I participated in the development of EVA

Fumihiko Ikari noticed that Emi Ibuki was wavering, and immediately added another sentence.

"Once you participate in the startup experiment, there are only two results waiting for you. The first is that the experiment fails and you die. There is nothing to say about this. The second is that the experiment succeeds. Not only will you become a tool for collecting driving data, but also... the things I said when I rescued Professor Yamaki... are likely to become a reality."

He was afraid that Ibuki Emi would have a brain seizure and sacrifice herself for the greater good.

And then added another sentence at the end.

"You can accept it, but will Professor Yamaki be able to accept it after he recovers his memory? He definitely can't accept it, otherwise he wouldn't have escaped from the core."

Ibuki Emi was stunned for a moment, unable to accept the fact, and stood there for a long time without coming to her senses.

On the other side, Ikari Yui wanted to know whether Ikari Fumihiko could convince Ibuki Emi, so she took some time to follow the development of the situation through surveillance, and thus heard every word of the conversation between the two.

At this moment, she really wanted to strangle Ikari Fumihiko to death.

It was clearly your mistake at work for not explaining the situation, so why are you putting all the blame on me?

But I'm your cousin!

Dear cousin!

If it was a serious matter, it would be fine, but you actually cheated me just to satisfy your selfish desires? ?

You speak so viciously of me!

She was so angry that she wanted to tell Fuyutsuki Kana about their secret meeting, but she finally held back.

And sighed.

If she knew all this in advance, she might hesitate and be hesitant, but she would eventually make the choice that Ikari Fumihiko is talking about now. It's just that it wouldn't be as exaggerated as what Ikari Fumihiko said. After all, she is a human being, not a machine. She can only think relatively rationally, and it is impossible for her to be completely free of any personal feelings.

Of course, the premise is that it is necessary to do so.

"My cousin, my cousin...

You are so lucky.

Otherwise, Huimei will be badly screwed by you."

……

Ikari Fumihiko felt that what he had said was enough, so he did not urge Ibuki Emi and just started eating on his own.

Feeling melancholy and uneasy, he took a few more sips of wine.

Ibuki Emi pondered for a long time with a gloomy expression before she raised her head again. She drank a sip of red wine in a depressed mood, and then started eating by herself.

Maybe it was because he was in a bad mood, his eating behavior was rather wild.

It can definitely be described as heroic.

Maybe it was because of the alcohol that made her a little drunk, but she suddenly put down her glass and laughed.

Ikari Fumihiko was a little confused.

crazy? ? ?

No way? It shouldn't be that fragile, right?

He asked cautiously, "Lady, what are you laughing at?"

"Nothing, I just think you're kind of cute in your clumsiness."

"Clumsy? Cute?"

"He is indeed an idiot."

"What do you mean?"

The smile on her face turned bitter. Ibuki Emi picked up the wine glass, clinked it with Ikari Fumihiko's, and then drank it in one gulp.

Then he spoke.

"I didn't have a choice from the beginning."

Ikari Fumihiko was stunned for a moment, then he reacted.

He picked up the wine glass, drank it all in one gulp, and then filled it up again.

"I'm sorry, I didn't think it through and let you down."

If he hadn't said this, the top management might not have thought of this. Now that he has said this, the top management will naturally know it.

Ibuki Emi didn't know this, so she comforted Ikari Fumihiko instead.

"What are you talking about? No matter how you look at it, this matter is not your fault."

Ikari Fumihiko opened his mouth but still didn't have the courage to tell the truth. Feeling depressed, he took another big gulp of wine.

Ibuki Emi seemed to have made up her mind.

"I made a decision!"

"What has been decided?"

"Rather than waking up one day and finding myself lying in the bed of someone who makes me feel terrible, it's better to let you have it. At least this is my choice."

Fumihiko Ikari was startled and immediately realized how bad the situation was.

Just as I was about to say something, Ibuki Emi spoke again.

"Ever since the world changed, I feel like an abandoned cat, always trying to please the new owner, always worried and afraid of being abandoned again. Uh... before the world changed, it seemed the same, except that the people I was trying to please were my parents, and I never thought about what I wanted. Hmm, no! I did think about it once.

When I was in college, I competed with Ikari Yui for Gendo, but...

I lost.

I feel like my life has been a complete failure.

Really, why are you talking about these useless things, come and drink! Treat me like Kana tonight."

104. Understanding is like a mirror, reflecting you and me

Stimulated, Ikari Fumihiko felt his breath become hot and his throat became unusually dry, and he swallowed subconsciously.

This is what she asked for...

wrong!

You can't be too shameless in life.

If I didn't have a girlfriend, I would definitely do this kind of thing half-heartedly.

"I'm going to use the bathroom."

"You've just started drinking and you're already going to the bathroom? Is your kidney not working well?"

Upon hearing this, Fumihiko Ikari's face turned dark.

But I still walked outside and found the staff waiting at the door.

"If we get drunk later, remember to send us back to our respective dormitories."

"Uh--"

The clerk was a little embarrassed and asked cautiously.

"What if you insist on leaving together?"

At this moment, Fumihiko Ikari was still shaken.

You don't even eat the meat right in front of your mouth. You're really worse than an animal.

But soon his eyes became firm. No matter they loved each other or not, since they had confirmed the relationship, they should get along well and not get involved in these messy things.

"Same."

Life is not a game. There is no function to reload and restart the game. You must take it seriously.

"Uh……"

The staff member was still in a dilemma. Although he had received the order from Ikari Fumihiko, he was just a grassroots service staff, while Ikari Fumihiko was a team leader. If something unexpected happened and he couldn't tell and tried to stop it, he would be the one who would suffer in the end. Even if he didn't stop it, he would still be in trouble.

Ikari Fumihiko looked at the other person's embarrassed expression and was stunned for a moment before he realized how difficult this matter was for the employee.

isn't it...

Can I only rely on my own determination to overcome it?

Uh--

He knew very well what kind of self-control he had. Not to mention when he was drunk, he might not be able to control himself even when he was sober.

Would it be better to just run away now?

"Forget it, I'll find another way."

The staff heaved a sigh of relief upon hearing this.

Just as Ikari Fumihiko was thinking of a solution, Ibuki Emi's voice came from behind him.

"Am I so unattractive?"

"Uh--"

Ikari Fumihiko froze in place and hurriedly explained: "No... I just took advantage of someone's misfortune."

"I am very rational and calm now. You are not taking advantage of someone who is in danger."

Ikari Fumihiko sighed.

"You are very charming, very charming, and that's why I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself and make mistakes, so I want others to stop me. I just want to take care of my own life."

The staff member turned around and left silently, leaving the space to the two of them.

Ibuki Emi was currently unable to understand the meaning of Ikari Fumihiko's words.

"What do you mean?"

"I just don't want my life to become a mess, especially emotionally."

Before traveling through time, his biological father's family fell apart because he couldn't control his lower body, which made Fumihiko Ikari very eager to have a happy family.

Perhaps it was the stimulation of alcohol that caused memories before the time travel to flash through his mind.

What impressed him most before he traveled through time was a discussion he overheard accidentally when he was very young.

Those people said that before he was born, his parents were very loving and his grandfather was in good health, but everything changed after he was born.

My parents quarreled and divorced, and my grandfather became ill due to overwork.

This made him often think since he was a child, 'If I had not been born... perhaps everything would not be like this'. As he grew older and understood more and more things, he naturally realized that these thoughts were very stupid. The fundamental reason for his parents' divorce was that they had a different relationship and it would have been the same even without him. His grandfather had always been in poor health, but outsiders just didn't know it.

But this kind of thing cannot be relieved just by knowing the answer.

Ibuki Emi was a little surprised, but she quickly understood.

Before they met for the first time, she had read Ikari Fumihiko's personal file, which contained records of his original family. Ikari Fumihiko's parents were a political marriage between two grassroots families who huddled together for warmth. After marriage, the couple were busy with their own things and spent little time together. This did not change after Ikari Fumihiko was born.

Do you want a happy family because you grew up in an environment lacking love?

After realizing this, she could more or less understand Ikari Fumihiko's previous behavior.

While others are busy saving the world, Fumihiko Ikari is only thinking about romance... This is not because he has no sense of responsibility, but because Fumihiko Ikari wants to fulfill his wish before humanity perishes.

Have a happy family.

"This date was absolutely the worst experience of my life."

After a pause, she spoke again without waiting for Ikari Fumihiko to speak.

"You and Kana are not in love, and forcing them together won't be a happy marriage."

Ikari Fumihiko subconsciously wanted to refute.

Ibuki Emi spoke again, not giving Ikari Fumihiko any chance to speak.

"You just want to use Kana to get a family, and Kana is chasing after your ex-boyfriend's shadow in you. For both of you, it doesn't matter who the person is as long as they meet the conditions."

She didn't know why she said these.

may be……

envy?