Longmen Memoirs

He told Vina that his encounter with her and everything that happened after that was just a conspiracy for profit, and because of her identity as Aslan, whether it was sending the Glasgow Gang away from Londinium or contacting the Dragon Gate . 【-#

The Glasgow gang became pawns in his hands to restrain Vina.

He never cared about the life or death of that group of people, and everything he and Wei Na experienced was the result of his premeditation and planning.

What's even more hurtful is that he regards the relationship between himself and Wei Na as a cold entanglement of interests.

That story was too long. The story about Chen Mo and the story about the wandering mercenary. The old Chen Mo didn't tell Wei Na in the end.

It seems to be the bottom line, and it also means that Vina is not in his heart enough for him to talk about the past.

But even so.

Wei Na tolerated him generously.

There's no next time.she said so.

There was a trace of regret in Chen Mo's heart. If he could maintain such a relationship with Wei Na, there would be nothing wrong with a closer relationship between friends. But Chen Mo knew that Wei Na also knew that they could never become true friends. They can never cross that line either.

Just like Chen Mo and Chen.

There is always a bottom line in people's hearts, which is drawn for themselves and others. Chen Mo's bottom line is the infected person.

He has a disease for which there is no cure. This disease will change the life of everyone who catches it. He should not let others pay for his life for such a dull person, whether they or not. willing.

This is his bottom line and his natural barrier.

Chen Mo does not pray that his infection can be cured. Even if he can accomplish something he can do in this limited and end-of-life life, it is enough for Chen Mo.

He left too many regrets in his life, regrets that were irreparable and regrets that might be made up for.

He's used to it.

I am used to saying goodbye, used to being forgotten, used to blood, and used to darkness.

People always hope that they can do better, gain more, lose less, have more choices, be disappointed less, have more resources, and have less difficulties.

But people's lives can never be as smooth as they once earnestly hoped.

If resisting fate is also part of fate, then maybe everything is doomed. People can only make small changes, but they have to struggle hard for it...

Time seemed to have returned to Longmen. Chen Mo and Foxhound got into the same car and observed the world outside the car through the car window.

The only difference is that this time they are in Victoria, where they are unfamiliar with each other.

The scene of a foreign country.

Fox said she was doing as the Romans do, and handed the paper bag containing fast food she was carrying to Chen Mo. Chen Mo watched her walking out of the car carrying the paper bag.

She waited in front of the hot dog stand with her hands folded for several minutes. It was snowing lightly in the sky, and the wind blew the woolen scarf wrapped around the fox hound. She walked over quickly with half-closed eyes, a light layer of frost condensed on her eyelashes, and opened her eyes. Behind the driver's door, cold wind instantly filled the entire car.

"Here."

The fox put the paper bag in front of the passenger seat, eagerly opened the plastic bag, and took a big bite of the steaming hot dog. She took a long breath until the hot breath came out of her mouth.

A carriage of heat.

"...It's a pity that it's not as good as the street stalls in Longmen. I suspect this ham must have been from yesterday. It smells sour."

She commented while eating, with a trace of scarlet ketchup on the corner of her mouth, and turned to ask Chen Mo.

"you try?"

"Fortunately, at least it's much better than doing it with you."

"You said my skills are not as good as this?"

"Dishwashing skills?"

"You did it on purpose."

"If you want to kill time, you might as well tell a couple of jokes." Chen Mo leaned in front of the car.

"Let me think about..."

After putting down the teacup in his hand, he looked to the left along the glass of the front window of the car. Light snow slowly fell from the gray sky. There were not many pedestrians on the road, but occasionally someone would pass by in a hurry.

Vehicles shuttled in front of the street, occasionally squeezing into a row under the red light, and the bright and pale headlights pierced the drifting snow curtain.People were sitting in closed carriages, looking sympathetically at the crowd of people outside who had their necks tucked into their collars.

200 meters away, a magnificent marble building stood upright in the snowy sky.The white marble and the snowflakes falling from the sky seem to blend into the same color.

It seems that once you step through that door, you can enter a completely different world.

The fox seemed to notice Chen Mo's gaze.

He asked quietly: "It's like the door to another world?"

She said it was a fact. Only those who have truly experienced it will understand the meaning of this sentence. For Fox and Chen Mo, it is another world, another world that they can only see but cannot touch.

There is never any regret at all. When you watch someone you once knew step into the threshold of university or company, you can only stand at the door and wait, or try to imagine what it will be like when you step in.

Of course, envy is inevitable, and regret is natural.

But sometimes God gives you the opportunity to turn back, but most of the time, there is no option to turn back.

That’s the story of the prodigal son who returned home without paying for the gold. However, the story doesn’t tell you that what the prodigal son lacked the most was gold.

Are you willing to die on gold?Or die without gold?

"If you want, you can go in now." Chen Mo said

"It doesn't matter whether we get in or not."

The fox put his hands behind his head: "Anyway, the result is not the same in the end, but then again, she is in there now, right?"

She suddenly turned her head to look at Chen Mo, and the ears on top of her head twitched.

"Tell me, is it possible if we ask her to bring us in?"

"What are you going in for?"

"What else can be done, of course, for the sake of the future." The fox winked: "You don't want to find a beautiful and capable wife in the future. Think about it, whoever comes out of this kind of place has a limitless future."

"Why, do you still want someone to support you?"

"You can't say that. Of course it's best if you can, but it's not a loss if you can't." The fox smiled and stretched out his finger to scratch randomly in the air: "After you leave, I will move away."

"Afraid of being retaliated?"

What surprised Chen Mo was that the fox would let go of his little shabby nest.

"In fact, the next night, the place where I lived was bombed." The fox felt a little regretful.

"With people from Shengchang?"

"I thought you were going to say evil comes to you."

"Did you arrest someone?"

"No." She shook her head and laughed at herself: "Evil comes with its own consequences. I was planning to move, and I don't have much at home. It saved me a lot of trouble."

"What I want to tell you is what happens next."

The fox moved slightly, picked up the milk tea and took a sip and continued: "Since moving to the upper city, I have discovered that my savings over the years only seem to be a lot. A little bit in the east, a little in the west, and the rest can be eaten out. The food is just fine.”

"I don't have any money to lend you."

Chen Mo tightened his collar.

"I know, you are poorer than me, I'm just kidding."

As she spoke, she turned her head and glanced at Chen Mo, but her tone suddenly dropped.

"I can't count on you to support me for the rest of my life..." She sighed softly: "That's probably what I'll do for the rest of my life."

Chen Mo suddenly fell silent, because when the fox said this, he glanced at Chen Mo intentionally or unintentionally.

Originium disease - the biggest contradiction and natural chasm between ordinary people and infected people.

Chen Mo knew exactly how she contracted this disease.

Just when Chen Mo thought the fox wanted to continue saying something, she stopped talking and looked at the world outside the car window. The street lights happened to turn on at this time.

As a result, half of the fox's face was hidden in the shadow of the light, making Chen Mo unable to see her current expression clearly.

After a few seconds, Chen Mo heard her voice.

"Why don't you ask me?" the fox suddenly said softly. "Don't ask me. I didn't follow the people from Longmen to leave Londinium, but stayed."

"No, you didn't ask why I still stay in this city."

"Don't ask me why I brought you here?"

"I know the reason. I promised you that I will handle this matter. If you don't worry, it's okay. You are right fox. I should not and cannot have anything to do with anyone in Longmen."

"Including me?"

"Including you."

"I still feel sorry in my heart, Gouzi."

Chen Mo smiled. He did not look at the fox, but turned to look at the gate of the towering university across the street, with Chen inside.

"The New Year in Longmen must be very lively?"

He suddenly remembered everything he had experienced that day, the night scene with lanterns, the bustle of people, the lanterns, the crystal-clear candy figures under the lights, the endless rows of lanterns along the street, the long cruise ships, and the branches. colorful neon.

The crowds of people coming and going were drowned in the noise of cars and people.

There is endless excitement as far as the eye can see.

"……Very lively."

"Later I went alone and found that it was not as lively as I imagined. I also tried going with others, but the feeling was still the same. So from that time on, I knew that I would never be able to live the same way again."

She seemed to mean something.

"When the excitement is over, it will feel even more deserted. Longmen is a very cold city." Fox said softly, her orange eyes reflected in the rearview mirror.

"She doesn't hesitate to give you a little warmth, and she will definitely ask you to repay it twice as much."

Just like the fox himself, and just like Chen Mo, they all became infected.

"I know."

"We all know." The fox sighed.After a few seconds of silence, he said: "...I have to say in advance, if one day I do something that makes you angry, I will not apologize to you, Gouzi."

"You don't need to apologize. You're not a person who sincerely apologizes. There's no need to repeatedly hint at what I should do. I understand."

"I just don't want you to end up waiting for despair." The fox's lips moved: "You and I both know that despair is more terrifying than death..."

"Every place has rules, Gouzi. Longmen has its own rules, Victoria has its own rules, Kazdaele has Kazdare's rules. As long as he is still on this land, as long as it still has this name, the rules will remain the same. It’s still rules, everyone must live within the rules, no matter who he is or how much power he has, he must live within the rules, otherwise he will only become the target of public criticism.”

"You and I, infected people and ordinary people, can only live because of this rule. It has many names, laws, morals, bottom lines, race, commitments, money, rights, interests. No matter which one, in the final analysis, they are all rules. "

"I know you are a person who doesn't like to follow the rules, but if you think about it carefully, even if you don't like to follow the rules, you still live by the rules, and you have been living until now."

She paused.

"You can't do much by yourself..."

"...I still remember when we were children, we went to resettlement [-/

Chen Mo stared at the snow falling in the sky outside the car window, and he suddenly called out this name.

"When did you learn to smoke?"

"What day is it?"

"July 25."

"...You said at that time that children should not learn to smoke. You said you would grow up."

"We are all grown up now," said the fox.

"I owe you all these years. I left you alone in Longmen. I left many people in Longmen."

[But maybe I will never feel at ease, but maybe I will never be able to integrate into this strange land as I imagined. 】

The fox was suddenly speechless. She was so eloquent.

She tilted her head slightly and lowered her eyelids deeply.

"You don't owe me, Gouzi."

She smiled silently: "It's a pity that I can't leave you to do what you want to do."