The trainer, whose time is running out, just wants to survive

Chapter 84: Qianming’s memory: Finally, Qianming closed his eyes...

Time is the best antidote. It will help you smooth away the pain caused by all injuries. No matter how close you are, the death of a loved one, or the death of a lover you consider to be your most sincere lover... you will eventually be wiped out by this invisible thing. Big hands smoothed all the scars without leaving any trace.

This pair, praised time and again by the Japanese people and envied by countless racing ladies, was the "invincible perfect combination". It finally came to an end in a way that everyone could have expected, but did not expect to happen at this time.

What makes everyone even more incredible is that after the death of Kitano, Representative Qianming, who was supposed to have experienced a huge blow, did not even show any grief at the funeral. Even after the funeral, Everyone was surprised and didn't understand, so they chose to continue their journey without staying for a moment in the sadness of the past.

Representative Chiaki's indifferent performance immediately caused an uproar in Japan. All the Japanese people who were touched by the tacit understanding and experience of this pair and expected them to finally get married seemed to have their dreams shattered overnight. .

What's even more unacceptable to them is that this kind of brokenness is not because of the separation of life and death - those who have given up their sincere feelings and perfection because Qianming and Kitano have turned the tide time and time again and tried their best to respond to everyone's expectations. After all their fantasies about being a partner were pinned on the two of them, they were ruthlessly shattered like a bubble.

It turns out that the perfect combination that is irreplaceable and the perfect partner for each other are all false.There has never been a combination of two people who are in love and defeat all powerful enemies with love. These are just labels that people wantonly impose on them.

However, more voices came from the disbelief after the dream was broken, the hysterical backlash, curses and questions from people who overreacted - but Qianming no longer cared about all this, and she could no longer feel it in her heart. Faced with those dirty curses, Representative Qianming had no refutation or explanation.Because she herself felt that maybe she was just like what they said...a heartless and heartless person.

But... isn't this what you want to see?Kitano?I really won’t be sad because of anything about you now. I am really slowly forgetting everything about you.

Representative Qianming feels that he is almost there.

As time goes by, Qianming, who is far away from the sad place, gradually eliminates and forgets the traces of Kitano. She can clearly feel that her memories of the past related to Kitano are getting less and less day by day. From the beginning, she remembered In the past, I would shed tears uncontrollably. Now that I have been busy with my own affairs for a month, it is difficult to recall things about Kitano.

In this way, Representative Qianming repeated the trial for ten years under the boundless feeling of emptiness... until there was no longer a trace of him in his mind, until all news about Kitano in Japan had been sunk. , she finally returned to this land.

Representative Qianming's return to China did not alarm anyone. She was just walking around alone in a new country as she had done for the past ten years.The earth-shaking changes in the past ten years have meant that for Representative Qianming, everything is a new experience except for his parents here.

The combination of Representative Chiaki and Kitano Ryuichi has become history in this decade. A new generation of horse racing girls has emerged again. A super genius named "Emperor of the East China Sea" has become a new topic of conversation. Some people say that this The calm and unyielding emperor trained by the "Emperor" himself will be the third undefeated Triple Crown horsewoman to surpass Rudolph.

"Rudolph...have the children she raised reached this stage?" Qianming, who had just returned to Japan, heard a familiar name and couldn't help but smile. However, in her hazy memory, she couldn't help but smile. She didn't think about who this child was connected to, which would make her feel a rare joy?

But before Qian Ming could think of the answer, at this moment, a figure passing by noticed Qian Ming, stopped slightly in surprise, and said in a surprised and somewhat doubtful tone:

"...Senior Qianming? Is that you?"

"Huh? Are you... Enis Wind God?"

Ennis Fengshen, this junior whom we met once at the end of Representative Chiaki’s career.Because she often worked in various places at Tereson College and had some difficulties in her family, Qianming had a particularly deep impression on her - Qianming was a person with a good memory, and she would hardly remember people she met once. forget.

"I didn't expect you to come back so suddenly, Senior Qianming. It's been almost ten years and we don't have any news about you. I'm really worried about something happening to you."

"But now that I'm back, is it really okay for Senior Qianming not to go back to see my uncle and aunt as soon as possible?"

"It's okay. I talk to them on the phone every week. They know I'm fine. I plan to give them a surprise when I go back this time."

Qianming, who had just returned to China and was still a little unfamiliar with everything, also chatted a lot with this junior. Representative Qianming was as cheerful and relaxed as ever, and Enis was also a very talkative girl. Naturally, she had a lot of knowledge and experience after returning home. Qianming chats.

Enis was also very sensible and did not mention anything about Kitano or the past between the two of them in front of Qianming.

"Uncle and aunt will be very happy."

Enis Fengshen looked at Qianming who was smiling very easily, and a complicated expression flashed in his eyes.As someone who witnessed the emergence of the combination of Kitano and Chiaki, it was also because of their experiences that year that I had the thought "I also want to be such a shining existence and find a trainer who supports me like Kitano's trainer." Enis, who had dreamed of stepping onto the field, now sees Qianming alone, and remembers those words of disillusionment in the past, and his mood can be said to be extremely complicated.

But unlike those who were disillusioned and attacked Qianming, Enis was willing to believe that the relationship between the two was real and that they absolutely loved each other. It was only because of many obstacles that it ended up like this.

Because in the cafe... Ennis Fengshen was asked by Kitano, if in the conversation after Qianming retired, Qianming did not choose to leave him in the end, and did not stubbornly choose to forget his words...

Then Kitano will propose to Chiaki.

Enis Fengshen once saw with his own eyes the ring prepared by Kitano. It was not the most valuable ring Enis had ever seen, but it was the most beautiful ring she had ever seen. He handed the ring to Enis, Let her find the right opportunity and take the initiative to hand it over. That was Ennis's most exciting day.

…But all of this has become a past that cannot be mentioned. Although Enis Fengshen doesn’t know whether Qianming’s experience in the past ten years has really made her let go of the past, she still chose not to touch Kitano’s legacy in Qianming’s heart. traces.

"While you are away, Senior Qianming, I will occasionally go to Senior's house to visit my uncles and aunts. Not only me, but also President Rudolph, the Emperor and the others will often go there as well."

"Really? Thank you." Qianming smiled and nodded. Ennis felt relieved when she saw that Qianming behaved as usual. Before she wanted to find a reason to leave, she also said with emotion unintentionally:

"I actually like to go to Qianming-senpai's house. The ginkgo tree in senior's house is growing very well. It was almost dead several times, but now it has grown well and can be kept in the courtyard. Here."

"Senior, if you go home, you can take a look. The ginkgo tree is very conspicuous now. As soon as you see the ginkgo tree, you will know that you have arrived home."

"Really? Then I can rest assured. That was planted by Trainer Sang and I."

When Representative Qianming heard about the ginkgo tree in front of her house, she immediately smiled more than before. As a reflex, she answered Ennis with such a natural tone that neither she nor Ennis Without noticing, they mentioned someone they would never mention on a daily basis.

It wasn't until the two girls took a few steps that Representative Qianming's steps slowly stopped in place. All the smiles on her face froze at this moment, and her pupils were slightly dilated before she realized what she was doing. , the title that I mentioned subconsciously...

Trainer-san...who is that?

Such questions just appeared in Qianming's mind. Suddenly, the memories she thought she had forgotten, his forgotten appearance, memories, all of them... suddenly seemed to erupt like a volcano. A general surge came out, occupying Qian Ming's brain in an instant.

No, no... I have obviously forgotten him, why would I still mention him?

Memories... don't, I don't want to think of those, please, stop... let me forget him, please...

However, Qianming's mind was not under her control at all. All the long-suppressed longings and pains came up with the wave of memories. Starting from that ginkgo tree, Qianming gradually recalled... Reminds me of those past scenes...

"Qianming, could you please do one last thing with me?"

"Qianming, let's avoid the battle and wait for the Emperor's reward in the spring before we can fight Rudolph together."

"Qianming, congratulations to you. You are the first undefeated Triple Crown horsewoman. You really did it."

"Qianming...why are you wearing this ring on me?"

There was a brief pause in the memory at this moment. In a daze, Qianming seemed to have returned to more than ten years ago. She was staring at the man who made her so excited and feeling the warmth he brought to her. That day, She doesn't know how to worry, and doesn't know how to advance or retreat. She wants to take this spring beauty as her own.

The free wind is nostalgic for this spring. She puts on a love ring for spring, and uses all her methods to keep him by her side, never to be separated.

"Because I don't want Trainer-san to leave me. With this ring, everyone will know that Trainer-san belongs to me."

"...tick tock."

A crystal teardrop, ten years late, slowly dripped from the cheek of Representative Qianming... At the moment when the ten years she had tried so hard to forget, effortlessly occupied her mind again, Qianming felt her own Her heart beat again, her heart was finally no longer empty, and her life no longer felt empty.

It was only now that she realized that all the beauty, all the happiness, and all the memories that made her life colorful were all filled with his presence from beginning to end.

He made his life have memories, he illuminated his own dark world, and gave her world color. Unknowingly, he had become the only color in her world.

"sorry Sorry……"

"I can't forget...Bei Ye...I can't do it...Forgive me...I really can't do it..."

I can't forget you, the only color in my life. Without you, everything in the world is so bleak, and the place where you leave traces is the spring that I love.

... Representative Qianming understood, but she understood too late. Her world had lost its color from the moment Kitano left her, and no matter how much she tried to restore it, it was of no avail.

Since then, Representative Qianming has become more and more taciturn. She can no longer maintain any smile on her face. She does not speak or socialize with anyone all day long, and she no longer runs in the heavy rain... …Everything that once meant anything to her has since disappeared from her life.

The only thing she cared about was taking care of the ginkgo tree she planted with him. She often sat silently leaning against the ginkgo tree all day long, watching it grow little by little day by day. Big, as if that was the only meaningful thing in her life.

The ginkgo tree became the only color in Qianming's black and white world. She accompanied him and looked after him. This time, she never wanted to leave his side.

Until I don’t know how many years later... Tired Qianming leaned on this ginkgo tree, accompanied by the peace of mind and peace, and quietly fell asleep, but never opened his eyes again...

The golden ginkgo leaves falling all over the sky covered Qianming's whole body, as if a gentle person had put a golden coat made of leaves on her frail body. She just leaned on his side and finally merged with him as she wished. Be one and never be separated again...

Chapter 85: I am no longer free, I only love this spring that I don’t want to miss anymore

"Qianming? Qianming? Wake up, this is not a place to sleep."

"Ugh..."

In the haze, Qianming represents being awakened from the dream. In her sleep, Qianming does not feel pain, nor does she show any sadness. Her sleeping face is so peaceful that no one can bear to disturb it - if it weren't for her With the tears falling uncontrollably from the corners of her eyes, she might still be sinking into endless dreams and be unable to extricate herself.

After all, in that dream, her life and thoughts came to an end together.Fortunately, before Qianming could adapt to this state, she opened her eyes again and looked at her parents who had returned at some point...

"Dad...Mom? You..."

"Really, you are already an adult, why do you still like to lie under the ginkgo tree and sleep like you did when you were a child?"

However, Qianming's parents didn't know why their daughter showed a little surprise when she saw them after waking up at this moment. They were more concerned about why Qianming kept crying in her sleep.

However, before Qianming's parents could ask the reason again, what they didn't expect at the next moment was that Qianming's representative, who was lying on the ginkgo trees all over the ground, suddenly stood up. Before the couple could react, Qianming at the front stood up. The mother was suddenly hugged by her daughter.

Gradually, the little frightened mother soon noticed the slight sobbing sound of her daughter in her arms. The originally surprised expression quickly softened, and she patted the daughter in her arms without any hesitation. The daughter’s back was covered with ginkgo and dirt, and she softly comforted:

"Okay, okay, mom is here, Qianming, no matter how much grievances you feel in your heart, just cry out."

"Mom and dad will never leave you, so it's okay, it's okay..."

Qianming's mother comforted her daughter over and over again, while Qianming's father also kept silent in a tacit understanding. Although the couple are now in love, they love their daughter very much. They both love her very much. Knowing her daughter's character, she is not the kind of person who cries easily.

Even when they faced the most difficult period, the couple begged everyone they knew but failed to find a suitable trainer for their daughter. None of the Qianming representatives at the time expressed any grievances, let alone any complaints. Something to cry about.

Even later, in the "Three Crowns vs. Undefeated Triple Crowns" matchup between her and Rudolf, they watched their daughter end her career in the heavy rain. From the Triple Crown that should have been admired by everyone in Japan, When the horse race girl became a stepping stone for the "Emperor" to ascend to the throne, they all couldn't help crying. Qianming still smiled brightly in the heavy rain and didn't care about the outcome of all this.

And now, her daughter looks like she is crying... Obviously, the injustice Qianming has suffered and the pain she is enduring in her heart are definitely not something that ordinary people can bear. My daughter may be really hurt this time.

But where does this harm come from?Obviously, my daughter has been a lot busier since she joined the Kitano trainer team, but she has obviously been smiling more when she comes home these days.

Could it be that... some change in Kitano's trainer caused her injury?

The couple simply exchanged a look, but quickly came to the same conclusion. They recalled the last time their daughter locked herself in the room and cried. It was only Kitano who had to take action to solve the problem, so that his daughter could The only thing that causes such big mood swings is things related to Kitano.

After silently enduring the outpouring of emotions from Qianming, Qianming's mother also felt that her daughter's body was no longer shaking. She felt that the time was right before she cautiously asked:

"So, what happened Qianming? If you have any grievances, can you tell your parents?"

"Of course, if you don't want to say it, we won't force you, but the way you look now, it doesn't seem like you can solve these problems alone."

If Qianming doesn't want to say it, then they are basically sure that it is related to Kitano. If Qianming does, it will be easier for them to prescribe the right medicine. Therefore, on this question, it doesn't matter whether Representative Qianming answers or not.

But what the couple didn't expect was that just when Qianming's mother asked, Qianming's representative in her arms burst into tears of joy and laughed. She hugged her mother's arms and couldn't help but become stronger and spoke softly. 's answer:

"It's nothing... I just feel... it's nice to have mom and dad here..."

In that dream, Qianming still remembered that she was already very old in her last memory. She seemed to have spent her whole life in that dream, and she watched helplessly as everyone she cherished passed away one by one. Go, my own Kitano...my own parents...

In the end, the only thing left in my dying self was this ginkgo tree, just like their child, only he was still with me...

…Wait, ginkgo tree?

Representative Qianming suddenly broke free from the sadness and suddenly cast his eyes on the ginkgo tree behind him. But now when Qianming once again cast his eyes on the real ginkgo tree that he had seen since childhood, he discovered that he had once been A secret that I have never noticed!

In that dream, she and Kitano planted the ginkgo tree together... She still remembered that when she was her current age, the ginkgo tree could only grow as high as the courtyard wall.

But now, the ginkgo tree in front of Qianming has grown to almost the same age as she remembered the day she passed away!

Almost instantly, an extremely absurd idea appeared in Representative Qianming’s mind, but it seemed to be the only one that could explain it all.Qianming, who couldn't wait to verify all this, immediately began to breathe harder, turned around and shouted excitedly to his father beside him:

"Dad! Do we have a shovel at home?! Give me the shovel!"

"Huh? Ah, okay, okay! I'll go find it right now!"

Qianming's parents couldn't understand why Qianming's mood suddenly fluctuated as violently as the stock market. But for the same reason, it was rare for their daughter to cry. This was the first time that her daughter was so excited. No matter what No matter what, Qian Ming must have his own reasons. They just need to comply with Qian Ming's small requests.

After a while, Qianming's father found a shovel from his own garage. Qianming picked up the shovel without saying a word, but did something that made both Qianming's parents suspicious - she took the tree that she cherished so much. The soil around the ginkgo tree was dug up.

"Qianming? What are you doing? Don't you like that ginkgo tree the most? Why do you want to dig it up?"

Qianming's mother also asked slightly uneasily. At this time, in the eyes of the couple, Representative Qianming's behavior could be said to be extremely abnormal. He burst into tears and laughed suddenly, and now he looked like he was going to destroy his most precious Ginkgo. Whatever the tree looked like, it was something Chiaki wouldn't do normally.

But even so, after some consideration, they still did not choose to stop Qian Ming... Under their worried gazes, Qian Ming's continuous digging action did not last long. With a crisp collision sound, at this moment, Qian Ming The bodies of everyone including her parents trembled in unison.

After all, the sound was not like a shovel hitting a tree root, but a very clear collision.

"I found it... I actually found it."

After representative Qianming felt the crisp sound, she even forgot to continue shoveling the soil. Excited and stubborn, she immediately knelt down on the ground and used her palms to continuously peel away the wet soil. A move that made her feel The extremely familiar, dark box has become more and more obvious in the soil...

"Hey!"

With the strength of the horse racing girl, Qian Ming suddenly took out the wooden box that had been buried in the soil for countless years.And it was at this time that Qianming's parents, who looked surprised as if they had found a treasure in their home, finally rushed over in time.

"A box? This...when we bought this house, didn't we remember to bury the box?"

"Did the previous owner bury it? But how old is this box? Even if it's been more than 20 years since we moved in, right? How come this box hasn't rotted yet?"

"——This seems to be cypress wood?" Qianming's father looked at the wooden box covered with soil in Qianming's hand. He obviously thought of an answer and couldn't help but murmured to himself:

"I have read some books before, saying that in China, some powerful people will use nanmu, cypress and other types of wood to make coffins, which can often be stored for a long time... If this wooden box is buried in the soil for more than 20 years, it will not decay. The only possibility is that it is made of wood of this material.”

"Huh? Well, what's in here? Isn't it something terrible?"

When Qianming's mother heard that this kind of wood was used to make coffins, she immediately thought whether there might be ashes buried in it.But at this moment, Representative Qianming's ears could no longer hear any other sounds... because she knew what was "buried" in it.

"Wait? Qianming? What are you doing? Don't reveal——"

Qianming's mother noticed her daughter's movements, but she had no time to stop her.Representative Qianming slowly opened the wooden box, and inside the wooden box, they did not see any scary existence, but small objects that shone with crystal luster under the sunlight.

I saw, one on the left and one on the right, one precious, one simple, two small rings, lying quietly in wooden boxes that would not decay for a hundred years. They had witnessed the end of a relationship, and now , but they met again because of the same two people and the same relationship.

"...tick tock."

Gradually, a teardrop quietly fell into the wooden box. Now, Representative Qianming, who finally understood all this, had tears streaming down his face.She thought she knew all the truth, she thought she knew the person she loved best, but she didn't even know what he had buried until now.