i was my mistake

(One)

Monday, August 1996, 8.

At the end of August, it already has the coolness of autumn, but it has not yet been infected with the loneliness of that autumn.

Today I got up very early, the sun has just risen, and the bleak moon has not yet set.

The aunt in yellow clothes was sweeping the floor, and the bamboo broom made 'crash' and 'crash' again and again to sweep away the fallen leaves, but it couldn't stop more autumn leaves from falling from the trees.

At the entrance of the factory-owned hospital, several bicycles were parked, and several nurses who had just got off work were yawning and walking out sleepily.

Walking into the hospital, the smell of disinfectant water came to my face—maybe it wasn't disinfectant water, but anyway, everyone always described it that way, so Wan Qing followed suit.

When I was a child, I hated going to the hospital the most, because the smell was terrible, and every time I went to the hospital for injection or tooth extraction, it was really a painful place.

When I grew up, I was also afraid of going to the hospital because my wallet couldn't bear it.

But now that I am back in this hospital that belongs to the memory of the past, I feel a little nostalgic for no reason.

On the way of growing up, this hospital has actually come a lot.

But it's seldom seen as carefully as it is now.

Ye Chen stood at the door of the elevator, and the elegant elevator operator looked at him with a smile: "Which floor do you want to go to?"

"Uh, the fifth floor."

"Okay, please enter the elevator."

Afterwards, she also walked in and lightly pressed the number '5'.

In [-], it was probably an era when the service industry was particularly developed.

Thinking of this, Wan Qing suddenly laughed at herself—in fact, in her time, any industry was like a service industry, not as good as this specialized service industry.

"The fifth floor is here, please walk slowly."

Along with the sound of 'ding dong', the sweet voice of the elevator attendant also sounded.

Ye Chen smiled and thanked her, while Wan Qing didn't say anything, and stepped out of the elevator before him.

It was the same familiar ward, when the door was opened, there was an empty bed.

Walking all the way in, only the mother was lying on the bed.

She seemed to be sleeping, but she was very lightly asleep, and the sound of opening the door woke her up.

She opened her eyes slightly, and seeing Ye Chen and Wan Qing, a weak smile appeared on her wrinkled face.

"Mom, are you feeling uncomfortable?"

"Nothing, just sleepy and can't sleep."

"It's okay, just squint for a while during the day." Ye Chen sat on the chair beside the bed, picked up the mineral water on the table and poured it into his mouth—probably it was given by someone else. In the old days, most people would not buy mineral water to drink, and there were places where the water was opened in the hospital.

But the advantage of this mineral water is that it can be drunk immediately after opening the lid, and it is still cool.

Cycling all the way here, even if the weather is cool, he is already covered in sweat.

——After all, there is still a Wanqing behind.

"Where's Dad?"

"I bought breakfast, and by the way, make an appointment for an inspection."

Wan Qing didn't join the conversation, she was happy to keep her so-called shy persona, because when she opened her mouth, she really didn't know what to say.

Talk to your parents as strangers?

This feeling is too weird.

"Hehe, I fell asleep last night, and I dreamed about the past again." The mother smiled and looked at Wan Qing, "Ye Chen's father used to always say that I would give birth to twins, but in the end I gave birth to him." A son, so that he can only give away the little girl's clothes he bought to others."

Ye Chen suddenly coughed.

Wan Qing's complexion also froze.

She suddenly thought of a very important thing.

She is in this time and space, and what she does will change the future, but not the current self.

But what if, before her, there was a past influenced by the future?

In case of any accident, it is even possible that she and Ye Chen will no longer exist.

After all, his time is further ahead, and the further ahead, the easier it is to affect the time behind.

But the change has already begun, the butterfly's wings have been flapping, and no one can stop.

……

(two)

"Oh? You came early today?" My father walked into the ward with breakfast, and looked at them with a smile. "You don't have to come every day. Since you two have made an agreement, just go and study hard."

"It's okay... I came here today... to take a look. I'm mainly a little worried."

"Ha, don't worry." Father smiled and shook his head.

Wan Qing couldn't see what was hidden in his eyes, and couldn't keep staring at him, so she could only turn her gaze out of the window again.

The hospital is full of evergreen trees, which are still green in this season when the yellow leaves start to fall.

Especially the tall and straight pine trees, five or six stories high, can be clearly seen even in the room.

A strong wind slightly bent the top of the pine tree, but after the wind passed, it was still very resilient and straight.

Many clouds gathered together, only revealing a small piece of blue sky.

The wind seems to be a little stronger.

Looking at the sky, it looks like there is going to be a heavy rain.

……

(three)

The delicate atmosphere was silent for an unknown amount of time before it was broken by the sound of the door opening.

A doctor and a nurse walked in to perform the tests my father had ordered.

"Check your physical condition and go through the equipment, haven't you had breakfast yet?"

"Oh! Not yet, not yet."

"Okay, let's go, slow down." This sentence was said to the nurse beside him.

Although it was just an examination, the eyes of Ye Chen and Wan Qing seemed to send her to the intensive care unit.

It made my mother laugh: "Don't worry so much, okay? It made me nervous."

"The children care about you." The father smiled and walked beside the hospital bed that was pushed away.

He didn't seem to sleep well yesterday, and his footsteps looked a little sloppy.

Ye Chen glanced at Wan Qing, but the latter didn't look at him, and followed him on his own. Seeing this, he hurriedly moved forward.

But they didn't get very close, they were separated from their father by some distance.

He looked at the doctor and lowered his voice as if he was asking something, but the latter shook his head and gave him a very relaxed smile.

Judging by the shape of his mouth, it was probably something that would make him feel at ease.

The inspection was time-consuming, and every few minutes, Ye Chen would look around anxiously.

However, there is really nothing special about this ordinary hospital corridor.

"Can't you be quiet?" Wan Qing gave him a sideways look.

"...I can't calm down."

"Just sit quietly and wait for the result. Don't be so anxious. If something happens now, it will be a good thing."

"why?"

"It's right under the nose of the doctor, so it won't delay the rescue time."

"That's right..." Ye Chen suddenly felt complicated, "I don't know whether to hope that something will happen or not..."

"So just wait quietly." Wan Qing pressed his shoulders and made him sit down, "Don't cause more butterfly effects, understand."

"Does that have an effect too?"

"...It is better to create less influence at important moments."

"Okay..." Ye Chen could only sit down obediently—that sitting posture was like that of a primary school student.

But everything has an end.

What the two of them thought was a very long inspection actually only took half a morning.

The mother was safe and well, recovering well.

"Are you all right? Doctor?" Father smiled, obviously relieved.

"It's all right. If you don't worry, go buy some fruit for her to eat, but you can't eat Doha."

"Okay, thank you doctor."

"It's okay." The doctor waved his hand and walked away with the nurse.

They have seen such worried family members a lot, and they have long been used to it.

"Looks all right?" Ye Chen glanced at Wan Qing.

Wan Qing nodded and rubbed her temples lightly: "But we still can't take it lightly..."

"But it's impossible to stay and nurse at night, right?"

"We can stay here during the day, so that Dad can rest during the day and have more energy at night." Wan Qing looked at Ye Chen, "Do what you can."

"Too……"

"Okay, it's okay, you two go back." The father looked at the two with a smile, and the mother who was pushed over on the hospital bed also smiled.

"Go home and study hard, don't listen to your father, inherit his job, and become a college student is a serious matter." The mother slightly raised her head and looked at the two of them.

"Hey -- there's no need to force it too much if you don't have that talent. Anyway, it doesn't matter if you fail, as long as you work hard, and you have the backing of your father and me."

"it is good……"

"No, uncle, go back to sleep for a while, you have to take care of auntie at night, we just study in the ward during the day."

"Then let's talk about it tomorrow. Look at you, you haven't brought any books."

"Dad, I'll get it now!" Ye Chen was very active, and then looked at Wan Qing, "Wan Qing just wait for me here."

"……you……"

"Youliang, just listen to them and go to rest. I asked you to pour me water several times last night. Didn't you sleep at all?"

"Hey...Ye Chen was not so sensible before, it must be the girl who has filial piety."

"Then it's my fault that I didn't give birth to a dragon and a phoenix, and I didn't have your caring little padded jacket." The mother smiled lightly.

"Haha..." My father seemed to be recalling some vague past events, and suddenly slapped his forehead and laughed awkwardly.

……

(four)

Father went back to sleep, Ye Chen went to get homework and textbooks, the ward was deserted for a while, only mother and Wan Qing were left.

"Girl, would you like some apples?"

"Need not."

"Girl, can you eat a pear?"

"no need."

"Then drink some water."

"……it is good."

Wan Qing took out a disposable paper cup, poured herself a cup of warm water, held it in her hand, and sipped slowly.