Longmen Memoirs

"That's how you were when you were little, never giving up easily, always wanting to try anything."

Whether he ran away from home privately or crossed half the city alone on that cold snowy night, Chen was always so persistent and stubborn, never giving up or giving up easily.

"Where's that film? Is it no longer here?" Chen asked, looking around the room.

"out."

"friend?"

"Well, let's live together for now."

"Ah."

"So why are you here this time? Beat me up again to vent your anger?"

"In your eyes, I am just a hands-on person?" Chen calmly asked: "I came here this time just to have a good talk with you."

"I don't think we have anything more to talk about."

"What you say doesn't count!"

Chen Mo's gaze was like a piercing sword, staring straight into Chen Mo's eyes. She had indeed grown into something unfamiliar to Chen Mo, and now she acted more like a bad visitor.

"Won't you invite me to come in and sit down? As a friend I haven't seen for a long time."

"I thought we weren't friends anymore. If it's just to catch up on old times, you're welcome."

Chen Mo opened the door and made a welcoming gesture, as if everything that just happened was an illusion.

But they all knew that it was not an illusion.

"What would you like to drink?"

Chen sat down opposite him, as if he had not seen a friend for many years, selectively forgetting the hurried and unfriendly meeting half a month ago.

"Whatever." She said casually, looking at everything around her.

In fact, Chen Mo didn't know much about Chen. Even when she was in the orphanage, she only came once a week and only stayed for half a day. The orphanage did not prepare too many drinks, at least for an orphanage. , they do not have such luxurious conditions, and Chen often brings her own water glass, and her water glass does not always contain the same kind of drink.

Most of those are foods that Tallulah likes, but Chen, she may not like them.

"cold water."

"Still as stingy as ever."

Chen Mo put the water glass on the table in front of her. She glanced at it and then looked at Chen Mo's face.

"What happened last time was my fault, I'm sorry."

What surprised Chen Mo was that Chen would actually say such an apology, although there was no trace of apology on her face.

"It's okay, I can understand."

"That's good, huh, I'm still as unbeatable as before. Why haven't I thought about exercising for so many years?"

"Are you here specifically to laugh at me?"

Sure enough, that kind of concerned tone would not appear on Chen's body, but perhaps because of Chen's words, the stiff atmosphere relaxed a lot.

"Occasionally I want to exercise, but I quickly lose interest. As you know, I am very lazy and have never had much patience or perseverance."

"You said at that time that your current life was very good, and you were very satisfied?" Chen's eyes looked past Chen Mo at everything in the room, and then fell on Chen Mo again.

"It doesn't look like that right now."

"I don't want to lose face by lying to you." Chen Mo said: "Actually, as long as life is passable, I don't have any big pursuits. What I want to do most in my life is to eat and die and live like this now. It's pretty good. .”

Chen seemed to want to ask something else, but Chen Mo interrupted her. Chen took the initiative in the conversation, which gave him a bad feeling.

-)【 "How did you find this place?"

"I asked a friend I knew, but it still took a long time."

"Friends I met in Victoria?"

"It's a classmate in school."

"The one who came out with you that day?"

"It's another one. Have you finished asking your questions?"

She seemed very dissatisfied with Chen Mo's question.

"It's weird that I make friends."

"No, I just think of it when I was young. It's funny to say that. At that time, I thought that with your personality, it would be difficult to make friends in the future."

"You can't live in the past all your life."

"……you're right."

"Speaking of which, didn't you also make a new friend, Mr. Wildcat?" Chen suddenly looked at Chen Mo and said this with unclear meaning.

"That's right."

"Live together and have a good relationship?"

"Fortunately, she will stay with me for a while."

"How long is a period of time?"

"I'm not sure. It could be a few months at most or a few days at the earliest. We have to wait for her to handle the family affairs."

"I'm not sure what it means. Don't make it so vague." Chen's voice suddenly became louder.

Chen Mo was stunned for a moment, feeling something was wrong.

"This doesn't seem to have anything to do with you, right?"

Chen Mo didn't know how uncertain his tone was at that time. This simple reminiscence seemed to be slowly changing towards an unknown angle without even noticing.

"Just curious."

Chen also reacted, but she was not embarrassed at all. Instead, she explained normally, as if she thought it was a matter of course.

A few seconds passed.

"Where did you go after you left Longmen?"

"There are too many places to count. The person who fostered me is a businessman. I have met many people and many things happened with them over the years. After my adoptive father passed away a few years ago, he was kicked out due to inheritance disputes." Chen Mo smiled far-fetchedly. He smiled: "It's you, why are you in Londinium?"

"I'm currently studying abroad at the Guards School here."

"Is that so? You've decided to go to the Guards Bureau when you return?"

"I'll probably go, I've already planned it."

Chen did not deny it.

"That's pretty good." Chen Mo said. "With your family background and current academic qualifications, you will have great prospects in Longmen in the future."

For Chen, the Longmen Guards Bureau may be the best choice, at least for now.

Chen's hand suddenly clenched the water glass.

She hated this sentence a little, and what was even more annoying was that she was unable to refute it.

Chen Mo noticed Chen's movements.

"There is no need to feel any resistance. This world is inherently unfair. To you, to me, to many people, some things are predestined from birth, but you can still choose who you want to be."

The fingers that clenched the water glass slowly loosened their grip.

"You don't need to tell me, I will go back immediately after graduation."[$>

"I thought you would object to this sentence." Chen Mo said half-jokingly.

Chen glanced at him.

"I'm not that naive."

After she finished speaking, she took out something from the bag of her coat. It was something that Chen Mo was very familiar with. It was so familiar that he would never forget it in his life. He did not expect that it would fall into Chen Mo's hands.

The thing that changed Chen Mo's life from the beginning remained with him in the following years, proof that certain people had existed.

Just like that, he appeared in front of Chen Mo again.

Chapter 42 Lost and found, reunited after a long absence ([-])

[Some people are born to be rebels, and some people are born with integrity. The times have made them, or maybe they have made the times. 】

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A police badge covered in scratches and rust over time.

It reminded Chen Mo of that summer many years ago. The weather that day was as beautiful as today, with bright sunshine and warm air. If not for everything that happened later, it would not have left such a deep impression on him. .

Chen Mo kept thinking about it later, and couldn't help but wonder if it would have been different if he hadn't opened the door that day, but he knew very well that even if he didn't open it, someone would open it.

What has happened is destined to be unchangeable. The only thing a person can do is to accept it and continue to live after crying.

Chen put the mottled police badge on the table and pushed it towards him.

Chen Mo was absent-minded for a moment. The absent-minded expression fell in Chen's eyes, and was quickly covered up.

"It turns out it's you."

Chen Mo looked at the police badge with nostalgia, but did not reach out to pick it up.

He is familiar with it better than anyone else, so even when he looks at Chen Mo, he can clearly remember every scratch on it. When he was in the concentration camp, it was it that accompanied Chen Mo through every cold and lonely night. It was also the key to his miserable life.

But later, because of Tallulah's appearance, Chen Mo put it back in the drawer and had no time to take care of it. But now it reappeared in front of Chen Mo, as if to let him remember those things that he thought had been blurred for a long time. past.

He should remember and miss it, just like the tombstone he saw when he returned to Longmen with a blurry photo.

Chen Mo couldn't clearly see the faces of the people above him, so he couldn't remember what they looked like anymore.

"It should be important to you," Chen said softly.

Tallulah left nothing behind, just like when you left, this police badge is the only thing you left behind. In the years to come, Chen will leave it wherever he goes. Take it with you.

Just like carrying the two most important people in her past childhood, for her, this also became proof that some people once existed.

"You never told me about you." Chen raised his head and looked at Chen Mo, slowly retracting his hand from the police badge, as if waiting for him to say something.

Chen Mo raised his head and met each other's eyes. Under the warm and bright sunshine, it was very much like that summer many years ago.

"It's not a very important thing." Chen Mo said nonchalantly, "I almost forgot about it."

"Your father was once a police officer of the Longmen Guards Bureau in the early years. He died in a hostage-taking rescue mission." Chen's voice was a little low and he paused: "He is a hero worthy of admiration. "

"..."

Chen was wrong about one thing. That man was not a hero, at least not in the eyes of Chen Mo and his mother.And later on, those people paid the price.

"Have you checked?"

Chen Mo was not surprised. If it were Chen, he would of course be able to find out these things easily, because it was not too secretive, and he did not cover it up deliberately. If Chen was willing, he would know it sooner or later.

"It's not easy to find this information from the dusty pile of old documents. If it weren't for this police badge, it would have taken me several years to find the people who experienced it, and then I gradually figured out the whole story."

Chen Mo's expression was a bit serious. She had this cold face most of the time. Chen Mo had seen her smile a long time ago, but now it seemed that it might be difficult for this face to show the same smile in front of him again.

Although she spoke very easily, Chen Mo could still think of how laborious and exhausting it was for her to look up the old things in the pile of old papers by herself.

But is it really worth her to spend so much effort? Or, maybe it's just her resistance that she doesn't want to live such a confused life anymore.

She seemed to be letting Chen Mo lose his guard little by little. Maybe Chen didn't think so, but considering what Chen did, maybe the word "touched" was too light.

Because you have been alone for so many years, and the things you have made up your mind to abandon are still being remembered.

"Why do such a thing?"

Suddenly, Chen Mo realized that he actually didn't understand Chen at all, he didn't understand the thoughts of the girl in front of him, and he didn't understand what kind of person she had become after so many years.

The Chen in front of him felt strange, and it felt the same in Chen's eyes.

"I don't know. I have been practicing swordsmanship for these years. Apart from practicing swordsmanship, this is the only thing I can find to do. I don't want to let myself be idle."

"Is that so? This is what you came here to tell me?"

"No, I'm here to give it back to you."

Although he said this, Chen Mo clearly saw a trace of nostalgia in Chen's eyes.

It's not nostalgia for herself, but for the memory of the past and what she cared about.