i was my mistake

14. father

(One)

At this time, time becomes extremely fast and extremely slow.

Ye Chen's brain couldn't handle the strong contrast.

But Wan Qing followed the doctor and ran out immediately.

Her brain was spinning fast.

This is just a factory hospital. Although it is considered a large hospital in the vicinity, it should not have such good technology in essence that it can perform organ transplant operations.

But it may be possible to perform heart stent surgery.

She remembered the phone call from her father in the past, saying that her mother's heart was not good-which meant that at this time it might have reached the point where she could no longer sustain it, and she had to undergo heart stent surgery.

According to her one-sided knowledge, heart stents will not cause rejection.

But this is 1996 after all, and the technology is not mature enough, so there may be some accidents.

It may be a small hospital, and the materials used are not good enough, or it may be that the surgeon's technique is not exquisite enough...

But anyway, it's time to go and see what's going on.

Time began to tick.

In her memory, her mother didn't have problems at this time, so that means that the butterfly effect really started.

She must find a way to change all this.

—Flapping the butterfly's wings more vigorously, causing a bigger wind.

Only in this way may there be a glimmer of life.

……

(two)

"Doctor, how is it? What's the matter with her... all of a sudden...?"

The doctor at the door did not immediately enter the operating room. He took a deep breath and said slowly: "Generally speaking, our heart stent surgery will not cause rejection, but that possibility is not ruled out." , the specific manifestation is that the channel is narrowed again, causing thrombus, and now we need to conduct a quick examination to confirm the condition..."

"She...she will be all right?"

"Generally speaking, there will be no major problems, but... there is nothing absolute in this world." The doctor in a white coat took the sterilized green surgical gown from the nurse and nodded slightly, "Please." Waiting for our news outside, I promise to do my best.”

"please!"

"I will try my best." The doctor could only repeat what he had just said.

……

(three)

Father stood at the door of the operating room, staring at the sign that said "in operation", and did not move for a long time.

Ye Chen clenched his fists nervously and said nothing.

Wan Qing wanted to talk to him several times, but in the end she didn't say anything.

Outside the long and narrow window in the corridor, the setting sun was divided into many parts by the glass and was slowly setting.

A sparrow perched on the window sill, gently pecking at its wings with its somewhat yellowed beak.

The clouds dyed red by the sunset are arranged like fish scales, as if someone is cooking today's dinner with the setting sun as a fire and the sky as a furnace.

People always have an inexplicable self-confidence, that is, if we do it again, we will definitely be able to change the future.

But in reality, Wan Qing could only sit quietly at this moment, unable to do anything.

She gritted her teeth, blaming herself for not discovering it earlier, and hoping that the changes she promoted would make the result completely different.

Regret?

Want to do it again?

But even if it happens again, can it really save everything, can it really stop regretting it?

……

(three)

"Jingle Bell--"

"Jingle Bell--"

In Wan Qing's apartment, the rotary telephone began to make the sound of being dialed.

The phone rang many times in the empty house.

It wasn't until a praying mantis jumped out of the window impatiently that everything returned to calm.

The sun set a little further down, and the sky became a little dizzy.

The neon lights on the street lit up, lighting up the bustling night.

……

(four)

The operating sign was removed by a nurse who came out, and the bright lights spilled out from the inside.

Wearing a green mask and a green coat, the chief surgeon came out slowly.

He took off his somewhat thick glasses, lowered his head slightly: "...Sorry."

His father looked at him blankly, obviously only for a moment, but it felt like a long, long time had passed.

"Gone?"

"I'm sorry, but I couldn't save her. Her organs are failing abnormally..."

"Mom, is mom really?" Ye Chen rushed over in disbelief, and then rushed in suddenly.

The nurse hesitated for a moment, but finally did not stop him.

Father took a deep breath and squeezed a smile that was uglier than crying: "Thank you."

Then he took out a crumpled pack of cigarettes from his jacket pocket, and put a cigarette in his mouth, but did not light it with a lighter.

Wan Qing glanced at the nurse and walked into the operating room.

The mother was lying quietly on the hospital bed, covered with a clean white sheet—but there were many blood-stained things beside her.

Ye Chen lowered his head without saying a word, until Wan Qing came to his side, then slowly raised his head.

"...No heartbeat."

"Ah."

He clenched his trousers tightly, and the veins on his forehead burst out: "Could it be that the future... can't be changed?"

"No... things are ahead of schedule."

"..."

Ye Chen's silence made Wan Qing feel a little uncomfortable.

But at this moment, a flash of light suddenly flashed in her mind.

"Oops!"

"……what?"

"Dad!" She rushed out again in a hurry, leaving only Ye Chen who hadn't reacted yet.

……

(Fives)

Wan Qing will never forget the rooftop where her father jumped off the building.

Because she just walked into the hospital that day, she watched her father jump from upstairs.

She clearly remembered the way to the rooftop.

I clearly remember a burnt cigarette butt thrown by the roof.

"boom!!"

The unlocked security door on the roof was slammed open.

She saw her father standing on the edge of the roof, smoking a half-burned cigarette.

"—" She took a deep breath and wanted to shout out, but the tone of what she said was rather flat, "Dad."

He didn't seem to hear it, just stood sideways, held the cigarette between his fingers, and looked up at the setting sun that was about to set.

"Dad!!!" Wan Qing finally raised her voice, but she saw her father move.

He turned his head slightly and looked at Wan Qing, as if he remembered something, he suddenly froze for a moment.

His eyes began to lose focus, as if his soul had left his body.

When Wan Qing was shouting, she was already running towards him.

When she rushed in front of him, he had fallen backwards.

And from his chest pocket, the neatly folded 'layoff notice' also flew out, stretching in the air.

All this is so slow in Wan Qing's eyes.

The air seemed to have frozen, and every step forward became extremely difficult.

Faster, faster still!

It's too late!

She gritted her teeth tightly, and there was only a bloody line in her mind:

"The future must be changeable, definitely!"

And now, she is going to change the future with her own hands.

If she came, the parents would still die.

Wouldn't that be in vain?

Doesn't it prove that you are too useless?

I don't want to let the things I regret happen again, and I don't want to let the painful life continue.

In any case, save something.

So, this time, she stretched out her hand vigorously.

die.

firmly.

Tightly—

He grabbed his father's arm.

"Come back!" She gritted her teeth and pulled him back with almost all her strength.

But his father's eyes were dull, and he neither jumped down nor climbed up.

Hanging like this, like a dead body.

Father's body was extraordinarily heavy.

Wan Qing tensed her arms, but she still felt that she was going to be dragged down together.

She lay on the ground, hooked her feet on the steel pillars of the roof, and grabbed him tightly with both hands.

But there was no more strength to pull him up.

She can only hope that someone below will see it and come up to give her a hand, or put a thick mattress underneath.

The hospital has only five floors.

It is still possible to save him if someone helps.

"Don't... die!" She widened her eyes and roared, and many images from the past flashed in her mind one by one.