i was my mistake

He raised his head subconsciously, as if afraid of nosebleeds.

It didn't take long for Wan Qing to come back with several packs of sanitary napkins, as if she just bought some bread.

"Do you want to cover it with a black bag?"

"What are you doing, are you sick?"

"Is this better...?"

"Is the person who always does things like five dragons and pillars in front of magazines shy about this stuff?"

"Ah?" Although he didn't know what the meaning of 'five dragons and pillars' meant, Ye Chen instinctively felt that this must be a phrase that squeezed him.

"Let's go, I went downstairs to buy something else, what are you doing standing there?"

"Cough..." Ye Chen watched Wan Qing push the car, and stood three steps away, as if he wanted to avoid suspicion with the things in the car.

"are you crazy."

"Is this kind of thing common in the future?"

"It's common for women to walk up and down the street in revealing clothes, not to mention this kind of thing, which woman doesn't use it, what's so strange about it."

"...The future world is so open."

"Really, on the surface it's open, but spiritually it's getting more and more alive."

"Uh?"

"You can't write about this, you can't write about that, you can't play with this, you can't play with that, you can't watch this, you can't watch that, if you haven't seen the free world, it's fine, but it's opened and then closed again."

"Okay, okay, stop complaining..." Ye Chen put his hands in his pockets, "How about buying some snacks and going home?"

"You just want to spend the compensation money right away, right?"

"Buy something cheap...cheap."

"Buy the necessities first, the pink toilet paper was too rough to use, it hurt my ass from wiping." Wan Qing looked around, "Buy some better rolls and go back."

"That's expensive."

"Anyway, I can't stand it. Why are you still using such inferior paper in this day and age?"

"But I don't think it's a problem to use it?"

"It means you have a thick skin."

"Why is it all about the skin, my face is not my butt..." Ye Chen scratched his cheek in embarrassment, "If you want to say that the thick-skinned person is obviously you."

"Stop talking nonsense, let's think about buying something."

"snack!"

"except this."

"bread!"

"...This is still a kind of snack."

"Hey, by the way, let's buy some stationery and go back."

"Oh, this is fine, the ones in the supermarket are cheaper..."

……

15. Five Girls

In the middle of the night, Ye Chen was awakened from a vague dream by a kind of uneasiness and restlessness.

The clear moonlight shone on Wan Qing's body, she was wearing only one piece of underwear, showing her soft and smooth back.

A white thigh protruded from the quilt, and that jade-like little foot seemed to be about the size of Ye Chen's hand.

Ye Chen actually entered school a year early, and the month was late, so even though he was already a senior in high school, he was only sixteen years old.

It is the age when the blood is full, and it is also the time when the hormones are the most exuberant.

He just had a erotic dream, and when he woke up, he was a little ready to move.

Biting his fingers, he slowly opened the door and went out.

The TV in the living room was no longer playing, and the full screen of 'Snowflakes' was shaking slightly.

My father was lying on the sofa, there was no cigarette in the ashtray, only a crumpled pack of cigarette cases.

When he got closer, he could hear a slight snoring sound. The small sofa was really inconvenient for him to stretch out, so half of his body was hanging outside.

Seeing that his father was already sound asleep, Ye Chen lowered his footsteps again, stood at the door of the bathroom, hesitated for a long time, and then slowly opened the sliding door little by little.

Even though he tried his best not to make any noise from the sliding door, it still inevitably made a slight noise.

It's like a pencil gently writing on rough paper.

The midnight wind gently blows the dust on the window sill, and the bottles and jars placed on it stay quietly. I don’t know if they will have a lively meeting in this small bathroom at night. ?

As if afraid of being discovered, Ye Chen got inside and closed the door with a softer voice, only then heaved a sigh of relief.

He took off the short-sleeved shorts on his body, glanced at his ordinary-looking self in the mirror, then lowered his head, and held something.

The light in the bathroom was not turned on, only the bright moon outside the window shone on him.

The boy under the moonlight, with his eyes slightly closed, leaned slightly against the tiled wall, and the dreamlike picture appeared in his mind.

Who is that imaginary person?

I'm afraid it's no one, just the most beautiful and most yearning appearance.

The stars and the moonlight will not tell the truth, they will only watch quietly, blinking their eyes from time to time.

Occasional cars whizzed by on the street, but soon fell into a long silence.

At the edge of the city center, the lights were dim, and further outside, it was even darker.

The moonlight, as gentle as water, gently caressed every inch of his skin.

His body began to tremble, and it took a few seconds for him to regain his composure.

"Hmm... Phew..." Many complicated emotions were released at this moment.

Like a balloon leaking, the things on Fifth Girl's body quickly shrunk several times—it seemed to be smaller than usual, but Ye Chen, who was in the dark, didn't notice it.

He decided to take a shower while cleaning the bathroom.

The few body hairs that remained on his body also fell off one after another as if he had applied a depilatory cream.

After this bath, he was completely naked, like a white rice worm.

For some reason, he always felt that something was leaving him, which made him a little uneasy.

Is it Wan Qing, or her father?

Or what about yourself?

He didn't know about this, he just wiped his body and put on his clothes again, this time speeding up his pace, wanting to get back to her side quickly.

With her around, he can always feel at ease.

This girl who looks short and weak, who always gives up on herself and cynically talks about the future world, in the spiritual world, always makes Ye Chen feel so tall, like her own pillar...

If she was gone, he would have to take care of the family alone and explore the road ahead by himself. At that time, he really didn't know what to do.

Even what Wan Qing did might not be right, but at least her face full of indifference or exaggerated self-confidence would always make him more courageous.

When I returned to the bedroom, the moonlight had turned elsewhere.

Wan Qing curled up in the quilt, seeming to be murmuring something indistinctly.

Ye Chen lay down next to her again, letting those silly words like 'Let me touch', 'I'm going to have a package for twins and sisters today', 'Mother and daughter are good' and so on, and couldn't help but babble. Twitched the corner of his mouth.

As expected of the same person, the things they want in their dreams are almost the same.

Of course, Ye Chen is still not interested in mother and daughter, and I don't know if it is because of the increase in age that Wan Qing's abnormality has doubled compared to when she was young.

……

It was still midnight.

Wan Qing felt that Ye Chen seemed to have gotten up to go to the toilet for a long time.

But she was immersed in the deepest dream at that time and had not yet woken up.

At this time, she felt her heart throbbing, as if being tightly squeezed by a big hand, and suddenly woke up from her dream.

No mistake, the sanitary napkin is full of blood and is about to leak out...

She hurriedly put on her slippers, opened the door with a 'slap', and closed it with a 'thud', then opened the sliding door of the bathroom with a 'slam', and grabbed the toilet seat on the back cover of the toilet. Pack sanitary napkins.

She bought the better sanitary napkins of this era - a pack of [-] yuan, only eight pieces in total.

At first glance it seems that the price is not high, but you have to think about the price in [-], and then think that every woman has to come once a month, if you don’t want to bleed everywhere, you have to buy at least two packs use it.

That's seven dollars.

It's close to one-tenth of many people's wages.

"Being a woman in this day and age is really a luxury..." Wan Qing muttered, pinching the edge of the sanitary napkin with her fingers in disgust, and threw it into the trash can next to the toilet with a 'slap'.

Although it is very advanced in this era, this thing still has no wings and is not thick enough, it will leak at night when sleeping, and the water absorption is also not very good.

——Of course, it is [-] times better than a sanitary strip with paper towels.

She turned on the light and checked whether there was any blood on the underwear. After confirming that there was no blood, she breathed a sigh of relief and tore off a brand new sticker.

"Men are burdened with many social responsibilities, while women are burdened with many physical problems..." She sighed softly, "In this world, it is not easy for ordinary people to live."

The feeling of dryness and cleanliness is not special at all when I am a man.

But now it has become a luxury.

She yawned and staggered out the door.

I was seeing the moonlight shining on the sitting father.

He sat on the sofa alone, opened a bottle of beer, and slowly poured it into his mouth, his cloudy eyes just met Wan Qing who was looking at him.

"Woke up and drank." Wan Qing's tone was somewhat sarcasm.

"daughter."

"..." Wan Qing was taken aback for a moment, then snorted coldly after recovering, "Are you willing to talk?"

"...I'm not, I'm running away."

"Then what are you doing? If you're not escaping, you should take good care of yourself, and then go outside to find a job, no matter what kind of job it is, no matter how bad it is, you have to communicate with us at home Bar?"

"I'm just, a little... confused."

Wan Qing walked a few steps towards the sofa, looked at her father shrouded in the moonlight, frowned tightly, and bit her lips lightly: "What...chaotic method?"

"I can see many, many things, sometimes in the past, sometimes in the present..."

She interrupted him: "Isn't that just escaping, hiding in your own memories, can you have some man's backbone? After almost dying once, you shouldn't be afraid of anything anymore, right?" .”

"Sometimes..." Father just continued on his own, "but he can see things that happened in the future..."

"what?"

"It's chaotic, piece by piece, section by section, and sometimes it changes, making it hard for me to tell when and where I am..."

"Then you are recovered now?"

As soon as Wan Qing asked, she saw her father's cloudy eyes losing focus at an extremely fast speed, as if his soul had left his body, and he was lifeless.

The Butterfly Effect changed a lot of things and probably caused my father's confusion as well.

Wan Qing stared closely at the vicissitudes-faced man in front of her, finally sighed softly, supported his body, and let him lie down quietly on the sofa.

But he was as stiff as a corpse with its eyes open.

Perhaps, although the world line can have branches, they will eventually be merged together. There may be no absolute first and last, which is why there is such a chaotic merger.

Among them, the father had the greatest impact, probably because he was already dead, and he didn't have any future that belonged to him that happened later.

Just like a lonely traveler paving the way with his hands, his hands will inevitably be covered with blood and he will be in a mess.