Longmen Memoirs

"You are right. After all, the army is completely different from what we have encountered before. But what I am worried about is, can Amiya really handle it by herself?"

"Don't worry."

"do not worry?"

"I feel the same way as you."

Huang looked at Miss Knight Yao's calm look and couldn't help but say goodbye.

"I can't see it."

"Amiya will have to face this alone one day. We can accompany her to grow up and protect her safety, but after all, we cannot stay by her side for the rest of her life. I think you should also know in your heart that compared to What she will face in the future, given the current situation, is actually a good thing for her."

"It's not that I don't know." Huang hesitated for a moment. She seemed to have remembered something, and her face darkened: "I just can't trust the people in Dayan's officialdom."

She sighed and opened her mouth, but in the end she didn't explain anything to Knight Yao.

"It can be seen that you have been in a state of mental stress since you entered here."

"It's just old things from the past many years. It's useless to talk about them."

Miss Knight Yao was very considerate and did not ask further questions.

In fact, she knew very well that everyone had a past that they didn't want to mention, including herself.

"They did not collect our weapons. From this point of view, Amiya is safe for the time being, and Miss Chen from Longmen and Tallulah from the Integration Movement are also coming with me. I don't think the situation will get worse. "Linguang said consolingly: "Besides, didn't you meet that person when you were in Longmen? According to what Dr. Kelsey said before the operation, the changes that occur here will not affect the outside world. You can treat this place as a It’s a dream.”

"Dreams don't last forever." Huang reminded: "Don't forget that Kelsi also said that if we die here, our will may fall into silence. What's the difference between this and death?"

"Ah, if you didn't mention this, I would have forgotten about the operator named Nian we met on Rhode Island." Lin Guang reached out and pinched his arm, feeling the same pain as the real thing: "If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I really wouldn't have been able to imagine that such a thing could be done."

"There are so many strange people and strange things in Dayan that I can't even count them. I heard even more exaggerated things than this when I was a child."

Huang looked at Lin Guang's surprised performance and said he was not surprised.

"Oh? Talk about it."

"Removing mountains and filling seas, traveling thousands of miles in sleep, etc. are no different from legends in other places. I used to listen to them as fairy tales."

"So great."

"You do not believe?"

"I believe it, I just think it's a bit... exaggerated."

"I didn't believe it when I was a kid," Huang said. "Although Mr. Storyteller's words are clear and logical, I don't think many people would really believe what he said. But now I kind of believe it."

Huang looked up at the roof of the tent, his words a little melancholy.

"Since I left Great Yan, I thought that I would go back one day, but I never thought that I would cross into Great Yan's territory again in this way, and appear in this kind of place."

The way Lin Guang looked at her.

"I suddenly thought, could what happened here have something to do with the outside world?" she asked.

"What do you mean?"

"What I mean is, if you want to find some clues or information, can you start here? Although you may not get the result, you can give it a try. And we are in the military camp now. If we were in this period before That person I met is really King Yanwu, he should be able to help you."

"You mean..."

"I just suggested, but didn't say anything."

"..."

Huang fell silent. After a few seconds, she looked at Linguang opposite and asked seriously.

"... Let's just assume that what you said is feasible, where should I start?"

Your eyes don't look like that, Linguang wanted to remind her, but the soft-hearted Knight Yao couldn't do anything evil to expose others.

Northern Xinjiang is dreaming, Beijing is prosperous ([-])

Northern Xinjiang in 1096 was one of the most profound memories engraved in Chen Mo's mind.

Dayan has a vast land, beautiful mountains and rivers, and amazing creations, tall buildings and jade buildings, and legends about strange things. The civil engineering masters of the Tianshi Mansion moved mountains and filled the sea, using the power of the sun and the moon to do their best.

In the Yan Kingdom, few people go deep into the hinterland of this vast land, so this land knows very little about this country. However, from Longmen, one of the important external portals of the Yan Kingdom, one can get a glimpse of this ancient country whose rule has lasted for thousands of years. The underlying content contained in it.

Strange people and strange things, across the world, countless stories that can be called epics have been staged in this land. Most people in this land do not believe in the so-called destiny.

To make the country prosperous and the people live and work in peace and contentment is the vision shared by every Dayan person.

No less vast and barren than Ursus, Great Yan is vast and prosperous, with fascinating and precious wealth buried under every inch of land in Great Yan.

But like many countries, Yan is not as beautiful as it seems on the surface. The country is peaceful and the people are safe. Yumen, mountains and seas are far away from the northern border. Further north in the Yan country, there are forces that can shake this ancient power. , that is the gateway to the Great Flame, and it is also the evil that all countries on the edge of the earth need to face.

The first time Chen Mo heard about this creature, it came from Kazdare's classics and folk tales. Later in Ursus, Patriot mentioned these. He occasionally mentioned the opponents he had faced, Thousand Eyes and Hundred Hands. A monster that is far more oppressive and fearful than an enemy in human form.

No words can be used to believe that there is another kind of creature outside this land that may have individual consciousness.

Of course, Chen Mo may have seen the same creature before.

Such as himself.

At the end of the autumn of 1096, when he returned to the capital from Yumen, Chen Mo always remembered the chess match with the Taifu at Si Suitai. He remembered that the Taifu wanted to tell him a certain truth that he was unwilling to think about at the time.

A truth that may seem ridiculous in retrospect.

A story about gods, monsters, and someone who seems to be disobeying but has to disobey.

Everyone's choices and causes and effects in the story are traceable. There are no pure good guys and bad guys in the story. The only thing that determines the direction of the story may be just a ridiculous misunderstanding, or in other words, speculation from people's hearts. As for creating a tragedy that should not have happened.

Maybe someone should be given a certain mission and responsibility when he is born. Although he does not know this mission and responsibility, a difficult life seems to be a destined test. However, there are often too many variables in events, and these variables make people exhausted. When that line begins to diverge, it indicates that the future ending will be very different from the previous one.

There are countless possibilities in life, but the only one that can be counted is the one that has already happened, and that line will determine what kind of person a person will become and what responsibilities he will be given.

Chen Mo's story begins when he leaves Dayan, when a consciousness different from this world appears in that soulless body. He accepts a certain kind of life, so it is natural for him to embark on this path.

And since returning to Dayan, this line seems to have been reconnected, allowing the person who should belong to a certain position to continue to a certain position prepared for him from the beginning, and let everything return to its original trajectory.

Twenty years ago, the changes in Shenjing, four families, four children, four tragedies, everything was buried under the thick dust of history. Time submerged them, submerged those who died, and submerged those who died. Lucky people living in this world.

The truth has no meaning to the dead, and the pursuit of the truth has no meaning to the living. But people all know the truth, but the truth is the truth. Can you convince yourself to accept it and truly do it? What the truth wants people to do is never easy.

"Wait until later, until we finish solving the matter here."

Just when Amiya thought that Chen Mo would not answer whether he would return to Kazdale, she heard him say: "I think Tallulah, Chen, and your sudden appearance should not only be for this matter." We can solve the problems one by one."

Chen Mo has been hiding many things in his heart. It is difficult for him not to talk about these things in his heart. It is not because he cannot tell others, but it will not change anything even if he says it. It has already happened, and he cannot say it. Everything I have experienced in the long first half of my life.

Now that I think about it carefully, it seems that nothing good has happened since I left Longmen. It seems that everything is gained and then lost, and then the process repeats.

Sfeldt used to always say that he didn't have many friends. Yes, with his awkward and indifferent attitude, it was really difficult to make friends. He was one of Black Steel's elite operatives, and it also made Black Steel feel embarrassed. The operator is like a lone wolf, he has no wolf pack, he is his own wolf pack.

During Black Steel's adaptive course, they had been trying to teach Chen Mo to become familiar with his teammates, but in reality they had achieved little.

Chen Mo's answer seemed to be avoiding the topic, and Amiya was inevitably a little disappointed, but she quickly cheered up and cleared away these negative emotions. At least she didn't refuse, right? The lack of rejection means she's not sure yet.

Although even Amiya herself felt that her request was a bit excessive, when she thought of His Highness's face, Amiya always hoped that she could do something for His Highness. Compared to the days when His Highness protected her, she felt that she had grown up. .

A 16-year-old girl, she has a stronger will and belief than her peers. She has qualities similar to Theresia, but compared to Theresia's brilliance, Amiya is like a desert in the sand. A conspicuous glass fragment in the sea can also attract people's attention because of the reflection of sunlight.

But precisely because of this, she feels more approachable than Theresia.

Not the heir of Sakaz, Sakaz would not admit this, Chen Mo thought, so Amiya left Kazdaele and took Rhode Island to avoid the Kazdaele turmoil, which was a corner compared to Kazdaele. This land allows her to grow better and let her know what kind of place she lives in.

Thearesia is always thoughtful and thoughtful, and her gentle kindness makes people subconsciously forget her strategy. But in fact, she can lead Kazdaele to win the war 100 years ago and be defeated by the Sakaz, regardless of political views. The only king of Kazdaele that everyone recognized, she was always more than what she seemed on the surface.

The snow fell quietly outside the tent.

In the tent, the girl Carters sitting opposite began to talk about the reason she knew.

Some things that Chen Mo has no memory of today, from Amiya's perspective, officials from Victoria and Kazdaele officially submitted diplomatic documents to Longmen, and the purpose was to jointly search for a machine that was tested in the joint laboratory of the two countries. device.

Due to the seriousness of the situation, Longmen agreed to a three-party joint investigation. Rhode Island, which had signed a business agreement framework with Chernoborg, was attacked by infected troops on its way back from Qicheng, and was eventually forced to dock at Longmen. .

The result of the incident was that the device was secretly recovered by Rhode Island, along with a Draco who looked similar to Tallulah, and the current leader of the integration movement, Tallulah Atrias, who rushed to Longmen from Checheng. Chen Mo himself was brought back by Rhode Island on the way.

It's a bizarre story, but Amiya's eyes don't look fake, and the look in her words is still the same as Chen Mo knows.

"So, you want to tell me that everything we're in right now is fake, a dream?"

"Don't you believe it?"

"No, I believe it." Chen Mo said, "If I didn't believe it, you wouldn't be here. In other words, have you seen the New Year?"

"Is this her plan or...Kelsey."

"...I'm not very clear about this, but Dr. Kelsey said, you know what to do. In fact, before we came in, when Police Officer Chen and Ms. Chen asked to come to you alone, we were all a little worried, but she said She’s sure to convince you.”

Amiya looked at Chen Mo with her indigo eyes.

Chen Mo remembered Chen Gang's menacing appearance when he arrived.

Chen Mo thought, in fact, Chen didn't have much confidence in her heart. She was like this sometimes. Once she decided something she was not sure about, she would try it no matter what others said, regardless of the consequences or the cost.

She is like a sword bent by the past and tragedy. No matter what, she will eventually become what she is. Those things engraved in her bones, stubbornness and paranoia, tenacity, and even a little recklessness, will never change as she grows up. Because she has seen too much injustice and suffering and it breaks easily.

"So, what do you want me to do? Amiya." Chen Mo asked.

Amiya didn't answer for a moment, and she didn't know what to do now. She suddenly came to this so-called dream that was exactly the same as reality. Before she could recover, she was already in the Yan Kingdom's military camp, and Amiya didn't know what to do now. Know what they should do next.

"..."

"Let me change the question. Is there anything you want to do? I mean right now."

"If we follow the original trajectory, what will you do at this time?" Amiya asked.

"At this time, I should be at the frontline headquarters to listen to the views of the veteran generals on the war after January." Chen Mo said: "The originally planned offensive will be deployed on the battlefield after the military aircraft counselors have formulated a detailed plan and conducted war games. , but the real war had already started when Dayan decided Beishan. The military affairs of the Northern Army cannot be decided by me alone. Besides me, there are three generals, and they belong to different legions."

"If you want me to put down the war and cooperate with you, I'm afraid it will be difficult for me to do so."

Amiya didn't answer. She clenched her hands slightly in front of her, as if she was thinking about something.

"Let's do this... you can think about it slowly, and then you can tell me after you have decided what you want to do. Before that, you can stay in the military camp and recruit people. The Yanguo army did not have such a special case in the past. , but I will temporarily integrate you into my personal guard, and my personal guard captain will tell you what to do here."

Amiya did not refuse in the end.

Compared to living outside without finding a suitable place to settle down, staying in a military camp is a good choice, especially now that small-scale battles between armies of both sides break out from time to time in this land bordering Ursus.

Outside, they may encounter hostility from any party at any time because of their unknown identity, not to mention Ursus's attitude towards infected people has never been called friendly.

Chen Mo watched Amiya leave. He could tell that Amiya still had something to tell him. Maybe she hadn't figured out how to speak yet, or maybe she knew there wouldn't be any answers after she spoke.

This girl did not deliberately try to hide it. This is a good thing, but it is also a bad thing. She is still young and may still have a long way to go in the future. In the process of growing up, something is lost and something is gained. This is something that others can't help her with. Her path can only be walked by herself. Similarly, when faced with those choices and results, she can only decide how she will face them.

Leaving Kazdaele and Theresia, wandering this land with a ship, and being exposed to the suffering and tragedy of this land under the banner of a pharmaceutical company, it would be too heavy for a child who is not yet underage. But Amiya was never an innocent child. Chen Mo had similar thoughts when he first saw her in the Tower of Babel when he was a child.

Birth cannot be changed. In fact, more than birth, there are often very few things that people can decide by themselves. Most things in life are actually not decided by people themselves, but by the things themselves.

If things can be decided by people themselves, then perhaps there will not be so much suffering on this land. All people can do is to choose, before the bad and worse, between the possible hope, to firm up a certain idea , maybe the ending of this idea was unsatisfactory in the end.

But it is important for people to try to learn to accept it, once or twice, and slowly get used to it, and slowly find ways to deal with it. During this process, some people may go astray, and some people choose to give up. There are still some people left, they are the few who can persevere.

So these people are labeled with the same concept, usually called maturity.

Maturity means loss, it means experiencing setbacks, and it also means not falling in setbacks.

Chen Mo also had many things that he should have said but did not mention to Amiya.

One day, maybe Amiya can take over Theresia's heavy burden. Maybe when Amiya stands in Theresia's position, the experience of growing up with the Rhode Island along the way will be Become her most valuable asset.

But now, Chen Mo just hopes that Amiya can relax temporarily.

Maybe that day will come eventually, and there is no way to hide or escape, but people should never live just for one thing and one purpose. Maybe in Theresia's heart, she also hopes that Amiya can choose the one she wants to choose instead of Because of whose expectations, whose sustenance, and whose last wishes carry a heavy responsibility, driving oneself to grow.

Chen Mo knows better than anyone how bumpy that road is, that road will distort a person's original appearance, and when he looks back halfway, maybe even Amiya herself can't tell whether she is Amiya or not. Theresia's shadow.

People who live for others, people who live for themselves, people who live because of others, people who live for others.

When these things are intertwined, what will be produced will be a self that is not one's own, a reflection that can never be removed from the heart, and a false will.

For example... no matter how much Chen Mo called in his heart, there was no response.

There was a part of him missing.

He was not relieved but got what he wanted.

Northern Xinjiang is dreaming, Beijing is prosperous ([-])