea Clan.

Why…

Why is the enemies not attacking Aranea?

I saw grandpa on the ground, he was still not dead but he was losing a lot of blood. But even so, he had a smile on his face while on the brink of death.

"Go!!!!"

"Bahiensis, kill them!!!"

"We will win!!!"

The yells of all the survivors from other clans grew louder. But grandpa's smile vanished when Bahiensis turned to look at them.

"That is right," Bahiensis said and smirked, "We, Araneans, will win." 

Phoneutria Bahiensis gave the final blow to my grandpa and the Lyncas Clan was no more. 

I dropped to the ground and tried to let everything sink in. Aranea Clan betrayed us… They told the plan they discussed on every meeting to the royals! Only the Araneans survived.

I stared at the little spider, Fera, and saw her lowering her gaze. Even from afar, I could see the smile on her face...she was laughing.

My blood boiled and I ran away, cannot bear to stay there any longer because I do not know what I might do if I lose control.

I went back to where I hid Aloy's body with my mind still in shock from the betrayal I witnessed. I trembled in anger as my head repeated the scene.

Sadness and Anger was fighting within me and I could not keep up with everything that was happening.

My clan was wiped out. My family died. Aloy died.

But all those spiders are still alive, not one of them wounded.

I carried Aloy and we moved to find a spot where I could bury him. It hurts so much and I cannot accept that I will bury my own friend with my own hands.

When I found a place where I think would be best, I put him down. I digged and digged, so I could lay him down on it. This is so difficult to do...but I know he will never come back to me no matter how much I begged.

I want to see his smile again, I want him to call my name again as he yell like I am almost deaf. I caressed his cold face, "I will not complain that you are loud again, so can't you come back?" I asked and laughed as if it would ever answer me.

I looked at Aloy and stared on his peaceful smiling face. You wish that I will not be lonely? "If I die right now and join you, then we will be together. I will not be lonely, Aloy." I whispered to him.

I held him in my arms and grabbed the sword. I wanted to stab myself and just die but I let go of the sword. I could not do it. I hugged his lifeless body and cried. "I am sorry..." 

I will not die until everyone of them is dead. I will kill Bahiensis just as he killed my grandfather. I will wipe out everyone that is involved.

I have to get stronger, so I could get my revenge. But...I do not have someone I can protect anymore.

I have no one.

It was no longer the same as before where I could do anything I want and easily get everything.

But for you, I will live. I will never forget you, Aloy.

I hugged his body tight and put him down. I wanted to close my eyes as I threw the dirt on him so I could not see his face. I buried him.

I will never be able to see him again.

I lied down on the spot where I buried him and imagine that he was beside me. Just like that time where we were both lying on the ground.

As lucky as I am, the clouds started to darken and could feel drops of water on my face. I chuckled, it is raining on the day of your death.

Even the heavens who forsakened us is sad that you died.

I bid you my last farewell...Aloy.

I was about to close my eyes because of fatigue. Everything that happened tired my mind, body...my heart.

But before I could close my eyes, I sat down when I felt someone's presence. There was someone else with us, holding an umbrella as he looked at me from afar.

A boy with a white hair and sapphire eyes.