Longmen Memoirs

【Kelsey Doctor【=@

"Amiya?"

[Miss Amiya and the doctor left Rhode Island two hours and 45 minutes ago after receiving a notice from the Guards Bureau]

"Because of the sudden emergence of the integration movement? No wonder Kelsey was left to look after the family." Chen Mo muttered.

Precious didn't answer.

"Precious, is there still a shortage of people in Rhode Island?"

[Rhode Island’s talent introduction has always been the responsibility of the Human Resources Department]

"The Custer who was locked up in the solitary room before... although he is cunning, stingy and has many shortcomings, he is actually not a bad person and is a rare talent." Chen Mo said: "I hope you can help me with this." Convey a message to Kelsey."

Precious was quiet for a few seconds.

[Dr. Kelsey said: Yes]

Chen Mo felt a chill go down his spine and his face turned ugly.

"I just said bad things about her..."

[Do you need me to delete this log for you? ] Precious asked thoughtfully.

"No need." Chen Mo said firmly, "I'm leaving."

Chapter 125 Longing

Later, I thought of the fruitless quarrel between myself and His Highness. It was probably beyond my imagination that such a gentle person as Your Highness could be so angry.

His Highness must have noticed it already.

I am not a like-minded person with them. I have no common beliefs with Kelsey, the Doctor, and many others in the Tower of Babel.

They fight for the infected and for Kazdaele. They all have their own expectations to pursue, but I don't.

I don’t have the courage and determination to be so selfless that I have to sacrifice everything for others and a cause that doesn’t belong to me.

I was risking my life for someone else’s career and ideals.

His Highness said, you don't deserve this ending.

She said it shouldn't be like this.

But many people never imagined that they would reach this point. Looking back on the past, many people suddenly realize that they have deviated from the original path before they knew it.

Human eyes can only see a limited distance between the feet and the front, and things that are too far away are not reliable enough.

Idealists are rootless duckweeds. Their place of refuge is based on their own ideals. Once their ideals collapse, they will drift with the tide.

Faith is the most hypocritical thing in the world. It is more like a double-edged dagger. The more you rely on it and the deeper you are trapped in it, the harder it is to break free. But people without faith are ridiculous, and people without faith are free but weak. .

The ideal seems to be suspended in the attic above the dome, which teaches utilitarians to sneer. They snort and laugh at whether it is really worth it, telling you that you will gain nothing in the end.

All your efforts are laughable and insignificant.

They scorned, ridiculed, ridiculed, and even cursed. They wanted to break your horns, gouge out your eyes, watch you groping awkwardly in the dark, and watch you turn to ashes in the unwilling roar. When you fell, they celebrated with their crowns. , cheering for joy, trampling on your remaining dignity, tearing apart your already fragmented beliefs and skin scales.

Blood, boiling and hot.

The earth is ruthless and mean.

But people always have to live for something in this life, it doesn't matter whether it is worth it or not, and they always have to do stupid things that others can't understand, in order to truly live.

Where there is light, there will naturally be darkness.

People who live in the light are happy. They grow up in a warm place. They are gentle and are treated with gentleness. They still have room for innocence.

People who live in darkness are unfortunate. Unfortunately, they have witnessed everything shattered from the beginning. Without expectations, there will be no betrayal and no despair.

It is painful for those who struggle out of the shadows but yearn for the light, because they have already known the cruelty, are burdened with unrealistic but firmly convinced illusions that may be shattered at any time, and are ready to turn into dust and go. Chasing the Yutani in their hearts.

One after another, never stop.

Like a spark, burning the wilderness.

Some people succeeded, but more people fell and returned to the embrace of the earth.

You ask me is it worth it?

Certainly worth it.

They are pathetic but not pitiful, they are unfortunate but not miserable, they are small but not humble.

What is pitiful, sad and humble is a person like me who lives for the sake of living and does whatever it takes to live.

The cradle of suffering always breeds hope. Hope is a refutation and denunciation of suffering. People should always yearn for the light.

[Small tower:

When you read this letter, I have left Kazdaele. The situation between Your Highness and the Tower of Babel has basically stabilized. We have repelled the raid by the Regent's army. After I leave, Ms. Kelsey will make arrangements for Your Highness. New people serve as escorts.

In fact, I already had this idea when I saw Black Steel's security officers in the market town.

Your Highness's existence is the basis of all this. She is like a belief. Everyone is looking up at His Highness's back, including me. Your Highness can always tell us what to do and where to go. As long as she is here, everyone will You can find the direction you should go without getting lost.

But they don't need me anymore.

Xiaota, during this time I have been thinking that maybe I should do something more meaningful, but you know, I really don’t have the courage and confidence to be that kind of person.

Remember the scout I told you about?He went out on patrol today and brought back a beast. There may be broth tonight. He gave me a horn of the beast and told me that the horn of the beast symbolizes growth in Kazdaele. He may have regarded me as a child. , but I didn’t refuse.

Xiaota, I'm going back to Heigang. Maybe not long after, when the time is right, I will leave Heigang and go back to Longmen. I don't know if you are still there.

Xiaota, you have grown up after so many years. I think I can hardly recognize you now.

October 1087, 10, Crystalline Era. 】

The sound of pushing the door made Tallulah gently close the yellowed diary in her hand.

Chernobog's command tower overlooks half the city.

The tall patriot stood silently behind Tallulah.

"Are you ready?"

Tallulah stood up from the wicker chair. She turned around, and the Patriot noticed the yellowed diary in her left hand.

Since the erosion of the Source Stone worsened, Patriot has rarely spoken anymore.

He nodded.

Tallulah took a small breath.

"Then let's go to Longmen."

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June 1097, 5, Crystalline Era

Longmen Bronze Bell Outer Ring Road.

Chen stared at the figure that appeared in front of him, as if he had gone back many years ago, and they were looking at each other like this. She was holding the hand of a strange man and standing on the other side of the collapsed road in the city.

【——Come with me!Don't stay here any longer! 】

[——Don’t you want to leave here, stay far away from these people? 】

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[——I hate this city, I hate him, don’t make me hate you too. 】

[——I promised to be with her, but I was scared...I...I let go, I was not with her...]

[——The look in her eyes was very scary. I was very scared, and so was she. I... I must have done something wrong. 】

[——This is her fault, not yours. 】

[——She doesn’t know the truth. This truth should not be known by anyone, so she will definitely make mistakes, even if it is not now, she will in the future. In many cases, mistakes should not be punished. Not only do we make mistakes, but we also make mistakes. We make a lot of mistakes. We will definitely make these mistakes and we cannot avoid them.]

[——Tallulah just made the mistake she was bound to make. 】

【——Don’t cry anymore. 】

[——Well, I want Xiaota to come back, what should I do? 】

[——I will teach you many things, teach you how to manage the city, how to fight against villains, and how to treat friends. If you do as I say, Tallulah may come back. 】

【——Yes, how to do it?Is it really possible for Xiaota to come back?Will uncle lie to me? ...Mom...Mom said, you only know how to lie. Can I...can I really believe you? 】

[——Maybe, I also made the biggest mistake, which caused your mother to hate me to the core throughout her life and she could not let go until her death. She was excused for saying so. 】

[——But mistakes can be made up for, Hui Jie, listen up, doing the right thing is worth your life, correcting mistakes is worth risking one's life. Tallulah's departure was a mistake, and this mistake brought about I will bear all the consequences, and you, Hui Jie, grow up quickly. 】

【——What will happen when you grow up? 】

[——With your words, when you grow up... you can change everything. 】

【--Really? ! 】

[——Perhaps, or, as long as you believe it, it is true, I will teach you the swordsmanship of Hui Jie and Chi Xiao. 】

Chen tightened his grip on Chi Xiao's knife handle at his waist.

Maybe Chen shouldn't believe everything Wei Yanwu said, even though most of what he said was true.

But whether it was Chen, Wei Yanwu, or Tallulah, they had all forgotten it. They should have forgotten it, because compared with them, that guy was so inconspicuous, insignificant and inconspicuous, just like an insignificant person in life. of passers-by.

But it was this inconspicuous person.Risking his own life to correct this mistake in the eyes of Chen and Wei Yanwu.

Tallulah did nothing wrong. Her fault came from the land's indifference to injustice and its peace of mind. She wanted to correct this mistake, so she was wrong.

There is no third option.

Chi Xiao's swordsmanship was outstanding, but it was used in places it shouldn't be used and stabbed people it shouldn't have been stabbed.

Chen didn't know whether he should be happy or sad.

She just looked at the person standing in front of her and the smile at the corner of her mouth. That smile was so dazzling. That smile should not appear in this city called Longmen.

The police officers of the escort team raised their weapons in readiness. Faced with the unfavorable integration movement of the group, no one dared to relax their vigilance, although they could not see weapons on them, and they did not make any dangerous move. action.

"Old Chen?!" Xingxiong's question sounded from the earphones, waking up Chen's momentary trance.

This was consistent with the original intention of the action team and the inspection team in formulating the plan, but the difference was that they did not expect Tallulah to appear in front of the convoy as openly and openly as she did now.

So much so that follow-up plans and latent support are of little use in the face of this situation.

"Everyone is on standby for the time being. Don't let down your guard." Chen said, taking a breath and saying, "Let me handle it."

"Understood...be careful."

"rest assured."

Chen gently loosened his grip on the handle of the knife.

When she walked towards Tallulah, she was also walking towards her, so in the middle of the road, they stopped in unison.

There was a confident and gentle smile on her face.

"Long time no see, Huijie."

She said this, interrupting what Chen wanted to say before Chen could question him.

"What are you paying attention to? Where is Xiao Mo? Answer me honestly." When he said this, Chen cut off the headset and slowly put his right hand on the handle of the knife behind his waist.

"You only have one chance."

"So, you have already met her." Tallulah's smile slowly disappeared, and she seemed not to notice Chen's movements and her solemn expression.

"who is she?"

"Someone with a face like this one."

"Ha, you have to know the occasion when telling a joke." Chen sneered disdainfully: "I've already given you a chance."

"I'm not here to fight with you, Hui Jie." Tallulah said, "I am here because of her and Xiao Mo. I have met that child, Xiao Mo. She reminds me of many things that happened before. "

The past that I thought I had forgotten turned out to be never really forgotten.

"It's your choice," Chen said.