Longmen Memoirs

Until one day, death will separate them, until one day, he will have to leave this land that he loves and hates.

Until he had to say sorry and say goodbye to the people he loved and loved.

"...I won't thank you."

I will not thank an enemy of mine.

In the long silence, Chen Mo heard his answer ringing deep in his consciousness.

[Hmph, watchdog. 】

Chapter 1 A villain

June 1093, 10, Crystalline Era

"Ugh...it hurts."

Tallulah frowned and exhaled softly, her back turned to Alina.

"It's okay if you know it hurts. I thought you were so powerful that you couldn't feel the pain." Alina said angrily, but the movements of her hands couldn't help but become gentle.

"What are you talking about? I am also a human being, Alina. Isn't it normal to feel pain?"

"Grumpy."

"This is a fact, Alina." Tallulah turned back slightly: "The fact is that people feel pain when they are injured, and I am certainly no exception."

"People who say such things are not so willful as to go out looking for someone with injuries." Alina replied, her eyes fell on Tallulah's back, with large and small bruises and scars on her back It made Alina feel distressed.

"Have you ever thought about what would happen if something happened to you again, Tallulah? Have you ever thought about what you would do if you fell halfway and no one came to help you."

"I won't fall."

"That's what you would say, but I'm talking about what if, Tallulah... what if? If you don't find Chen, if you meet an Ursus soldier..."

Alina didn't ask any more questions, and it took several seconds for her to hear Tallulah's answer.

"I didn't think about it that much at the time."

She said this after being quiet for a few seconds.

She just felt that she had to go, she just felt that she had a reason to go, and she was unable to think about long-term issues at the time.

Alina sighed softly.

Alina thought that she could understand Tallulah. If it were her, she might not be able to do better than Tallulah, and maybe she wouldn't be able to maintain herself in that situation.

She shouldn't push Tallulah too hard.

"I'm so worried about you, Tallulah. I'm so worried that if we encounter this kind of thing again that day, do I have to watch you come back with injuries like this every time? I told myself not to think about this, But Tallulah, the more this happens, the more I think about it, because we can't be as lucky as today every time, one day..."

"Don't say that, Alina, I don't want to lose any of you, I don't want to lose you, Yelena, Ino and Sasha."

"But this is also true, Tallulah." Alina shook her head and said: "As you just said, we are also human beings, we also bleed, feel pain, and die when injured, no one is exception. "

"Then I will make sure that what you said will never happen."

"What about yourself, Tallulah, can you guarantee that we won't lose you."

Tallulah turned around. She looked at Alina's face and suddenly smiled.

"I'm not that easy to die, Alina, have you forgotten? An old monster once told me that I am immortal. Although this does not sound very reliable, if you ask me to answer , that’s all I can say.”

Alina looked at the smile on Tallulah's face.

"...you, you."

She sighed and suddenly reached out and patted her waist, causing Tallulah to cry out in pain.

"what……."

"Let's see if you dare to speak arrogantly in the future, huh." Alina tilted her head and stood up. Tallulah looked at her innocently, and then looked helpless when she looked over.

"Come and try to see if it hurts." Tallulah stretched out her hand to grab Alina.

"Stop it, okay, I was wrong, Tallulah, I still have classes to attend in the afternoon."

Life will always get better. If they continue like this, good things will always happen to them while they are alive.

It can't always be that bad.

June 1093, 10, Crystalline Era

Urla Ridge, east of the former infected camp

The story says that good and evil will be rewarded in the end, but the story is just a story. The story does not say that when a bad person can stay bad forever and is so powerful that everyone will continue to prove that he is a good person.

The story does not say that good and evil are mostly just people's wishful thinking in the end. The story does not say that good and evil are vague terms. It does not say that reality is not a clear distinction between right and wrong. It does not say that good people do not live long.

So some people say that the sky has eyes, and some people criticize God for being unfair. The key to the problem is not right or wrong per se, the key to the problem is strength and weakness. The strong live and the weak perish. This has always been the case.

Tallulah woke up. The first thing she did after waking up was to raise her head and look to her side, and then he saw Chen Mo's eyes.

Tallulah was stunned briefly.

"you're awake?"

"It's been a while."

"Then why don't you wake me up."

"You look very tired." Chen Mo said, and it was a matter of course. Tallulah was silent for a few seconds, and she heard Chen Mo's voice again: "You should be at the camp now, instead of coming here to find me. The camp was just moved not long ago. The soldiers have just experienced another big battle, and they need you very much at this time."

Tallulah didn't seem to expect that Chen Mo would say that. She opened her mouth to say something, but eventually fell silent.

She knew that what Chen Mo said was right. She should indeed stay in the camp because that was her responsibility as a leader. The soldiers trusted her and entrusted their lives to her hands. She should be worthy of this trust.

But having said that, from Tallulah's personal point of view, she could not allow herself to do this.

"Mr. Patriot and Alina can take care of things in the camp. I'm just leaving for a while. There won't be any problems."

"But this is a battlefield, and the Ursans might come back. It's too risky, Tallulah."

"Then I shouldn't have left you here alone." Tallulah said, and she held Chen Mo's hand tightly. "I haven't told you yet. You clearly know that the Ursus army will send an elite team after sending out the signal. There are not many people left by your side. You don't know how uneasy I felt after seeing Kahn and the others coming to me."

"I can handle it. This little thing won't kill me."

"Mr. Patriot said that on the battlefield of the Shield Guards they saw someone raiding the Ursus command post."

"..."

Chen Mo didn't answer, Tallulah looked into his eyes.

"You haven't discussed this with me before."

"The Patriots and other teams didn't know either." Chen Mo said: "Under the circumstances, we couldn't make other arrangements. Of course you can also take on this task, but other teams need you more, Tallulah, they need you more." You fought alongside them on the battlefield because they trusted you to lead them to victory, something that neither I nor anyone else in camp could do.”

"So you went to raid the Ursus army's command post alone."

"Mr. Patriot and you have lured away the main force of Ursus. If the battle continues, the situation will become more and more unfavorable to us. A surprise attack on the opponent's command post is the fastest way to end this battle and make it impossible for the Ursus people to continue their pursuit." The best way to go down is the only way I can choose.”

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Tallulah didn't answer, she just looked at Chen Mo, their eyes met, and she suddenly sighed softly.

"...I can't help you." She looked away helplessly.

"You haven't said how you found me yet. It's not easy to find someone on such a huge battlefield." Chen Mo asked.

"I didn't find you." Tallulah said, as if she remembered something: "I was looking for you for a long time, but the battlefield was so big that I didn't know where you had gone or whether you were still on the battlefield. When I didn't know where I was going to find you, a blue light spot lit up in front of me, and I followed it and saw you."

"Blue light?"

"I don't know what it is, maybe it's some kind of creature I don't know. There are always many weird things on this land, but thanks to it, I was able to find you."

"Sounds like some spooky story."

Chen Mo said that he probably confirmed that Tallulah didn't know what the thing looked like, and she didn't think about it in this regard.

Chen Mo felt a little more at ease.

"How are the soldiers doing?"

"Everyone is safe. After joining up with the guerrillas, we evacuated the battlefield, and the Ursus army did not catch up."

"This loss is severe."

"Well, this battle is harder than the battles we have fought before, but it is not all bad. At least we know what kind of opponents we will face in the future. The soldiers will fight the Ursus Legion in advance. Once we get along, many things will become much smoother in the future.”

"You didn't say whether the Ursans would send a stronger army."

"We will not always be what we are now. We will also grow stronger. Ursus will send stronger troops, and we will become stronger and stronger."

She always has a resilience beyond ordinary people in this regard, or she takes certain things too easily. Chen Mo doesn't know whether it is the former or the latter, but Chen Mo knows that she is not someone who will be easily defeated by setbacks and suffering.

She just needs some time, some time to recognize the land beneath her feet, and the scars of suffering and loss cannot knock her down, but will make her stronger.

"It's good if you think so." Chen Mo said, leaning his head slightly on the mountain wall behind him: "To be honest, I'm still a little happy. I'm glad you can come to me."

"That's not what you said just now."

"Just now."

Chen Mo said it was a matter of course. He turned his head and his eyes fell on the side of Tallulah's face.

Of course Chen Mo will be happy. He rarely has such an experience. Just when he is rejoicing that they have made the right choice, of course he will also have some selfish thoughts, some selfish thoughts that are only for himself.

Just like when he thought Wei Na would call his name, she did so, but Chen Mo still didn't stop. Although he was really happy at that time, he knew better what he should do.

"You are right, Tallulah, the team of infected people will become stronger and stronger one day, provided that we can survive." Chen Mo said: "There is something that I have been worried about."

"what's up?"

"Usas has always defined the infected as thugs and villains. If the infected dies, the dead will not be able to crawl out of the grave to resist, so they must live, but the prerequisite for living is to have power. Weak people can do anything. Whatever a strong person does, people will say he is right, because history will remember the losers who died, but the history of the losers is not determined by the losers themselves."

Chen Mo said, and then continued: "Tallulah, maybe one day we will make mistakes, and we will definitely make some mistakes. For example, when the infected become stronger, for example, there will be infected people doing evil in our name in the future, such as We ourselves, too, may make wrong choices when faced with dilemmas.”

"...Do you want to say..." Tallulah stopped talking. She seemed to finally understand what Chen Mo meant. She didn't want to mention the name that made her hate it.

"Cosiche." Chen Mo added, and Tallulah looked at him. "Yes, what I want to say is that this is the matter. Maybe Alina would be more suitable for me to mention this to you."

"Why at this time..."

"Not only at this time, I think I should tell you these things earlier." Chen Mo said, he looked at Tallulah: "You mentioned this to me the night we found the black wall, but I didn't think about it at the time. How should I answer you? I know that you are not so easy to listen to what others say. In some respects, you have a very stubborn side."

"Why don't I think so."

"Bystander Qing, do you know this term?" Chen Mo said half-jokingly: "After this battle, many soldiers died, but after all, the infected have no reason to fight Ursus, and those so-called The reason is nothing more than an excuse created by Usus himself to fool the people."

"It is this excuse that allows Ursus to continue to exploit and persecute the infected." Tallulah said: "It is not without reason for us to continue fighting them."

"Then after that, if it's an ordinary [={

"No, Tallulah, once you do this, it will give them more excuses. If you want to do a good thing, a good thing for the infected people will inevitably make the Ursans hate you. Before they In my eyes, what you are doing is evil, but do you want to stop?"

Tallulah fell silent for a few seconds before she opened her mouth.

“I haven’t thought that far ahead.”

she said so.

“When infected people enter urban agglomerations in the south, meet infected people in southern cities, and meet more ordinary people in southern cities, there will always be fights and bloodshed due to different ideas. You can’t expect everything to be solved easily. "Chen Mo said: "Perhaps at some point the infected people can try their best to avoid it, but if it cannot be avoided...

"Listen to me, Xiaota, of course we will make mistakes and do evil, and as the number of infected people grows in the future, we will

He will make more mistakes and do more evil. "

Chen Mo said, he breathed lightly: "Of course you will become a villain, in the eyes of the Ursus people, in the eyes of the Ursus army and nobles, and in the eyes of those who feel threatened by the emergence of infected people. In my eyes, you are an out-and-out evil person."

"But that's not important. What's important is that you know what you are doing. The evil you do can help the infected people survive. The evil you do can save the lives of more infected people. The evil you do can help the infection." They create a future."

Chen Mo said, he looked at Tallulah: "In that case, why not be a bad person? Evil is evil, but if doing evil is good, of course you have to do it."

Tallulah failed to listen, and Chen Mo knew the result from her reaction.

But it doesn't matter. Chen Mo doesn't expect Tallulah to understand this right away. If he gives her some more time, Chen Mo just hopes that she can think of these words when she is confused one day.

Maybe it was just Chen Mo who was overly worried. With Alina and the others here, she would not go in the wrong direction.

Not all infected people are good people. Are the Ursans people blameless? Before they became infected, there should have been no difference between them.

It's a pity that in this land, there is no distinction between right and wrong.