He also said: Now I can still be saved.But if he ignores me and lets me play by myself, after a few months, then I will really be hopeless.
I grimaced and didn't speak.
Text Chapter 130 Chapter Three
Twenty minutes later, I was sent to an apartment in Lishan, and from then on, I was placed under house arrest in Gu Jiaming's house half-forced and half-voluntarily.
In the middle of the night, unable to sleep, I called Mu Qiuyun.The two chatted on the phone for a long time, talking about love and what the school said... In the end, I still didn't dare to tell him about it.
—he will blow up.Let him know that Gu Jiaming is in the study next door, he will definitely explode.
Wang fried the kind of fried.
I thought Gu Jiaming would do something to me, but he didn't.When he came back, he cooked dinner, bought pajamas for me, and then went to work at his desk in the study.
After chatting with Mu Qiuyun, I turned off the light and prepared to go to bed early, but when I lay down, my mind was extremely excited...?It can't be called hyperactivity, it's that kind of state where you are obviously tired, but you can't fall asleep, sleepy and anxious.
11:30 I had to go to Gu Jiaming.
"Gu Jiaming, I, I want a sleeping pill, it's a little uncomfortable." It's not appropriate to interrupt his work, I feel extremely uncomfortable, so I have to.
"Hmm." He dug out the pills from the medicine cabinet, asked me to sit down, and then poured me hot water.After taking it, I said goodnight to him, went back to the room, and lay down again. After struggling for 10 minutes, I finally fell into a deep sleep.
Then I started to have bizarre nightmares—accompanied by headaches, very painful, and headaches that could be felt in dreams.
When I woke up again, the surroundings were silent, and I looked at my watch at two o'clock in the morning. I was afraid of ghosts, and the clothes hanging on the wall looked like ghosts.Then thinking about it like this, under the anxiety and discomfort, it seemed that I really saw a ghost, and that thing was still grinning at me.
I screamed in fright, closed my eyes and hid under the quilt. After a while, it seemed that the light was turned on, and someone rushed in.I was afraid that ghosts would not dare to go out, so I told him to get out, get out, but he said:
"Qiuyun..."
It's Gu Jiaming.
Then he popped his head, looked at him, and started crying.I have a terrible headache, tired and tired and can't sleep.He told me that it was a sequelae, and asked me to bear it for a while. He went to find me medicine... Later, I was fed a piece of sweet candy and a cup of green apple soda, which relieved my mood and spirit a little.
It is very comfortable to be cared for and taken care of, but I still feel that this is not right.
I covered my head and muffled under the quilt, "Gu Jiaming, go and accompany your wife and leave me alone. Lock the door, I won't run around."
"I can't let it go," he said.
So I had no choice but to continue living in a daze.I didn't insist anymore, because in this state, at two o'clock in the middle of the night, if I sleep in a house, it would be better to kill me.
Just after drinking the juice, I feel inexplicably thirsty, accompanied by a hint of irritability and a sense of emptiness.
The mood is always at a low ebb, I want to cry inexplicably, I feel uncomfortable, I can't tell the feeling, it's very depressing anyway.
"Gu Jiaming, can you tell me jokes, tell jokes between friends, please." I got out of the quilt and looked at him eagerly.
He paused, "Ah... a candy, I was walking in the North Pole, and felt that it was so cold - so it turned into rock candy... how about this?" He said slightly solemnly.It can be seen that he really wants to put on the appearance of telling a joke, but it doesn't work, maybe he is too stressed, I can't laugh, and he can't laugh.
"You are poisonous, let me tell you." I pouted.
"Yeah." He replied.
Then I told him about the embarrassing things, the stupid things, the fun things about school that happened during this time.He listened carefully, and I spoke little by little, but the more I spoke, the more sleepy I became.When talking about Lao Zhao and her No.13 Ren Kaizi, my eyelids were a little heavy.
"Want to sleep?" he asked me.
"Hmm..." I nodded.
He touched my nose very restrainedly, then helped me cover the quilt, and left the room.
I can't find fault with this attitude. Thinking about what happened today, I feel at ease, but feel inexplicably uncomfortable.Occasionally, I suddenly fantasized: If Mu Qiuyun hadn't interrupted me at the beginning, I would have been with him, right?That's the norm now.
His and Mu Qiuyun's tenderness are two completely different attitudes and styles. I don't know which one I like better, and I can't tell the answer to this kind of thing.
Thinking strangely, sleeping, dreaming of falling from somewhere, falling, falling...
the next day.
I woke up feeling extremely irritable.
The whole world seems to be fluctuating and decaying.The light is dimmed, there is no color, the color is very "empty".Nothing is pleasing to the eye, everything is hated, and everything is depressed.The ceiling seemed to be so close that it was pressing down on me, and the weight seemed real, making me breathless.The heart was beating fast, heavy, and uncomfortable.
I wanted to cry but couldn't cry, I felt uncomfortable all over my body, I had cramps, and my stomach felt uncomfortable.Muscles ached like they had been drilled and slowly scraped bones.This physical pain is more heavy depression.When Gu Jiaming brought me breakfast, without saying a word, he lost his temper with him and threw the entire dinner plate on the ground.He sent his servants to clean up and carried me to the study.It was only when I was in his arms that I realized that I was shaking all the time, very lightly, but with a high frequency.I cried and asked Gu Jiaming what happened to me?
He didn't speak.
But I actually knew it vaguely, because the memory of being drunk yesterday gave me the answer, a temporary withdrawal reaction.The body is urging me, she wants "that thing"...
"Reading comics?" Gu Jiaming always spoke in a gentle and down-to-earth tone.
"Let go of me for a while." I gritted my teeth.
He straightened the ends of my hair and said with a stern smile:
"No."
No way, no way.
Look at you.
This wave of feeling faded after about half an hour. After the end, the whole person was about to collapse and sweated a lot.It's not just a psychological game struggle, I can feel that the flesh has turned against me, and it is forcing me.
Only then did I understand how stupid and naive yesterday's "indifferent" thinking was. How could this kind of thing be indifferent?I overestimated the will, yeah, I've been making mistakes all along, I've always been an idealist thinking that the will of the soul can conquer everything...but it turns out I'm hopelessly naive.
"Are you hungry?" he asked me.
"Ah."
"What do you want to eat? I'll make it for you."
"Shrimp. And crab. You peel it for me."
"Okay."
"...It's just between friends, help me...remember clearly...I like Mu Qiuyun..."
"But you are Mu Qiuyun."
"I'm Mu Zhili."
"Yes, you are also Mu Zhili."
"Hello? What is this? How can a person have two identities."
"That's an identity."
"sophistry……"
He smiled and said nothing.
Thankfully, he let me go after the feeling faded.This made my feeling of guilt and immorality towards Mu Qiuyun much lighter.
An hour later, the "lunch" meal was finally finished, and I was bored watching soap operas in the living room for a long time~ a long time~.What kind of relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, what kind of car accident broke up and lost memory for three consecutive times, what kind of sister-in-law snatched a man... Damn, I don’t know if I don’t know, I was shocked when I saw it, it’s not easy to be a female Ji Er? ? ?
But after thinking about it for a few minutes, I suddenly realized that this is actually a means to expand the contradiction and earn IQ tax.Just like a YY stallion novel for men.Men are so fickle, women are too heartless, there are only a few truths in the world, and there are endless changes.
Inexplicably, he began to worry again, what would Mu Qiuyun do if he didn't want me?In a blink of an eye, he was excited and nervous, wondering if I would dare to kill him.
It is not certain who goes up and who goes down!
go eat~~
During lunch, Mu Qiuyun just sent me a message, showing off his Dubai local tyrant special meal, I looked at the table, hehe, in terms of the exquisiteness of the ingredients and taste, I can’t eat too much?I almost wanted to take a picture to show him back, but I held back.
A strange feeling also began to surge from then on.That's right, it's different.Especially when Gu Jiaming helped me peel the crab shells.
In fact, I don't like to eat seafood, because it is troublesome to prepare and even more troublesome to eat.But Gu Jiaming asked me what to eat, I said two rather troublesome things without hesitation, I was... looking forward to trouble him?Even taking pleasure in bothering him...?
This discovery horrified me.I won't trouble Mu Qiuyun too much, but I want to trouble Gu Jiaming from the bottom of my heart.It's definitely not because of any reason: "I feel distressed because I care about it", after all, "doing" is a woman's nature; and it is definitely not "birth", I, Mu Qiuyun, are so familiar that I have worn the same pair of underwear, and I can't be born.
Later, I explored a conclusion that made me extremely panicked: that is, I completely treated myself as a woman in front of Gu Jiaming.But in front of Mu Qiuyun, I am not, and I don't want to, at least half, I am not.
Sometimes I want to pamper him, and he is so cute that I want to pamper him.There is a part of the boy's heart that is open to Mu Qiuyun, especially when he is dressed as a woman.This is the advantage and disadvantage that we must face while our genders are complicated and intertwined with each other.I even boldly guessed, did Mu Qiuyun really completely regard herself as a man, a brother, and a husband in front of me?
Those acting like a baby, those intimacy, and the "Mu Zhili" posture and women's clothing posture that I deliberately showed for me that day, are they really another "person" he abandoned, rather than his real wish?
In fact, this question already has an answer, and the answer lies in Mu Qiuyun's discussion of her own gender: neither a woman nor a man, both gender and no gender.
I am like him.
I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.
At the end of the meal, a few guests came, the first one was Qian Lan, who came to apologize to me.Gu Jiaming was picking up vegetables and picking on me all the time, keeping a straight face and not speaking.After Qian Lan noticed it, she showed a slightly surprised and then stunned expression.She probably understood why Gu Jiaming would find out, and also understood who the call was for.
The second, to my surprise, is a lot of money.He was escorted over, forced to kneel on the ground, and dragged to the dining table.I suddenly feel a little distressed, even though he has hurt me.It's just that there are such and such memories in my mind after all. I don't have many friends, really not many.
Gu Jiaming opened his mouth this time: "Reason?" He stood up, condescendingly, and took a knife.
Qian Duoduo was silent.
"Revenge on light blue."
After a long time, he said hoarsely.
"continue."
"Outsiders say that my mother got close to the big boss, but I almost died before I found out that the person who snatched my mother away was Qian Lan. She killed my whole family...and you, you gave Qian Lan the knife, you killed me The whole family."
Gu Jiaming figured it out after half a second. He shook his head and sneered, "So you sell the person you like? Use her as a bomb?"
Qian Duoduo remained silent for a while.
"It's not...the person I like..." He had a complicated expression, but choked up, "It's just...a bad woman who...hates me...plays with me...with my enemy..."
——Gu Jiaming broke his sobs with one knee, then turned around and looked at me without joy or sadness.
"Did you hear it all?" He seemed to be surprised.
"Hmm..." I felt a surge in my heart.
Then Gu Jiaming came over and gently put the table knife in my hand. He wrapped my hand around and controlled it tightly.Then he moved closer, and gradually pressed against my ear, exhaling and tickling the earlobe.
He said slowly and lightly, earnestly:
"I will not die."
again,
"Life and death, I leave it to you to decide."
Text Chapter 130 Four
At last.
After all, I couldn't bear to let Qian Duoduo die.Even when Gu Jiaming asked me to choose Light Blue, I didn't have the heart to choose the dangerous and cruel word "death".
It's not kindness... More, it should be the natural and inevitable rejection of "death" in the hearts of people who have experienced life and death.I loathe the sight of death, especially the consequences of death.Even if I kill my enemy with my own hands, I will feel uncomfortable when I face the cries of the enemy's closest relatives.
I choose to keep them, but not for forgiveness, but for living sins.
It is not clear how Gu Jiaming chose to deal with it, but Gu Jiaming said that they will never see me or hurt me in this life, and the sin they committed will have to be redeemed for a lifetime.But thinking of Qianlan, I felt a little sad again, and asked him:
"Facing the old love that hurt your new love, are you so ruthless?"
He answered directly: "Zhili... After you have gone through thousands of dilemmas, you will understand the practice of 'pursuing profit instead of heart, helping reason and not helping love'. Benefits will always bear fruit."
I didn't answer.I actually understand now.Understandable belongs to understanding, I still feel uncomfortable.
After eating and playing games for a while, I chatted with Mu Qiuyun for a few days, Mu Qiuyun said: He is tired of playing in Dubai, he wants to change places, fly to England, and asked me if he will go.
When I think about the food in the rotten country, I tremble, "No, no!" What's more, Gu Jiaming will not allow me to go.Thinking of my current situation, it is a bit complicated, and I feel a little "a river of spring water flows eastward".
Very cold.
In the afternoon, nothing happened, and I always sat in the bedroom or the living room.From time to time, sister Qiu Jin came to deliver documents, and from time to time many people came in and gathered in the small study for meetings.
Naturally, my sloppy face won't be affected, you come and you come, I see myself as a kid.The big TV in the living room is on the same screen as the old fan at station B, which is really cool to watch.It's just me wrapped in a blanket, a bit like a cosplay TV character?Later, I asked sister Qiu Jin to bring back potato chips and cola, which made it even more similar.But after drinking half a bottle, Gu Jiaming forcibly confiscated it, saying that it was also an addictive substance, and it was an extraordinary period and an extraordinary standard.
I bared my teeth: "I spent money to buy it!!!"
—he just threw his wallet at me.
"But I can't just eat potato chips, can I???"
——He squeezed the dragon juice for me in 2 minutes.
“Juice has no steam!!!”
—and he immediately demonstrated how to make soda with fruit juice.
No move! ! !
I didn't even recruit mmp! ! !
Are you the almighty "come to A Gu"! ! !
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