People in the original god, the innkeeper, oppressing his sister

He held Yura tighter and said softly:

"But, you also have to think about me, right? Do you want me to watch you die in front of me, or leave you at King Qiuqiu's place and jump over by yourself?"

"Sorry, it's all my fault..."

Seeing that Yura was about to cry again, he closed his eyes and buried his face in her hair:

"I don't blame you for everything, I just want to talk about what I have been holding back in my heart. In fact, what you said just now is correct. Some things should always be said, not buried in my heart. Otherwise, I will feel uncomfortable and you will If you are at a loss, it is better to explain it than to hide it."

"I'm not a person who is so boring that I want to die, and I'm not interested in being a hero. That's the only solution. If you worry about me, you will say that I will almost die anyway, but no matter how many times you ask, I will still answer you , you will die if you don’t.”

"I still remember my conversation with that defective product. I told it that it didn't matter whether I was dead or alive, but that was actually a deliberate lie to delay time. If there is a chance, I still want to live."

"You may not believe it, but I have never suffered such a serious injury since I was a child. I am an ordinary person. I have not experienced as many dangers as you. I was lucky to obtain some extraordinary abilities, but apart from these, I am nothing like ordinary people. Different."

"I don't know what kind of impression I left on you. It seems to be reliable? Although sometimes it is very happy to think about it, as if I am recognized as a person, but I don't know where these impressions come from. "

Gu Bai showed a look of reminiscence:

"It's a bit embarrassing to say, when I first came to Mond, I didn't intend to make myself so reliable, but I planned to find a reliable person, so that I could hide behind him and live a heartless life."

"At first I thought Ying was very powerful, so I was going to look for her, but you also know her personality. When you get to know her, you should care about her. When I first met her, I really thought she was a very powerful traveler, but sometimes I saw her. Looking at me in a daze, I couldn't help but take the initiative to take care of her."

"Actually, Qin is also like this. I was still recuperating at that time. When I saw her in the room, my first impression was that she was strong, generous and mature. She was also the leader of the West Wind Knights. But after getting along with her, I realized that she was not as strong as I imagined. Maturity, in fact, is troubled by many things, and later will enlighten her intentionally or unintentionally."

Gu Bai looked at his hands:

"In this way, there is no other way. People with a better relationship are like this, so I have to rely on myself, but I am not a very good person, and I don't know what to do before many things."

"You always ask me subconsciously, as if I am sure of any situation and can come up with a solution in a crisis, but I am really not what you think..."

"Fear, nervousness, boredom... I will have these normal emotions, but I don't usually express them."

"The only difference is that people can often find someone to rely on when they are vulnerable, just like you will come to me or Amber when you are sad, but who can I go to?"

Having said that, he didn't continue talking, but paused for a moment, and whispered:

"I'm homesick."

After speaking, Gu Bai exhaled slowly, looked at the moon in the sky, and forced a smile:

"I can't find anyone, I'm kind of homesick, but I can't even go home, and I don't even know why I'm here."

I don't know when, it was he who hugged Yura, but now he buried his face in her neck.

"...You still have me."

Yula said something softly, she put her arms around Gu Bai's waist, and their cheeks were pressed against each other, listening to his confession, her heart ached a little bit.

Yula didn't know how to comfort him, she had already said enough apologies, and the guilt and heartache in her heart didn't decrease at all, on the contrary, it was even more uncomfortable than before, full of bitterness.

But "I'm sorry" over and over again will only make the apology cheap and useless, she doesn't know what to do, she can only hug Gu Bai tighter, as if she can pass her heartbeat and body temperature to him , repeating in a low voice: "I'm right here."

"I know I'm not the kind of mature person who can't even handle my own life and make a mess of everything...but, I..."

She wanted to make some promises, but hesitated a few words and became frustrated:

"Actually, I can't guarantee anything."

"I may not be able to help you, and I may continue to do wrong things and fight with you in the future, but if you are in a bad mood again, no matter what happened at that time, as long as you don't abandon me, I will always be here Yes, it's been like that all my life."

Gu Bai was silent for a while, then pinched her face, "This kind of promise is too long, I can't even guarantee it for such a long time."

"Really! I..."

"Who can say what will happen next."

Interrupting her, Gu Bai slowly raised his face with her breath lingering in his breath:

"It's been a lot of verbosity, but I actually want to tell you that I'm not that omnipotent, and I won't keep calm all the time. I said I felt a little uncomfortable before, but it's not because of the above reasons."

"You know what I've been thinking about today?"

"It was a sentence you said in the tent at that time. Although I kept comforting myself that you were just excited for a while, don't pay too much attention to your words, but after thinking about it for half an afternoon, I found that I still felt uncomfortable, like a thorn tied."

"Do you remember this?"

He held out his hand in front of Yura's eyes:

"At that time on the cliff, I made a cut in the palm of my hand. Now it looks correct, but at that time, my mind was also blank. I just vaguely thought of the possibility of cheating flowers, and I made all the preparations I could. Just did it."

"Now I can still recall the feeling at that time, my body hurts, no, it should be said to be numb, my lungs are about to catch fire, my whole body has reached the limit, and I want to fall down several times, but because I still carry you, Grit your teeth and tell yourself to hold on for a while."

"Then we ran to the cliff without stopping. You should be able to feel that I am really desperate. It is impossible for two people to jump over at the same time in that state, and there are monsters approaching gradually behind... I have no extravagant expectations. I can survive myself."

"At that time, I simply knelt down on the edge of the cliff, thinking that it was acceptable to put the last moment of my life here, and I just gave up, because no matter how much I struggle, I can't change the result...until I realized that you are still there."

His voice gradually suppressed:

"You know, I only had one thought at the time, and that was to let you live."

"In this incident, your feelings may have been ignored. I should apologize to you, so I can understand how you get angry with me. I have never been dissatisfied with you because of this. It is your reaction and imagination at most. There are some deviations in it, after all, no one who has just survived wants to be yelled at, so I am a little disappointed."

"But what really made me choose to avoid it was the sentence you said in the tent, and you may have forgotten it."

Gu Bai paused, and said word by word:

"You tell me that the reason why I did that is to make you appreciate me."

After saying this, he pushed Yula away forcefully, and met her bewildered eyes:

"Yura, I can tell you again very seriously, I have never thought about it that way, not before, not in the future, whether it is life or death."

"I just hope that you can live on. I can abandon everything else just for this one thought. I even hope that you forget about me, so that you won't be trapped in guilt for the rest of your life, but you can continue your life."

He puts his hand where his heart is:

"Although it hurts every time I think about it, I would rather you just pretend that this person named Gu Bai never existed, find someone you love and love you, and live a good life."

"But what did you say?"

"gratitude."

He turned around and said in a calm tone, "I really just want you to live. I have thought about it so much, and I don't have time to think about other things. Because I will fall off the cliff with that King Qiuqiu in the next moment."

"Actually, even at the bottom of the cliff, when I was about to die and lost consciousness, I can't even remember who I am, but I still remember one thing, and that is to go back and find you."

He rubbed his knees:

"One arm and one leg are disabled, and I crawled towards the entrance of the canyon bit by bit. I didn't know that I guessed right until I met the experimental product, so let me relax a little bit."

"I don't want to mention what happened in the middle, and then, at noon, when I woke up and saw you, I got such a question."

He smiled self-deprecatingly, his expression became cold:

"It's really chilling."

"I'm not so calculated to that extent. Why, I acted a play just to impress you with risking my life to save you. What do you think of me?"

"I did not mean that!"

The originally calm emotions became flustered because of these words, Yura's eyes turned red for a moment, and she desperately explained:

"I just want to tell you that if you really have an accident, I will never forget it until I die. I... I don't know why I said that at that time..."

With an almost pleading look in her eyes:

"But I didn't mean that at all. How could I feel that you did that to make me appreciate you... When I saw you at that time, I really wanted to hug you, but when I saw you like that, I felt that I I'm not qualified to hug you, because it was me who killed you and almost died..."

She was so anxious that she was about to cry again, she stood up and wanted to come over, but noticed that Gu Bai had taken a step back, then froze on the spot at a loss, the tears slid down her cheeks, falling drop by drop on the snow, covering the white melt.

Gu Bai just watched her from the side:

"You know, in fact, no matter how angry you are, I have been patiently coaxing you, but because of that sentence, I suddenly lost interest."

"It's all my fault, I'm sorry, I'm disgusting, I'm an asshole... But please believe me once, okay, I really didn't mean to..."

"But you've said it, haven't you."

He picked up a wine bottle and threw it on the ground, shards of glass and amber liquid splashed:

"Just like this bottle of wine, if it's broken, it's broken, and it's useless to regret it later."

"I always thought I was thinking about it, but in fact I didn't. I can't help it. I'm such a narrow-minded person. I can't act as if nothing happened. It is precisely because of this that I dragged it until now to solve it. .”

"I know I'm a disgusting person, sometimes even I hate myself, I..."

"Do you think that I will soften my heart when I say such a thing, and then hug you and say that it's okay?"

The next words almost broke her heart, her heart fell to the bottom of the valley, and she froze on the spot in a daze.

"impossible."

"Yura Lawrence, I don't know what you look like to others, but to me, you are a complete and complete nuisance."

"You are always impulsive and awkward. I thought I could accommodate your shortcomings, but now I realize that I can't."

He walked up to Yura step by step:

"I can't do it, because of your so-called impulsive words, from morning to now, no matter how I explain myself, I feel uncomfortable."

After he finished speaking these words as if venting, his tone suddenly softened, and he asked softly:

"Are you having a hard time right now?"

Without waiting for Yula to react, Gu Bai wiped away her tears, embraced her soft body in his arms, and hugged her vigorously:

"Then you should also know how I felt at the time. The only difference is that the above are all lies to you."

He whispered to himself: "Well... Actually, I can't lie. What I said just now was all my thoughts before dinner. It's true that I feel uncomfortable. I really feel a thorn in my heart."

"But since it was just the two of us, and seeing you cry, those thoughts suddenly changed."

"Now, I finally understand why I feel stabbed in my heart."

He pressed against her earlobe and said softly:

"It's because I care about you that I feel bad."

"You bullied me again..."

Hearing the voice of grievance in his arms, he added lightly:

"But it's true, you're a total nerd,"

He felt Yura's body tremble:

"But that's not all. As for me, I'm a hopeless fool who's in love with nasty ghosts."

Gu Bai let go of his hands, Yula raised her face in a daze, her amber pupils were covered with mist.

"So, no matter what, I want to be with you and live a good life together in this world."

After finishing speaking, he cupped her pretty face, and without waiting for Yula's reaction, he kissed her blood-stained lips heavily.

Longchitan under the moon: some reflections and conclusions

I don't know how to write it either.

Of course, all this is my problem, because my level is too poor.

The following plot is almost conceived, such as how to end this volume and the content of the next volume, etc... But I just can't write.

Frankly speaking, I was caught in deep self-doubt, and I dare not write.

I don’t blame everyone, I am very grateful for the support until now. For someone like me who writes and updates slowly and often refreshes, I think it is incredible that this book can last until now. thing.

Let’s not talk about these complaining nonsense, let’s talk about the difficulties that writing is facing today. The simple summary is that I have lost my grasp of what I have written recently.

This problem started from the episode of Snow Mountain, and the evaluations are mixed. Some think it is okay, and some people think that the author is self-satisfied.

Every time I finish writing a plot, I will reflect on it. For example, in the ghost story told by the Knights, I can say with certainty that the writing is a failure, and it is the place where I am unwilling to read the whole book for the second time.

The reason for the failure was originally to imitate the Anke game and write a plot that was interesting in itself and could promote changes in the relationship between the characters, but it failed in the end, and various analyzes will not be repeated here.

The reason why I bring this up is because I understand the reason why it has a bad response, but when it comes to the snow mountain, I can analyze the unpleasant factors, but I can't determine which one.

1. The first is the update, which everyone will understand without saying much.

2. The second is the subject matter. If such a plot is placed in Yuanshen Tongren, it is naturally offensive and unacceptable.

The original intention of everyone reading Yuan Shenwen is to find some light-hearted and funny daily life, licking my wife, and then under this major premise, I wrote a very convoluted reasoning drama. It is natural that it is not pleasing.

Next door there is an article dedicated to posting knives, but that kind of style is clearly stated from the beginning, and my side has changed in the middle, which may be caught off guard.

It’s like Chinese New Year, the whole family went to the movies happily, and ended up watching a ghost movie, let’s not discuss the quality of this ghost movie, but at this point in the Chinese New Year, it will not be pleasing anyway .