After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

Chapter 713 707. Rather than that, it's better to lose you when you want to, it's still bearable.

All in all, I should be considered lucky.

Except for a certain period of time when it was difficult to fall asleep at night, I was accompanied by coffee and sleeping pills all day long, and even went to see a psychiatrist, and was cheated for a medical fee that was neither cheap nor expensive.

I think I should be much luckier than most people.

I am still self-aware about this, and there is nothing wrong with Yousha's words.

Whenever I am frustrated, there is always someone by my side.

However, I felt a sense of disobedience from Yousha's words.

why?

Why did she say that?

Obviously...

During my first year in this world, during the most important period when I was surrounded by loneliness and helplessness, she was always by my side.

Why, exclude yourself?
"Yousha...are you regretting it?"

I don't even understand why I am asking this question, but this unexpected sadness caught me off guard.

Her expression didn't move at all, didn't hesitate, didn't feel confused, as if she was talking about something that should be taken for granted, even a little too much for taking it for granted, instead it put me in jail.

"Not at all."

"........."

"Even today, up to this moment, my thoughts have not changed at all, let alone regret."

She turned her whole body to face me. The spring breeze at night was really disturbing. It kept playing with the hair on my forehead, blocking my sight. The girl in front of her seemed to be torn apart by vertical lines.

Her figure, her voice, everything about her seemed hazy.

The only thing I can confirm is that she is smiling sweetly and demurely.

"It was really great to be Kazuto-san's girlfriend at that time."

At this moment, it was as if something deep in my body was about to break out of the cage. It tore my body, gnawed at my thoughts, and everything around me exuded a sense of unreality that shocked me.

How should I describe this feeling? All the sad, painful and desperate words in the world are added together, and each word is an empty "black". A strange color described by "black".

My eyes are filled with this color.

I really... love Caiyin more than anyone else.

Her troubles, willfulness, savagery, cuteness, gentleness, everything is so different.

Without a doubt, I want to spend my whole life with that girl named Ayane Sakura.

Then my mood at this time must be false.

must……

must?
(Mogami Kazuto, do you really think so?)

……To shut up.

(Your "must", isn't it "must"?)
…………Shut up.

(Because I have to do this, I can only do this, otherwise "I" will not be able to face Caiyin, don't you think so?)

To shut up!

The things in the head seemed to be ruthlessly broken up by being stuffed into the broken machine, all the thoughts and emotions were mixed together, good things and bad things, repelling and merging regardless of each other.

It's disgusting to want to spit out all the internal organs.

"Heren-sang..."

In an instant, those things that bound me were suddenly annihilated, and her clear and calm voice was next to my ears, calling my name.

I turned my head mechanically, should I focus on her face, or just look ahead.

Yousha's figure looked increasingly blurred, as if it would drift away in the next second.

"It's very sad to lose you. I used to love you so much. This kind of mental state is extremely rare. I used to go crazy, twisted, and hurt my closest friend once.

That's why I changed, and in retrospect, you made the right choice then.

I don't want to get you by distorting and deforming it. Rather than that, it's better to lose you when I want to. This is always tolerable. "

Her face became a bit blurred again, and I gradually couldn't tell whether she was laughing or crying, or maybe she was just looking at me calmly, looking at this hateful man who hurt her to pieces.

"Yousha, I..."

"Heren-sang, please listen to me first."

"........."

"Maybe there will never be a chance to talk to you like this again in the future. After Kazuto-san and Neru-san get married, with my temperament, I will definitely not be alone with you again, so I want to take this opportunity to tell you everything in my heart." you.

Maybe it's because I no longer have feelings for you, so I can say it.

Like I said before, I kind of hate you now.

Hmm... so it's the same thing as the speech at the graduation ceremony at that time, Kazuto-san just needs to listen to me quietly.

At that time, Kazuto-san was not happy at all, not happy.

In fact, I saw it all, He Rensang cooperated with me and played the role of boyfriend. Even so, I still think it was the most memorable time in my life.

Even as time goes by, I gradually forget the temperature of your palm, those memories will not fade from my mind.

Kazuto-san is a person who is very afraid of being alone. With a noisy person like Neru-san by his side, he will be fine in the future.

I couldn't heal your loneliness, I couldn't erase your uneasiness, I just kept acting like a baby to you and asking you for it.

But Neru-san can do it, I sincerely hope that you can grow old together, I look forward to it from the bottom of my heart.

Please.

Must be happy. "

happiness?

Hmm, I must be the happiest man in the world when I'm with Caiyin.

(Yes, you are so lucky.)
(When you come to a strange world, you can gain comfort by hurting girls who are gentle to you, and you can get money, popularity, and enjoy the pleasure of being flattered without any effort.)
(Finally surrounded by the tears of the girls, we happily ushered in the perfect ending of tying the knot with a popular voice actor.)
(What a touching story.)
In the deepest part of my heart, there seems to be a dark vortex, like the temptation and slander from Jiuyou, devouring my reason bit by bit.

It's always been there, but I've always been blind to it.

One sleepless night after another, it dragged me into the icy whirlpool countless times.

I know.

Already knew.

"I've finished my words, huh... now I'm really in an extremely comfortable state, it seems that even the air is much sweeter."

I became able to see her expression clearly.

Hmm...she was crying.

There was no abnormality in the voice, and there was no change in the expression, but the liquid overflowed from the eye sockets and dripped silently, as if it was not her tears.

Incredibly, even so, my heart remained as hard as a rock.

"Yousha, you will meet someone who will make you happy in the future."

"I……?"

She looked at me in surprise, as if she had heard some extremely absurd words, but I remained fiercely silent.

"Heren-san, what are you talking about?"

The evening wind died down, and the girl stood peacefully in the distance, looking at me from a distance, and as she closed her eyes with a smile, the teardrops glistening with moonlight fell down like broken threads.

How long has it been since I have looked at her squarely and seen her smiling face?

"Heren-san, I have already been happy!"

"........."

"Thank you for choosing me. Then... goodbye."

I stood there relentlessly, feeling the trembling of my fingers.

Another 2 minutes.

After 2 minutes, Yousha will disappear at the corner in front, and I will not be able to see her back. In this way, the anxiety in my heart at this time will be smoothed away in one breath.

After going back, we chatted with our lovely fiancee, bathed each other, embraced and went to sleep, ushering in our tomorrow.

That's it.

That's fine...

however.

(Are you going to turn a blind eye again?)
(Now, there is still time.)
In the distance, Yousha's figure is about to disappear from my field of vision, staggeringly, the white icon below the field of vision is flashing a red light that I have never seen before.

(You see, she hasn't gone far.)
(You just go after her and hug her from behind.)
(The rest, your body will tell you what to do.)
(It's no big deal, it's so easy, hey, just take a step...)
My chest trembled like a rumbling, and my mouth was as dry as a desert rustling.

Stretching out the right foot in fear, with incredible lightness, followed by the left foot...

Suddenly, on this spring night in Tokyo, a gust of wind with the aroma of cherry blossoms hit.

The leaves of the trees on both sides are rustling, brushing my hair and pushing my back...

I ran towards her without hesitation.

"There is sand!!"

(End of this chapter)