Hikigaya doesn't want to be a force of strength

What's more, what Kikyo Kushida did was a lose-lose situation. She was much better than herself in this regard, and this kid had never admitted defeat.

Chapter 527: That is the real thing that belongs to you, Kushida!

Seeing Hikigaya being so calm, Kushida Kikyo's expression was slightly surprised, as if she didn't expect the other party to be so calm.

But she did not hesitate for too long and continued quickly:

"After that, because I exposed all the secrets of the interpersonal relationships in the class, the class could no longer function. Of course, I was also criticized by the school, but what I did was just to write bad things anonymously on the blog, and I didn't do anything bad. I just told the truth to my classmates, so the school seemed to be troubled about the punishment."

"Yeah." Hikigaya nodded. "And even if you did something bad, the school probably wouldn't do anything about it. After all, the school's leadership is most afraid of damaging the school's reputation. Even if someone was killed, they would probably silence you immediately to prevent the news from spreading."

"This……"

Kushida was surprised that Hikigaya's prediction seemed quite true.

She looked at Hikigaya deeply and continued, "That's true. People in this world are always full of lies, and compared to lies, people are more afraid of the truth. Now is different from junior high school. It's only been half a year. I don't know the details of everyone in Class D, but I still hold the truth that caused several people to collapse."

Kushida said something that might scare people in a very calm manner.

She felt that any normal person would be terrified of herself if they heard her say such things, just like her junior high school classmates, who were once close to her but suddenly began to speak ill of her.

But even knowing all this, Hikigaya remained calm.

This made Kushida feel strange, and he continued:

"Using the Internet as an outlet for expressing my stress was a failure. Because many unspecified people would see it, and the information would be left as data forever, so after entering high school, I stopped writing blogs and secretly vented my emotions in a place where no one was around. As a result, I was unexpectedly bumped into by you that day."

"I see, you were just venting your emotions at that time." Hikigaya suddenly realized, but was confused. "Since that day, I don't think I've seen you secretly cursing at people again. Didn't you let me find out?"

"No, this is not..."

When he heard Hikigaya's question, Kushida's expression suddenly became strange.

She seemed to be at a loss for words, or perhaps too embarrassed to speak up. She hesitated for a long time before she slowly said, "Ever since I met you that day and let you know the truth, I have hardly ever secretly vented my emotions in private."

"Eh?"

Seeing Hikigaya's surprise, Kushida himself also looked incomprehensible, "I don't know why, but now I don't have the same accumulated pressure as before, and I don't need to vent my pressure alone."

"..."

Regarding Hikigaya's stunned state, Kushida later gave his own guess: "Maybe it's because I'm no longer keeping secrets alone, and I have a companion. Although Hikigaya-kun you are not my accomplice, just having someone who knows my other side and is willing to accept my ugly truth can make me no longer have to bear everything alone, and I can relax more or less."

After hearing what Kushida said, Hikigaya thought about it for a moment and realized that this was indeed the truth.

But he really didn't expect that just because of his existence, he could solve the darkness in Kushida's heart. It was really too simple.

Maybe, Kushida has something else that he hasn't said?

This thought flashed through his mind, and then he continued the topic and said, "You are willing to go to such lengths just to be who you are now?"

"After all, this is the meaning of my existence." Kushida smiled, "I like to be respected and noticed by everyone the most. When I know the secrets that others can only confess to me, I will feel something beyond imagination in my heart."

Knowing the anxiety or pain, shame or hope that others only hold in their hearts.

This is the forbidden fruit for Kushida, and it is also what she has always been pursuing.

"It's a boring past, isn't it? But it's everything to me."

The smile on Kushida's face gradually disappeared. When she revealed her past, she exposed everything to Hikigaya.

Although she was not worried that Hikigaya would expose all this, she was still afraid of the other party's strange look.

Everything she experienced in junior high school did not slip away from her, but still left deep scars, which she dared not easily reveal...

As for Kushida's inner trembling, Hikigaya did not respond immediately. He just said to himself: "Kushida, you have always lived for everyone's love, right? In fact, a long time ago, I did the same thing as you."

"Eh?"

Hearing Hikigaya's words, Kushida was immediately surprised. He obviously didn't believe that someone like Hikigaya who didn't care about other people's opinions would do something as flattering as himself.

Hikigaya already knew what the other party was thinking, and said with a smile:

“No one is born as an independent individual. We all came to where we are today from the same path, and gradually developed differences in the process, which gave birth to different personalities.”

After saying these philosophical words, Hikigaya continued to describe himself: "I used to be just like you, wanting to please others, to gain recognition and trust from others. I did the same things you did, and even memorized the names of everyone in my class on the first day of junior high school, wanting to be the most popular person in the class."

"This……"

Although Kushida couldn't imagine Hikigaya like that, she couldn't help but feel a sense of reality when she heard his story. "I didn't expect that even you, Hikigaya-kun, would do that."

"It's not wrong to pursue vanity. It's just human nature." Hikigaya sighed, "But in the end, I didn't do all of that. You can imagine, a guy like me would get strange looks just by asking for an email address. On the first day of school, only one girl was willing to give me her email address."

"Pfft, this is really Hikigaya-kun's style."

Although Kushida wanted to hold back her laughter, she couldn't help it. After all, this was too consistent with Hikigaya's character. Even if she herself met Hikigaya who tried to chat her up on the first day, she would probably be scared and avoid him.

Hikigaya sighed, scratched his head and said:

"So, what I mean is that you should not think that your behavior of trying to please everyone is something sinful. It is something that only you can do and that others cannot imitate. Even if it is despicable and full of little thoughts, it is definitely not a fake. On the contrary, it is something that belongs to you and is unique and real."

Chapter 528: An Unsolvable Multiple-Choice Question

"The real thing..."

After hearing what Hikigaya said, Kushida's expression wavered slightly. She seemed to have a lot of thoughts in her mind all of a sudden, but she didn't say them out loud in the end.

She just gritted her teeth and slowly said, "Hikigaya-kun, after this exam is over, I have something to tell you."

"..."

Hikigaya was slightly stunned by Kushida's reaction, but finally nodded silently.

Kushida smiled upon seeing this, and suddenly walked to Hikigaya's side, picked up the phone in his arms, and pressed the shutter without any special signal.

Her movements were so smooth that Hikigaya didn't even have time to refuse, which resulted in his expression in the photo being quite funny.

However, even if the other party asked for his consent first, Hikigaya would most likely blush and look away, and would still end up with the same ridiculous expression.

So, the current photos are still better.

“Why take pictures?”

"Of course we have to take pictures as a souvenir when we go out on a date." Kushida Kikyo replied nonchalantly, "Hikigaya-kun really doesn't understand the hearts of girls."

“…Send me a copy of the photo as well.”

"Ah."

Kushida stared at her phone and answered calmly. She operated her phone a few times quickly, and Hikigaya's phone vibrated immediately. When he opened it, he saw that it was a message from her.

Seeing himself looking just as bad as expected, Hikigaya smiled wryly and protected the photo.

"Okay. Our goal has been achieved. Let's go home."

"What has been achieved? Can't we go back yet?"

Hikigaya was about to set off on his journey home in high spirits. Kushida sighed and pulled his sleeve, "I told you that we were out for shopping today. You only got the information you wanted to know and then ran away. Hikigaya's behavior is called ignoring people after you put on your pants."

“Is there something wrong with your metaphor?”

Kushida ignored Hikigaya's complaints and forcibly dragged Hikigaya into the Keyaki Shopping Center.

It is winter now, and the wind at this time of year is still cold. It was a little better when the sun was out, but once the sun disappears, the drastic temperature difference will immediately let the tiny humans know what it means to be deprived of body temperature.

Hikigaya and Kushida hurried into the shopping mall, and finally felt relieved thanks to the heating and air conditioning that enveloped the entire mall.

Although Kushida looked very happy, Hikigaya really couldn't relax at this time, especially when the people passing by were likely to be classmates, which would lead to rumors in the class the next day that would be detrimental to his life safety.

"Why don't we find a dessert shop and sit down."

"Okay."

Kushida seemed very happy about Hikigaya's unsolicited suggestion.

Hikigaya was slightly stunned when he saw this. It was hard to connect the smiling girl in front of him with the girl who looked like she did when he met Horikita yesterday.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help but speak doubtfully: "Are you sure you want to make that kind of bet with Horikita? If you lose, you will be expelled from school."

"Yeah, but I still have to do this." Kushida shook his head, "No matter what, only one of me and Horikita Suzune can stay in this school, and I don't think I will lose."

"This……"

Seeing Kushida's determination, Hikigaya waved his hand, "In that case, it seems I have nothing more to say."

"Yes, Hikigaya-kun, you don't have to make a choice." Kushida looked at him deeply, "I will eliminate that woman and make everything better."

"What if, what if you lose?"

Hikigaya was silent for a while, but finally asked this last question.

In response to his words, Kushida Kikyo was silent for a long time, and finally answered evasively: "Any bet has a price, but I think the possibility is very low. Since I am willing to gamble, I am sure to win. If I really fail, it can only be attributed to my own fault..."

Kushida seemed unwilling to imagine the scene of himself losing. He just spoke briefly and gave up discussing the issue.

Seeing this, Hikigaya didn't know what to say. He could only turn his head away silently and fell into his own thoughts.

……

As December begins, there are less than three days left until the final exams.

Starting tomorrow, schools will be closed on Saturday and Sunday, and the formal exams will be held on Monday.

Thanks to the efforts of Horikita and Hirata, the situation of Class D can be said to be better than ever before. Not only does the class have sufficient integration, the results of the reading club are also excellent. Even Sudo and his group, which often fail exams, are working harder than ever before.

However, there were still a few dark clouds hanging over Class D.

The largest one among them is undoubtedly the Kushida Kikyo, which has not shown any special expression until now, but is looming and moving.

Horikita Suzune herself obviously had a clear judgment on this, but she did not impose any restrictions on Kushida on the surface, allowing the other party to take all possible destructive actions.

Hikigaya himself naturally did not participate in these messy things because he could not find any reason to get involved.

Whether it was helping Horikita or helping Kushida, it was impossible for him to do so.

In that case, he might as well go through his campus life smoothly, but he always felt that something was weird, and even people around him could see that something was wrong.

"What are you thinking about?"

"??"

Hikigaya looked up in surprise and found that Horikita Suzune appeared in front of him without him noticing. She had a large brown envelope in her hand. As expected, it was the test paper that Class D was going to submit for the final exam.

Because this topic was too important, no one except Horikita had direct access to it. She made it into a top-secret file, and it can be said that all the victories and defeats were staked on it.

"Nothing." Hikigaya shook his head at Horikita's attitude that seemed to care about him, "But you, are you ready?"

"Well, I will submit the materials to Mr. Chabashira now. Unless there are any unexpected problems, these questions will definitely surprise the students in the former Class C."

Horikita exudes a certain degree of confidence, but she is obviously not confident in her own abilities, but in the unprecedented unity of Class D.

However, Horikita didn't think that everything was foolproof. The serious look on her face proved that she was still somewhat nervous, worried that Kushida would use some dirty tricks.

Then, she looked at Hikigaya with an almost pleading look: "Well, can you come with me? Even so, I would feel more at ease if you could come with me..."

Unexpectedly, the usually tsundere Horikita Suzune would say such direct words. Hikigaya was stunned for a moment and didn't know what to say for a moment. Finally, he nodded unconsciously.

Chapter 529: Dead Fish Eyes, Have You Made Your Choice?

Hikigaya and Horikita Suzune soon came to the office together and handed the prepared test questions to the homeroom teacher, Chabashira Sae.

"Hey, Horikita Suzune."

When the two arrived here, the figure of Ryuen Sho appeared in front of them. He showed an arrogant smile and held the same brown envelope as Horikita's in his hand.

"Is this a coincidence? Or an ambush?"

"This is inevitable. I'm waiting for you to come."

"It's the ambush party."

“That’s right.”

Ryuen Sho smiled confidently, not paying any attention to Horikita's speechless look.

He then glanced at Hikigaya in surprise and asked curiously, "I didn't expect you to come here with her, Dead Fish Eyes. So, have you made a choice and are you going to give up on Kushida?"