Why does the Ruined King still fall in love?

"thanks......"

Yukinoshita smiled lightly, and slowly returned to his seat, Yuigahama didn't talk to me, and after smiling at me, he leaned back on the schoolbag again, but this time he was not sleeping, holding the phone in both hands and started to chat quickly clicked up.

...So, the atmosphere is back to normal now?

I'm also about to open the library again and start reading.

At this moment—without any warning, the door of the classroom was pushed open, and a familiar voice peeped in

"Oh oh oh? Looks like they're all here~ I'll come in~ Hikigu-kun~"

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A figure that exactly matched the voice in the impression appeared at the door of the classroom, ignoring the surprised gazes of the three of us and walked in directly. Just like what she said, she didn't mean to ask for anyone's consent at all.

A very eye-catching red coat and short jeans just below the thigh, with a white shoulder bag on the shoulder, paired with black leggings and brown boots, which is completely different from the student dress, youthful He is also slightly mature, and most importantly, this person has the same appearance as Yukinoshita—or even above that, perhaps because of a little makeup, the dignified and beautiful face is easier to stand out than before When you show the beauty of it with that kind of sunny smile, probably anyone who has seen it will lose immunity to it...

So... I admit, the moment I walked in the door, I was dumbfounded.

Not only me, including Yuigahama and Yukinoshita, were all stunned. Although I don't know why they are like me, in general, the classroom suddenly became quiet.

Yang Nai looked at the door, then walked towards me, then pulled an empty chair, and sat down next to me.

"Hey, is this chocolate?"

"...ah... no, what are you doing here?"

Although I know that asking this question is meaningless to the result that this person has already sat next to me, I still can't help but ask. Well... Although I am not a person who can understand the atmosphere very well, neither Knowing how to control the tense atmosphere, I won’t talk about Yuigahama’s fixed gaze, but Yukinoshita’s brows that are about to knit together tell me that if I keep silent, I will see Japan’s silence next.. ....

"Well, since today is Valentine's Day, of course I'm here to give you chocolate~ for Hikigaya-kun~"

Said, Yang Nai took out a square pure white gift box from the bag, then smiled at me, put it on the table and slowly pushed it in front of me, together with the two previous boxes.

"I made this with my own hands. Please return the gift properly on White Day."

After saying this, before I could speak, Yang Nai shifted his gaze to the other two gift boxes, showing a look of great interest

"Huh... let me guess who sent these two - one of them is Xiao Yukino, right?"

Yang Nai raised his head and looked towards Yukinoshita with a smile as if confirming. The latter took a deep breath, then exhaled slowly, and responded in an indifferent voice.

"Sister... please don't do unnecessary things..."

"This sentence should be from me, right? Xiaoyukino~"

As if confronting each other, Yang Nai said it back without any politeness, but what was surprising was that Yukinoshita didn't have anything to say at all, and Yang Nai didn't continue to say anything more on this topic, but continued previous topic

"Then... the remaining one should be given by sister Bibin?"

In the same way, he also cast a confirming gaze towards Yubihama, and when asked by Yangno, Yubihama straightened his sitting posture a little cautiously

"Uh, ah... because, because I usually receive a lot of attention from the small business, so... that's right! It's friendship chocolate! Um, friendship chocolate!"

"That's it~ I know, this is pretty good."

Yang Nai nodded, expressing his understanding, and unexpectedly satisfied? ...By the way, this is not something you should be satisfied with, is it?Are you sure it wasn't sent out of pity and sympathy? !

"Miss Yang Nai."

Just when I was thinking about these indiscriminately, Yubihama's voice came again, and together with the voice was a rare serious look, looking straight at Yango

"You...why did you give chocolates to Xiaoqi?"

When speaking, there was hesitation on Yubihama's face, but even if it was because of it, this question was still conveyed to everyone's ears.

I couldn't help holding my breath, and Yukinoshita also looked at Yango with slightly confused eyes, probably like me, nervous about the next answer.

There was a slightly surprised look on Yang Nai's face, but it was only for a moment, and then she covered it up well, looked around the three of us, and revealed a face that was hard to see clearly and irresistible. smile

"That's right, at a time like this, it would be very troublesome to randomly give chocolates to boys without a valid reason, right? But if there is a valid reason, it will become a matter of course, right?"

Speaking of this, Yang Nao suddenly paused as if thinking of something, gently held his chin with his hands, and looked towards Yukinoshita, the two looked at each other, Yang Nao kept smiling, and then continued to say arrive

"No, maybe... there is no need for a valid reason... If it is a reason, it can be right or wrong, right? The purpose is to just give the chocolate out. ...That's right, what is the reason why I gave chocolates to Hikigu-kun~"

Yang Nai deliberately dragged out her tone, ignoring the sharp knife-like gazes of the other two, she slowly shifted her gaze to me

"Bikigu-kun, you should know, right?"

"elder sister......"

"..."

If it is the reason that Yang Nai said...Of course I know, but why this person... If it is only a matter of time, I can understand it, but there is no need to come here at all.. ....And, after all, I was only half-believing about what happened that evening, because no matter how I thought about it or guessed it from any angle, I couldn't get a satisfactory answer. So...

I quietly glanced at Yuigahama who was frozen in place with the corner of my eye, then secretly glanced at Yukinoshita, and sighed silently in my heart

"Ah... it's... a punishment game."

Yeah...a punishment game, but it's not her, it's me.

"Punishment... game?"

For such an answer, Yubihama naturally couldn't understand it, and it was impossible for me to explain more.

"Yeah, it's a punishment game~ Sister Yuigahama"

Yang Nai agreed, and continued my words.

"Oh, oh...It's a punishment game...Punishment...so...that's it..."

The doubts were still not explained, but Yuigahama, who didn't continue to ask, ended the conversation with the intention of guessing, but it was obvious that the atmosphere at this time was much heavier than before.

The so-called reason...it doesn't matter whether it's legitimate or improper, acceptable or unacceptable, as long as someone uses it.Therefore, in the face of those unacceptable facts, reason...is the easiest weapon for people to use.Anyone...can use it, a weapon, but more At the same time, the person who suffers the most damage from this "weapon" is the user himself.

Just like now-

Yukinoshita's silence, Yuigahama's silence, my silence.

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When I am alone, in an extremely quiet environment, I will always be aware of things that are usually easy to ignore—or it is more accurate to say that it is more accurate to deliberately ignore things.

To be more precise, it is the thing that you are most reluctant to taste and discover at ordinary times.

For example, the faint but very clear tingling sensation in the chest now, if it is normal, it is easy to ignore it directly, and the possibility of even being aware of it is very low, no, even if you notice it Most people will regard it as an illusion and continue to ignore it.At this moment, I can even imagine the unsightly appearance of myself who just laughed it off.

However, this is actually not the case now. Although the stinging pain is very weak, it cannot be ignored, even if the thinking is constantly switching in the head.

I refused to give up, and gave myself hints over and over again—fake!It's all fake!A voice like mine kept roaring loudly in my ear - ignore it!Ignore these things!Constantly and repeatedly performing self-hypnosis.

However, these are still in vain, self-hypnosis is no match for the reality of existence after all.

Even a slight sting is ultimately in the real, that is the reality, and the reality - can not be changed by imagination alone, I have known this for many years, and I have experienced it many times , without exception.

My own cries and growls are like the few lines of a ridiculous clown, doing my best to dance a one-man show on that lonely stage-there is no audience under the stage, let alone any laughter, some are just forgotten by people The empty seats that can never be seen clearly.

It is also because of this that I will probably put more effort into this one-man show...in order not to face the cruel reality.

I can't bear the things I desire to be discovered by others, so I became a clown on this stage, and I didn't bring joy to others. I thought I had worked very hard to do it, but what I faced was still empty The auditorium... yeah, it's really unbearable.

Even a clown needs an audience who can understand, so I don't need much... However, the reality does not even respond to this little need, so - the reality becomes more cruel up.

Gradually, the pain in the chest was no longer a level that could be ignored, and he had no choice but to hold his chest and his body curled up. Since it couldn't be eliminated, then he could only bear it, right?

With this thought, the pain in my chest slowly spread to my whole body, irritating every corner of my body - once the pain occurs, it will never disappear, no matter how good the method is to dissipate it, there will be There must be a carrier to carry this pain.

Then, there is no doubt that I am really the carrier of this pain at this time. Whether it is the cause of the pain or the method of eliminating it, these are not things I should think about. Just act as the carrier honestly. ...Maybe, it will disappear tomorrow?I thought so on my own in what little sobriety I had left.

But will it really disappear?Maybe... a clown without an audience. Maybe, one day, it can also bring laughter to other people, and there may be a certain What about a guy who can enjoy this solitary comedy?

However, I still hope to get that response... Even if it is someone who doesn't understand, doesn't understand, or has no interest in it, the vacancy in the auditorium is very important to me.. ...too much and too dark.

All I longed for—that's all.

Therefore, this pain will never exist for a short time, and it will never be accidental. It will accompany me for a long time—even forever.

Perhaps, on the day when I can no longer be the carrier of this pain, all the roads I have traveled have collapsed—the only time I can get rid of this suffering is after I can only follow my own instinct to walk.

Chapter 150 Six Yukinoshita Yoshino's Boyfriend Cultivation Hiki Valley Hachiman Can't Escape

One week after Valentine's Day, the viscous atmosphere brought by Yin Yangnao seems to be slowly dissipating. All in all, except for the weather, most of the others are slowly returning to their original appearance... ... Well, it might be wrong to say that. If it is "original", where does the definition of "original" come from?If there is nothing to refer to, there is no way to talk about it.

But... this classroom hasn't been so peaceful for quite some time.

I sat in my place, holding the library book in my hand and slowly flipping through it. From time to time, I heard another flipping sound similar to mine and the slow conversation between the two voices. Although I was only reading a book, I never Join their conversation, but also take some attention away from this side to listen.

There are still no visitors today, which means that we have no work, and the only thing we have to do is to try our best to maintain this rare tranquility-until the end of the activity time.It was the ultimate peace for the few days just after Valentine's Day, and if I could, I sincerely hope it lasts forever - as I think about it

"Then let's be here today."

Yukinoshita announced.

"Ah, it's time to go back."

With a dazed look, Yuigahama looked at the clock hanging on the wall, then quickly put away his cell phone and schoolbag.

Following the actions of the two of them, I quickly packed up my things. After packing up the chairs, I checked the doors, windows and power supply together with Yukinoshita.

After the three of us walked out the door, Yukinoshita was responsible for locking the door, announcing that today's club activities are over - that means, today is also over, and after that, we will go home and repeat yesterday After what happened, tomorrow will come.

Walking in the deserted corridor, perhaps because she felt cold even with a scarf on, Yuigahama hugged Yukinoshita's arm tightly from the beginning to the end, and surprisingly, Yushita did not show any The dissatisfied and helpless look, probably because you are used to it?After all, it has been like this lately.Well... Indeed, just looking at the warm expressions on the faces of these two people in front of me makes me feel warmer.

I slowly followed the two of them until I walked out of the building - when I reached the school gate, the two of them stopped, and by the way, I also stopped.

Yukinoshita turned around, together with Yuigahama who was hugging her, it seemed that it was time to separate, so the two who were hugging also slowly separated when they turned around.

"Then, Xiaoxue and Xiaoqi, see you tomorrow!"

Just like yesterday, Yuigahama said the parting words in such a cheerful voice, adding a bit of vitality to this deserted space.But today is different. Originally, after leaving the school, we still have part of the same journey, but because we are going to visit a relative’s house today, we are going in the opposite direction as usual.

Yukinoshita gave her a gentle smile

"Hey. See you tomorrow, Yuigahama."

"Oh... see you tomorrow."

Because I didn't know what to add, I just replied lightly, and then, suddenly realizing something, I turned my gaze to Yukinoshita, and said lightly

"See you tomorrow......"

Afterwards, I was about to start walking towards the parking area, because unlike Yukinoshita and the others, I still came to school by bicycle, even if it was in the same direction, now I have enough reasons to leave alone.Moreover, Yukinoshita probably thought so too.

Yukinoshita nodded lightly, Yuigahama smiled, and left here quickly.

In this way, today's three-person time is also over.

With this in mind, I walked to the parking area - the only bicycle parked there alone. There are not many people who choose to ride to school in this weather, and it has been a long time since school. Most of them have gone back Well... However, this situation will change in about a month, and I hope there will be no shortage of parking spaces by then...

However, when I pushed the bicycle back to the gate, I was surprised to see Yukinoshita still standing there, as if waiting for me.

"...What? Is there anything else?"

I don't know why, but let me ask first.

Hearing my voice, Yukino raised his head slightly as if he was thinking about something, then shook his head again

"...No, nothing."

After finishing speaking, I turned away my face and began to walk slowly outside. I was a little puzzled, but I also pushed the bicycle and hurried up.

There are no pedestrians on the street at this time, maybe because this road is relatively biased, most of them are office workers and students, but now it has passed the rush hour, so it seems very deserted for a while, although it is already It's almost spring...but the days aren't so long, and darkness is approaching.

Yukinoshita walked ahead silently, and it seemed that he was going to continue walking this distance... Then he took the tram and set off on his way back.So, what's going on...

Before I could make any more guesses, Yukinoshita's footsteps gradually slowed down. She should be waiting for me, so I simply went around to the left, and after catching up, we walked side by side with her... After all, it's all about guessing If you don't, you can't get any useful answers... Sometimes, it's better to say it directly.

As soon as I walked up, Yukinoshita glanced at me and spoke directly

"Hikigu-kun... my sister... have you contacted me recently?"

Although he seemed a little hesitant, he still spoke clearly.

I hesitated for a while...why did I suddenly ask this again...it feels like Yukinoshita has been very concerned about Yango's actions recently...worried?But still answered honestly

"Ah...Although there is no direct communication, there are emails every day..."

"mail?"

Yukinoshita was taken aback for a moment, turned his head and looked at me blankly, as if he couldn't believe it, he kept this posture and then asked

"Have you... been in... contact by email?"

"Well...not really. Basically she sent it...I just did the most basic reply."