Longmen Memoirs

"No, if you don't mind, just treat it as a souvenir. How can you be so embarrassed to take something back after giving it away?" Chen Mo said.

Chen's words are not over yet.

"You've been back, right?" She didn't refuse, she asked suddenly, and this sentence was very certain.

Chen Mo suddenly understood that the purpose of her taking out this thing was just to bring out the topics that followed.

Chen Mo subconsciously wanted to deny it, but Chen looked at him and seemed to be telling him that even if he denied it, it would have no effect, because Chen Mo had already made a judgment and she had always been a stubborn person.

"I received a telegram from Longmen some time ago..." Chen said without finishing her sentence.

In fact, the letter did not mention any news about Chen Mo, but Chen did not say what the content of the letter she received was, and she said it halfway.

When contacted again, she suspected that Chen Mo might be lying to herself. For the reason, Chen could only think of Wei Yanwu.

She was very cunning, but Chen Mo didn't know how much Chen knew. Chen's eyes were too serious, as if she really knew a lot in that letter.

"……Yes."

"When!" Chen asked eagerly.

Chen Mo was stunned for a moment. Chen's eager questioning did not hide the slightest hint. He understood that he had been deceived by Chen.

But now that the lie has been exposed, it can no longer continue.

"half year ago."

"That's not what you said before." Chen's eyes were very complicated, as if she didn't know what to ask next after seeing through the lie.

Why go back?Isn’t the answer already clear?

You said you were living a good life, you said you had a new life in Victoria, and you said before that you were wandering around with your merchant adoptive father. How much of that was true or false?

But in that case, why did you go back to Longmen? Why did you not feel any surprise or refute when I mentioned that letter?

The lie was exposed so quickly that it caught people off guard.

Chen Mo didn't answer.

"What did you do when you went back?" Chen said again: "Don't lie to me with those words again, don't lie to me like him!"

Chen Mo's eyes reminded Chen Mo of Wei Na's previous words, "You can tell her what you know. It's her own business to choose. You don't have to worry about it."

But can I really tell Chen about all the hardships and hardships? What will I gain even if I tell her?

“I do [@#

"So you were lying to me before. You said he gave you a choice and you left Longmen."

"It's not all lies. He did let me choose, and I chose to leave Longmen, but I never said I wouldn't go back. I would go back and take Xiaota away." Chen Mo said.

"Why did you lie to me before?"

"You have your own life. Xiaota is not in Longmen. I couldn't find her in Longmen, but I met you in Victoria."

"...She left and I couldn't keep her."

Chen Mo failed to see Chen Fang's tightly clenched hands under the seat. Her heart was not at peace, just like she didn't know anything when Chen Mo left. When Tallulah left, she watched her leave with her own eyes, and she Still nothing can be done.

[Come with me, you don’t know how this city treats us, how the adults see us...]

Chen refused at that time.

Over the years, Chen recalled that night and that little adventure countless times, and experienced the same powerless frustration countless times, which later led to her harshness and harshness that kept squeezing herself, almost To the point of being inhumane.

Perhaps, it was Chen Mo's turn to question her at this time, but what reason did Chen Mo have to question Chen Mo? He had no reason, because Chen Mo had also felt her powerlessness, but to a certain extent, he was better than Chen Mo. Lucky.

They all have their own luck, a small amount of luck. Just like Chen who was excluded when she was young, she has a better future than Chen and Tallulah.

Chen Mo's feet are already standing in the darkness, but Chen is different from him. She is qualified to stand in the sun. She is not alone, because besides herself, Chen already has new friends, and there will be people by her side. Motivate her, encourage her, help her.

Chen was very pleased, but did not regret it. He just had some regrets because when he was very young, he thought there would be a place for me there.

"None of us thought it would turn out like this."

Chen Mo said, it is like a grown-up adult commenting on the play that happened when he was a child, which seems not worth mentioning now.

"But now that it has happened, it cannot be changed. We all have our own lives, whether you, me, or Xiaota, we have already lived our own lives. Let the past pass. .”

But even if he said this, Chen Mo felt a little ridiculous in his heart. His words to comfort others seemed light, but his words could not convince even him.

Our lives, from then on, have become graffiti that others can change at will.

Everyone understands the truth, but if you understand it, you may not be able to accept it. If everyone could look at the problem rationally and objectively, so many things would not happen in the world.

"Ha, you are still full of truth." Chen looked at Chen Mo with a sneer: "Do you believe what you said?"

Just like Chen Mo understands Chen, Chen also understands him. They both understand each other, and they both understand that these are just words of self-deception, but Chen just likes to speak out and expose them. She never likes to compromise easily, and her strong attitude also makes people feel have no choice.

"Whether you believe it or not, this is reality."

"Reality does not mean compromise!" She suddenly yelled, as if she hated iron and was irritated by Chen Mo's tone.

"This is a cop-out, you coward!"

Chen has disliked Chen Mo since he was a child, because in Chen's eyes, he is not only a hypocritical and terrible person, but also because of his always negative thoughts.

Chen had tried many times to prevent him from getting close to Tallulah, but she had never been able to do it.Although this attitude improved a lot later, their relationship has never been so harmonious, but because of Tallulah, Chen was very restrained.

But Tallulah isn't here now.

"Yes, I am a coward, but what can you do! We are no longer children. Do you still need me to teach you what it means to be an adult? You are still holding on to those innocent fantasies as before!"

Chen Mo retorted, as if stimulated by Chen Tianzhen's childish fantasy, he laughed sarcastically.

"Look, Miss, this is the reality. The reality is like this. I live in a place of more than ten square meters. I have to worry about living and salary, food, rice, oil and salt, and you never have to think about this!"

"No! Don't call me that!"

Chen doesn't like Chen Mo's attitude, but equally, he doesn't like Chen's childish and innocent thoughts. Maybe when he was a child, he could think that it was a child's delusion, and even find it interesting, but after all these years, Chen seems to still No change.

This is a good thing, but for people like Chen Mo, it seems too ridiculous.

They quarreled, and Chen Mo couldn't remember how many times we had quarreled. Ten years later, they met again, and the results were not very good. They either started fighting or quarreled.

The sound is getting louder【%&

Without Tallulah by his side, the conflict between them finally broke out. The conflict that had been suppressed for ten years, in a small flat house, changed from a calm conversation at the beginning to a quarrel now.

No one can convince each other, nor can they make each other accept their opinions. Yes, they have not experienced each other's lives, so how can they impose their ideas on each other.

It was just a catharsis, a fruitless quarrel.

But now, it gradually expanded and started to take action. What Chen Mo didn't know was that this quarrel was intentionally led by Chen, but even she didn't expect it, and she couldn't restrain herself in the end.

She was indeed irritated by Chen Mo's words, and Chen Mo was also unhappy with her words.

For more than ten years, they have missed each other's lives.

Chen Mo wanted to restrain himself, but he could, but Chen Mo's words became more and more sarcastic.

What do you know!

You know how I have spent the past ten years, and you know how much hatred and helplessness I have hidden in my heart.

Maybe it would be good to have a quarrel, Chen Mo suddenly thought. After the quarrel, there would be no more words to talk about.

The direct result is that now, Chen Mo is pushed on the sofa by her, and at the same time he grabs her arm, trying to suppress her again.

If speech cannot prevail, the best and most direct way is to use violence.

But neither of them succeeded in persuading each other. They could only make their clothes messy. Chen Mo's thin short sleeves were torn into rags and hung in front of him from the waist. Chen Mo's coat was taken off during the fight. Several buttons on the white shirt underneath were broken, revealing her fair and flat belly under the shirt.

Her body pressed against Chen Mo's back because she wanted to hold him down. Chen Mo let go and grabbed her arm and wanted to turn around, but Chen suddenly used his legs to clamp Chen Mo's thigh that was trying to exert force.

catch.

They look very close now. If coupled with their flushed faces and slightly panting appearance due to their hands, in the eyes of others, it will be easy to think of many unspeakable things, but in fact, they are just doing it. fight.

The quarrel turned into a fight.

The living room had already become a mess. Only the low table, which had been kicked over, and the police badge that fell next to the sofa reflected a faint light in the sun, as if watching their movements. .

Chen let go of his hand and held one hand on the back of the sofa. It was still behind Chen Mo, but it was more than ten centimeters away.

Rapid breathing sounded in Chen Mo's ears, and the strength in his hand softened, and he loosened his grip on Chen's forearm.

Blue hair fell down on her face. Chen lowered his head and looked down at him. The hair covered Chen's eyes. Chen Mo couldn't see her expression. He could only see half of her face and her slightly open mouth. He bit his lip lightly again.

Chen let go.

Chen Mo suddenly understood what she had seen.

They no longer have to fight, and there is no need to continue fighting.

On the exposed short-sleeved body, there are scars of different sizes, densely covered one by one, ugly and even disgusting scars, knife wounds, gunshot wounds, burns... all kinds of injuries are densely covered in the original body. On the skin, it’s hard to count how much there is.

Chen Mo has lost count of how many times he has narrowly escaped death and survived with good luck over the years.

Chapter 43 Lost and found, reunited after a long absence ([-])

Chen will never forget that day.

That day, the hazy sky was falling and light rain was falling. In the ruins of the city, the fractured and collapsed urban area, the old man was holding Xiaota's hand.

She looked at her uncle and the figure in black clothes and armor beside him.

"Which direction did he go?"

"To the west, we will soon reach the restricted area of ​​Huiho District."

"All of this was planned by him. In order to confirm the security situation of the signing of the agreement, Letania expanded the conflict restricted area to overlap with our restricted area."

The economic system was being established that year, and the dragon gate that signed the economic tariff contract with Letania stayed at the border with Letania.

"We were able to sneak in, kill Cosiche, and get the lady back."

"No, he is ready." Wei Yanwu refused: "...for this meeting, the twin princesses directly sent the Queen's Voice, and there were no longer a few armed forces accompanying them. Not long after the queens ascended the throne, once Kosich intends to detonate diplomacy Conflict, and all our transgressions may become an excuse for the queens to demonstrate their authority, and we cannot give Cosiche more opportunities to harm Longmen and even Dayan."

This is a long-planned conspiracy.

"Uncle!" The young girl looked up at Wei Yanwu who was holding her hand. She could feel Wei Yanwu's anger.

"..." Wei Yanwu lowered his head and looked at her.

"Hui Jie."

"Uncle...don't blame Xiaota."

"I don't blame her."

"...Then you scold me."

"You did nothing wrong."

She lowered her head and held Wei Yanwu's hand tightly: "I promised her to go together, but I was afraid...I...I let go and didn't go with her..."

"...Hui Jie, this is her fault, not yours."

"But...but uncle, you said you wouldn't blame her!"

"Yes, I won't."

"But she...but didn't she do something wrong? If she did something wrong, wouldn't she...be scolded?" She asked uneasily.

"..." Wei Yanwu was silent for a while.

"She doesn't know the truth. This truth shouldn't be known to anyone, so she will definitely make mistakes, even if not now, then in the future." She heard her uncle say softly: "...In many cases, mistakes should not be punished. Yes, we will not only make mistakes, but we will also make many mistakes. We will definitely make some mistakes, and we cannot avoid them."

"Tallulah just made the mistake she was bound to make."

"In that case, is it still called a mistake?"

"It's still the same. This land will not tolerate something just because it will happen." Wei Yanwu withdrew his gaze: "The harsh land, the harsh people, the harsh rule, they don't care about anything except right and wrong, as if they are right. Wrong is their life, not breathing and swallowing.”

"...I don't understand what you're talking about, uncle." She couldn't understand what her uncle was saying, but she knew what she wanted: "So...will Xiaota come back?"

"I don't know, Hui Jie, I don't know."

Wei Yanwu's answer finally made her cry.

"...then Xiaota won't come back because of me? It's all my fault...it's all my fault...Xiaota." She choked and cried.

"Hui Jie!"