People in the original god, the innkeeper, oppressing his sister

"Then continue eating."

As he spoke, Gu Bai dipped the bread into the vegetable soup, and he found that he was the one who ate it the fastest.

He was distracted with the empty bowl, and Yura was also distracted.

With her face down, she slowly brought the bread to her mouth, but she didn't eat it. She just moved her lips slightly, put it down again, and held it in her hand.

The two sat side by side, the snow under their feet covered half of the grass stems, and above their heads was the long-lost moon.

Gu Bai looked at the moon, and when he looked away, he found that Yula was looking at him.

"what happened?"

She regained her senses, stretched out her hand tentatively, and asked in a low voice:

"Is this enough to eat? Do you need me to help you fill some more..."

"Need not."

The moonlight pours out, but in fact there is only a thin line between the bright and the cold.

Just like her pretty face, it can't be said that it is fair or pale.

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Longqitan under the Moon: Chapter 162 You shouldn't look like this in memory

Yura's hand stopped in mid-air, she bit her lip, then turned around silently.

Silently, the dinner finally came to an end, everyone stood up one after another, Ying went to pack the clothes that had been hung up during the day, Amber went to make the bed, and Kaia went outside the camp to see if there were any hidden hills nearby man and beast.

Gu Bai watched their backs go away, this was something that had been discussed long ago, and now, only he and Yula were left by the campfire.

The atmosphere became more deserted.

As time passed, Yula turned to look at him several times, hesitated to speak, because she didn't get the slightest memory, she looked back in a low voice, and tugged at the corner of his clothes resolutely: "We..."

Gu Bai waved his hand, stared at the fire without saying a word, so the voice that appeared slightly was drowned out by silence again.

It took him a long time to stand up and look at Yula, who was sitting there in a daze, with her pretty face buried in her arms, unable to see her expression clearly, Gu Bai comforted: "Okay, it's all right now."

Seeing that Yula didn't move after finishing speaking, he added: "Let the past go, and don't make people laugh because of this kind of thing in the future."

He said to put away the bowls and chopsticks: "I'll wash the dishes, and you can help me... Well, what's the matter?"

Yula raised her face, her tone still lost: "Actually, you are still angry, right..."

"I remember, I haven't lost my temper with you yet." Gu Bai stopped his movements, "If it means that I didn't listen to you on the rock at that time, it was indeed my fault."

"But I didn't mean that, I don't blame you, I never blamed you..." She whispered, "I was losing my temper with myself, really, I hated myself for dragging you down like that, if I didn't I……"

She clutched her chest, her voice trembling slightly.

Gu Bai shifted his gaze to the distance: "I know, I understand how you felt at that time, and I didn't blame you, this matter is not your responsibility, it's just a random disaster, I will do that again again, you don't have to do that think."

"I……"

"I said, first of all, you don't need to feel sorry for what happened in the morning, and secondly, it's over anyway, okay?"

"Sorry……"

Hearing the words, he seemed to be discouraged, walked over and hugged Yula, and said slowly: "What do you want me to do?"

"I don't want to do anything to you, I know you are uncomfortable." Yula said sadly: "If you are still angry, then come at me, okay, all of it on me, I don't want to see you holding it in your heart like this ..."

Gu Bai fell silent.

"sorry."

After an unknown amount of time, a soft apology sounded.

But the person who said this was not Yula, but Gu Bai.

Seeing Yura staring at him blankly, he repeated, "I'm sorry."

"What are you... talking about..." However, there was no relief in her tone, but she became even more uneasy.

In this abnormal sound of apology, she would rather hear blame than apology, because an apology is often accompanied by another sentence, which is what she is most afraid of hearing.

"I said, sorry, we..."

But at this point, Yula grabbed his clothes tightly and hurriedly said: "Can you not say..."

Seeing that Gu Bai stopped his voice, she let go of her hand awkwardly, pulling the distance between the two of them. All kinds of self-blame, guilt, and sadness finally couldn't hold back at this moment, and when she spoke again, there was a hint of crying in her voice. :

"If you think I'm annoying, I'll leave now, okay? When you feel better, we will, we will..."

"Whatever, is it still going to drag on?" Gu Bai asked back.

He shook his head, "I'm very calm now, and I've thought about all my thoughts, so I said, let's go back to how we were before."

"do not want!"

Yura's reaction was much more intense than expected.

She sat a little further away, as if to show that she didn't hear the words, and while covering her mouth, she repeated silently: "I don't want to go back, I don't want to go back..."

"Why?" Gu Bai frowned, "I also wanted to deal with it coldly, but you have also seen it in the end, whether it is for me, for you, or for Amber and the others, continuing to procrastinate will only make things worse. It's getting worse and worse, evasion is not the answer, the two of us have to be resolved, so..."

"It's all my fault. I know that people like me won't be liked by anyone, but can you stop hating me, I will definitely not do it again..." She was about to cry, and interrupted Gu Bai's words with choked sobs: " I really don't want to go back..."

"Wait a minute, when do you think you're going back to the past?"

Without waiting for Yula to speak, he tapped his forehead helplessly: "You don't think it's when you just met, do you?"

Yula nodded blankly, and there was still some sparkle in the corner of her eyes.

"But I was talking about being in the tent, you... well."

Gu Bai didn't know what expression to show for a while, "What are you thinking? I said why your reaction is so strange... It turns out that I misunderstood from the beginning."

He held Yula's hand: "I mean, if this continues, you will suffer and I will suffer too. Back in the past, when I was sick, you were by my side to take care of me. How nice that would be."

"Otherwise, what do you think I'm going to say?" Gu Bai sat next to her and put his arms around her shoulders: "Separate? You really... I don't know if you hate it or not, but it's true that you're stupid."

"It's all my fault, it's my fault..." Yula leaned her head on Gu Bai's shoulder, murmured, and then slowly buried her face in his chest: "I should apologize, I'm sorry, I'll never do this again..."

Hearing her suppressed sobs rang in his ears, and the clothes on his chest were gradually getting wet, Gu Bai lowered his gaze and patted Yula's back lightly.

The fire light became weaker, the surroundings were pitch black, and the extended shadow seemed to swallow them up. Gu Bai stayed with her until the sound of sobbing faded away.

"feelling better?"

"Ah."

After answering like this, Yura did not raise her face, but hugged him tightly, as if she was worried about his sudden disappearance.

Seeing this, Gu Bai tightened his arms, listening to her crying silently in the dark, feeling complicated.

What is he after?

It turned out that she was crying, and she was completely different from how she looked during the day.

Yes, it was she who cried.

— Are you satisfied?

It was as if a voice sounded in his heart, as if telling him, look, isn't this the result you have always wanted.

There are countless opportunities to prevent things from getting to this point, but you still chose the most indifferent one, standing by and watching, as if you were going to give her some punishment, to vent your dissatisfaction in your heart;

Then, she really felt guilty and uneasy because of your actions, and she became like this, at a moment that should have been celebrated... Are you satisfied?

"I……"

Gu Bai opened his mouth, somewhat at a loss.

Maybe he had the idea of ​​avoiding it, but it was just a simple desire to be quiet, and it didn't mean to make her cry on purpose.

But at the same time, he could indeed predict Yula's next reaction, but he didn't want to think about it.

After a brief emptiness, looking back, he realized that because of this casualness, he had messed up things.

Gu Bai sighed, and scratched his hair irritably:

"How could such a simple thing become like this..."

Yula mistakenly thought it was an expression of dissatisfaction with her, sniffed her nose, and tried to suppress the sobbing: "I, I won't cry, don't be angry..."

"I'm not talking about you, don't do this."

Gu Bai pushed her away forcefully, and put his hands on Yula's shoulders. There was still some uneasiness in her eyes. Her lips, which seemed to be covered with a layer of lipstick in the past, were already dry and cracked by her teeth, and a trace of blood.

Gu Bai felt a little cramped in his chest, he thought back to the beginning of their acquaintance, when she always liked to raise her chin when speaking, proud and indifferent, instead of being sensitive and cautious like now.

Gu Bai looked at her, and slightly looked away:

"I'm blaming myself for making things like this. I don't feel good seeing you crying. I'm too awkward. If I said something earlier, it would be fine, but it has been delayed until now..."

He hugged Yula in his arms, felt her body temperature, and suddenly felt sad:

"It's my fault. I really don't want to see you cry, and neither do I."

"You're right, I'm a bastard, a selfish and willful bastard, just because I have some emotions in my heart, I put you aside... Do you remember what you said in the tent?"

"Tell me, would I be disappointed when I saw you lose your temper with me instead of rushing over with tears in your eyes?"

Yula's body trembled a bit, just as she was about to raise her head to explain something, Gu Bai slowly patted her on the back:

"I don't blame you for saying this, because Ying came in before I had time to tell you the answer. In fact, I wanted to say something to you a long time ago."

He rested his chin on the top of her head and whispered:

"I would be happy if you didn't cry. You know, now I understand that all I did was not to see you cry."

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Long Qitan under the Moon: Chapter 163 I Hate You, Through and Out

"It's a little late to say this now, but no matter what I was thinking about before, if I can hold you like this, I feel that everything doesn't matter."

Gu Bai wiped away her tears:

I hope to make your life better and better, not worse, just like it is now... I still hope to see the original you, I even think, if you don't have me, at least you won't be so sad.

"Don't say that about yourself."

Yula covered his mouth with her hand, and didn't feel comforted by his words. She lay on his chest, as if feeling the beating of his heart, raised her face stubbornly, and said with a twitch:

"...You are like this every time. You always want to take care of everything by yourself. If it's not your fault, you have to put it on yourself. I don't want to see you like this. The more you blame yourself, the harder it is for me."

"I always like to keep things in my heart... Well, maybe there is this problem, but I am not taking responsibility this time, and I didn't say those words deliberately to make you happy. I really think so."

"But I... I'd rather you ignore me all the time than watch you become like this. Don't be so tired because of me, okay?"

Gu Bai nodded lightly: "Well, I will try my best."

After a long time, he spoke again:

"Actually, I'm not so tired. Some words are just hypocritical, not to the point of being unbearable. What I said earlier was not angry. Maybe I am a selfish and awkward person at heart, but I always like to find all kinds of things. All kinds of excuses, over time, made me believe it myself."

"You're talking about yourself like that again..."

"Listen to me."

Gu Bai helped her smooth the ice-blue hair behind her ears:

"The reason why I say this is because I don't think I should hold back some words. If it is the truth, then I will tell you my true thoughts. If it is a hypocritical complaint, then allow me to be willful for a while, except you Besides, I don’t know who to tell.”

He slowed down his tone:

"I know that your character will not be able to change in a short while. I have decided to accompany you on the journey. Those who are guaranteed not to be hot-headed, what will happen in the future, such as pressure from the outside world, obstacles in the family, including Where your character is not frank and impulsive..."

"I am mentally prepared for all of these. Since I have chosen to do this, I should have more responsibilities to accept all of this."

"So I understand your powerlessness and why you were angry at that time, but sometimes I also think, I hope you can understand me more."

"It's like you yelling at me in the tent in the morning, saying that I almost died, yes, I almost died, there is no good place on the whole body, that thing held a sword to my throat, and I suffocated a little bit , I don’t give any hope to myself, I don’t want to tell you about these things, you say I don’t think about myself, I know it’s worrying about me.”