My sick girlfriend can't be my wife Yuno

Kasuga Yatsubaki fell silent, and so did the others at the table.

Kazuki Amano looked around, only to realize that everyone present, except him, were orphans and had no parents.

Although the three of them are just virtual characters in his eyes, and the backgrounds of the characters are all set, but he also feels deeply fortunate.

Compared with the three of them, it seemed that the fact that he was betrayed by his father was nothing.

At this time, he suddenly remembered a song from his previous life.

He liked to sing this song to himself during the most depressing time when he was betrayed by his father in junior high school.

Now Kazuki Amano suddenly wanted to sing this song to the three people in front of him.

"Let's sing a song," he did as he wanted, Kazuki Amano broke the silence, "I have a song I want to share with you."

He got up: "I saw a guitar in the villa before, I'll go get it."

When sneaking into the villa in the afternoon to find the ambush, Kazuki Amano saw an acoustic guitar in a utility room.

Watching Kazuki Amano turn and go upstairs, the three people at the dining table looked at each other.

Until Kazuki Amano came back, sat on a chair and began to adjust the tone of the guitar, they still couldn't figure out why the boy wanted to sing.

"Amano-san, come on (? o_o)?" But this did not affect my wife Yuno's support.

Kazuki Amano smiled, and stroked the strings: "This song is called 乌が死のうと思ったのは (I once thought about it too)."

ps: The next chapter is recommended to read while listening to the song. Of course, it is just a suggestion similar to Nongfu Spring’s suggested retail price of 1.5, laughing in brackets.

The Beginning of Reincarnation: Chapter 51 The Last Song

"The reason why I wanted to die was (literal translation of the original name)?" The other three were stunned.

None of them had heard of this song, but the title was so straightforward that anyone could guess what the song would be about.

——The title of the song is already blunt, saying "I used to want to die", and also said to analyze the reasons for wanting to die, isn't this straightforward enough?

"This name..." My wife Yuno looked at Kazuki Amano worriedly, "Did Amano-san think about committing suicide too?"

In the memory of my wife Yuno, the Amano Kazuki she longed for has always been a person with pride dancing in the corners of his eyes and brows, shining like sunlight piercing dark clouds in her world.

But today she found out that the sun will also dim, and Kazuki Amano also thought about death.

She didn't feel disillusioned, but couldn't bear the heartache, and wanted to go up and hug Amano Kazuki tightly.

"No... I didn't write this song... Well, I don't have suicidal thoughts anyway."

Kazuki Amano wanted to explain that he was not the author of the song, but that author did not exist in this world.

Thinking about it this way, it is not easy to explain where he learned it, so he simply skipped the topic and started to pluck the strings.

Together with the prelude of the song, it is a melody that is low and melodious, as if someone is sobbing.

This melody is like a vortex, pulling people's thoughts into dark corners, making people's hearts and noses sour.

When the three were aroused by the prelude, Kazuki Amano cut into the lyrics with a deep voice:

"Servant が 死のうと思ったのは

(I once thought about it too)

ウミネコが桟桥で音いたから

(Because there are black-tailed gulls screaming at the pier)

wave no random ni floating

(disappears with the random ups and downs of the waves)

もばんで飞んでいけ

(Pecking at the past and flying away)"

The beginning of the song is a reason to want to die.

I want to die because of the sound of black-tailed gulls, why?

Kasuga Tsubaki didn't understand, but my wife Yuno trembled slightly.

In Neon, black-tailed gulls, also called sea cats, are a type of seagull, named for the resemblance of their calls to the loud screams of cats.

My wife Yuno heard it when she went to the beach when she was a child.

It was a sound similar to that of a baby crying, with a hoarse grievance in it.

When she grew up, her mother became more and more strict with her, and would put her in an iron cage if something went wrong.

When she was so hungry that she could only eat tatami in the cage, the crying echoed in her mind, like a black-tailed gull singing.

But where is the black-tailed gull calling, it is obviously she crying in despair.

My wife Yuno brought it into the song all at once. The metaphor in the first line of the lyrics completely brought back her most desperate memory.

Kazuki Amano's singing continued, his voice very deep.

The song sung is like Osamu Dazai who saw through death after a failed suicide attempt, telling readers about his suicide mood:

"I've thought about it a hundred times

Because the apricot blossoms bloom on my birthday

If you doze off in the sunshine

Can it be turned into dust with the corpse of the worm?"

(The original lyrics will be omitted later)

Pseudo Toyo Ryosuke sat across from Kazuki Amano, she thought singing was boring, but she was stunned after hearing this sentence.

She has already been in love and married, and lost all of her in the marriage, and was instantly touched by the lyrics.

in the lyrics,

The flower language of Xinghua is the ignorant love of young girls.

Bugs are a symbol of elegance in neon.

When the bugs die, the elegance is gone.

To take a nap in the sun and turn into mud and die means that feelings cannot survive in the sun.

There is no love in the lyrics, but it clearly expresses a failed relationship that cannot be seen.

After the death of her son and husband, the hypocritical rich Rang Liyou also wanted to hang himself under the sunny tree in the courtyard of his home.

At this time, after listening to Amano Kazuki's singing, she actually returned to the night when she lay on her son's body and cried.

At this time, Amano Kazuki's voice became high-pitched, and the rising pitch made the helplessness and depression hidden in the song burst out.

"Peppermints, the lighthouse of the fishing port

Rusty arch bridge, discarded bicycles

In front of the fireplace of the wooden station

mind with nowhere to go

Today is so similar to yesterday

If you want to change tomorrow, you must change today

I know, I know, but..."

Emotions have already begun to erupt, like a suicide who expresses his final dissatisfaction with the world after all the pain.

Kasugano Tsubaki muttered to himself, "Mints...?"

She had mints.

This food was originally positioned as a candy when it was produced.

But because you eat it in your mouth, it will make you feel as uncomfortable as eating a mouthful of cold wind.

So it was changed to a refreshing health care product.

She felt like a mint, never got what she wanted, desperately chasing but was made a joke by fate, and finally became what she is now.

She didn't quite understand the rest of the lyrics, but it was just this one sentence that made Kasuga Tsubaki burst into tears again.

All three were touched, but only my wife Yuno understood all the lyrics.

She heard that these few lines of lyrics were metaphorical inversions.

——If you want to be different tomorrow, you have to change the present.

But the environment and time are like a distant lighthouse that cannot be touched, like an arch bridge that is supposed to be used for traffic but has rusted and has become a troublesome illegal building, like a bicycle that has to be thrown away to ride far away .

Thus, people surrounded by these environments are like a wooden station that would be ignited by flames, but a dangerous furnace is lit.

——From then on, there is no place to rest in the future, let alone make changes.

My wife Yuno looked at Kazuki Amano with complicated eyes, and she felt that some impulse in her heart was about to run out.

She heard the hidden suicide methods under the three reasons for wanting to die: jumping into the sea, hanging himself, and lying on the train.

A kind of sadness reverberated in her chest, she didn't know whether she was mourning for herself or for the boy in front of her.

Kazuki Amano's singing finally reached its climax at this time:

"I've thought about it a hundred times

Because there is nothing in my heart

Reasons for Crying with Dissatisfaction

It must be because the heart longs for abundance and fulfillment.”

The climax of the lyrics here ushered in a turning point.

It turned out that those gorgeous rhetoric in front were just embellishments, just temptations, just the half-truth and half-fake self-introduction when strangers meet each other.

It turned out that wanting to die because of seagulls singing and wanting to die because of apricot blossoms were not the real reasons.

The real reason why "I" want to die is that my heart is empty, and I can no longer find the meaning of living.

My wife Yuno cried, and when the song broke out, her emotions also came up like a tidal wave.

After the death of her parents, isn't she like a walking dead, losing the meaning of life?

Kazuki Amano's fingers plucked the strings, and the song entered the second part.

The first part is a greeting between strangers, and the second part is the real emotional outburst.

Picture: "My Wife Yuno", Location: "Images/1657496907-100324127-109028056.jpg"

The Beginning of Reincarnation: Chapter 52 The Intruder

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"I've thought about it a hundred times

I'm not good at retying my shoelaces because they're loose

So is the bond with people

I've thought about it once

Because the boy is always staring at me

Kneel on the bed with an earthen seat

Say sorry to me that day"

My wife Yuno moved her eyes.

This paragraph is talking about Amano-san being betrayed by his father.

Once the bond is lost, it can never come back. Even if the betrayer kneels in front of him and apologizes, it can only make the injured person feel uncomfortable and want to die.

"The glimmer of the computer screen

noise from upstairs room

internal phone ringtone