Longmen Memoirs

The fox sighed in confusion.

"Because you gave up your great future just for me, a person who will soon forget you, your efforts for more than ten years will be in vain, and you will become an infected person."

Chen Mo was half-joking, and the joke made him feel uncomfortable.

"That's not it." The fox shook his head slightly, but couldn't hide the loneliness in his eyes.

Chen Mo suddenly reached out and pinched the ears on top of her head.

The fox watched his movements, but after all the hand to stop him could not reach out cruelly. She felt the touch of the hand on the tip of her ear, and her ears could not help but tremble slightly.

"Have you played enough?"

Like a child, the fox feels a little helpless. He liked to pinch his ears when he was a child. Maybe he shouldn't admit it, because once he admits it, he will become so unruly.

"It's still the same as when I was a child."

"Don't think that just because you act so intimate now, I will pretend that nothing happened." She gritted her teeth, still not daring to reveal the weakness and touch in her heart.

Even if you see some people and loss clearly, you still can't let go.

"Aren't you used to me disappearing from your world?" Chen Mo asked, his voice was very soft, but it sounded clearly in the fox's ears.

So the sadness, grievance, weakness and longing that she had finally suppressed in her heart were like a tide that could no longer be suppressed, but she still wanted to pretend to be free and easy because she wanted to prove that she had grown up.

She didn't want Chen Mo to see her jokes, but she didn't want Chen Mo to see her jokes.

She couldn't follow others her whole life.

"It's been so many years. How could you remember me for so long?" She calmly said a matter of fact.

"But you still remember me." Chen Mo looked at the fox's profile: "I thought no one in this city would be waiting for me to come back. In fact, I was also prepared, but inevitably when the time comes, I still feel It’s sad because I grew up here, and there was a moment when I thought I could stay here forever.”

The so-called regret, in the final analysis, is still the unwillingness in my heart. I am unwilling to accept why it is me and why it is me. I have never thought about doing anything. I just want to grow up and live an ordinary life.

But now, I can no longer look back.

But now, I can no longer let it go.

"I've changed, fox."

"We have all changed, Gouzi, and Longmen has also changed."

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"So you went to my orphanage later? You found the iron box there."

The city of Longmen has entered night, the setting sun disappears in the sky, and the lights in the room are turned on. Chen Mo puts a blanket on the fox and sits next to him.

They talked about some things in the past, and listened to the fox talk about her experience in Longmen over the years. Her experience can be summarized in a few words.

Ordinary, but full of hardships.

"Ms. Teresa in the orphanage gave it to me. I told her I was your friend." The fox's memory has always been good. "They kept all the things the children had left over the years and said maybe you would go back one day."

"so……"

"She didn't believe I was your friend at first."

"But she still gave it to you. I guess she must have said something to you."

"Xiaota and Hui Jie." Chen Mo was stunned by the two names that the fox suddenly said. She also noticed Chen Mo's absence. "Are they your friends there?" the fox asked. "She asked me if you had ever mentioned them. I said no. She seemed to think that you would definitely talk about them."

"They are friends I met later, almost like you..."

"But there are still some differences." The fox said, "At least you can definitely remember them."

Chen Mo suddenly lost his voice.

After several seconds, he spoke.

"Yes."

So later, the fox had reason to be hostile to Tallulah and Chen. What she failed to catch, those two people could easily throw away. She just failed to appear when Chen Mo needed it. She just appeared too early. She just It was too ordinary, so he couldn't remember it.

Chen Mo didn't know what kind of feelings he should feel for the fox. Friends who hadn't seen each other for more than ten years would naturally have the joy of reunion and the inevitable unfamiliarity. Naturally, they no longer had the kindness and familiarity they had when they were children.

But Fox, when she grows up, she can always see the softest part of a person's heart, but she forgets that when you are too close, you are most likely to be ignored.

Maybe she didn't forget, but she didn't care.

There is no doubt that Chen Mo does not love Su Li, let alone like him. If we insist on talking about the relationship between her and Su Hu, then it will probably be more like friends than friends and more like relatives.

But they are not real relatives after all, even if the fox spends so much effort.

Fox opened her mouth, but the words she wanted to say were stuck deep in her throat. She could already see the answer from Chen Mo's expression, but she couldn't help but feel a little lonely because of the answer.

But the person in front of her is her dog, the dog she would rather give up everything she owns in Longmen and want to stand by his side.

She is not even afraid of death.

But she would not ridicule, argue, or make him feel embarrassed.

She would only follow him, stand by his side when she was sad, and never fight for anything.

Because in Gouzi's heart, whether she wants to admit it or not, the person she cares about most is not her.

She was used to trying to figure out feelings, and it was inevitable that she would fall into them.

"Don't you tell me about your situation?" Fox asked, tightening the blanket around her body. It cannot be denied that after confessing, she was finally able to interact with Chen Mo as a fox cub instead of a fox hound. get along.

"Tell me about it, Gouzi, I'm very curious. Maybe if you talk about it, my body won't hurt so much."

Chapter 29 I don’t expect anything anymore

In the end, Chen Mo failed to mention the past about Hui Jie and Xiaota to the fox. In fact, he didn't remember the past very much. The fox was just a special case, a special case that couldn't be more stupid. Chen Mo wouldn't think there was another one in the world. A fox, and even a fox, she must have been able to see that she could no longer trust others.

She didn't say it, but it didn't mean that Chen Mo didn't understand.

When she turned her head, the fox was already asleep. She was very quiet while sleeping, with a slight frown on her pale and delicate face.

Perhaps it was because after she was first infected with Originium Disease, the pain and the pressure caused by this unsolvable disease inevitably made her spirit relax. Perhaps it was at this time that Chen Mo suddenly told her that he had already guessed her purpose. , causing her to fall into a state of confusion for a moment. She didn't have time to think about anything more, and her quick thoughts fell into brief confusion.

In short, tonight, she seemed incompatible with the calm, cunning and suspicious fox hound she usually was.

"I no longer have any extravagant hopes, Fox." Chen Mo said softly, looking at the fox's peaceful sleeping face.

In fact, I have already let go of some things.

Some things were already prepared before I entered the dragon gate.

Maybe I will still feel regret... But Fox, just like I don't want to recognize you, even if I recognize them, what will it prove.

You don’t know what I’ve encountered out there over the years.

I have to fulfill the promise I made in Kazdale, and this road... cannot be left to chance.

I have to be responsible for those who believe in me now. I have to make their death worthwhile. I have to finish the road I should go and keep the way I should keep.

I think maybe this is the only meaning I have left in this world.

I think that since the broken dream has been broken, there is no need to look forward to it anymore, just regard it as an unforgettable memory.

June 1090, 4, Crystalline Era

A letter from Longmen found its way into Kazdale through the channels left by Black Steel International in Longmen.

Tower of Babel, leader's office.

Kelsey was silent. The letter she brought not long ago was now in Theresia's hand. Theresia slowly read the letter and raised her head to look at Kelsey in front of her.

There was a hint of surprise and a touch of sadness on her face.

"Kelsey, have you read this letter?"

Kelsey nodded.

"Mr. Chen Mo, he really decided this way."

"Yes, Theresia." Kelsey's voice was still indifferent: "That's what he decided. He stated in the letter that he has a way to drag Yanguo into Kazdaele's chaotic situation. We can try it. , once this ancient country takes action, it will definitely be able to contain all the forces that are now reaching deep into Kazdaele. We all know how chaotic the situation in Kazdaele is now. The neighboring Yan country is a good Help, the pressure it brings can effectively open up the situation for us. Moreover... Theresia, someone has already noticed the existence of Li Court. The Tower of Babel cannot always provide shelter for Li Court. Once you really decide to integrate the present These forces and noble lords will inevitably separate from the Tower of Babel when they leave the court, and they need funds and support."

"Doctor, does he think so too?" Theresia asked after a moment of silence.

"The doctor believes that if Chen Mo can find a way to draw the Yan Kingdom's attention to Kazdaele, while attracting the attention of the forces behind the scenes, under the guise of the Yan Kingdom, he can also use this opportunity to enhance the Tower of Babel's influence on the lords below. With the control and influence of the army, Yan Guo’s entry can buy enough time for the Tower of Babel.”

Kelsey spoke calmly, but Theresa was still hesitant.

"I have clearly told Mr. Chen Mo that I hope he can think more about himself."

"But I think he also told you that if you really want to realize the ideal in your heart, you shouldn't look forward and backward. Theresia, you are the monarch of Sakaz. You understand what you are shouldering. Colombia secedes from Victoria. At that time, we thought it was an opportunity, but it turned out that Victoria was still able to stabilize his rule, but the situation in Kazdaele has not changed. Gaul has disappeared. Today's Yan Kingdom is the only one capable of replacing Gaul. status of the country.”

Kelsey said: "I have never considered that one day the Yan Kingdom will intervene in the situation in Kazdaele. This country is not as militaristic and ambitious as Gaul, Victoria and Ursus today, but it is powerful. Powerful and mysterious, perhaps equally stubborn and decadent, but undoubtedly... Now we can make it cast its sights, and that's enough. The forces lurking in Kazdaele will be more nervous than us."

Theresia frowned slightly.

Kelsey rarely expressed such obvious opinions and positions, which made her feel something was wrong.

"Kelsey, are you hiding something from me? You would never have made such a sincere inference in the past."

"I just want to tell you, Theresia, it's time to make a choice." Kelsey advised: "Everyone is waiting for you, looking at you, looking forward to you, and now, the opportunity is here In front of you, he has already made his choice."

"It's my turn to respond, right? Kelsey." Theresia asked softly.

"You have your mission and your responsibilities."

It is to accept Chen Mo's choice, listen to his opinions, and believe that he can draw Yanguo into the chaotic situation in Kazdaele, create opportunities for the current situation, and live up to the expectations of all those who look at you for this ideal.

Theresia was the monarch.

She doesn't live for herself.

So she never【~

"You still speak so intuitively." Theresia sighed. "Mr. Chen Mo told me at the beginning that he stayed in the hope that Sakaz could help him one day, so he made an exchange with us."

"I don't know if we helped him or dragged him down." Theresa looked at Kelsey and said, "I understand, Kelsey, I understand why Mr. Chen Mo made this choice."

"He has been in contact with the doctor during that time. They talked about many things. Askaron told me that from Mr. Chen Mo's words, I can feel that he thinks I am an unrealistic monarch. , he once told me bluntly that maybe Tracys is better suited to handle the situation Sakaz is facing now than me, otherwise why would so many people be willing to support his ideas."

"Theresia..." Kelsey couldn't help but speak.

"It's okay, Kelsey." Theresa smiled: "I'm just feeling a little emotional. I know you are already doing it. I don't mean to blame you, but I can't pass the responsibility on myself. You guys are pretending not to know anything, aren't you?"

"Me too, I have some selfish motives, Kelsey."

June 1090, 4, Crystalline Era

A secret force of several hundred people gathered at the Tower of Babel and then headed northeast.

The young Custer girl was lying on the window looking at the soldiers who were preparing for the journey.

"Your Highness, where are they going?" She turned her head curiously and looked at Theresia beside her.

"Amiya, Amiya, the doctor gave them a small task. They have to pick up a person. He will be back soon." Theresa said softly, and gently stretched out her hand to pick up Amiya. Pick up.

"Is that person our companion?"

"Well, yes, he is our companion."

His Highness's embrace was warm. They stood on the window sill and watched the team gather. The leader of the warrior had white hair that looked like snow.

Theresia gently rested her chin on Custer's head.

"Amiya, maybe one day, I will ask you to do something for me that I can no longer do. If that day comes, I hope you will not refuse me."

"Is there anything your Highness can't do?"

Young Amiya asked in confusion. In her opinion, His Highness is the omnipotent and perfect person.

She has such deep trust and admiration for His Highness.

But His Highness, whom she admired, nodded gently.

"Yes, there are many." His Highness said, "There are many things that I can't do, but I can't do them. Maybe you can, Amiya, grow up quickly."

Behind the Tower of Babel.

Kelsey blocked the doctor's path.

She just stood in the middle of the road. The doctor's footsteps stopped and his expression could not be seen clearly under the hood.

"You should know why I'm looking for you." Kelsey said coldly.