Use My Life For Your Happiness

Lin Xia is right. I don't oppose anything at all.

But in my heart, there is still a little bad feeling.

On the contrary, the pain between fingers is much lighter.

After pestering him to clean up everything, Yashu didn't pay attention to her, so she sat on the sofa and talked to me.

"Up to now, it's still hard for me to accept that you are going to be Lin Xia's wife."

Don't say it's hard for you to accept now. Even now, I haven't fully accepted it.

But it doesn't mean much to tell her that.

"I, Lin Xiage, have been very good since I was a child. Everything is good, but it's too good. It's too easy for people to worry about. That's why I feel estranged. My aunt tries every means to please him and let him show his childlike side, but he never does anything. He is mature and steady, just like a 40-50-year-old man, so my aunt has no way?"

I smile: "I have no way, brother Lin Xia, I used to call him that." Now, I want to call him that, and he won't be happy any more.

A lot of things can be like vases, which can be put back when they are moved. Nothing ever happened. People and things are always different, always different.

"What kind of charm do you have?" She looked at me seriously and curiously.

I shrugged a smile: "I don't know, mostly because I am a fool."

She asked me, "do you like the book of songs?"

"I don't like it. I don't like it very much when I study or increase my temperament."

"How strange?"

"It's not." I sat cross legged on the sofa with a smile.

Lin Xia came over, took a cushion to lean on my back, and then twisted a towel to wash my face, wipe my hands, and then brought the washed handle to me.

"Yashu, you should go back." He said.

Yashu is not happy: "brother Lin Xia, I have nothing to do today, so." So don't go back, but Lin Xia didn't let her finish saying, then said: "go back, we have something later, Qianxun, we'll go to the hospital to check."

"Now? In the afternoon, a lot of hospitals don't sit in

"I'll take you there. I'll change my clothes."

"Good."

I should say: "Lin Xia, take out my middle sleeve dress. It's more convenient to wear it. When I go to the hospital, I always need to measure my blood pressure. It's hard to pull up the sleeve when it's too long."

"I know."

Yashu lowered his voice and asked me: "Mo Qianxun, if you are really leukemia, what do you do?"

I looked at my fingers and gave a cool smile: "what can I do?"

"Er, I mean, what can you do with my brother Lin Xia? You can't drag him down. You know how good he is to you. Do you want to marry him again? If a man marries a second time, he will have a discount on his diamond level status. What kind of life he will live in the future will be a bit of a dwarf level. "

Oh, I'm worried about this. It's worthy of being Lin Xia's little sister. In the end, I'm thinking about him. I call him brother Lin Xia, but I never think about it.

"Whatever. For many things, I can't do what I want."

Lin Xia came out and saw that Yashu was still unhappy.

Yashu quickly stood up: "Er, brother Lin Xia, Mo Qianxun, I'll go back first."

"When you are so old, you know what to say and what not to say." Lin Xia brought the socks to me and said a word very plainly.

"Brother Lin Xia, I understand. I'll go back first."

He lifted the shoes and said, "be careful."

The car drove directly to the military hospital, and the professionals were waiting.

Blood, with a needle to draw a tube of blood to test, and then check my body indicators, blood pressure, joints and other things.

When the hospital asked me about my health in detail, Lin Xia told him one by one.

There is no doubt that he has paid attention to me.

Sitting together and waiting for the result, he sat dignified, I looked at his side face, is still so elegant, looking forward, see his eyes under a tension.

He held my hand tightly for a moment, then released it quickly for a moment, as if he was afraid of scratching me.

I can't help but ask softly: "Lin Xia, if I really have leukemia, what will happen?"

"No He said so firmly.

"And if so?"

"It will cure you."

"If it can't be cured, I know a little bit about this disease. If it can't be cured, I may not be able to live long or adapt to it. My health is beyond all our imagination."

He clenched my hand, forced out a smile, comforted and said: "who am I, Lin Xia? I will not allow these things to happen, that is, there is always a chance to cure you, not only to cure you, but also to keep you healthy."

It's the first time I've heard him speak so arrogantly. Maybe he's nervous, so I'm so quiet now.

Leukaemia, a fatal disease.

It sounds terrible, but I've experienced death, and I've seen a lot of death with my own eyes. I have nothing to fear.

Death, it seems, is not terrible at all, but a relief.

I didn't give up my life. God chose to let me give up. Xiao Bei, you have to wait for me. I'll see you soon.

There is probably no aristocratic family and no right family there.

Lin Xia, I have nothing to feel guilty about. Anyway, he knew from the beginning what I said.

I can listen to him, but my heart belongs to me. You can command me something, but you can't command my heart or control my soul.

Lean on his shoulder, ah, Lin Xia, you see, this time the command power may not be on you, we can't help it.

Now I'm relaxed and calm.

"Mr. Lin." The hospital came and said, "the report has come out."

His palms, are sweating, looking at the doctor: "quickly say ah."

"Miss Mo is indeed leukemia as you expected, but fortunately, the white blood cells are not very serious now. If we treat it as soon as possible, and find the relative bone marrow in the national or global resources, the body can recover. But we have seen Miss Mo's blood type. It's not easy to look for it, but we have already made such a request. "

As expected, so not surprisingly.

At the beginning, the doctor asked me what was wrong with me, and I said directly: "doctor, didn't Lin Xia tell you that it might be a big problem of blood, and the most likely one is leukemia."

My directness surprised them.

"How long can I live without treatment?"

"It may be three months, six months, a year or two."

"No matter what the cost, we have to find the matching bone marrow." Lin Xia grasped my hand, and then attacked me: "Chihiro, don't challenge my anger, don't speak any more."

Well, don't let me say it. I just don't say it.

But everyone wants good things, but it's a bad consequence. I just want to say it first. And I, it doesn't matter, good and bad for me, really doesn't matter.

"Treat right away, and go to the hospital for surgery."

"Mr. Lin, Miss Mo, this way, please."

"Lin Xia, I don't want to be hospitalized. I don't want to be treated. I can't get rid of it."

"This time, you can't help being willful, Chihiro."

He stubbornly grasped my hand and followed the hospital student, which made me very painful.

"Lin Xia."

"Forgive me this time. I can't help you. I want you to live well and be my wife."

He's a little crazy. His stubbornness makes me headache.

Now one doctor came in a hurry and said something in the other doctor's ear.

So the doctor said: "Mr. Lin, Miss Mo, I think there's something you must know. Just after the urine test, Miss Mo is pregnant."

I stood stupefied, these words like a head-on blow, hit me a little dizzy, what do you mean? I'm already pregnant. Aren't I taking contraceptives?

In the past few months, there has been food after every event.

"Doctor, are you confused? How could I have children?"

The doctor said to me with certainty: "Miss Mo, as you can see, we rushed back to the hospital to do a comprehensive physical examination specially for you. You do this specially, and everything will not be wrong. You are pregnant. It should be measured in the pregnancy test stick for more than half a month. If Miss Mo really doesn't believe it, you can have another test immediately."

"No way." I yelled at them, "no way."

I have some impulse, Lin Xia tightly hugged me: "Qianxun, don't be excited, maybe it's really a bit wrong, you can test it again."

"Well, I'm going to show you that I'm not pregnant, I'm not pregnant, I'm not pregnant."

The doctor gave me several pregnancy test sticks of various brands. I went to the toilet, but it was found that I was pregnant.

I take medicine. How is that possible?

Lin Xia came to help me tired, I looked up at the doctor waiting outside: "I have taken medicine after the event, why will be pregnant?"

"Medicine after the event may not be really safe. I'm telling you this news now to prepare you psychologically. It's not OK to have children in chemotherapy."

"Can a child who has taken medicine still have it?" I yelled at him in anger.

"Chihiro, you take vitamins." Lin Xia whispered in my ear.

I pushed him away, he held me tightly, I pushed hard, no matter how, he was afraid that I was injured, so he let me go: "I changed your medicine for vitamins."

"Lin Xia, you are really selfish. You not only want me to be your woman, but also want me to give birth to children for you. I don't want to put my whole life in your hands. I tell you, you are really cruel. You really want to be beautiful. Don't come here."

"Chihiro." He cried anxiously.

I supported the wall: "don't come here. I hate you so much. How can you be so selfish? I can destroy myself and be obedient like a doll. What else do you want me to do? Ah

I'm in a mess. I don't want to hear anything. I don't want to stay here for a moment.

I didn't allow him to come near me, weeping and weeping.

When Ji Xiaobei and I were together, having a child may really make us happy, but Xiaobei respects me and won't force me.

But Lin Xia, as for you, I have already taken the medicine, and you have to change my medicine.

Lin Xia, do you want me to tie my life, my heart and all my soul to you? After the child will be like an invisible line, pulling me.

My whole life is very hard. What will happen to a child without love?

I don't want to give birth to a child for you. Up to today's point, they say that I'm living a good life now. No one can do that for you.

But without a proud soul, I can't feel everything you do. Do you understand?

If Xiao Bei and I had children, we might not be separated, he would not go to Switzerland, he would not leave like this.

When I got on the bus, I kept wiping my tears. Lin Xia's car was just outside the taxi. I wish I could push the door open and roll in front of your car now, let you run over my body and see if it hurts?

"Miss, you haven't said where you want to go yet?"

"Keep driving, keep driving."

"Miss, I have to hand over at five."

"It's OK to drive to the place where you hand over the shift. Don't bother me, OK? I feel terrible now."

I don't want to think about anything. I can't understand the ridiculous relationships between them.

When the driver arrived at the destination, I was still sitting there after the shift. Another driver asked me where I was going, and I said I was going to Tian'anmen.

After getting off the bus, I go to the underground passage. The wind in the evening is drawing a long figure with the red sunset. I am looking at the solemn Tian'anmen Square here.

The wind blew on my face and it hurt.

Lin Xia followed up and said softly, "Chihiro, I'm sorry."

Don't talk to me. I don't want to hear anything.

I'm sorry. If it works, go kill people and set fire to them.