Saint?Just a bad woman

The owner of the Forbidden Library did not welcome her at all. He locked the door again and began to activate "transfer magic".

However, Santa Karina did not give up, let alone compromise.She just opened the door again and again and barged in as an uninvited guest.

until……

"Santa Karina! You are really an idiot! You are a hopeless idiot! Why are you still here! It is obvious that you are not welcome here at all, and I don't want to see you again!"

Faced with Santa Karina's challenges again and again, Abner, who spoke harsh words, looked at her like a hopeless fool.His blue eyes were filled with excitement, his lips were trembling, and he was still gripping the black book hard.

"You... my chance to talk to you has ended. It was you who trampled on that opportunity... Why don't you understand!?"

"I just don't know. As long as you don't really reject me, I will come here no matter how many times you come."

"──! I sincerely reject you!"

Abner was so angry and surprised that he was speechless.

She really didn't realize what Santa Carolina meant.

She knew about Abner's actions and thoughts but still came here, a contradiction between the two.

"If you really don't want to see my face, then stay in the Forbidden Library, Abner."

"What are you talking about...Abner has not left the Forbidden Library even a step now! It was obviously you who opened the door and ran in by yourself, and you still said such words..."

"No, that's not right. If you really wanted to stay here alone, how could I have come here so many times in a short period of time? Your rejection is only superficial."

"──Ah, ugh."

Abner, who was clumsy in speech, could not find the words to refuse, and her dexterous tongue and argumentative skills were of no use at this moment.

She was like a child who had been scolded by her parents or elders, at a loss for words and at a loss for words.

"Magic" is not omnipotent, as I have said before.But it’s close to omnipotent.

As long as Abner sincerely rejects others and isolates the Forbidden Library from the outside world, there is no way Santa Karina can enter the Forbidden Library so easily.

I didn't do it, couldn't do it, wasn't it because Abner's heart was wavering?

"──"

Being reprimanded by St. Karina like this, Abner also began to doubt his own heart.

Even if she didn't break it, now she has lost the pillar of agreement and is crumbling.

It was precisely because Abner did not sincerely reject St. Carolina that the door of the "Forbidden Library" was opened to St. Carolina.

No one knows the answer.

But──if only I could get into Abner's heart, just be her alone.Santa Karina looks forward to this and expects so.

"You...you are not! My 'that person'!"

Unable to bear the chaos and confusion, Abner clutched the black book and almost cried to Santa Karina.

"You said it yourself, you are not "that person"! You said it yourself! You said it. If you are "that person"... Even if it is a lie, as long as you admit it, I will definitely believe it. Even if you know it It’s a lie, you can only believe it.”

"Abner..."

"But you just said no. Not only did you say no, you also said I was an idiot. Yes, that's it. Everything you said is right. I am an idiot and a big fool. I still can't forget what I said more than ten years ago. Promise... So! No matter what is said, I will end here!"

Wind appeared around Abner, who was screaming for rejection, wrapping her up like a cage.

The flow of magic power moved the girl's skirt and long hair, and an atmosphere of sadness filled the entire Forbidden Library.Seeing this scene, Santa Karina held her breath and moved forward.

With a firm mind, I won't be afraid of getting hurt when I encounter the whirlwind formed by magic power.

"And me!"

"──"

"I am not your 'that person'. I can tell you countless times that the Princess Charming you are waiting for will never come. No matter how long you wait here, she will never come."

Repeating negative words spread despair in Abner's eyes.

However, if it ends here, it will be the same as before.You have to tell her what’s next.

"But!"

"──"

"I want to be with you, Abner."

"──!"

"I want to stay by your side so that you, the gentle one, won't be sad."

"Ah...wu, gu...!"

Abner's expression twisted.

The swollen magic power lost its spearhead, and the wind began to dance wildly, as if it wanted to hurt herself.

Anger and sadness and something else scrunched her face up.Like a drowning person grasping for life-saving straws, she spread out the black book on her lap, and the wind turned the pages, revealing that the content was blank.Endless white space.

──The empty book that showed nothing was like a hole in her heart that could never be filled, forcing Abner to make a choice.

Take a deep breath.Say what you couldn't finish when we separated.

──Then, please finish what you want to say this time.

"Abner.--Help me."

"……what?"

Santa Carina said this with dignity and dignity.

She said this with a serious face, leaving Abner with nothing but shock in his eyes.

She must have imagined endlessly what Santa Karina would say.

Facing the inevitable ending, Abner must have simulated what Santa Karina would say to him many times, and then eliminated them one by one.

──I want to save you.Don't want you to be alone.I need you.

She must be expecting these womanly words, what she expects from "the one."

However, since she wanted to express her feelings without hypocrisy, those words were too forced for Santa Karina.

"I want to bring you out of loneliness. I have thought a lot about these extremely handsome words. ... But those words are all just temporary perfunctory content. I want to tell the truth. How do I view you? Say something to you."

Facing the speechless Abner, Santa Carolina showed her true heart nakedly.

How she will accept it is up to the other party.

"You are strong, smart and cute...as long as you are willing to do it, you can do anything. Nothing is too difficult for you."

"──"

"You alone are strong enough to survive. This is of course. Otherwise, you wouldn't have been able to fight alone for so long in the palace where brother Ni Qiang was in danger, and gradually enrich your wings and let everyone else do it. Either they fear you or they respect you or they trust you. So saying that I will help you or be your helper will not go into your heart at all."

"──"

"But even if you are strong, smart and cute, you are still afraid of living alone. You must be sad and lonely. So, no one will blame you for clinging to the existence of 'that person'."

"You who arbitrarily...rejected my feelings...understand what I mean...!"

Abner gritted his teeth and glared at Santa Karina with an emotion that was almost hateful.

But the trembling mood could not completely turn into hatred.She held onto her undying excitement and conveyed her feelings through words.

But Santa Karina shook her head at her.

"I know. You are very kind. If someone has a nightmare, you will hold that person's hand and try to make the other person sleep peacefully. If someone encounters a difficulty with no solution, you will reach out to help open a way. No matter how much the other person asks for help. People hate annoying people, and if you lose someone you have a good friendship with, you will be sad."

"You really... sound like you think you understand..."

"Indeed, this is just my arrogance. However, I don't want you to be alone anymore, so awkward and self-defeating. All I can do is to hold on to you."

In front of the wide-eyed Abner, Santa Karina stretched her right hand forward.

These hands are fair and slender, and they are qualified to hold the girl's beautiful hand.

"Abner, help me."

"──"

"Please help me, I will be so lonely that I can't live without you."

What a shameful and dishonorable threat.

I can't live without you, threatening the other person to hold your hand.

Because you don't know what you can do for the other person, you tell the other person what you can do for yourself, and use this as an excuse to force the other person to live.

"Treacherous... so treacherous."

This threat that didn't care about his image made Abner so excited that he couldn't control himself, and his lips couldn't help trembling.

"That...argument...that it has happened now...is too cunning. Moreover, you are not 'that person'...and you rejected me just now...!"

Hesitating, not knowing what to say, being emotional and indecisive, Abner was very upset.

He couldn't take his eyes off the hand stretched out to him, and he could only hold the book in his arms tightly.

Tears fell from the corners of his eyes.

"Abner has been alone for more than ten years...! I have spent that time alone, and now even if I hold your hand... now! Who would hold onto something like that...!"

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"I can't even imagine the lonely years you lived. I won't talk about it so that I think I understand it. Let alone more than ten years, in a hundred years of life, I can have several more than ten years, and I haven't even lived a hundred years yet. A quarter of that. I can’t fully understand what you’re afraid of.”

"In that case! In that case... nothing you say can solve the problem at all...!"

"But, you and I can hold hands tomorrow."

"──"

"Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow. I'm not sure how many years we will hold hands, but I can spend the days with you together. Although we may not be able to be together forever, I will cherish and value you tomorrow and now."

"──"

"So, Abner.—Choose me."

Santa Karina has made her choice.

He also told Abner the options, and then it would be up to her to choose.

Should I be loyal to my mother's words, or should I break my promise to my mother, give up my desire for "that person", and hold St. Carolina's hand?

"You, you...are not 'that person'..."

"I'm not. Don't compare me to the other women you always imagined. I am who I am. Forget all the unrequited love you have felt for a person you don't even know looks or sounds like for more than ten years."

"──"

"Instead of being afraid of the moment of separation that may come one day, why not live with me in every tomorrow that will definitely come."

"...Wu, Gu."

"So—choose me, Abner."

Repeat until the other person listens.

Because I can understand the girl's wavering mood in my heart.

In order to replace her hesitant guilt and the shame of breaking the agreement with the selfish willfulness of Santa Carolina.

──To prevent this girl from crying alone again.

"You will obviously die soon..."

"I'm not sure how long I will live, and I have my own limitations."

But Santa Karina is certain that as long as Abner does not continue to be willful, this crisis will not take her life.

As long as Abner holds her hand, the two of them will be able to welcome tomorrow's morning sun hand in hand.

"The future you are afraid of may happen one day. My life is approaching soon, and I leave you who are still alive in this world. However, I keep thinking about the horror of separation and abandon the happiness of being together. Doing so will make me and You don’t get to taste many things in life.”

"You obviously can't guarantee it. You also said you would leave me...and...why do you think I will hold your hand and let you take me away."

"I won't say such big words that I can live forever, but Abner, please stay with me. We create a lot of memories to make you forget the fear of separation, make you happy enough to stand up and laugh, and make you I think there’s still some left after deducting the lonely years I spent here.”

"That kind of thing...even if you do it! One day, you won't be the same person again!"