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Neil sighed and said helplessly.

"Forget about the previous things and start a new life, isn't this also the meaning of rebirth?"

"But, those memories and experiences are also a part of shaping me."

"Just like what I told you at the beginning, it is because everyone's experience is different that everyone can have their own unique way of thinking."

"Maybe the doubting process was really painful, maybe I really felt ashamed of the stupid things I did before, it was a waste of effort, and regretted why I did that kind of thing."

Neil leaned on the backrest with a nostalgic expression on his face.

"I also struggled at the beginning. Now that I have been reborn, I must change something, I must learn something, and I must achieve something..."

"But then I thought about it again. In fact, there is no need at all, isn't it? Because it's not so much that I want to change, it's better to say that because of the 'rebirth', I think it's wrong not to change something, right?"

"It's like why I hope to solve the problem of monsterization. It's because I think that since I came to this world, it's unreasonable not to change some settings? Of course not, right?"

"It is precisely because I feel that whether it is difficult or happy, everyone should decide their own life by themselves, so I changed it."

"And these processes of thinking, worrying, entanglement, and those things that I don't even like have shaped who I am today."

"Even if I don't want to experience those unlucky things myself, I have to admit that it is because of these things that I am sitting here now to talk to you about these things."

As Neil spoke, he stood up, walked to the fence of the balcony, put his elbows on it, and looked at the buildings that stretched out to the city wall in the distance.

"Neil Ron doesn't need to be a fresh start, and Mao Tianyu doesn't have to forget the past."

"Mouth, with ugly characters, always speaks incomprehensible words, and likes to do some weird things."

"Unknowingly causing trouble to the people around me, and subconsciously helping others when something goes wrong."

"I know all my shortcomings but I don't want to change, I know my only remaining advantages and I don't intend to develop them."

"Whether it's Mao Tianyu, who used to be ignorant, or Neil Ron, who is doing nothing, it's me, and it's not me anymore."

His eyes were fixed on the empty streets. At this moment, most of the people had already returned to their homes, and only a small number of adventurers seemed to be drinking happily with their companions in the restaurant.

"That's how I started in Loharlem, and met the people I know now bit by bit."

"The encounter between me and Yuffie was completely accidental, and it could even be said that it was completely out of my plan. At that time, I even wished I could stay as far away from her as possible."

"If it weren't for the matter of Chaos and the relics, Grace and I wouldn't have any intersection at all."

"Regana broke in by force. If it weren't for the monsters chasing her to the ends of the earth, we would have knocked her unconscious in the dungeon."

"Candice came here because of Fran's illness. If I had rejected her directly, maybe I would have saved a lot of trouble, and I wouldn't have to bother trying to enlighten her."

A slight smile appeared on Neil's face when he saw several adventurers coming out of the tavern with their shoulders crossed, talking and laughing as they staggered towards the hotel.

"Almost all my encounters with them were accidents, and many of them were not even accepted by me on my own initiative. At that time, I might have rejected them directly and neatly."

Neil seemed to be recalling his previous experience, and couldn't help but chuckled.

"Especially Yuffie, do you know how flustered I was at the time? I was afraid that she would directly come to a bully to force me to be executed on the spot, and then I would honestly go back to be the son-in-law with her."

"What I'm more afraid of is that because she fell in love with me, she changed into the character I like. Even my idea of ​​wanting to try again in the ruins is because she is accommodating me, in order to let me I only agreed when I felt better in my heart.”

"If I want to say I regret it, I really regret that I couldn't stay away from her at that time, otherwise I wouldn't have made her have to wait so hard for more than a year."

After he finished complaining, he also sighed slowly.

"But ah..."

"It was those experiences that I regretted more or less that made me meet them and become the relationship I have now."

"If I'm denying the past, then it's no different than denying the relationship I've built so far with them, isn't it?"

As Neil spoke, he left the balcony with his hands, turned around, and looked at Mary who was sitting on the chair, slightly stunned by the expression on his face.

The bangs on his forehead were slightly curled up under the blowing of the evening wind, and he asked him to tidy it up with his hands before continuing to speak.

"Mary, you want to ask me, what do I think about this world and about you people, right?"

As he slowly opened his mouth, under the bright moonlight, the smiling face towards him followed behind Neil, those buildings that stretched out to the horizon, exuding warm lights, like fireflies. , together with the stars and moon shining in the endless night sky above their heads, were reflected in Mary's eyes.

"To be able to come to this world, to be able to meet you, to have all kinds of misunderstandings and conflicts with you, to be able to communicate and play tricks with you like now..."

He raised his arms, as if he wanted to embrace the earth, the sky, and the whole world into his arms, and spread them out to both sides.

The smile on his face contained emotions that could be called happiness, and the eyes that were bent because of the smile were also magnified in Mary's red eyes like rubies.

The words full of tenderness that came out of his mouth slowly, blowing past her ears with the breeze blowing slowly from afar in the evening.

"Mary, for me, it is the same as being born for the first time, coming to this world, the most fortunate thing."

Volume 342 Brave Show Competition: Chapter 340 Chapter [-] I Can't Go Back

"How is it? Are you satisfied with this answer?"

Just like a fleeting meteor in the night sky, his gentle color has disappeared at some point, and he has changed back to a hippie smiling face, making people wonder if the momentary scene he just glimpsed just now is just for himself illusion.

But even so, that scene was still clearly and deeply imprinted in Mary's mind, and she couldn't recover for a long time.

After waiting for a while, seeing that Mary was still in a daze, Neil couldn't help but blinked and asked suspiciously.

"What's wrong? Why didn't you talk?"

"Mary? Hello, Mary? Are you really disconnected?"

Seeing that she didn't respond at all, Neil couldn't help but slightly raised his voice.

Under his shout, Mary also turned around, and while slapping off his dangling hand in front of her, she shook her head and said.

"Ah... oh, I'm fine."

Her hand seemed to want to pick up the coffee cup on the table, but because of that awkward movement, after touching the wall of the cup several times, she finally poked her finger into the small hole in the handle and sent it to the in front of his own mouth.

"Hey, that's good. I thought what I said just now was too nasty, and I embarrassed you directly."

Seeing that she had returned to normal, Neil immediately breathed a sigh of relief, scratching his head and saying.

"Honestly, I myself have goosebumps when I think about what I just said..."

And Neil, who was ashamed because of what he said just now, also didn't notice that her cheeks were stained like bright red apples due to the dark night and the cup covering the lower half of Mary's face. .

Her eyes silently stared at Neil who was scratching his head and sighing in front of him, and the murmur that came from his mouth became slightly muffled by the blocking of the cup.

"...I see, I probably understand your thoughts."

"That's good. If you still don't believe such a big deal, then I really have nothing to do."

Hearing what she said, Neil also heaved a sigh of relief. He slumped on the chair and threw another piece of potato chips into his mouth and began to chew.

"Have you said these words to Euphemia?"

Although the liquid in the cup had already drained, Mary still held the coffee cup with both hands and covered her mouth. While watching Neil, who had returned to a lazy state with wine red pupils, she asked in a low voice.

"Speak to Yuffie? Of course not."

Neil was taken aback for a moment, then shook his head immediately, causing Mary's eyes to widen slightly.

Even Euphemia didn't tell it, but she told her......

"why?"

"Ah? Why else?"

Neil couldn't help but rolled his eyes, spread his hands and said.

"I can't bear to take out the trash with her and let her worry about this kind of thing with me."

"...So it's okay to tell me?"

"correct."

Neil nodded as a matter of course, and said with a smile.

"Anyway, you took the initiative to be a trash can, so I won't dump it for nothing. Anyway, it has nothing to do with me to worry about what you like."

clang----

Mary placed the cup with a crack on the white inner wall in her hand on the tray, making a crisp sound.

And she also calmly spoke to Neil who was still smiling in front of her.

"Please have another cup of coffee, the kind that even the cup is made together."

"Don't you already have a cup? Why do you want another one?"

Although he was a bit puzzled, Neil still made a cup of coffee and put it in front of her again.

"Also, let me remind you, drinking too much coffee will make you unable to sleep later."

"It's okay, anyway, I have other questions I want to ask you."

Ignoring Neil's mumbling of "Why are there so many questions, I still want to go back and sleep with Yuffie in my arms", Mary moved the set of empty coffee cups aside, and then asked.

"Haven't you ever thought about going back? Back to your original world and your family?"

"Of course I have thought about it. This is a problem that travelers will inevitably face."

Neil shrugged, then sighed.

"I also thought about it when I first came here. If I die like this, will I be able to return to the original world, or will I see Hull directly after I have integrated into this world?"

"But no matter what, I don't dare to try, because once I really die like this, it's nothing to kill the child named 'Neil Ron' with a soul named 'Neil Ron' in front of his parents. the difference."

"I'm afraid I have no chance to go back to the world I used to be. I don't want even the parents in this world to suffer the pain of losing their children."

"Now that you have the power of the main god, have you never thought about using this power to go back one day?"

After taking a sip of coffee, Mary asked curiously.

"Is this the self-introduction and questioning session of some talent show..."

After Neil complained helplessly, he continued to explain.

"When I gained this power, I really thought about whether I should go back one day and meet my former parents."

"But... I'm already 16..."

Neil showed a rare bitter smile and pointed at himself.

"After 16 years, my former parents will definitely be happy when they see me again, but after that?"

"With this power, can I stay in the original world? Will these abilities be retained? I want to abandon everything here and go back there. When I don't have any identity information, I probably have to A 16-year-old youth who knows nothing by relying on his elderly parents?"

"Perhaps the time span between the two worlds is different. When I go back, there is only a moment spent there, but don't forget, the time when the previous Lord God summoned me is in units of thousands of years."

"Even if it was only 10 years after I went back, my parents should have walked out of the shadow of losing me and started again. I went back, but let their nostalgia and regrets become torn apart again. It's just a wound."

"What's more, now that I have gone through all this, it is impossible for me to integrate into the life of an ordinary person again."

"I, who have already left footprints in this world, I can't leave Yuffie and Dad behind. I can't go back at the risk of losing all my power and not necessarily being able to return to this world."

"And if I go back there with this power, it will only cause more serious chaos in the life of the original world."

"Even if I only use a little bit of magic, maybe the final butterfly effect will forcibly involve the normal and ordinary lives of people all over the world."

Neil looked up at the bright moon hanging in the night sky.

"So... the moment I came to this world, I can't go back."

Volume 343 Brave Show Competition: Chapter 341 Chapter [-] Time Bomb

Yes, if you think about it, you can.

Mary wanted to say this subconsciously.

But for another completely unknown world that doesn't even have magic power, those words seem too contemptuous and condescending.

Although I don't like to think so much, with the accumulation of time, my experience can be regarded as rich.

But magic power is life force, and she can't even imagine a world where this law doesn't exist.

———Some things can only be truly understood by experiencing them firsthand.

At this moment, she began to understand the words that Neil said at the very beginning.

While Mary hesitated because of the thoughts in his heart, Neil also slowly picked up a piece of potato chips with his fingers.

It's just that he didn't put it in his mouth, but put it in front of him and stared at it.

"Moreover, it's not just whether I personally want to go back, but whether I can go back is also a question."