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"Yes." Knowing what Fu Ling was looking for, An Mo nodded.

"Wu, can you please leave for a moment? I want to talk to Fu Ling alone." As if thinking of something, An raised her head and said to Wu.

"Why, you just finished eating and you are driving me away." Realizing that the topic between An and Poria might be a bit heavy, Wu also tried to make An feel more relaxed.

"Nonsense, I'll go find you when I'm done talking." He glared at Wu angrily and said angrily.

"Okay, then I'll go out first. Let me think about it. I'll just water the flowers outside." After thinking for a while, Wu waved to An, turned around, opened the door and walked out.

When Wu left, An's face fell and became slightly serious.

"Huh~" An breathed out softly, thinking about various possibilities for him to talk to Fu Ling for a while.

........

Outside the door, Wu walked to the flowers, but did not pick up the showerhead to water them.

Looking at the very conspicuous violet among the flowers in front of him, Wu raised his hand and touched his lips gently.

There were still teeth marks left by Ann.

Looking at this bunch of bright flowers, Wu smiled.

When you gave me its flower seeds, I knew what you were going to say.

It's just that I'm hesitating.

He is the God of Nothingness, without emotions or form, everything is empty.

This is the original Him.

The current appearance is just that of a human being, and the emotions are also obtained from that human being.

He asked himself countless times, is he worthy of loving that way?

He couldn't find the answer because He had never loved anyone.

Until He was awakened by His daughter.

Yes, An loved Him, and His feelings for An were also different.

Maybe he didn't understand it before, but now, he knows that that strange emotion is called love.

Emotion is a wonderful thing, and even after spending so many years, he has not been able to figure out what its essence is.

Is it just an expression of consciousness?

No, it is not.

Emotions are unpredictable.

And An, An is the Honkai Impact God, the 'gardener' of the 'big tree' called the Tree of Imaginary Numbers.

He hunts down gods and creatures who cross the line.

No supreme god has any reason to be too close to the Honkai God, not just An, but also the previous generation of Honkai Gods.

Since the departure of the previous Honkai Impact God, An spent hundreds of thousands of years in loneliness before his arrival.

No one wants to accompany Him, no one wants to get too close to Him.

Perhaps it was also because of this that An fell in love with Wu who was willing to be with him.

However, I believe it is more than that.

"Love, this feeling is really, really wonderful." Looking at his hands, Wu murmured.

Raising his head, Wu saw Fu Ling appearing not far away and waved to her.

"Go in, An is waiting for you inside." Without saying anything to Fu Ling, Wu picked up the showerhead on the side and poured water slowly.

"Yeah." Seeing Wu Wu's intention to talk to her, Fuling nodded as a response to Wu, and then walked straight towards the wooden house.

"Squeak." When she opened the door, Fu Ling saw An sitting at the table with her eyes closed and concentrating.

"You're here." Hearing the sound of the door opening, An raised her head and looked at Fuling.

"It seems that you have already made up your mind?" Looking at the gem on Fuling's chest, An knew that Fuling had made a decision.

"Yes." Nodding, Fu Ling said that she had already thought about it.

"Really, why are you so persistent?" He chuckled, shook his head, and looked away.

"Sit down, now, I'm not some ex-Honkai God. Just think of me as...forget it, let's just say I'm your sister." At this point, An waved her hand and motioned for Fuling to sit opposite her.

Without saying anything, Fu Ling walked to the opposite side of An and sat down slowly.

Time passed little by little, no one spoke, and the atmosphere became silent for a while.

"Fu Ling, even if it's not your Alicia who comes back in the end, will you still not regret your choice today?" Of course An knew Alicia's name, but she never mentioned it.

"I've thought about it, so I won't regret it." Fuling nodded firmly, her eyes full of determination.

"I understand." Looking into Fu Ling's eyes, An didn't say anything more and just nodded.

"Feel the breath on the particles carefully and remember it. Then, you can search for it bit by bit." An slowly said the method of finding soul particles, which also made Fuling understand why An had been searching for so long.

How many worlds are there in the Tree of Imaginary Numbers?How many lives are there in each world?Each world has to be searched for bit by bit, which is like looking for a needle in a haystack.

"If the soul particles are dispersed again, the breath will be very obvious and easy to sense." As he said this, An looked at the gem on Fuling's chest.

"But if the particles have reassembled the soul, then other particles will cover the breath, so it takes a little bit of searching."

At this point, An raised her head.

"Fu Ling, no one knows how long this will take."

"I don't know, you don't know, not even the soul guy knows."

"Are you ready?"

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"I think I've been prepared for a long time." Fuling looked into An's eyes and said seriously.

"...I understand." Without saying anything more or trying to persuade Fuling, An just agreed with Fuling's idea.

"Wu and I will also help you pay attention."

"Where do you plan to go next?" An said calmly, looking at the Poria cocos in front of him.

"I plan to go back to that world first. There are still some things I can't let go of." After a moment of hesitation, Fu Ling spoke slowly.

Yes, there were still things she couldn't let go of.

She has not yet waited for the owner of the flute, has not yet had a long chat with her friends, and has not yet watched the child who calls her home have a happy life.

She still can't let go.

"Is that so..." Listening to Fu Ling's words, An seemed to have thought of something.

There was silence between the two again. After a long time, An sighed slowly and looked at Poria.

"Little Fuling, do you hate me? In other words, do you hate Honkai Impact?"

After finally saying these words, An also let out a long breath.

He had been hiding this sentence for a long time. He was just worried that the answer given by Fu Ling would make him sad, so he didn't ask it out for a long time.

But today, Ann was ready.

Hearing An's words, Fuling was silent for a while. It wasn't until An thought that Fuling was unwilling to answer that Fuling slowly opened her mouth.

"What reason do I have to hate you?" Fu Ling lowered her eyes slightly so that An, who was sitting opposite her, could not see her expression clearly.

"You didn't do anything. You didn't interfere in that world, and you didn't take action against anyone. What reason or excuse do I have to hate you?"

"Just because you are a Honkai God? No, that's too unfair. I shouldn't hate you, you haven't done anything to me."

"As for Honkai. Honkai is just an automated program. Even if I hate it, what can I do? How can I hate something that has no emotions or consciousness?" Fuling said slowly, with a somewhat astringent tone. exhausted.

"Those people, my friends, comrades-in-arms, and my former students. They all died in Honkai. I should obviously hate Honkai, but I can't. Because I know better than anyone else that the Herrscher is becoming The Herrschers were all humans before. I know better than anyone that humans are reaping the consequences."

"I also thought about why, how come Honkai found our heads without any bias."

"But why are there so many in this world? When the collapse comes, it is coming, and civilization has reached its limit, and it will come naturally. Even though it gave an early warning, no matter which time it was, no one People initially perceive it as a threat."

"I have hated humans and the world. For humans, Honkai is the culprit of everything, and Honkai is the reason why everything happens. Yes, because Honkai came, the world has become worse, because time has become worse , the distortion of human nature breaks out."

"The evil of human nature is vividly displayed in the world affected by Honkai. I asked myself, do you hate Honkai?"

"I asked the villain deep in my heart, do you hate it? If it hadn't collapsed, maybe the world would still be fine, and maybe the evil of human nature wouldn't break out. Maybe she and I wouldn't be like this."

"Hate it? Maybe hate it."

"But later, I discovered that more than I hate Honkai, I hate those humans who use Honkai as an excuse to release evil."

"A tiger killed two people in a peaceful small village. When the remaining people saw that the peace of the village was broken, they decided that they could never go back to the past, so they began to give up on themselves and began to indulge themselves." As she spoke, Poria cocos His eyes seemed to be back to that time.

"They burned, killed, looted, committed all kinds of evil, and completely unleashed the beast within themselves."

"In the end, even before the tiger struck again, the people in the village were changed beyond recognition."

"The tiger saw that the village was destroyed, so he turned around and attacked another village. When people in other villages saw it, some began to flee, some like the previous village. Some organized the people in the village to prepare to defend against the tiger. "

"You see, it is instinct for tigers to eat people. From people's perspective, tigers are hateful. But from another perspective, humans are even uglier."

"I used to look at tigers from a human perspective and thought tigers were wrong. It would be better if there were no tigers. But then, I looked at tigers from a third perspective and found that humans are scarier than tigers. And later, I Became the king of tigers..."

"Who should I hate? The tiger who follows his instincts, or the human who thinks he is superior but unleashes his inner beast?"

"I can't hate anyone."

"A gun went off and killed a friend you were passing by, but the owner of the gun was thousands of meters away. What should you hate? Is it the owner of the gun? But this obviously has nothing to do with him, is it the gun? But it was just a lifeless, unconscious weapon."

"After all, in the end, you will only hate yourself for not pulling your friend away in time."

"Me too. Honkai is a weapon. I can't hate it. You are the god of Honkai, but you have never touched this weapon. I can't hate you either."

"Instead of hating Honkai and hating you, I hate myself even more."

"I hate that I wasn't strong enough at that time to protect the people I wanted to protect. Besides, what else could I do?" The smile on Fuling's face was bitter. She didn't know if she was doing the right thing.

He has lived as a human for ten years, but as a Honkai God he has lived for tens of thousands of years.

Ten years of memories are like maggots in the tarsal bones, and they won't be driven away.

Tens of thousands of years of time seem to be just an illusion, fleeting.

Who could she hate?Who should she hate?

Over a long period of time, she figured out that there was still one person she could hate.

That person is herself.

She is Poria, the Honkai Impact God.

At least for now, she is Poria first, and then the Honkai Impact God.

.........

Listening to Fu Ling's somewhat confused words, An was silent for a while.

He didn't expect to get such an answer from Poria.

Fu Ling knew that she had no reason to hate Him, and also knew that Honkai was just a weapon and had no way to hate Him.

Human beings are just trapped in a cocoon and cannot hate.

So she blamed everything on herself and she started to hate herself.

I hate myself for not being strong enough, I hate myself for not being able to protect everything, I hate myself for being too cowardly.

She hoped that this would make her feel better, but the fact was that this memory became more and more profound in her mind.

Poria's kindness makes her not want to involve others, but allows her to be harsh on herself.

That is not stupidity, but it is true kindness.

Be kind to innocent people.

However, she did not include herself in that kindness.