Can't you just leave me alone?

'You are Jinger's fiancée. '

'And I'm just a [passerby]...'

In this case, it just changed Zi Shibu's mind a little bit, and she didn't say it out.

There is no need to speak out.

"Of course, I like him the most!"

Without the slightest shyness, Chika Fujiwara affirmed without hesitation.

She was originally this kind of girl who was like the sun.

"I know, Auntie, you attach great importance to the new book, but is there a need to be so anxious?" Chika Fujiwara made a puzzled voice.

"That reckless way of collecting materials is simply..."

It was almost as if his time was running out.

However, Fujiwara Chika knew that this was impossible.

In fact, the physical condition of Murasaki Shikibu has always been a matter of great concern to the Fujiwara family. After all, her schedule and diet have never been considered healthy.

However, although he is a bit weak, Zi Shikibu is not troubled by any terminal illness, so it can be said that he is quite healthy.

"Indeed, I may have been too impatient." Zi Shibu looked at the 'Ruozi' doll, as if he was looking at someone who was not here through it.

"I just want to... be the best I can be."

"Qianhua, do you know 'Goethe'?" Zi Shibu suddenly mentioned a name that can be said to be familiar to everyone.

"Of course I know. It's the one who created Faust, right?"

"That's right, and before "Faust", he had another work called "The Sorrows of Young Werther." Holding his niece's fragrant and soft body, Murasaki Shikibu's eyes narrowed slightly, as if caught in something. in a memory.

"The book made him famous, but it also got him into some trouble."

"Because the book is so well written that it set off a 'parody' of its protagonist in Europa."

"However, the protagonist Werther in the book ended up committing suicide, so..."

"So someone imitated him and committed suicide?" Chika Fujiwara opened her eyes wide in surprise.

"That's right, and there are quite a few of them." Murasaki Shikibu affirmed, "Because of this, "The Sorrows of Young Werther" was criticized by Christianity, and was even listed as a banned book."

"Qianhua, do you know how I felt when I read this story?"

"...would you regret it?"

"No," Murasaki Shikibu shook his head, "I only feel deep envy."

This is also the moment when she retrieves this emotion.

"The power of stories alone can push people's hearts into the abyss of death. It's just a piece of broken stuff that puts words together, but it can shock, inspire, awaken, and incite people's hearts—this is the so-called miracle!"

Murasaki Shikibu said categorically.

"Faced with such a gap, how can I not be impatient?

Chapter 60 Suicidal Tendencies and No Longer Human

The books I wrote end up infecting strangers and pushing them into the abyss of death...

If this kind of thing happened to any writer, he should be restless, feel sorry and guilty, right?

After all, although he subjectively did not have such a meaning, nor would he be legally responsible for his suicide, but...

That is a living life.

It's arguably a human thing to grieve after learning of the death of one of our own kind.

However, instead of feeling sad, Murasaki Shikibu even felt... envy?

Even Chika Fujiwara couldn't help feeling a little shivering down her back at this moment.

Although she knew that her aunt had experienced certain psychological trauma when she was a child, so she was a little different from ordinary people psychologically.

However, on the one hand, it is because Murasaki Shikibu has lived in his hometown in Kyoto for a long time and has not lived with them for too long; on the other hand, when Zi Shibu has been in contact with her, he has always behaved extremely normal.

Therefore, Chika Fujiwara once thought very optimistically that her aunt's mental illness might have healed itself with the passage of time.

The reason why I live in my hometown in Kyoto is just because of years of habit.

The fact that Murasaki Shikibu would agree to her request and come to Tokyo made her feel that this might be the case.

However, just after Murasaki Shikibu said those words...

Fujiwara Chika had never felt the 'abnormality' of Murasaki Shikibu so clearly before.

"Could it be that, my aunt, she seems to lack the most basic awe of death, and she is too indifferent to it..."

Fujiwara Chika thought so in her heart.

This is not a good sign.

No, it should be said that it is a phenomenon that cannot be worse.

Desire for survival, fear of death...these are all human nature, the so-called 'human nature'.

Not only human beings, the emotion of "survival" can be said to be rooted in the DNA of all living things. Only with such an instinct will their species struggle to continue.

'Auntie, isn't she planning to commit suicide after finishing the book? '

As if by accident, an idea quietly entered Chika Fujiwara's heart and began to take root and sprout on it.

This was not Chika Fujiwara's whim.

Sakurajima has always been a country with a high suicide rate, and the probability of suicide for people who are writers in this country is frighteningly high.

Arishima Takero ended his 11-year-old life together with the female reporter Hatano Akiko in Karuizawa's villa Jingyuean in the 45th year of Taisho;

The famous writer Akutagawa Ryunosuke committed suicide out of "indifference";

Osamu Dazai, who said "I am sorry for being a human", finally drowned himself after hearing the news of Ryunosuke Akutagawa's suicide;

Yasunari Kawabata, a writer who won the Nobel Prize for Literature, committed suicide in his own home in 1972 by holding a gas pipe in his mouth. …

The list goes on and on.

Writers are a profession that makes deals with the devil, and they make great works at the expense of themselves.They are sensual and sensitive, able to capture the most secret and fragile souls of people, and they are also prone to sadness and despair. While enjoying this talent, these talented writers also endured sadness that they would not have endured themselves.

"Could it be that my aunt has already made up her mind that after writing her new work..." Chika Fujiwara resolutely cut off this thought.

She didn't dare to think about it anymore.

"Auntie, I've seen "The Sorrows of Young Werther", but I don't think it's so good." Trying to ignore the chill that came up from the bottom of her heart, Chika Fujiwara deliberately belittled what my aunt just said. This book is coming.

As if using this to negate the idea that suddenly popped into her mind...

"Because you are not from that era." Zi Shibu was obviously not particularly surprised by this, "When I asked Jing Er to read "The Tale of Genji" before, I told him that when reading a book, you must consider To the background of the times in which the author was writing this book."

"The works written by all writers are for people of his age to read, and very few people will consider the evaluation of their works by future people."

"In the [-]th century when Goethe lived, it was the time when new trends of thought were attacking feudal autocracy," Zishibu was obviously quite proficient in this period of history. Difficulties, thoughts are also suppressed by it, and they are in dire straits."

"This "The Sorrows of Young Werther" is actually written for them." Murasaki Shikibu gently stroked his niece's extremely soft long pink hair, "This book was not originally written for you, who are going smoothly in the new era. It’s quite normal that you don’t feel much about the books that a little girl who grew up on the ground reads.”

"Cultural differences, changing times, readers' circumstances, translation quality...all of these can easily affect the perception of a book," said Murasaki Shikibu with some sentimentality. "There is no way to do this. What about the matter?"

Saying so, the atmosphere in Murasaki Shikibu's room fell involuntarily.

This is not possible. The reason why Fujiwara Chikarai came here was to make my aunt untie her knot and cheer her up. How could it make the result worse?

Chika Fujiwara's heart raced, and she kept thinking about the so-called way to break the situation in her heart.

However, the usual vivid thoughts have become a little obscure at this moment.

After all, this conversation was too heavy even for Chika Fujiwara.

'Think about it, if it was Ah Jing, what would he do at this time! ' Fujiwara Chika thought so eagerly in her heart.

But unfortunately—

'Have no idea......'

Chika Fujiwara does not possess the superpower of simulating thinking, and such an attempt ended in failure.

And generally what to do at this time is——

"Auntie, how did you get the materials today?"

Just to change the subject forcibly!

If the end is a cliff, no matter how blunt it is, the topic must go in a different direction!

Murasaki Shikibu blinked in surprise, obviously not used to such a jump.

However, she also roughly understood the purpose of Fujiwara Chika's doing this, so she no longer entangled in the previous topic.

"Well...it's actually pretty good."

This is the truth.

Although he was warned twice by Yuanjing, Zi Shibu's delivery today was actually quite a lot.

Yayoi Mizono from the performing arts club actually inspired her a lot.

Stupid, jealous, reckless in doing things... If such a character is truly possessed, it will undoubtedly be a disaster.

However, such a role is indispensable in the book.

If there is no such character as a green leaf, how can it set off the protagonist?

In addition to Yayoi Mizono, there are Mai Sakurajima and Nagisa Kashiwagi.

In addition to being a somewhat rare "sister attribute" character, the former also has the intention of "attacking" Yuanjing.

For Murasaki Shikibu, she is a pretty good source of material.

In fact, Murasaki Shikibu has always had some regrets, that is——

Whether it was Yuanjing or the girls around him, when she arrived in Tokyo, they were basically in a state of 'completed mutual strategy'.

Although we can hear from the girls how they got to know each other and fell in love with Yuan Jing, this is not the first-hand information that they have seen with their own eyes.

Therefore, she hoped to find a girl who was 'attacking' Yuanjing, and take a closer look at this so-called 'offensive and defensive battle'.

Mai Sakurajima is the target she is focusing on now.

For this reason, she even quietly gave her her phone number, saying that she would provide her with some help.

If I don't help, there is no possibility of Mai Sakurajima breaking into Yuanjing's heart.

This is undoubtedly extremely detrimental to her material selection.

The so-called offense and defense must be evenly matched to be interesting. If it is only one-sided, it would be too ugly.

However, although Murasaki Shikibu will provide assistance to Mai Sakurajima, he is not too concerned about whether she can get what she wants.

It can even be said that she actually hoped that Mai Sakurajima would fail, and left sadly after that.

She needs such an image as a template for the characters in her works.

Moreover, as Qianhua's aunt, she can also understand Qianhua's mood, knowing that she doesn't want more people to share Yuanjing.

As for Nagisa Kashiwagi...

After my best friend has a boyfriend, he will uncontrollably become estranged from himself.

In such a situation, what is his mood, and what will he do?

This is what Murasaki Shikibu wants to get from this 'lost dog girl'.

In fact, she also experienced such feelings.

That's when his friend Minamoto Larimitsu picked up Yuanjing.

However, Minamoto Raimitsu and Yuan Jing are in a mother-child relationship, while Shijo Zhenfei and Yuan Jing are in a boyfriend-boyfriend relationship. This difference in relationship will definitely cause emotional differences.

Just imagine briefly, if Kashiwagi Nagisa went to see Concubine Shijo to play with her as usual (because it is a frequent thing to do, so I didn’t notify her), but was stopped by the embarrassing servant in her house, saying Miss is not convenient now.

After repeated questioning, the other party could only falter and tell the truth - she was receiving Yuan Jing.

At this moment, will Bai Muzhu choose to leave in such a sad way, or will he insist on stepping forward to prevent the two from becoming closer?

If it was the former, what kind of expression would she have on her face?