How can I let go of the matter of saving my stepsister?

Volume 103: Chapter Chapter . Look forward, then look back

There are kitchen knives in the kitchen...

That one is too unconcealed, so use a table knife. There are also fruit knives in the living room, and you can buy knives at convenience stores now.

Sato Yuu should not be in the company now, but it seems that someone has seen him hanging around in Bunkyo Ward, so...

For a moment, Oya Hideki really had the evil thought of killing that bastard Sato Yu with a knife.

After meeting again after thirteen years, my first love had already married. We were finally able to meet but the train blocked our view.

The two had agreed to enjoy the cherry blossoms together again, but in the end, the male protagonist, Takaki Tono, was left alone, standing alone and staring at the empty other side of the station crossing.

Slumped on the pillow, a grown man in his late thirties, Oya Hideki sobbed, covering his face with the quilt, and then burst into tears.

It is not such a tear-jerking story, it is just a beautiful and sentimental story about the confusion and entanglement of a boy and girl during their growth.

Young people, people who have not experienced much, and people who have always had a smooth love life and have never encountered any setbacks must be commenting on the comic "5 Centimeters per Second" in this way.

But for those who can be moved and empathize with it, this comic seems to be too "cruel".

The pictures are so beautiful, the characters are so deep, and the narration full of melancholy tells the story. Everything makes people calm down and immerse themselves in it.

In the end, it transcends the comic itself and can no longer be limited to the bitter love story between Akari and Takaki Toono. Those who read it finally see themselves.

Maybe I have already forgotten it, maybe I will never recall it again in my life, and I won't feel so sad when I think back on it, but the feelings are indeed buried deep in my heart. Now that they have been magnified infinitely by the comics, they are so heartbreaking when the surge comes over me.

The thirteen years that Mingli and Takaki Toono have been drifting apart, weren't they also the life he has experienced with his first love, with the smiling and coquettish girl who has always lived in his heart?

“Woo, woowawawa…”

While crying bitterly, Ooya Hideki suddenly heard another cry besides his own.

It came from next door. I remember it was a young guy working in a convenience store. He had dyed blond hair, was sunny and cheerful, loved to laugh and talk, and was very popular. It seemed that his life was more fulfilling than his, a tired office worker. In their spare time, they also talked about various funny things in "Azure Blue" together.

Now, these two brothers in distress were crying at the same time.

When he wiped away his tears, his eyes were already a little red and swollen, and there was a hint of pain in the dryness. He no longer had the heart to watch other animations. At this moment, even "Azure Blue" could not heal him. He just wanted to fall asleep early, get rid of the complicated and painful emotions in his heart, and use sleep to relieve his mood.

But how to fall asleep?

As soon as he closed his eyes, he saw the desolate scene of a train passing by, leaving the male protagonist Tono Takaki alone at the crossing. His stomach ached with resentment, and he tossed and turned for several times. Then Oya Hideki suddenly got up and turned on the tablet again.

It was then that he suddenly realized that the comic book with the END mark in the lower right corner was actually not finished yet, and there were still a few pages to go.

I don’t know exactly what I’m going to do when I grow up.

But I want to be someone who won’t feel shy when I meet Akari by chance anytime and anywhere.

Regarding this, I want to make a promise with Mingli...】

[Takaki-kun, you will be fine. No matter what happens in the future, Takaki-kun will grow into an outstanding and gentle man. No matter how far away Takaki-kun goes in the future, I will always love you.

Anyway, please remember this. 】

There are no more paintings. Turning the pages back, Oya Hideki turns to the content of the letter that was blown away by the snowstorm at the station when Tono Takaki went to meet Akari in the first episode, and the words in the letter that Akari failed to hand over to the male protagonist Tono Takaki at that time.

The two of them clearly like each other, but their feelings...

"Isn't this a message that nothing has been conveyed at all?!"

Unable to suppress his emotions, Oya Hideki shouted angrily. He continued to turn to the last page. In the large blank screen, there was a sentence from the comic author Sato Yuu to the readers:

[It doesn’t matter if you are sad or happy, life always goes on. I hope that when I look back at the railway station, I can let go and move forward with ease.

I would like to share this story that relieves regret with you all, and I hope you will like it.

Don't look back, look forward. 】

"Relieved? How can you like it if you let go of your regrets and move on?!"

Sighing, with his eyes wide open, Oya Hideki murmured.

But at this point, the urge to kill Sato Yudao finally dissipated. He flipped forward with some feeling, and then turned back to the scene when he first watched it, where the male protagonist was standing alone in front of the station crossing, and he felt completely different when he first watched it.

Looking back at the bleak place, there is no wind, rain, or sunshine when I return.

The train drove away and the station railing was lifted. At that moment, he was able to chase forward to look for Akari. At first, Toono Takaki felt disappointed, but finally he smiled with relief and turned away.

Perhaps, by leaving behind the past, he will be able to come out of his decadent state and face life positively again.

Look forward.

Looking back, Oya Hideki finally realized the true meaning of the comics.

Hot tears welled up in my eyes again. How many times has this happened tonight?

The melancholy gradually faded away, although my abdomen still ached slightly, but in the end, what remained most was the emotion.

"so good."

He sighed sincerely.

Rather than killing Sato Yu with a knife, at this moment he seemed to want to rush to him and kiss him hard, to thank him for the touching moment he brought him and for giving him the strength to move forward.

Now, I can finally have a good sleep...

Bullshit! I still can’t sleep!

There were so many things he wanted to say and express in his heart that he had no intention of falling asleep at all. He just wanted to pick up the keyboard and type away.

He got up quickly and turned on his computer, then logged into Japan's largest comic discussion forum. He wanted to write an article about his feelings and his story with his first love, hoping that more people would empathize with him.

but......

[BYD I exploded, I cried till I lost consciousness]

[Late night emo, thanks to Miaowu, I think back to my first love, another sleepless night]

[I just finished watching "Azure Blue" and laughed my ass off, and then I was tricked by Sato Yu into "5 Centimeters per Second" and now I'm crying like a fool. Can't I call the police? I want to report the biggest and worst scammer in Japan! ]

[The train bombing squad (1/100000), the saber-slashing Sato Yu squad (1/1000000)]

[It is indeed a story about relief. Tono Takaki was relieved, Akari was relieved, and Hanae was relieved, but how can I, who watched 5 seconds, be relieved? ]

From top to bottom, pages and pages are all related to Second Five. Less than an hour has passed since the comic was released, and the largest comic version in Japan has been completely dominated by Second Five.

With a wry smile, he clicked into the post of the Train Bombing Team to post a plus-one, then switched out and clicked on the editor. Oya Hideki tried to type on the keyboard, but after just a moment, the page suddenly became blank and displayed a 404 logo.

"what?"

Oya Hideki was surprised, then he realized what happened and burst into laughter.

The train did not explode, but the forum could not bear the load and exploded. Too many people crowded into the forum at this moment. If they had not known about the tear gas frenzy caused by Second 5, the forum would probably have thought that it was attacked by a hacker DDOS.

Wait, or go to other places, such as Pandia's official website, Sato Yu's Twitter, or the comment section of the "Azure Blue" animation to see what netizens are going crazy about?

Thinking of this, ding ding dong dong, the mobile phone placed on the desktop suddenly rang. Oya Hideki looked over and his breathing stopped for a moment.

His lips were trembling and his eyes were shaking and trembling. All that was left in Oya Hideki's eyes was the contact name displayed on the phone screen.

Kumiko Aoki, the clean, refreshing and smiling girl in his memory, who always made exquisite handmade bento, stamped her feet when angry and pursed her lips when uneasy, belonged to his Akari.

They hadn't been in touch or spoken on the phone for more than ten years since they separated in college.

He listened to the ringing of the phone in a daze, not daring to believe it and not daring to reach out. Finally, when the ring was about to end, Oya Hideki finally mustered up the courage to answer it.

"......" × 2

The call was connected, but both parties were silent.

"Kumiko."

"Hideki-kun!"

They still had a tacit understanding, and they both called out each other's names, and then fell silent.

"I read a very tear-jerking comic at night..."

On the other end of the phone, the voice was a little hoarse, and his first love, Kumiko Aoki, spoke softly.

They were drifting apart but they read the same comic book on the same night.

Then you must have seen the message of looking forward from that bastard Sato Yu.

How can we look forward? We are all ordinary people, and we can never let go of the past.

He swallowed his saliva and opened his mouth again and again. After another long silence, Ooya Hideki finally couldn't help but smile and look back with relief.

"Let's meet." he said.

Volume 104: Chapter Episode . Infection

"Emi, I'm in the bar, I've had a lot of drinks, can you come pick me up..."

Akimoto Emi, 29 years old, is a female teacher.

At one o'clock in the middle of the night on Saturday, the phone rang while she was sleeping. She was woken up by her school colleague and good friend Watanabe Misaki, who asked her to pick her up at the bar.

She had a gentle personality and was too indulgent towards her bad friends. This had happened more than once or twice. She did not complain too much, but just rubbed her aching forehead, got up and drove to the bar.

The air was filled with the smell of alcohol. As soon as Akimoto Megumi entered the bar and found her good friend Watanabe Misaki, she frowned as soon as she approached her.

She seldom drinks and hates drunkards the most.

"Misaki is up, let's go home."

Patting her friend on the shoulder, Akimoto Megumi tried to coax her. When her friend turned around after hearing the voice, she was shocked to see Watanabe Misaki, whose makeup had been smudged with tears, like a female ghost, and whose eyes were completely swollen like light bulbs.

"Why are you crying like this, getting drunk late at night... Did you break up with your boyfriend again? Or did that jerk Murakami bully you? Tell me, I will..."

"Sato! It was that damn bastard Sato Yu who bullied me. He deserves to be killed! I hate him so much. He made me so miserable."

"Sato Yuu? I've never heard of this name. Misaki, your new boyfriend? You've only been dating your last boyfriend for less than a month... ah, anyway, you met a scumbag again? Why do you always have such a bad taste in men?"

Lamenting the chaos in her best friend's private life, Akimoto Emi let out a long sigh, but after all, they were close friends who had known each other since childhood, and her heart always leaned more towards Watanabe Misaki, so she frowned and asked.

If she knew that the scumbag named Sato Yuu had really hurt Misaki, she would make sure he was in trouble.

However, the response she got was beyond her expectations.

"No, Murakami is very nice, we are still dating."

"That......"

Akimoto Megumi frowned tightly, and there was a hint of embarrassment in her look at her friend.

"So, Misaki, you're two-timing?"

"No, it's Sato Yuu, the animation director!"

"Animation director? I don't know him. I'm not familiar with the circle of people like you who like to watch anime. Anyway, tell me, what happened to him?"

Having a premonition that she would not be able to take her friend Watanabe Misaki home if she didn't listen to her complaints, Akimoto Megumi had no choice but to sit down and let her throw herself into her arms. She wiped the tears and snot on her face on her shirt and talked about how she was hurt to such an extent by an animation director who had nothing to do with her.

"A comic? I say, Misaki, your ability to empathize is too strong. No matter how attractive it is, it is just a story, fictional. Why are you so sad? You are also a teacher, a role model, but you get drunk in a bar to such an extent and show such an ugly appearance. It is really inappropriate."

My good friend Misaki Watanabe has had many relationships and changed many boyfriends, but she is not actually a bad girl. She just has poor taste in choosing men. Every boyfriend she has is either addicted to gambling or cheating on her. Some of them simply just play with her for a while because they think she is cute and then ruthlessly abandon her... In short, she is a pitiful person.

If she had said that her boyfriend had cheated on her and dumped her again, causing her to be in such a miserable state, Watanabe Misaki could still have been patient and comforted her, but she really couldn't stand her friend's sentimentality when she saw her crying like this over a comic book.

"No, I'm not like this usually. It's true, it's true that the bastard drew it too well and too deeply, digging up things from more than a decade ago that I should have forgotten long ago...

What's that expression on your face? You're rolling your eyes! Then come and see, and you'll know why I'm crying! Crying is the right thing to do, and getting drunk is the right thing to do!"

"Ha~ I really can't stand you. I won't scold you anymore. Let's go back."

"No, I want you to watch it and not leave until you've finished watching it!"

It would be useless to talk logic with a drunk person. Knowing what kind of stubborn person her friend was, Akimoto Megumi had to suppress her impatience and took her phone to watch.

"5 Centimeters per Second" is a name that makes no sense, but gives people a sense of literature and art.

When she clicked on it, she found the style of painting was very refreshing. Although she was not a fan of anime and comics, she could still read comics with such a delicate and refreshing style.

Turn the pages quickly, and then send your friends away quickly.

Akimoto Emi thought so, but after just turning over a dozen pages, she slowed down her tapping speed on the screen completely. Unconsciously, she became fascinated and began to carefully read every frame of the comics, chewing on every line of text.

So beautiful, yet so melancholy.

After reading the first episode [Sakura Tsurugi], it seems that Akimoto Megumi can understand some of her friends' thoughts.

But even though it's confusing and sad, that's about the extent of it.