Hikigaya doesn't want to be a force of strength

By the time Hikigaya noticed something strange, Chabashira Sae had already walked up to the podium.

"Well, from now on, I will announce the partners for the final exam."

The returned quiz results were posted.

Horikita Suzune and Sudo Ken, Hirata Yosuke and Yamauchi Haruki, Kushida Kikyo and Ike Kanji, Yukimura Teruhiko and Inogashira Shin, Ayanokouji Kiyotaka and Sato Maya...

The groups were announced based on the ratio of students with good and poor grades, almost as planned.

Hikigaya also got the person in his group, because his grades were above average, and the person with the corresponding grades was naturally someone below average.

He glanced at the list, raised an eyebrow, and found that the person was Karuizawa Megumi.

"It's just too much of a coincidence."

Hikigaya witnessed this result. Although it was not a surprise, it was indeed a little unexpected.

But if you look closely, Karuizawa's results are indeed hovering in the middle, and it is natural that he fell to a slightly deviated position due to some mistakes.

When this result came out, Sakura Airi's expression clearly revealed her disappointment.

She tried very hard in the exam this time, trying her best to score in the lower middle level, but in the end she still ranked last. It would have been better for her to join the army of those who scored 0 points and save herself the time of reviewing.

Hikigaya didn't notice Sakura's attitude. He just glanced at Koenji not far away and found that the other party cooperated very well and got a high score this time.

This made Hikigaya vaguely realize that although Koenji would do all kinds of messy things, he still abided by a certain bottom line.

If I can find out where Koenji's bottom line lies, maybe that's when I can control him...

Well, it was just something he was thinking about. He had no intention of provoking Koenji.

"Looking at this result, it seems that one of you understood the purpose of the quiz, and I can confirm that person successfully shared this understanding with the class."

Although he already knew everything, Chabashira Sae still pretended to know nothing.

To be honest, Hikigaya really admired his acting skills.

It still has to be you, Chabashira-sensei.

The students in Class D were all very happy about Chabashi Sae's words which seemed to acknowledge them. The last bit of uneasiness in their hearts gradually dissipated, and the prototype of a united class was officially formed.

After every student knew their team, Horikita Suzune went up to the podium again and began to make arrangements for the final exam with the whole class.

"Everyone, everything has gone smoothly so far, but the highlights are coming up, such as how to set questions and how to pass the final exam."

Horikita's words caught the attention of the entire class. This exam was so dangerous and complicated that no one could guarantee that they would not be expelled for failing.

During this process, Hikigaya noticed that Karuizawa Megumi was looking at him.

He could understand why the other party cared about the exam, but it was a little too weird that it happened so often.

Hikigaya even began to suspect whether Ayanokouji had instructed this...

At the same time, Horikita Suzune continued to speak in front of everyone: "In order to improve the class average score, I hope that everyone will hold a reading club as usual until the final exam. This time you can cooperate with Hirata-san or Kushida-san, or you can choose your own."

When the students in Class D heard about the plan to hold a reading club, they immediately started talking about it.

Some people chose to join Hirata, many wanted to follow Kushida, and many decided to hold small-scale book clubs privately.

But even so, there are already many problems. After all, unlike the first semester, there are a lot of students who want to study, and the number of teachers has become somewhat scarce.

If one person has to teach seven, eight or even more people, the efficiency will inevitably decline, and may even be worse than a normal class.

Therefore, after some thought, Horikita Suzune decided to increase the number of teachers.

"So you're going to let me teach, too?"

As soon as the get out of class was over, Hikigaya saw Horikita Suzune appear in front of him.

"That's right. There are a lot of people in Class D who need to learn, but people who are capable of teaching are very scarce. I remember that you are very good at teaching, so I hope you can help."

"..."

Hikigaya was a little helpless about Horikita Suzune's attitude of not wanting to ask him for help at all, "Do you really think I can do this well?"

"It's true that there will be problems, but I really don't have any choice. You know, Yukimura-san has already been assigned to teach some students."

Those who have to learn from others include not only those at the bottom of the class, but also a large number of students in the middle.

This results in teachers only being able to choose from the most upstream.

Not to mention Koenji, who would definitely not agree to it. Among the remaining people, Horikita Suzune has almost assigned all the people who could be assigned.

Under these circumstances, it was reasonable for her to seek out Hikigaya.

Of course Hikigaya was unwilling to accept such an unreasonable request. He was not even interested in participating in voluntary labor, let alone doing this kind of extra physical activity without any compensation!

My goal is to become a househusband, not a miserable office worker!

Don't expect yourself to work if you are lazy and slack off all day.

Although he thought so in his heart, Hikigaya also knew that Horikita Suzune would not give up easily, so he was even prepared to wait for this woman to use violence against him.

"Sorry, if you don't have time, don't force yourself..."

However, what surprised Hikigaya was that, compared to the past when Horikita would force himself to act no matter what, he now took the initiative to withdraw his request after making it.

Hikigaya looked at the other person, but couldn't figure out what he meant.

Is this guy trying to pua himself? Is Horikita also starting to learn to be a bad guy?

Looking at Horikita's face, Hikigaya couldn't see any trace of deliberateness, and Horikita probably hasn't learned green tea literature yet, so he didn't know how to use guilt to force people to act...

So what happened to the other party?

As if she had seen through Hikigaya's suspicion, Horikita Suzune bit her lip and said silently: "I, I just think I shouldn't entrust you with such a troublesome matter, that's all."

"This……"

Hikigaya never expected that Horikita Suzune would say such words, and the sense of discomfiture in his heart became more and more intense.

He was becoming increasingly confused about where the distance that originally existed between him and the other person had gone.

Why did everything become like this?

Who on earth, and for what purpose, made everything become like this?

As Hikigaya hesitated, he gained enlightenment and the answer.

it's me...

All of this is because I want to pursue the real thing, I hope that my wishes can come true and I can really get the things I want.

All of this is due to my own unnecessary wishes.

It is because I have always had some wishes and hopes in my heart.

Hikigaya has always been able to maintain his rationality, so he firmly believes that everything he can get must be fake and will disappear one day.

But because of this, he hopes to obtain "what he wishes for has no form, what he seeks cannot withstand touching", hoping for such a non-existent but most precious treasure.

But he only realized now that if such a treasure really existed in the world, it would never have fallen into his hands.

Once it falls into their hands, it will inevitably be destroyed, corrupted, and damaged.

Hoping to get 'something you can't get'.

Such contradictions, cruelty, and full of empty ideas are what destined this ending.

Chapter 518: My sister is the cutest in the world!

"You really don't need my help?"

"Yes, you have helped me countless times since the beginning of the school year, but this time, I think I shouldn't bother you again."

Horikita Suzune's expression gradually became firm. She seemed to have repeated this idea in her mind countless times, and she spoke it out without any pause.

Seeing her like this, Hikigaya had no idea what to say and could only sigh silently.

Indeed, for Horikita, she has already grown in the areas where she should grow.

Now, the other party is no longer

Chapter 519: No Longer Human

Horikita's attitude is very firm. She seems to have overcome her past fear of her brother Horikita Manabu and is able to move forward with her own will.

However, this does not seem to be what she really thinks.

"Okay, I admit that I just didn't dare to face him right away, so I found an excuse to delay."

After saying that, Horikita silently looked to the side, gazing at the scenery that had completely dimmed.

"Wouldn't that be nice?"

"what?"

Hearing what Hikigaya said, Horikita Suzune turned her head back in surprise.

"People don't always have the courage to face things that are difficult to face." Hikigaya acted like a person who had experienced it. "You are very courageous for wanting to face it. If it were me, I would give up without hesitation, take a shower and go home to sleep."

"When it comes to tanking, I really can't compare to you."

Horikita smiled slyly.

"After all, my goal is to be a househusband." Hikigaya did not feel belittled at all, and spoke as if he was being praised.

"I really don't know what kind of person a man like you will meet in the future." Horikita said with a headache on her face.

"You don't need to worry about this."

Hikigaya didn't want to change the topic to this aspect. The atmosphere of this kind of daily discussion of love was too youthful. A humble bug like him would be melted instantly.

After a period of time, the two finally got together.

The girls' dormitory was on a high floor, so Horikita would definitely take the elevator.

"Then, I'll leave first."

"Well, goodbye."

The two nodded and said a brief goodbye, then Hikigaya turned and was about to leave.

At this moment, Horikita, who was about to enter the elevator, suddenly turned around, smiled and waved to him, "See you tomorrow, Hikigaya-kun."

Seeing the smile on the other person's face, Hikigaya was slightly stunned. For a moment he didn't have time to respond and could only watch the elevator door slowly close.

……

[My life has been full of shame along the way——]

After returning to the dormitory, Hikigaya's attention was inadvertently attracted by this line of words.

Since the start of the second semester, he had been busy with the sports festival every day, and for a long time he even forgot to spend more time reading.

Now that I have some free time, I picked out this book from my many books in my collection at a glance. I guess it’s because of its short four-character title, which has a wonderful connection with me - "No Longer Human".

This is not the first time Hikigaya has read this book. As far as he can remember, he read this book after he entered junior high school.

However, he did not finish reading it at that time. He just flipped through it quickly and then closed the book abruptly. He never opened it again.

To me back then, the content of No Longer Human was difficult to comprehend, and for a work to be read by junior high school students, it seemed a bit boring.

What's more, there are plenty of other interesting things to do, and he is not so bored that he would read such an incomprehensible book to kill time just to pretend to be great.

Although this kind of thing is common in junior high school, some students even pretend to be cool by saying that they have read the classical Chinese version of "Romance of the Three Kingdoms" from China next door...

In short, Hikigaya chose to close the book at that time.

Because that book is like digging out one's own nature, especially the nature that is buried so deeply, and spreading it out in the sun.

Hikigaya even wondered why his junior high school self had to force himself to continue reading, as it was clearly written.

Today, the book that he thought was thrown away reappeared before his eyes. Hikigaya picked it up in surprise and recalled why he brought it to this school in the first place.

But, thinking about it carefully, there was no way he could throw away the book.

Some say that a bookcase reflects the personality of its owner.

If so, this must be my nature.