Natural beauty, inspirational nature

Chapter 10
In order to get rid of this wrong marriage, after the training, I went to S City to find a job with a higher salary.In order to save money, I was introduced to rent in a "slum" in a poor environment in the suburbs of City S. It was a dilapidated old street that was said to be demolished and rebuilt soon. covered with moss.

I just started renting an attic room on the second floor of an old grandmother’s house. As soon as night fell, many old men and women ran to the open street and played mahjong directly on wooden tables. There were also some “little gangsters” who often Afterwards, I yelled and fought in the alleys. Since I moved there, I haven’t had a good day in which I can sleep peacefully, and I am often woken up by the yelling in the middle of the night.

During that time, he searched everywhere for my whereabouts, lingering like a ghost.He called me and asked me for my QQ password, but I didn't want to tell him, so he said, "Cheng Yifei, you have a ghost in your heart, right? Otherwise, what are you afraid of?" I said, "Can you stop being paranoid all day long?" Is it? I go to class here every day, what the hell can I have in mind?" I didn't want to quarrel with him, and in order to prove my innocence, I gave him the password in a fit of anger.

Unexpectedly, this guy took my password and logged into my account. After checking my friends of the opposite sex, he couldn't find anything "abnormal". That night, he sent a message to all my colleagues and friends in my QQ friends, saying that I A bunch of bad words made me a bad woman who had a "wild man" outside, abandoned her family, and was happy outside.Also changed my personal signature to "I am divorced".

When my colleague called me the next day and asked me what was going on, I was really mad at him. When I asked him why he wanted to spread rumors and spoofs, he suddenly answered me as if he had lost his memory: "My wife, don't be angry. Well, it’s my fault, I was wrong, I felt bad yesterday, and I don’t know what I’m talking about. I swear I won’t talk like this again.”

This is the legendary saying that you will be hit with a stick first, and then a date will be given to you.Every time I have done the most hurtful thing or said the most hurtful thing to me, and after I am extremely disappointed, I will quickly send a seemingly "very sincere" apology, but unfortunately I will never really repent.But a woman's heart is always too soft, especially for the person she still loves, and she has never been able to cut off her love in a timely and rational manner.

One day he suddenly sent me a message telling me that he was on that street right now and asked me where I lived.I was so scared that I sat up straight from the bed. I didn't reveal my whereabouts to him, and I really don't know how he found me.

But I asked myself how much I still had feelings for him at that time. He sent me a message and said: I am having a bad time, I miss you very much, I am cold and hungry outside, and I have nowhere to go.I was confused for a while, I don't know if it was because I was alone in that noisy old street, I was lonely and scared, or because I felt sorry for him who took so long to find me, and I wanted to "get back together" for a while, so I went out met him.

But it turns out that you can't turn back when you open the bow. Once you turn back, you must hurt yourself.

Because of soft hearts, we made up again, and we were "together" soon after the reconciliation, and he didn't take any protective measures and got me pregnant.The moment I found out that I was pregnant, I was conflicted in my heart. I like children, but on the other hand, I was also very worried. I was afraid that his temper would not change and he would get sick again. Making money cannot bear the responsibility of raising a family and raising children.

After pregnancy, I was in a very bad condition. Not long after I was pregnant, I had severe morning sickness and couldn't go to work.I had no choice but to leave that old street and return to my hometown to raise a baby.

At that time, he had just found a job in Shanghai. He hadn’t finished the first month and didn’t get a penny of salary. I called and told him that I was pregnant. He didn’t look happy at all, and complained about how he was there. How did it go wrong, I comforted him that there would always be a period of time to adapt at the beginning, and I asked him what plans do you have after the child is born, how will you distribute your salary?He babbled for a long time, saying that the probationary period was only four to five thousand wages, the rent had to be paid, and he had to use it himself, how could he have the money to take care of the children...

I said that when the child is born, we have to find a way to support it. If you are his father, you can’t ignore it. He didn’t listen to me, and insisted that it was difficult for him to survive in Shanghai and he couldn’t control the child.The implication is that even if I give birth to a child, he cannot be responsible for the child.

We quarreled on the phone, and I hung up the phone angrily, crying and crying until I lost all strength and collapsed on the floor.That phone call was like a fuse. All the things he had done to me in the past were like a movie, flashing before my eyes. I asked myself why I had to forgive this scum and have a child with him?

I don't think he loves me at all, he only has himself in his heart, it's fine if he doesn't have the slightest sense of responsibility for his wife, and he doesn't want to ask about the child. Do I want to give birth to this child, and let him accompany me in a world full of quarrels, always at any time? Crying in a violent family?I have mixed feelings in my heart, because I didn’t eat in the morning, I was a little hypoglycemic, and I felt like crying and fainting, so I stood up tremblingly, and wanted to go downstairs to buy something to eat, but when I went downstairs Feeling dizzy, stepping on a step, and falling on the stairs with the whole buttocks on the ground, the person also lost consciousness instantly...

When I woke up, I found myself lying on a hospital bed, and my mother sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me distressedly. I felt severe pain in my lower abdomen, and that's when I realized that I had a miscarriage.At that moment, the tears flowed down like a burst of water.

I said to my mother: "I won't go back on my word this time. I am determined to divorce him! He is a demon who will consume my youth and make me miserable every day. I don't want to live in a world of quarrels and violence." In the shadows, you can't come out for a lifetime."

My mother patted my head and said yes, I will send you to my aunt's house to recuperate for two days, you have a good rest and don't think about anything.

My mother probably expected that according to the temper of the Sun family, once she knew that the child was gone, she would definitely come to quarrel without asking any questions. Sure enough, when she was pregnant with the child, she called his parents, and his parents let out a hum , Lengbing did not respond at all, and did not say that he would come and see me.As soon as the child died, my mother said that it was as if the ancestors of the Sun family had "sent a letter", and no one in my family notified them. Suddenly, his parents rushed to my house spontaneously and spontaneously on the same day to ask for help.

My mother was not retired at the time, she was still teaching the graduating class, and she lived in the school dormitory for a long time, not at home.They ran to my mother's school, stood outside the dormitory door, swearing, slapping the stage and stool, yelling so much that the teachers and students in the whole school would know that I had killed the child.I don't know the specifics, I just heard from my mother afterwards.

Sun Yue and his family are like a nightmare in my life. This marriage only lasted less than half a year from running the wine to getting the license, from getting the license to my departure, but from the time I filed a lawsuit to the court to waiting The court session, from being repeatedly entangled to agreeing to reconciliation, from reconciliation to re-suing, the process was long and full of suffering, which lasted for two full years.

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