Blue Files, there are 100 days left until Mr. disappears

"Because I already know there's no use locking him up. There's no use worrying about him."

Hoshino sighed softly.

"Xiao Zi, if you had known me two years earlier, you would have discovered that I worry about the people I value most more than anyone else in the world.

Do you find it strange?I can talk to you calmly now, but if it were me two years ago, I would smash everything in the department, I would put surveillance cameras on my husband’s clothes, I would pinch my husband’s neck, and urge him to do it every time. Report to me and talk to me every moment, without stopping.

I'll change too. It's unbelievable, isn't it?

In your impression, I may be a powerful senior, but I am actually very ordinary, and I don’t have an indestructible spirit. It’s just that some children need me to be strong, and I have to respond to their expectations...

Hey~ That feels pretty good, Xiaozi, you can try it one day. "

Hoshino was tired from talking, so he took out a water glass from his backpack and took a sip.

Then hold the smooth bottom of the cup, thoughtfully.

She thought of the day she died for the children of Abydos.

Sir saved her.But the gentleman cannot save himself.

"Bai Zhouzi, have you ever heard of a saying? If a person loves something, he will die for it."

Bai Zhouzi's back and toes tightened:

"You are saying that your husband died for us, and this fate cannot be changed."

"No."

Hoshino sighed deeply,

"I'm just talking about a rule I've learned. If death is your fate, then none of us can change it."

Bai Zhouzi gritted his teeth:

"But I don't want to do nothing...I can't just sit there and wait!"

"See, that's the difference between you and me."

Hoshino took a sip of wheat tea and looked at Bai Zhouzi:

"You firmly believe that destiny can be changed, and you will do anything to do so.

And I have tried countless times, but failed miserably in the end. I am forced to believe that everything in the world has its own laws, and I no longer force the world to become reasonable.

This is our choice,

Choice is character, character determines destiny,

Of course you can write your destiny in your own way, and I will stick to what I believe in. "

She winked at Bai Zhouzi and said with a smile:

“That’s why we fought to the death that day in the snow.

You see, this is our choice, our... destiny. "

Bai Zhouzi's eyebrows furrowed with sadness.

"Senior Hoshino, you don't seem to care at all. I mean - the sins I committed against you seem to have nothing to do with you."

"Because I'm the same as you."

Hoshino smiled helplessly,

"You don't know how much I care about the teacher... In short, standing in your position, I will only do more than you.

However, Xiaozi, we do have a choice to save him - provided he is willing to be saved. "

"what?"

"If he looked down and asked us for help, I believe no one would refuse him. But has he ever asked for help?"

Hoshino looked at Bai Zhouzi's face.

Baizhou Zi was struck by lightning.

They were all too young to be true. Even Hoshino, who sounded old-fashioned, still had wishful thinking in his heart.

It's just that Hoshino matured earlier than her and was more able to accept seemingly unreasonable phenomena.

Bai Zhouzi pursed his lips hard and squeezed out a sentence from between his teeth:

"Teacher, he won't have any other ideas at all! His duty requires him to only spend his life to save us, not the other way around, asking us to use our lives to save him. If I ask him for his opinion, how can he agree!?"

Hoshino looked at Bai Zhouzi's obsessed face and shook his head:

"Zi, the teacher is an adult. He has the right to choose.

You feel like he's tied down by his duty to save students, but he can always give up.He just couldn't accept the consequences of giving up his choice.Everything has consequences, I think you have realized this deeply.

The reason why the teacher takes responsibility, saves every student, and even ignores his own pain and death... there is only one reason: this is his choice.He couldn't accept himself if he didn't choose this way.

As long as he takes responsibility and becomes a 'teacher' in our eyes, he is happy. "

Bai Zhouzi lowered his head.

She could barely breathe, but Hoshino's words echoed in her ears.

No matter what she said to the teacher, those words could not make the teacher change.

Teachers don't change.If you change, you are no longer a teacher.

It was a delusion, a lucky idea, a superfluous hope.

But if she gives up this dream, where should she go?

"Don't you still have companions?"

Hoshino stared at her straightly, "Hifumi-san, she is a good person."

Bai Zhouzi raised his head with difficulty, responded to Xingye's gaze, and shook his head slowly.

"It's the same old thing again? Do you think you have sinned so much that you don't deserve forgiveness from others?"

Hoshino almost laughed out of anger.

She stretched out her finger and flicked Bai Zhouzi's head so hard that it left a red mark on her fair forehead:

"That's why I hate you, a boring gourd who keeps everything in his heart! How can you know what others are thinking without even asking!

You think too highly of yourself if you think about carrying your sins, completing tasks, and solving everything alone all day long! ?It’s almost as if I’m the same stupid person as I was in the past!

Come on, let’s set off now and ask Hifumi what he thinks of you! "

Bai Zhouzi's eyes were a little shaken:

"But, but Hifumi and the others are on a mission..."

"What happened to the mission? We are a reserve team, and it is only natural to support the front line, okay?"

Hoshino has already started to pack his equipment and prepare to set off.

Bai Zhouzi stood up reflexively:

"Without the commander's order, the reserve team cannot act without authorization..."

"If you can't do anything without sir's order, you will really let him down."

Hoshino turned around and lightly kicked Bai Zhouzi's butt.

"Get the speedboat ready for me now, you hear me?

I am generally very gentle towards my juniors, but being gentle is useless to an ignorant guy like you. "

Chapter 054: Day 047·Offshore Factory·Shower Room ①

The icy rain seemed to last forever.

Hifumi felt a thick liquid snaking over her shoulders and soaking her arms.

It's her own blood.

In the dense fire net on the second floor, a blind grenade exploded and bounced back, deeply piercing her shoulder, where she bled.

Even if the children of Kivotos are physically strong enough to withstand bullets, it does not mean that they are completely immune to bullets.

Every time I move my muscles and bones, there will be burning pain.

Wave after wave, the dim vision condensed with mist like frosted glass, and my head felt dizzy.

The rain curtain made ripples on the water, and she couldn't see her face clearly.

But she could probably imagine that her expression must be terrifying and distorted.

Does it really make sense to persist to this point?

Can you convince the opponent Hanako of your reasons for fighting?

'Let sir rest in peace' itself is not a real reason.

Hifumi knew very well that that was just an excuse.

It might sound legitimate, but even she knew that it wouldn't be able to convince everyone, and it would even be difficult to convince herself.

Kivotos is the scene of daily battles and explosions, and is responded to with bullets, if not out of hatred, just expressions of dissatisfaction.

And the gentleman simply doesn’t seem like he belongs here.He helps students regardless of his background and asks for nothing in return. He is the embodiment and symbol of unlimited forgiveness and love.

It's like coming from a world where bullets and violence didn't exist in everyday life.

Living in Kivotos, the endless violence of children is a harm to his existence itself.

"Karma"

Hifumi finally understood this difficult Chinese vocabulary.

Kivotos is burdened with too much karma.

The never-ending acts of discrimination between Holy Trinity and Ghenna, the ubiquitous violent gangs, black markets and mercenaries, schools are built every day, and schools are destroyed into irreparable ruins every day. .

Kivotos carries out its metabolism in a violent and vigorous form.

Violence is its operating principle, and coupled with the innocence and malice of children, it is even more indestructible.

Hifumi felt as if she had caught something.

I and my teacher are not from the same world.

They meet but cannot merge. This law is as unshakable as entropy.

She can't go back to the past, nor can she get the happiness she dreams of.

——Holding the teacher’s hand and returning to campus, such happiness was impossible from the beginning.

Her thoughts were not overwhelmed by pessimism and disappointment, but simply out of pure realism.

No matter how cold, cruel, and ruthless you are, you must accept those unshakable facts.

There is no possibility of shaking the tide of history with individual power.

Those who are in it can only savor their own weakness and incompetence, accept it with cold eyes, and rush towards destruction as they embrace it.

But even so, Hifumi did not give up.

"...shua"

My fingers touched a cold object,

She looked down and saw that it was a fragment of a metal war claw, shattered by the aftermath of a howitzer blast.

She held the sharp fragment in her hand and remained silent.

Metal gives her strength.

She had clearly felt that what was flowing in her veins was no longer a miraculous power full of hope.

She can no longer do the miracle of calling the sky with her fingers and the youthful 'Hifumei Declaration'.

Because she chose to face the truth, chose to open her eyes to see the cold reality, and chose to grow.

The miraculous power of youth was completely dissipated in her body.

But her blood vessels and heart are being filled with another kind of power.

On the one hand, it is out of the struggle for the Holy Trinity.