How can I let go of the matter of saving my stepsister?

First love is always unforgettable, yet full of helplessness due to youth.

In this quiet night, Oya Hideki once again thought of his unrequited love affair with his first love.

They met in high school, fell in love and were considered a perfect match by people around them, but they were admitted to different universities and separated in college.

His excellent first love girlfriend deserves a better future and should not give up for him with mediocre grades. Oya Hideki understands this, but he still feels more and more ashamed and inferior because of the gap in their futures. He finally chooses to give up for her own good.

He didn't complain about these things and always believed that he made the right decision.

But... I'm just being brave.

It is only now, after reading the comics, that Hideki Oya finally realized this.

He was just deceiving himself. He was clearly feeling regretful in his heart, otherwise he would not have been so emotionally aroused and in tears just by reading a simple comic book. No, just one-third of the comic book.

His own first love had been severed by himself and had been buried in his heart for more than ten years. What about the first love between Akari and Takaki in the comics?

After sitting cross-legged alone, shedding tears and sighing for three to five minutes, Oya Hideki finally recovered a little, wiped away the tears that had been flowing silently without him noticing, and turned on the screen again.

Please, have a happy ending.

With this wish in mind, Oya Hideki opened the second chapter [Astronaut].

The heroine Akari disappeared, both from the comics and from the life of the hero Takaki Tono.

Although slightly underrated in comparison, the first episode always gives people a glimmer of hope after the ups and downs, and the second episode seems more depressing.

This is a story about secret love, or more precisely, about boys and girls who are unable to confess their love to their lovers.

Replacing Akari, who had become the white moonlight in Oya Hideki's heart, the heroine in the second episode became Sumida Kanae, a girl in Kagoshima who was in the same class as the male protagonist Tono Takaki.

Having grown up through his love with Akari, Tono Takaki moved from Tokyo to the countryside of Kagoshima. He has qualities that the boys in his class don't have, and Hanae, who is in her innocent years, falls in love with him at first sight.

She studied hard to pursue him, was admitted to the same high school as the male protagonist, met him every day and carefully planned various encounters, went home with him many times, and was alone with him on the country road. The second female lead Hanae always had a crush on the male protagonist Tono Takaki.

Secret love is a chaotic thing for a person. Perhaps Toono Takaki was too slow, or his heart was filled with the relationship with Akari, which made him emotionally passive. In short, he did not notice the love of the girl Sumida Kanae.

Even more depressing.

Looking at the tablet screen, Oya Hideki clenched his teeth.

First love is the eternal white moonlight in one's heart. Mingli has entered his heart through the comics. Of course, he hopes that Mingli and Toono Takaki, the young man and girl, can eventually get married. In his heart, the rest of the people are just third parties inserted into this relationship.

But seeing the various behaviors of Sumida Kanae who had a crush on Tono Takaki in the comics, seeing her carefully planned encounters, seeing her calling herself a puppy wagging its tail just to be able to go home with the male protagonist, and seeing her sad expression as she watched the male protagonist lower his head to send a text message to her day after day, Oya Hideki actually felt sad for her and began to pray for her happiness.

On the day when she was finally able to stand up again while surfing and dance freely with the waves, Hanae decided to confess her love to the male protagonist, Takaki Toono. Seeing that this girl with low self-esteem and sensitivity finally gathered up the courage, Hideki Oya cheered her on in his heart.

The male protagonist, Takaki Toono, will most likely reject him, but Hideki Ooya always hopes that Hanae can express the love in his heart, even if it will get a bad result.

Perhaps, it was because he had always been deeply in love with the girl of his first love, but he was always afraid and suppressed himself for all these years. He clearly saved her phone number but never dared to call her, and he didn't dare to say even a word to her. This experience prompted him to have such thoughts.

He has always regretted this, but as time has accumulated, this regret has become heavier, and he is afraid that it will become a permanent regret. Now that he sees the comic "5 Centimeters per Second", his emotions are placed on the girl Hanae, and he always hopes to make up for it.

However, what's the point of asking questions that have already been answered?

On the way home with Takaki Toono, the broken motorcycle provided a helping hand, so the two of them walked, and spent a longer time walking in the vast fields.

When she came, Hua Miao had already mustered up the courage and the timing was the best, but in the end, Hua Miao just cried.

"Oh, what's wrong?"

"I'm sorry, it's nothing, I'm sorry."

"Sumita..."

Crying and listening to the male protagonist's gentle call, Hanae prayed in her heart - please, don't be so gentle to me anymore.

At this moment, farther away, a rocket took off into the sky, leaving a clear mark on the sky, splitting the morning and evening and dividing the world into two halves.

The two of them looked up together, and that moment seemed as far away as the universe. The rocket, which was falling at a speed far faster than the five centimeters per second of cherry blossoms, disappeared into the sky. They stared blankly at the trajectory that separated everything.

Feeling of loneliness.

That feeling of loneliness is really hard to describe, and it really tightens one's heart.

[Stretching his arms desperately and blindly towards the sky, lifting such a huge object into space.

Gazing at that thing that seemed to be disappearing into the distance like a passing cloud of smoke, I finally understood why Toono-kun was always different from others.

At the same time, I also clearly realized that:

There is no me in Tono-kun's heart. 】

He changed his posture and curled up, his heart twitching violently.

[Hideki-kun always looks absent-minded. You don’t like me at all, do you? ]

After parting with his first love, the words his girlfriend said when she left him crying during his second relationship in college once again echoed in his mind, and Oya Hideki now felt it.

It is different from the unrealistic, spiritual loneliness I feel when I return home alone every day.

"hiss--"

If I keep watching, I will be depressed for the whole night, troubled for a whole week, a whole month, and even in the rest of my life, I will often think back to the pain, depression and loneliness I felt tonight.

Reason is already clamoring, we can’t watch any longer.

But this is simply not something that can make people feel relieved!

While sniffing his nose and wiping his tears, Oya Hideki clicked on the third chapter, the final one.

【5 Centimeters per Second】

Like the title of the comic, the title of the third episode is 5 Centimeters per Second.

The theme is finally reached, which also means that the story will finally come to an end, and the love between Akari and Tono Takaki will finally have a conclusion.

There has to be a good ending.

I can't remember how many times Oya Hideki has prayed this in his heart.

The picture opens, and the morning sun shines brightly into the high-rise buildings in Tokyo. Inside the house, on the whiteboard, words written in oil pen reveal the time.

March 2008, thirteen years have passed since the night when I hugged Mingli at the station when I was thirteen years old.

Trying his best to grow up and work hard, the hero has become an adult.

Only a few scenes explain the background. In spring, when the cherry blossoms are falling again, the male protagonist is walking on the streets of Tokyo, and once again passes the station crossing where he parted with Akari when he was young.

The alarm bell sounded, indicating that a train was about to pass. He quickened his pace and walked across the crossing. Tono Takaki, who was wearing a brown shirt, passed by a beautiful woman in a split skirt and a red knitted sweater on her shoulders.

Mingli!

Looking at the images on the tablet, Oya Hideki immediately became alert.

Although it is impossible to know what Akari in the story really looks like now, and the only thing shown when they passed by was a side profile, Oya Hideki could feel that it was Akari.

"!"×2

We met again!

In the story, the male and female protagonists also noticed this kind of thing.

[At this moment, if I look back, I have a strong feeling that she will also turn around. ]

As they passed the crossing, the railing was lowered at the right time. The male protagonist, Takaki Toono, looked back, and the female protagonist, Akari, also looked back. Just when the two were about to meet again after thirteen years of separation, the train rushed past, separating their sight.

"Ah! Ah, ah, ah, ah!"

Holding the tablet, Oya Hideki screamed, annoyed at the lack of understanding of romance on this train and annoyed at the torment he was undergoing by that bastard devil Sato Yu.

They should see each other, waiting for the train to pass, the two of them will look into each other's eyes, tears will flow, and smiles will appear on their lips.

This should be the case, Oya Hideki roared in his heart, but perhaps it was the first time in his life that he felt angry about his outstanding observation skills. Before sliding his finger on the screen to the next page, he still noticed the shiny object on the heroine's finger.

He enlarged the screen with two fingers and looked at it carefully, and felt more and more that it was... a wedding ring.

No!

With his eyes wide open, Oya Hideki almost roared out loud, swiping the screen frantically. He couldn't help but want to see what happened next.

However, what replaced the scene of meeting was a memory.

After growing up and starting to work, the male protagonist Takaki Toono found a good job as a programmer. At the same time, after a period of time, he seemed to have let go and started his second relationship with his girlfriend Mizuno.

Life seemed to be on the right track from then on, but the good times did not last long. Tono Takaki's heart was always filled with the lovely girl who waited for him at the station all night and told him that the speed of cherry blossoms falling was five centimeters per second. Feeling that she did not like him, his girlfriend Mizuno finally broke up.

Then, the scene shifts to Akari, who has grown up into an outstanding woman. Akari is no longer the weak and inferior girl she was when she was a child, but has grown into an outstanding woman who tries various jobs in Tokyo.

At the same time, she fell in love again, with a ring shining on her ring finger. She was already talking about marriage and became the lover of another reliable man.

【Last night, I dreamed about the past】

While rummaging through old items, Akari found an unsent confession letter to the male protagonist, Takaki Tono. Her thoughts gradually returned to the past, and she was filled with nostalgia. However, even so, she was unable to contact the male protagonist again.

Time, distance, and the hearts that have gradually become estranged as a result, too many helpless obstacles, they can never go back to the past.

After watching this, Oya Hideki became irritable and eager to see the train pass by, but his heart turned cold and calm again.

He couldn't help but sigh.

It really seemed like it, he clearly kept the email address, but how long had it been since he had spoken to or sent a message to the girl he loved for the first time?

If I think about it carefully, it’s actually been more than ten years.

Continue to pull down the screen, and the perspective will be given to the male protagonist Takaki Toono again. His girlfriend's breakup text message was sent to his mobile phone. The male protagonist was not depressed about it, but just felt unspeakable loneliness and sadness.

[“I still love you now.”

A woman who had been dating for three years wrote this in a text message, but I think that even if we exchange text messages a thousand times, our hearts can only be brought closer by one centimeter. 】

There is always that special girl in his heart, and Mingli is the only one who is obsessed with her. Even if he deceives himself and finds a new love, it will ultimately be like drinking poison to quench thirst, and will only add to his sadness.

This heartless, cold and desolate sentence directly hits the hearts of readers who are watching the comics, have experienced it, and can understand the emotions contained in it.

"It really hits the sore spot."

Ooya Hideki gritted his teeth and cursed, tears flowing down his face again, but no matter how much he cursed, he would continue to read the comics.

He was also looking forward to meeting them again.

But...Ming Li already has a ring on her hand, so would it really be a good thing to meet again?

His heart was pounding, and Oya Hideki became more and more frightened.

[One day we can enjoy cherry blossoms together again. 】

The perspectives of the male and female protagonists alternate, and the narration remains steady and powerful, consistently moving people to tears.

The male protagonist, Takaki Tono, was exhausted and resigned to start working as a freelancer, and his life came to a standstill. However, the female protagonist, Akari, was positive and tried different jobs and lived her life with all her heart, and her life kept moving forward.

The distance between the two seems to be getting farther and farther, but deep down, they are still looking forward to the day when they meet again and enjoy the cherry blossoms together again.

What follows is a long, dozens of pages of revolving lantern-like silhouettes of life, with only pictures and no lines.

From the time when the two of them exchanged letters when they were young, each looking forward to the other's reply with sadness in his heart, to the time when the male protagonist sat alone in the wilderness of Kagoshima and wrote an email expressing his feelings that had no recipient address and could not be sent at all.

Then there are the ups and downs of the secular world after growing up, the melancholy and depression of the male protagonist Tono Takaki, and the bright smile of the female protagonist Akari as she snuggles with her lover.

There are many scenes and many emotions, which make people feel melancholy and full of thoughts, and they can't help but want to sigh.

And finally, the scene cuts back to the station intersection, back to the moment when the male and female protagonists looked back.

Oya Hideki's heart was in his throat. The still comics seemed to flow like animation in his eyes. He could see and imagine the series of actions of the male protagonist turning around, and he could also imagine the tears in the eyes and the sadness on the face of the female protagonist as she looked at the train in front of her.

But how will they react when they meet again?

This was the only thing that Oya Hideki couldn't imagine.

He never met his first love again, and that was the answer the comics should give him.

However......

The train passed by, and the male protagonist remained where he was, but there was no one on the female protagonist Mingli's side.

In the scene that turned into a color page, under the sky full of cherry blossoms, the male protagonist is the only one standing alone!

"Hoo~ho~ho~"

Panting heavily, at this moment, Oya Hideki's psychological defenses were completely broken.

He couldn't understand why it ended like this?

There was so much, so much anger echoing in my heart.

His defenses were completely broken, and he viciously threw the tablet onto the bed and shouted angrily.

"Sato Yu, you deserve to die!!!"