June is our farewell song

Chapter 220 If, If

After leaving the school gate, he took out two coins in his pocket.

Sister Zifeng, on the second day after the college entrance examination, took the train to LS alone with 1 yuan, and traveled all the way from east to west across the land of China.She is alone, writing while walking, from her circle of friends and QQ space, you can see her experience and joys and sorrows in the past ten days.Freed briefly from all shackles, she is, as she puts it, "an escape."

An enviable life... However, it must be full of hardships that others cannot see. The journey behind the chic words is by no means smooth sailing. However, Gu Yuan worships her, and the light of an idol can always cover up all ills .So that kind of life must be enviable, at least he thinks so now.

The wind was blowing, completely different from what I heard in the classroom.

Thoughts are complicated and disturbed by the wind. Last year, sister Zifeng said that tossing a coin can make people understand what is in their minds, and can make entanglements become unentangled.

Gu Yuan gently flipped the two coins up and down, then raised his wrist suddenly, the coins flew high, and the metal collided in the air, making a crisp buzzing sound.Finally fell back into his palm.But looking at the two coins, one head and the other reverse, Gu Yuan couldn't help but wryly smiled.

There is no meaning set for heads and tails at all, and even if you throw it all, you will not get any results.

It seems that this trick is not a hundred-test-brain.

When he put away the coins, he caught a familiar figure out of the corner of his eye.

"Qingsi?"

"Um……?"

"Which road did you come from...is the teacher's office?"

Gu Yuan looked towards the way she came, the teacher's office building. Except for the school hospital on the first floor, there are all the teachers' offices of various subjects. This sentence is actually superfluous, and there is no need to say it at all, but I don't know why, Qing Si On the contrary, his expression was a little surprised, as if he didn't expect Gu Yuan to ask such a question, his eyes widened, his mouth opened slightly, but he nodded quickly.

"Ah."

"Oh?...Why? You look very bad, did you get told by some teacher?"

"Well, yes, I was told by Teacher Wu."

"Ah, is it because of the final exam?"

"Well, say I... didn't work hard enough."

"Really, you have already stabilized in the top five of the city's liberal arts, but you still want to say that you are not working hard enough, these people..."

Gu Yuan scolded softly. He also heard it from Chi Yu, saying that some teachers in the class paid special attention to the top few students recently, maybe because this was the first multi-city joint exam after the class was divided. , so there is a lot of pressure to achieve results.

——Speaking of which, why is Qing Si here.

Evening self-study is about to start, and only day students will come to the school gate to prepare to leave. He started day school again because his parents are going away again, and he needs to take care of the two beasts at home. In his memory, Liu Qingsi has always been She is a boarding student, but she can vaguely see the corner of the board with the boarding card on her collar.

"Qing Si, you too, commuting? When did you start? Didn't you live on campus all the time?"

"Recently, my parents also feel too much pressure, so they let me go home every day to relax."

"oh oh."

The two chatted as they walked.

"Literary Club, it's been a long time since we've had any activities."

"Well, yes, everyone is very busy recently."

"A few days ago, I heard from Qi Yu..."

"what?"

"You've been studying hard recently."

"..."

Seeing that he was silent, Qing Si laughed softly, her voice was soft and very soothing.

"It's not like you, who actually study hard."

"Hahaha... Am I usually that lazy?"

"It's not that you're lazy~ Did something happen to you? So hardworking all of a sudden?"

"No, it's the final exam after all, so you should work harder."

"Hmm...Okay, but we are friends. If you have any difficulties, please tell me." Qing Si looked at Gu Yuan worriedly, as if hesitating to speak, "After all..."

"After all what?"

"Gu Yuan."

"Um……?"

"If one day I'm gone, can you take everyone...to go down together?"

"..."

There seems to be a ghostly monster hidden in the wind, sucking up the sounds in the air one by one, leaving only the suffocating heat and breathing, as if coming from the deep abyss.

"..." Gu Yuan turned his head and frowned at Qing Si, "What nonsense are you talking about? Are you out of your mind?"

"No, I'm asking you seriously." Qing Si looked away and looked at the setting sun in the west. Her reaction was so flat, which made Gu Yuan even more uneasy.

"Wait... I don't understand at all, what is missing, what does it mean to take everyone down together, what do you mean?"

"Literally."

"No, you're not here? It's because of something. Are you going to quit the literature club? No, it's not that you're not here anymore. Could it be that you want...to transfer?"

Gu Yuan walked up to Qing Si first, stopped her, and leaned his back on the lamp post of the street lamp. It was obviously summer, but because it was in the shade, the lamp post was actually cold, and there were bursts of light coming through his coat. chill.

"Transfer...Maybe...Yes."

"You...you want to transfer schools too? Why?"

Qing Si raised her head and looked at him. Gu Yuan, who kept pressing questions on her, stared closely at her eyes, asking questions like a cannonball, even if she deliberately lowered her volume and softened her tone, she couldn't hide the words written on her face. Feeling anxious, he couldn't help laughing out loud.

"You idiot, why are you in such a hurry? I'm just a hypothesis, saying that if I'm gone, if, understand? It's a hypothesis, not that I really want to transfer schools."

"You're an idiot, right? If it's gone, where did you come up with such a disgusting question? You're about to enter the coffin, and the expression on your face, as if Liu Bei's Baidicheng Tuogu, is really scary..." Listen When she said in person that she didn't want to transfer, Gu Yuan breathed a sigh of relief and rolled her eyes, "Besides, the president is you, not me. I'm just a member of the club. If you're gone, how can you lead everyone to go on together?"

"So it's a hypothesis. Then, can you answer me?"

"...I don't know." Gu Yuan turned his head away from her, "Isn't everything pretty good now? Whether it's you, Qi Yu, Ziqiu, or Chen Yingjianglu, everyone has their own goals. They all have their own direction. They also gather together on fixed days to discuss and communicate. Didn’t they make an appointment to go to the beach together during the summer vacation? Isn’t it great that everyone is together? Even if it is hypothetical, there is no need to ask such questions Bar."

"That is to say... no?"

The two walked to the intersection, the green light instantly turned scarlet, Qingsi looked up, and saw the black electric wires cutting the city's orange sky into a strange look, and occasionally a flock of gray birds flew by, scratching the area. The endless dryness.

"I didn't say that."

Just when the loneliness in Qingsi's heart was about to rise unconsciously, suddenly a boy's voice came from next to her ear.

"If there is such a day, I will definitely keep everyone together." Gu Yuan turned his head to look at her, smiled softly, and the breeze blew up his bangs in a messy look, "Because, These are the things you hold dearest, the things you want to protect, right?"

"Huh? Do you remember..."

"This place will never forget things." Gu Yuan pointed to his temple and said, "I remember everything you said, without exception."

"Gu Yuan..." The corners of Qing Si's mouth curled up slightly, "Thank you."

"There's nothing to be thankful for. I haven't done anything yet. If one day I really do so many things for you, it won't be too late for you to thank me."

The boy smiled and shook his head. Then, he stepped out with his right foot, leaned his body, and walked into the traffic that had just stopped.

"...Gu Yuan!"

Liu Qingsi shouted, and the boy turned his head.

"See you tomorrow!"

Gu Yuan smiled and waved to her:

"See you tomorrow."

Facing the direction in which the boy was leaving, Qing Si slightly pursed her lips, her eyelids drooped slightly, her body seemed to have lost its support, her center of gravity tilted, and she leaned against the lamp post beside her.

If we can meet each other tomorrow, that would be a good ending, right?
What if... if not just if... if it's what's going to happen... then what?
——I am afraid of that result, no matter how I convince myself, I am still afraid of that result.

I can't sleep at night because of fear, and I feel dizzy because of fear.

I was so scared that I didn't do anything, and I couldn't do anything.

I don't know what will happen to everything, I hope that if... it will always be just an if.

About two weeks ago, Liu Qingsi had a chat with Chi Yu.

Although they are in the same class, or even in the front and back seats, in fact, the two of them have not formed a very close relationship. As for the reason, Qing Si naturally knows it well. As for Chi Yu, although the two have never mentioned it, Qing Si Si thinks she knows it too, or at least feels it.

Therefore, the two have maintained a close relationship for two years.

"Please, don't hurt him."

Thinking about it now, I can't help laughing, so the same lines in the novel can be said so easily.

"He is... in pain now. As a friend, I don't want to see him in... so much pain, so, please, don't hurt him..."

Chi Yu froze for a moment, then his eyes became blurred for a short while, and finally nodded slightly.

What was she thinking at that time?Qing Si didn't know, but at least after that day, Chi Yu and Gu Yuan returned to their previous appearance. They ate together, finished school together, and took a walk together. The boy also had a warm smile on his face again, and that was enough.

And at this moment, Chi Yu was standing at the school gate, looking at Gu Yuan and Liu Qingsi who had just separated, with fleeting complexities in her eyes, she clenched the shark pendant in her hand tightly and hard, as if to It's like rubbing it into the bone.

"It's not really up to me, is it?"

About the two questions that Gu Yuan wanted to know the most during his high school career but could not find the answer

——Why did Chi Yu suddenly reconcile with him?
——Why did Chi Yu suddenly become so decisive at the end?
This is the answer.

Simple and complex.

(End of this chapter)