People in the original god, the innkeeper, oppressing his sister

"Yeah, tell me."

"That's right, that's right..." She was about to speak, but Ying hesitated.

"What is it?"

"It might be a little weird, but don't mind."

"I see." Amber pricked up her ears, even with the bunny ear-like headband on her head, her face became serious.

"Then I'm going to say..."

"I'm ready!"

Ying covered her face and turned aside:

"... do we have a few days every month that we don't feel well."

Amber suddenly realized.

Then he choked and burst out laughing.

"Don't laugh, don't laugh, be serious, we are talking about business, okay?"

Saying this, Ying's expression was a little distorted, but in the end she couldn't hold it back, and she laughed too. She rubbed her sour face from holding back her laughter:

"Well, although it's not appropriate to describe the current atmosphere like this, I feel that Gu Bai's state is really exactly the same as this one."

"It's so graphic." Amber subconsciously put his hands on his lower abdomen, "Suddenly feel so...cute?"

"Cute..." Ying thought about Gu Bai's face, and said to herself, "Is that so?"

Then she nodded in agreement, "It seems to be a bit true. If I have to say it, even if I don't use this analogy, he has always been like this in my heart."

"I couldn't find the right words to describe this feeling before, but now I finally have it, cute..."

Ying didn't know what to think of, she frowned and smiled:

"That's it. I'll ask him later. I don't think I'm cute."

As Ying came back to her senses, she cleared her throat:

"Ahem, but it's important to talk about the business first. In short, as I said just now, he is definitely not in a good mood now, but he is not angry or impatient."

"Huh, that's good." Amber was completely relieved, "I comforted Yula for a long time just now, and I was worried that I might mess things up."

"I told you not to be nervous, thanks to you this time, Amber." Ying probably guessed what happened, and thanked Amber.

"It's okay, it's okay, we are all friends, as long as we can get along well, especially Yula, her personality is always worrying."

Amber sighed:

"Although I can understand her, this time it is indeed her fault. To be honest, if I were Gu Bai, I would definitely be unable to control myself and start a big fight with her."

"And, still in this situation, no matter who almost died once, in the face of such a thing, he can hold back his temper. I really admire him."

Having said that, the two felt a little heavy again.

Because right now it is not an ordinary conflict, but it happened under the premise that Gu Bai almost died.

For the rest of life after death, it can be said that no kind of mentality is too much.

And the really embarrassing thing about this matter is that even though Yula did not do well, seeing her self-blaming and sad appearance, he couldn't bear to really accuse her of anything.

For the relationship between the two, she cared no less than Gu Bai, even to the point of giving her life.

The moment she saw Gu Bai, she certainly didn't want to be angry.

On the one hand, it was the self-reproach and hatred towards oneself, and on the other hand, seeing Gu Bai lying there was so painful that he died, and he clearly wanted to hug him tightly, but the matter still developed to this point.

She didn't want to do that either.

The problem lies here, she doesn't want to do this, she feels more sad and regretful than anyone else, but even though she understands her own mind, she still can't control it.

Her experience since she was a child led to the character she formed in order to protect herself, like a seed, which has grown twisted rhizomes and is completely rooted in her body.

So, when she wanted to really fall in love with someone, she found helplessly that she didn't seem to know how to love someone anymore——

In order not to be harmed by the outside world, she erected sharp shields around her body;

But one day, when she wanted to take off her protection for the first time and muster up the courage to go out, she was instead trapped by those shields.

Then he watched as the things he cherished were pierced bit by bit by the spikes on the shield.

Just like the moment she saw Gu Bai, under the package of self-blame, gratitude, hatred, worry, and powerlessness, she almost exploded out of control.

Even to make up for it afterwards, she subconsciously chose the way to get Gu Bai's attention.

In fact, Yura also knows this, and deeply hates her character, and even asks Umber if she is disgusting and tortured by it.

Ying and Amber can understand her pain, and of course Gu Bai also understands. Normally, he would go over and hug her, and tolerate all this silently.

But this time, perhaps because he almost died and was physically and mentally exhausted, he didn't do what he did before, but chose to deal with it coldly.

Knowing this, for Amber, whether to intervene or not is a difficult problem.

On the one hand, Gu Bai is very innocent, she is not qualified to ask the other party to forgive anything;

But on the other hand, watching the relationship between the two break down, she also knew that this was not their intention, and she tried her best to mend things so that things would not develop in the worst direction.

Thinking of this, she cupped her face and stared at her toes, her bunny-ear-like hair accessories also drooped down.

If the metaphor just now had made the atmosphere a little more active, now it has come back down again.

"I don't know what to do anymore, Ying." Amber said apologetically: "It can be seen that Gu Bai wants to be alone for a while now, but I still encourage Yula to go to him to apologize, but if not, I……"

Ying patted her hand: "It's okay, he will understand your difficulties."

"Hopefully."

"Although I really don't want to say this, but..." Ying's tone was a little more complicated: "He will understand, but it doesn't mean things will get better because of it."

"If it's just a bad mood, we don't actually need to intervene. After he sleeps, he might be fine the next day when he wakes up. But this time, his state is different from before."

"What's wrong?" Amber asked worriedly.

Ying set aside the dish in her hand and entangled her fingers:

"It's hard for me to describe, um, just change the way, let me ask you, what's your impression of him?"

"It's easy to get along with at ordinary times, likes to joke, and is very reliable at critical moments." Amber thought for a while: "The personality is also very good, never saying anything serious, and everyone is smiling."

"Yeah." Ying nodded and said softly, "For me, he has always been a very gentle person."

Speaking of this, although her tone was as serious as possible, she still glanced at Amber's expression quietly, and after confirming that the other party was not smiling, she said again:

"No matter what happens, he will always consider other people's feelings at the first moment, and will try his best to solve the problem of the person he cares about, but he always likes to bear it silently when something happens to him."

"Headmaster Heqin has a bit of a personality."

"It's really similar, very calm and restrained, even if you are in a bad mood, you will not act on impulse, have a sense of responsibility, and are very mature..."

"Looking at his character, he seems to be very popular, so you think he is a cheerful person, but he is not."

"Because the more this is the case, the more he likes to bury his thoughts in his heart. In a sense, his essence is a bit like Yula, that is, he is not frank."

Amber was taken aback for a moment, this was the first time she heard such a statement.

Then she suddenly discovered that although she had talked so much with Yula, in fact, she didn't know anything about relationships, let alone Gu Bai.

Only to hear Ying's voice continue to sound:

"When he woke up today, his first reaction when he saw me was not himself, but to ask how others were doing."

"After I told him, he saw that I was a little depressed, and he was still thinking about saying a few light words to comfort me. Obviously, I should comfort him."

Her tone became gentle unconsciously, and Ying murmured:

"He asked me if I was just dreaming. I said no, and then he smiled and said, he didn't think so, because if he saw me in a dream, I would definitely be smiling."

"It's a bit far-fetched..." Ying shook her head, recovering from her memories: "But the reason why I mentioned this to you is to ask your opinion on this kind of character."

"Ask me? If it were me, I would definitely be willing to be friends with him, and it would be very comfortable to stay by his side. Of course I am fine with someone who cares about me like this, but the only thing is..."

Speaking of this, Amber also understood Ying's meaning:

"What will happen to him?"

"So, just now, he also asked the same question, what is my impression of him. And my answer is similar to what I told you now, gentle, calm, mature..."

"No wonder when you said you were cute just now, you said you would ask him later."

"Well, after I finished talking to him, I saw him sigh and tell me that he was too tired."

……

"It's exhausting trying to be a good person in everything, Ying.

From a very young age, I always wanted to be that kind of mature and reliable person, because there are many sad places in life, and the kind of person who seems to handle everything perfectly.

I always want to grow up quickly, and I try my best to follow this goal. Sometimes I even feel like an old man.

But... too tired, Ying.

Hope to grow up and become a better person, but when you really grow up, you find that everything around you is still the same.

I have always wanted to leave no regrets about the things around me, so I changed myself like this... Isn’t it always like this in novels, the mature and calm protagonist can always solve all crises calmly.

I wanted my life to be more perfect, so I imagined a character that was perfect in everything, and then I tried my best to do it, but you see, the more I did this, the more I found that everything was getting worse and worse.

what is perfectI don't know. I used to be self-righteous and thought I understood it, but now I realize that there are many deviations.

Most importantly, calmness, perfection, maturity, restraint... If these words are always on my lips, I feel like I will live like a machine.

Dare to admit your childishness.

Just like this time, Yula yelled at me and said something... I won’t talk about the content, I felt uncomfortable, and then I told myself that she has this kind of personality, and she can’t control it, This is not her original intention, so I have to tolerate her, is it very mature?

But I still feel bad in my heart. Even when I say this now, I am actually covering up for myself. If I say what I really think, it is a little sad...

I asked myself that I did my best in everything, but I didn't expect it to be like this. I kept comforting myself that it doesn't matter, as long as you can do well, but I just realized now that to me, it actually does matter.

She told me that all she did was to make her appreciate me...I...

...Forget it, we agreed not to talk about this anymore.

But even though I was uncomfortable, I still subconsciously told myself, don’t take it to heart, she said these words out of control for a while, and she didn’t even remember what she said afterwards. She can be willful, but I can’t be willful.

Rationally, this is correct, mature and calm.

However, it doesn't mean that if you think so, you can laugh it off.Today I was thinking about that sentence she said, and it kept spinning in my head...

...I'm not feeling well, Ying, and I'm a little tired.

Anyway, I think I have to make some changes too.

It is obvious that maturity is to make one's life better, so how can there be any reason to be more and more tired.

Those previous ideas were all wrong, people, the reason why they become mature is to admit their fragility.

Accept your own immaturity, too. "

Longqitan under the Moon: Chapter 159 Deceit, lies, hypocrisy... Broken trust

Dinner is vegetable soup with fried sausage, and the staple food is bread and butter, all of which are fresh ingredients that Ying bought back to the city in the afternoon.

A fairly simple meal for the first post-crisis dinner.

The reason was that the chef who had been scheduled was suddenly absent—Yura stood by the campfire, her red lips parted slightly, she scooped up a spoonful of soup, tasted it, and shook her head at Amber.

"Not salty?"

"It's really not salty, and the taste is just right."

"That's good." As Amber said, he picked up a stack of soup bowls, "Just now I was too busy talking to Ying, I couldn't remember how much salt I put in, it's fine if it's not salty."

She handed the filled soup bowls to Yula, who silently took them and put them on the tray one by one, her pretty face was reddened by the flames.

Apart from the swollen eyes, there was no sign of crying anymore.

"Is it better?" Amber glanced at Yura.

"better……"

"That's okay." Amber interrupted her: "I have already asked Ying, he is not angry with you, just do as we said just now, there must be no problem."

"Also, I'll serve it, you might be scalded in your current state..." Amber took the tray from Yula's hand, "Go ask them to eat."