Longmen Memoirs

What can I do when we meet again after a long separation?

What should I do if the situation is the same when I find her again?

Chen closed his eyes.

what i can do...

Wasn't it decided many years ago?

I worked hard to learn swordsmanship, came to Victoria to study, and my plans after returning to Longmen.

But it’s all for one thing.

So that I can no longer be helpless when faced with the same choice.

"But..." Chen opened her eyes, she picked up Chi Xiao's long box, her pupils were full of determination: "So what!"

Those things that are innate and irreversible, so what.

Chen Huijie is still the same Chen Huijie.

That Chen Huijie who likes to have her own way and is unwilling to compromise.

Chen didn't read the letter from Longmen again. She tore the letter into pieces in front of the fox before she had time to open it.

"Isn't this exactly what you want?"

"Don't say that."

"You disobeyed the order. Have you considered what to do after you return to Longmen?" Chen suddenly asked.

"Then you don't have to worry about it, Miss Chen."

"...why help me?"

"I'm not helping you." Fox lit the cigarette and glanced at Chen beside her.

Her eyes were cold.

Chen suddenly understood what she meant, and she said nothing more.

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I can't help but think back to that city at night, with the lights turning into bonfires.There were people laughing, singing, and dancing in the firelight. I stretched out my hand to grab it, only to find that it was far away from me, so far that I could only watch.I thought that one day I would become the person in the fire, and there was nothing wrong with it...

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As the dawn light illuminates the city streets, the noise and fires that have lasted all night are slowly extinguishing, and the air is filled with gray dust and embers of fire.

The sky was gray, just like everyone who walked out of the house into the street, with no trace of gray to be seen.

She raised her head and looked towards the end of the street. In the gray fog, footsteps were getting closer and further away. The black police uniform broke through the fog and came to her.

She heard someone shouting, crying, hysterical roaring, and struggling.

She saw a pair of eyes appear in her sight, and someone picked her up. She didn't struggle, and acted very quietly from beginning to end. She just looked at the two falling figures holding each other's hands tightly, until they Disappeared into the depths of his sight.

She was put into the police car and looked at the world outside the car. Outside the car door that had not been closed, the bright lights of the city were blocked in thick ashes. Only people in black kept walking through the ashes. , looming.

She hugged her scarred arms tightly and looked at them silently.

In this short night, she lost her home and her only relative.

The days that followed always became so rushed that she had no time to think about everything that happened that night, nor did she have time to recall how they hugged her tightly.

Everything passed so fast that she couldn't react in time. She moved from one strange place to another. Her clothes became tattered and she could no longer see her walking in the night holding the two figures. The smiles on their faces.

She just felt empty and didn't know where she should go or where she should return. She could only walk around with the surging crowd like a tide.

She has gradually gotten used to this kind of life, used to competing with others for food, and used to being hungry.

I learned to hug my body tightly on cold nights, and I also learned to cover my ears when I heard crying.

Because the group of people who cried the loudest often only got yelling, punches and kicks.

Until she met that person.

In the muddy mud, deep in the stinky and cold tent, the fox had never seen him cry, but he was obviously about the same age as her, but he was completely different from the people around him. She did not see it in his eyes. The kind of darkness I've seen before.

One night, he threw a cold steamed bun into his hand.

"Want to eat? I hid it secretly."

She heard him say this, his voice was very low, and his dirty face became so blurry in the dark tent, and only his eyes could be seen.

She was very hungry, but she had learned not to trust others easily, especially in this place, where only quiet people could live longer.

"are you not hungry?"

She wanted to refuse, but what she said turned out to be different, and she couldn't let go of the bun.

"Hungry? Did you see those people who were dragged out today?"

She didn't answer and heard him continue.

"Don't say such things if you don't want to be like them."

She suddenly understood something, and swallowed the cold steamed bun in her hand. Something surged uncontrollably in her young heart, and could no longer stop flowing from her eyes.

Landing on the buns, she stretched out her hand and wiped them over and over again but couldn't stop them no matter what.

Until she heard a voice.

"Don't cry, keep your voice down."

When she heard the man say this, her tears that had been uncontrollable stopped at this moment, and the appearance of the man in front of her became increasingly blurry.

"I'll teach you another truth."

When she heard him say this, when she came to her senses, there was nothing in her hands.

"In this place, don't cry at any time, so you can live longer."

"Why, why?"

"No reason, remember."

Maybe he had forgotten about it, but Su Li always remembered it, not just the candy.

There was no way she would follow him just because of a piece of candy.

On the day she left the concentration camp, she looked at the world outside the car window, the cities and streets that were gradually emerging. She uncontrollably lay on the car window with the people in the same car and looked at everything outside, imagining that one day she would Will be a part of it.

But when she turned back, she realized that he was not beside her, so there was no longer so much expectation in her eyes. She just looked at the road in front of the car, passing through one corner after another, without saying a word.

When the car stopped, she told herself not to cry, but after hearing those words, she could no longer remember every word he had said. She just felt that her mind went blank, and all the grievances, pain, and sadness were like It surged towards her like a tidal wave breaking through a dike.

But he is different.

Chen Mo listened to the cries that sounded in the night, and gradually forgot everything in the past under the care of the nuns, but he still couldn't help but recall the ashes and flames that filled the street, and the disease when she fell in front of him. The blood on his face reminds me of the gradually freezing temperature.

do not die.

Nothing will die.

Later, Chen Mo would always wake up from his dreams and find himself in a new place, a strange place, repeating the strange life in the past.

To Chen Mo, Su Li may be just a person who is too strange to be a stranger. He may not be able to remember what he said to this person one night, nor what he looked like.

Because that face is so dirty that if you don't take a closer look, it will just turn into a blurry shadow.

Su Li didn't tell him that she was someone he knew. Did they count as acquaintances? Maybe not, let alone friends, but she knew very well in her heart that she regarded him as family.

Although it is just wishful thinking, people like this are always used to grabbing something, even if it is an out-of-reach phantom.

She thought he should be luckier, and that was exactly what she thought.

Is that considered lucky?

On a night of heavy rain, Chen Mo quietly opened the door and walked out. The light outside the door was so bright that it made him unable to sleep anymore. The sound of rain outside the window drowned out his footsteps, but he could clearly understand Hear... the sound of his own heartbeat.

It was only on the second day that he learned that a new child had arrived in the orphanage - Tallulah.

Her eyes looked around the small classroom for a week and finally stopped at where he was. At that moment, he suddenly felt a little panic in his heart, so that panic turned into a panic when she saw the same surprise in his eyes. A little more real.

He saw the smile on the child's lips.

So later on, they became friends, after the fox cub.

After the age of 17, every time he thought of the girl sitting next to Chen Mo, Fox would feel a little jealous and unwilling, as if something that originally belonged to him had been taken away.

But by then she had grown up, and he was no longer in Longmen.

She saw the photos left at the orphanage.

He smiled happily, but this smile was not what the fox wanted.

Every morning, every sunset, day after day, the relationship between them is getting better and closer, but the fox cub is getting further and further away from him.

There were three of them, and there was no room left for the fox.

On the morning of Christmas Day, when the singing started, the girl put her hand into Chen Mo's bag. She carried Ms. Kamiya's back and drove the food on the plate into Chen Mo's bowl. Chen Mo's frown, every absurd word in his mouth. s story.

When you start to like someone, you can't help but pay attention to everything about him, his happiness and anger, his sadness, every movement, every expression and every word he says.

Ms. Teresa talked a lot, and those past memories gradually became embedded in the fox's heart.

They sat together on the swing under the oak tree. The swing moved higher and higher, and they could just see the world outside the wall, a long street full of maple trees. In the autumn, maple leaves would float into the small flowerbed of the orphanage. .

They quietly climbed over the wall of the orphanage and walked into the city in the distance. The fox also did the same thing, but she regretted it after that time. She could not see the new city and only felt hungry. and loneliness.

It was like following the crowd before, but no one would throw a cold steamed bun into her arms on a cold night when she was hungry and cold.

They were too close, he was too close to the two girls, so close that the fox who had recovered his senses could no longer get involved.

But this was not a good thing for him, because countless times the nuns talked about the blue-haired child's voice, and the man waiting at the door was a big shot that they could not touch.

Such people are destined not to be together with them.

But he didn't think about it. Maybe he thought about it but didn't care about it.Because only when he was with those two people, the fox could find a smile on his face, a smile that was different from that in that cold, muddy black prison.

This smile will drag him into the abyss.

He saw the car parked outside the iron gate of the orphanage. Ms. Kamiya walked into the hall filled with candles. He followed Ms. Kamiya away.

He hurriedly ran to the second floor. In the dark night with lightning and thunder, and the rain was falling so hard, he walked towards the person. What did they say? His hand that clenched the umbrella and his face suddenly became ferocious. expression.

He never thought that one day he would see such a terrifying expression on his face.Even in the most painful times he could maintain a calm look on his face.

In the pale car lights, rain hit his face.

He gritted his teeth and finally lowered his head.

At that moment, he felt panic like never before, and then the panic became a reality.

The blue-haired girl appeared on his bed on New Year's Day, and they were talking quietly. The appearance of Ms. Kamiya stopped their conversation abruptly, and they left here again, one night.

They climbed over the wall and the city's fireworks could be seen even from this distance, lighting up the sky with brilliant colors.

He didn't sleep well that night, and Lady Teresa walked into the room before dawn in the morning.

"They're here, have everything been packed?"

"Well, let's go, Ms. Teresa."

He kept all the letters in the drawer, along with himself, and never broke his promise.

So he left Longmen.

Of course.

In the days that followed, the fox never saw him again, until the blue-haired girl rarely appeared in the orphanage. In the end, the girl named Tallulah also left.

She came late, she should have come earlier.

Even without them, she and he could live well in Longmen.

There was no sign of these three people in the orphanage anymore, only the fox himself was left, as if he was the same way before he knew him, alone.

Chapter 72 Keep Chen Gui silently ([-]): Scheming

Chen Mo made up a lie.