Longmen Memoirs

Did she make new friends?

Will she still remember me?

... Tallulah.

Chen Mo shook his head and drove the complicated thoughts out of his mind. After going out, his face had returned to calmness. He would not express his emotions on his face. It would not gain anything, if it was just meaningless. Comfort, he felt that he didn't need that kind of thing, he was a very practical person.

Scout has come back, and he is looking at the uniform that Chen Mo put on the bed. After the bathroom door opened, he looked over.

"Back." Chen Mo asked.

"Have you ever been out in this uniform?" Scout asked, it was impossible for him not to recognize the origin of this uniform.

Chen Mo, who had a bath towel hanging around his neck, nodded.

"I went to see His Highness's speech."

"How to say?"

"It's hard to describe. You are right, Scout. One day His Highness may really be able to change your country."

"You're not the first one to think so." Scout walked over and looked at Chen Mo with half surprised and curious eyes: "But what surprised me was that Askaron didn't do anything to you. How did you do it? of."

Ascalon, a strange name.

"Who is Askaron?"

"Ah, you haven't seen it. Then think about it, is there a particularly cold woman standing next to His Highness? She is Askaron. She is responsible for His Highness's safety."

"You look a little afraid of her."

"No one is afraid of her." Scout said: "Don't underestimate Askaron, she can easily take off your head, I mean if she wants, you don't even know how you died."

"She is strong?"

"She is very strong, but she is not an enemy. Everyone who knows her will be glad that she is standing with us, otherwise she may become our nightmare."

So scary, Chen Mo thought of the woman standing next to His Highness. Apart from her cold and sharp eyes, Chen Mo couldn't tell how scary she was, but Scout looked in awe and happiness, which made Chen Mo start to have doubts. .

"You make me a little uneasy, Scout." Chen Mo glanced at the uniform on the bed. "I'm not afraid, I just think it's rude not to inform her in advance. Don't think too much about it."

"Don't worry, Brother Chen." Scout patted Chen Mo on the shoulder: "Since you can stand here, it means that Askaron acquiesces to your behavior. She is not the kind of person who will find someone to settle the score afterwards."

"Really." Chen Mo was not sure.

"I don't need to lie to you." Scout retracted his hand: "Under normal circumstances, Askaron will not participate in any affairs except His Highness's safety."

"Then what should I do with this uniform?" Chen Mo asked, looking at the uniform on the bed and then at Scout.

In addition to Kelsey, he seemed to have another trouble.

"Leave it to me." Scout was very loyal and walked to the bed to pick up the uniform.

"Thanks, Scout, I owe you one."

"Then don't forget to return it." He said half-jokingly, picked up his uniform and walked out.

Later, Scout asked Chen Mo what he thought after watching His Highness's speech. This made Chen Mo couldn't help but think of his thoughts. He had many thoughts to write, but those things he wrote were just vaguely praising someone's achievements and greatness. Chen Mo did not deny His Highness's achievements, but for him, this speech probably just made him realize once again the gap between himself and His Highness, as well as the distance and elusiveness of Theresia's ideal.

4 a.m. on the night of Sakaz Camp

At this point in time, most of the Sakaz camp has fallen into a deep sleep. Except for a few soldiers and staff who stick to their posts, the lights of Sakaz have been extinguished.

The encounter with the doctor still makes people feel a bit ridiculous when thinking about it now.

Few people would be active in the cafeteria late at night, unless they were those who had to get out of bed because of hunger, or those who couldn't sleep because of their thoughts.

Chen Mo belongs to the former, but while waiting for instant noodles, he belongs to the latter.

The lights in the canteen have been extinguished, leaving only one, under which sat Chen Mo and the lonely military fast food in front of his table.

Chen Mo was not an official member of the Sakaz camp, but thanks to Scout, he was lucky enough to be able to eat in the canteen belonging to the Tower of Babel members in the camp. Although the staff could not come to prepare supper at this time, he also There is no right to open a small stove.

The doctor's footsteps were very light. When this man who was not tall came, it felt like a ghost wandering around in the dark. Especially when his figure was shrouded in a coat and hood, it was easy for people not to think of it. The word suspicious comes up.

He first walked to the closed window, holding something in his hand. Chen Mo didn't say anything. Under the dim light, he walked to the water dispenser again, and Chen Mo saw him skillfully tear open the hand in his hand. He placed the fast food bag on his lap, picked up the paper cup under the water dispenser and took a cup of boiling hot water.

Chen Mo seemed to have guessed what he wanted to do, and his approach did not disappoint Chen Mo. He reached out and grabbed the food in the fast food bag and put it into his mouth, while drinking the hot water in the paper cup.

His bulging cheeks could be seen from half of his face exposed under the hood, but he did not make any movement, as if he was waiting for the instant food to be heated in his mouth, and then slowly swallowed it, repeating the process over and over again.

This is such a boring and novel way to eat, but it has to be done at four o'clock in the morning in the dead of night.

Chen Mo stared blankly at the doctor sitting in front of the water dispenser. His eyes slowly turned to the ready-to-make instant food in front of his desk. At this moment, he felt something in his mind was shaken.

Because the man sitting quietly in the dim light, his back looks a little pitiful and lonely, but he is one of the few people in this camp, but he is in Sakaz The reputation among people is awe-inspiring with a touch of fear and alienation.

Chen Mo was certain that at this distance, even without weapons, he had countless ways to kill the suspicious man in front of him, but he had no need to do so.

So he hesitated for a moment, picked up the instant food he had prepared in front of his desk and walked over.

Chapter 88 The shadow facing away from the light

Much later, with the deliberate promotion and acquiescence of some Sakaz lords and nobles, Chen Mo was called the Butcher of Sakaz.

He liked this bloody and cruel new title very much, because no other title could make him feel so happy. He felt that he was born to be an executioner in this industry, not because he was cold-blooded, but because he knew that he It's the right thing to do.

Maybe right is not necessarily justice, but the word justice is too extravagant, and Chen Mo will not pursue such extravagant things.

People will not ask me why, they will only look at what I have done. Because what I do does not satisfy their wishes, I become a bad person.

But I don't care.

Therefore, there is no need for me to explain myself. After all, I am not a leader and do not need to be understood and recognized by everyone.

Isn’t it natural that bad people will do bad things?

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Shadows shrouded him from behind, and a hand stretched out from his side, holding soaked instant food.

The doctor raised his head slightly and noticed the figure standing behind him.

He didn't reach out to take it.

He still held a small piece of food in his hand, and there was a paper cup on the chair next to him.

His eyes were covered by the shadow of the hood. In the dim light of the cafeteria, Chen Mo couldn't see his sight and expression, but it was obvious that he was looking in his direction and paused briefly.

"Doctor?" Chen Mo asked again, "Do you want it?"

"No, thank you." The neutral voice coming from under the hood was a little low and hoarse. It was normal. He put the small piece of food in his hand back into the bag.

"I've met you. Sorry, I haven't asked your name yet."

"Chen Mo." Chen Mo took back his hand and pointed to the empty seat next to the doctor: "Can I sit here?"

"up to you."

"Thank you." Chen Mo came to the doctor's side. At this time, he turned his head and took a close look at the man wearing a black coat and a hood, only to realize that he was really ordinary. Except for his appearance, there was nothing special about him.

The doctor is a very quiet person. Under normal circumstances, if you don't bring up the topic with him, he won't say anything to you. He will just maintain his original behavior.

So even though Chen Mo was sitting next to the doctor, he continued his somewhat novel eating method as if there was no one around, and did not feel any embarrassment or discomfort because of it.

His life is somewhat monotonous, as monotonous as a machine that has been programmed in advance. He walks according to the established program. No one knows whether he likes it or is willing, and few people ask. Get his opinion.

He also didn't seem to want to choose, because someone wanted him to do it, so he did it.

The sound of chewing kept ringing around him, and from time to time he would pick up a cup of boiling hot water and pour it into his mouth, and then wait for a while.Using this way of eating when he wasn't busy made Chen Mo couldn't help but suspect that he might just think it was interesting.

Although it is meaningless, it is very interesting, just like crushing instant noodles before eating them, or sitting in front of a fan in the summer with your mouth wide open and listening to the weird sounds of your own transformation.

Although it is meaningless, in the eyes of children, doing so is indeed very interesting, but in the adult world, people who do this will be called weird and a little lonely.

They sat side by side like this, under the quiet and dim light of the canteen, eating the not-so-delicious quick-heat food in each other's hands, making occasional chewing sounds without much conversation. Soon after, Sakaz Butcher and The Evil Spirit of Babel, they are not even friends now.

But Chen Mo couldn't help but think about what kind of person the doctor was, because this mysterious man didn't seem to be welcomed by the Sakaz camp, because Scout and Kelsey didn't mention him much in their normal conversations, but This person can often be seen next to Theresia and Kelsey.

He is important, there is no doubt about it.

Chen Mo remembered the first time he saw this man, the devastated camp after the attack, people's cries and screams, the rising smoke and the blood stains that had not yet dried up. After the bodies of relatives and comrades were burned, the air above the camp was filled with A touch of sadness and sadness.

The sky that day was lead-grey, and it was raining lightly.

He just stood next to Theresia, not looking obvious, but when those calm and calm eyes came over, the thin rain curtain made Chen [|

But after meeting again this time, Chen Mo no longer had that complicated feeling.

The doctor's movements finally stopped. When someone is sitting next to you and looking directly at you, it is difficult not to notice and notice.

"Is something wrong?"

"I'm just curious."

"What are you curious about?" the doctor asked.

"Why do you eat that way?" Chen Mo said bluntly.

The doctor paused, moved his hood down slightly, looked at the instant food bag in his hand, and was silent for a while.

"You think this behavior is weird, that I'm a weird person?"

"I do not deny."

"It's just a small personal interest." The doctor said lightly. "I noticed you when I came in, but I didn't expect you to come over."

His words were questioning.

"I'm currently living in the same dormitory as Scout." Chen Mo said.

"Scout..." His fingers on the snack bag paused briefly, then he reached into the bag again and took out a new piece of dry biscuit: "What are you here for?"

"Scout's reaction that day was very strange, and when His Highness found me, she looked a little depressed."

"Theresa used to be the most resistant to trajectories and plots. It's normal for her to be frustrated, but she's not that fragile."

The doctor's words are talking about the past.

Chen Mo seemed to finally understand why Theresia said those words that day.

She said: I clearly know why some things happen, but I can't change or stop it... I am actually a despicable person.

"She didn't stop you. If she hadn't acquiesced to your behavior, you wouldn't have the right to issue orders. Theresa trusts you."

"She was a gracious and kind monarch and always has been," the doctor said. "She should not be lost in the strife and struggle for Kazdaele's royal power."

"Is this your purpose?" Chen Mo asked.

"This is the common purpose of everyone here, whether they have ulterior motives because of her identity, or they choose to follow her because of her ideals and personality charm, they are all like this."

"Is it worth it? It's obviously because of Theresia's acquiescence, but you are the one who bears the guilt and slander and is feared and ostracized by others." Chen Mo suddenly asked.

"They all know who you get your rights from."

"But they won't think about it, or speculate on the answer that they don't want to think deeply about." The doctor turned his head and looked at Chen Mo under his hood. "It was indeed me who gave the order."

"So you become the perfect culprit."

The doctor didn't answer. After a few seconds, his voice sounded.

"I don't know if it's worth it." He didn't look at Chen Mo anymore, staring blankly at the darkness ahead, and said calmly: "As you said, Theresia trusts me. It's more important than watching Theresia go towards Failure, I don’t want to see this outcome even more, and now I have no choice.”

He really had no more choices. He didn't even know his origin. After being awakened from the sarcophagus, he became the Doctor of the Tower of Babel. He had been struggling for this purpose for many years.

He started doing it because others expected him to do it, but he didn't know if Kazdale was his home. He had no home and no destination.

Just a wandering stranger.

"Do not deny?"

"Why deny it?" he asked, "you think what I did was wrong."

"I don't know." Chen Mo did not go to see the doctor again, but looked ahead at the darkness: "But I know that if Theresia succeeds one day in the future, people like you will become the target of public criticism, Kazdel. Theresa may not do this without a place for you, but she cannot save you, because her kindness is not only for you. The best outcome for you is to be driven out of Kazdaele, except for a few people. , no one will remember what you did, so thank you."

The Doctor didn't deny it.

"If one day...you were me, what would you choose?"

"I'm not you, doctor..." Chen Mo said, "I don't think I can do better than you. Your Highness has her ideals, but there must be someone to do evil things."

"exactly."