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Chapter 9 Encountering "Domestic Violence"

Today, more than 10 years later, if I knew myself more than 10 years ago, I would definitely slap myself hard and wake myself up.

How can I be so stupid?The heart of the Virgin is flooding, want to redeem a control freak and violence freak?Everyone loves me and persuades me to leave him, but I still foolishly insist on marrying him and getting a certificate from him?
At this moment, I record the past me, I wish I could turn back the time and wake up my past self.But God quickly made me realize the reality completely——

One day I was taking a shower and I didn't receive his call. He, who was used to checking the post and suddenly couldn't get through to my phone, went crazy, ran home and rushed into the bathroom, and punched me naked.

I staggered up from the bathtub and asked his parents for help in a panic. His parents came over and looked at me without any distress, and said with a straight face: "How did you make such a mess? You can't live a good life?"

After they finished talking, they were about to leave. I said, "Don't leave. If he beats me again, what will I do?"

His father said coldly: "You can figure it out yourself!"

I should have known this day would come.He has a very poetic screen name "Then Go Home" that reveals a touch of fear and boredom for his native family.I once asked him jokingly: Why did he call and then... go home again?Can't you go home right away?

He said that as long as he can remember, his parents have often quarreled and fought, so he doesn't like to stay at home.I have seen his mother and his sister quarrel with their own eyes. They scuffled and pulled each other's hair when they scolded and scolded. Just like that, regardless of the fact that my sister is a girl, half of her body is naked, and she drags her on the ground...
If you treat your loved ones like that, how can you know what respect and love are for me?His punch completely woke me up. What kind of parents bring up what kind of children, the way their family resolves conflicts is violence.And not long after I got married and got a certificate, he started to resign. I have been playing games at home for a long time, and when I asked him how his work was going, he always said that he couldn't find a satisfactory job.

After that, my "Holy Heart" woke up.

Because the unit I was working at was an e-commerce network company, the boss hoped that I would not only learn graphic design, but also learn some programming languages ​​for the background of the network since I first joined the company.So I decided to leave for a period of time and go to the center of "S City" to enroll in a computer programming refresher class and learn the Java language and HTML language.

I hope that each other can calm down and think about how to continue this marriage.When my mother found out about this, she came over by ferry from her hometown, rushed to our house, and kindly advised him: "Xiao Sun, otherwise, you should find a job first, and don't just stay at home, it's easy to think about it." Think about it, or you can go out with Feifei to receive further training. You are also majoring in computer science, and learning this is only good for you and not bad for you.” He asked whether the cost of his study would also be paid by our family, and my mother said, You will bear your own training expenses, and my mother-in-law cannot arrange all of them.

He was unwilling to accept my mother's suggestion. As soon as my mother finished speaking, he immediately got up in front of his parents and rushed to beat my mother, but was stopped by his parents.He cursed and took out the marriage certificate we had just obtained and tore it to pieces, cursing loudly: "The upper beam is not straight and the lower beam is crooked!"

My mother usually calls me and keeps telling me that the two quarreled. Both parties must be at fault. She also keeps advising me to marry a chicken and follow a chicken. Marry a dog and follow a dog. Now that I have received a certificate and married, I have to be more tolerant of each other's shortcomings. See After that scene, she cried, and said to me aggrievedly: "Why is the upper beam not right and the lower beam crooked? Is my family's intentions not right or something immoral? I wish him well, I hope you are well, and in the end it turned out to be A bad person? This child is really violent, and if he disagrees with him, he will beat someone like crazy."

She didn't fall asleep that night, and our mother and daughter talked all night long in the small room. My mother said to me: "Have you made up your mind? If you make up your mind, mother will support you. I didn't believe it before. I didn't see it with my own eyes." I see, this is the upper body of the devil, it's really a bit perverted! When you're in a good mood, you can coax you, and when you're in a bad mood, you can't wait to kill you. I don't want to see you suffer for the rest of your life..."

The next day my mother escorted me out of his house.

I went to S City to study, and he continued not to go to work, and he "sickened" from time to time, either calling me to scare me with harsh words, or calling my mother's mobile phone in the middle of the night, scolding my mother...

After I received that punch, there was a shadow in my heart, and I often had nightmares at night.A few days after leaving, I caught a cold and had a fever in the dormitory...
The conditions in the dormitory are very poor. The bed is the kind of iron bed for each person in a group of four. The sisters in the dormitory are very nice. Knowing that I am not used to sleeping on the upper bunk, they let me sleep on the lower bunk.In the hot summer, there is no air conditioner, and I have a fever and lie weakly on the bed alone, "holding sweat" and carrying it through.

I don't know how I survived that period of time. During the day, I forced myself to focus on my studies. After class, I studied how to program with my classmates. But in the dead of night, I felt lonely, helpless, painful and desperate. It all flooded my mind, making it hard for me to fall asleep.I myself understand that if there is no love in my heart, there will be no entanglement and pain.The reason why it is so uncomfortable is because I still love him in my heart.

First love wants to cut, it really hurts, it's hard...

(End of this chapter)